Chapter 378: Estranged Love
Everyone was stunned, and I was even more confused.
"Are you sure? Imperial Doctor Li, this matter is not trivial, you can't talk nonsense if you are not sure. I can't say it now, the king won't blame you, so make it clear. ”
In a hurry, I couldn't care about the joy and shyness that women were accustomed to when I "first heard", and I guided Li Hong's words in a big way.
Glancing at me with a slanted eye, Ying Zheng spoke as Li Hong spoke.
"Tian Xi was too nervous when he first encountered this, Li Hong, if you tell you about your ability to be a doctor, Mrs. Xi can be convinced of you."
Such words woke me up from my gaffe, and also rounded up the embarrassment and confusion caused by my impatient remarks.
"Back to the king, Mrs. Xi, the slave repeatedly confirmed Mrs. Xi's pulse, and only when there is such a matter can I dare to report it to the king and Mrs. Xi, please Mrs. Xi to recuperate well, and not to cause a recurrence of the disease again."
Although he noticed that I was not happy to hear that I was pregnant, Yingzheng still got up and gently pulled me to his side, waved everyone away, and he hugged me and put his forehead against my hair.
"You finally have a widow's child, the widow is really happy in his heart, thank you." As he spoke, there was a slight tremor in his voice.
The news of the worry was confirmed, listening to Ying Zheng's excited voice, I suddenly became very down-to-earth, and I was also moved beyond the original worry, and I wrapped my backhand around Ying Zheng's body, and I hugged him together.
It turns out to be a down-to-earth and sweet feeling. It is so beautiful and intense that it fills every cell in the body.
However, the joy of forgetting his feelings only lasted for two minutes, and Ying Zheng soon sounded the voice of words again, and the domineering in this voice was mixed with a lot of displeasure in his heart.
"Whether you are because Qi Guo is difficult to accept this sudden happy event. Or for Hu Hai to surprise the arrival of our child, the widow can not care, but after that, you have to protect him and her wholeheartedly) Thoughtful, the widow will not allow you to have any mistakes. ”
The look he just took at me was to see through the fact that I was resisting, right?!
"The widow does not allow the whole world to harm you, nor does he want you to use your brains in this matter. You can tell the widow anything. But you remember, you and the child, do not hesitate! ”
His voice began to grow fierce. The words are very serious.
He was worried that I would make a fuss about the child for the sake of Qi Guo or Hu Hai and other things, and it seems that he has always been unable to trust my detailed feelings and my first reaction when I heard the "child" made Yingzheng afraid of my next intentions for the child.
Joy turned to guilt, and I was chilled by the barrier between us, which was indelible. In any case, children are the most important composition of love in a woman's life, has my image in Ying Zheng's heart been blocked to the point where I can do anything?
This entanglement of love and defense is contradictory to the extreme, when will there be an end!
The moment the strength of the hug began to relax, my desire to hug him back was instantly replaced by the panic that my request was about to be frustrated, and I looked up anxiously and turned the strength of the circle into a request to speak, and I mentioned again the original intention of seeing him.
"Hu Hai—"
"Hu Hai." Before I could finish speaking, Yingzheng rejected my words of pleading again, saying, "Wait until this period of motherhood has passed." ”
I knew that the child's affairs would be hammered in the first place. Ying Zheng won't let me take care of Hu Hai, but if I don't even take care of Hu Hai, what can I do to remember Zhao Wu, whose cause of death is unknown?
What can I do to appease my own heart?
Seeing that I was worried and silent, Yingzheng took a step back and opened his mouth with a cold face: "The widow has made up his mind, you can take care of the child in your body with peace of mind." ”
He must have thought that I was unhappy and lonely. But where am I flirting with him, I stepped forward and chased after him. I grabbed his robe by the sleeve.
"The king is angry?" I held my head high and said pitifully: "Tian Xi is pregnant with a child for the king, does the king still want to be angry with Tian Xi?" ”
It's a happy thing to have a child, Yingzheng is looking forward to it, and I instantly feel a sense of solidity on the ground, and this rare joy and happiness can't be destroyed because of my own guilt being ruined.
Looking at Ying Zheng's still frozen face, I leaned forward a few more points and leaned against his body, continuing to show weakness and beg for mercy.
"The concubine is more than twenty years old to conceive such a child, I am really worried in my heart, I am afraid that I will not take good care of the king's grace, my lord, do you want to deal with Tian Xi about this panic?"
I snuggled up to his heart, arms firmly wrapped around his waist.
Ying Zheng moved his body slightly, I was afraid that he would distance himself, so he reluctantly tightened his strength, and he finally lost his temper by me, sighed, and laughed, which was considered to be a fire.
"I didn't withdraw you."
Hearing that he had lost his temper, I looked up at him and smiled slyly, dragged him to the place where he was sitting, and sat between his legs.
"It's good if the king is not angry, the slave concubine is most afraid that the king will be unhappy, and we will have a child in the future, the king can't scare the slave concubine and the child with a straight face."
Pinched my pouting face, Ying Zheng sighed, pulled my hand and held it in his hand.
"The widow has been looking forward to our children for a long time, and now you will realize the wish of the widow, this is a great achievement, and the widow should reward you well. What do you want other than supplements, utensils, and people? Why don't you get promoted? ”
He thought to himself and said it, and although he asked, he didn't give me the slightest time to reply.
As for the question of Jin Feng, I don't think I can accept it.
When Ji Juan was prosperous**, Ying Zheng was promoted to Ji Juan's position because she was pregnant, but the child fell into the well first before she landed, and although Ying Zheng did not get angry and failed to protect the child's position of Ji Juan, but the farce of being pregnant and getting promoted, Jin but not giving birth to a farce with a head and no tail, such as the incident can not be repeated.
"How can the king treat the slave concubine so kindly, the kindness is too great, the slave concubine is afraid that the prince will not be able to bear this extremely heavy grace, let's wait for the slave concubine to really give birth to the king and then be promoted to the title as usual." I smiled whimsily.
Wang Li said, only the wife who gave birth to a son can get the Jin Feng, I am now pregnant is not obvious, even look at the fetal belly can not see, how can I guess whether the child is male or female, calmly accept the Jin Feng, if there is any difference in the future, do I have to accept the glory of this moment at that time to hit the embarrassment of the face in the future?
At that time, when Ji Juan was grateful, the experienced grandmother had already seen the gender of the child from her pregnancy, and I only said that Yingzheng treated her so exceptionally because he loved Ji Juan, but after a long time, I slowly realized that Yingzheng gave Ji Wanrong **Houlu was not a single-minded thought, he showed his kindness because he showed the public treatment of the people of various places in the inner palace of the Qin State.
Now I'm here again, the same beginning, but I can't guess its intentions for a while.
Ying Zheng's eyes narrowed when he heard this.
"Why, are you afraid of the grace of the widow?" He asked with joy or sorrow.
My heart sank, knowing that Ying Zheng had lingering fears about the truth in my heart, and now, even the reward of Jin Feng had to be regarded as a temptation and question!
"The slave concubine is afraid, of course the slave concubine is afraid." I straightened my face, looked into his eyes, and said, "The king has crowned the title of slave concubine, but the slave concubine doesn't know what this pregnancy looks like, how can she not be afraid?"
If a son cannot be born peacefully in the future, will it be difficult for the king to become the king who has repeatedly made exceptions for a woman in the mouth of the world? The king may not care what others say, but the concubine does!
Your Majesty, you will soon be in charge of the original land of the Seven Kingdoms, and this huge world has finally settled down, if the hearts of those who are aroused by the slave concubine are unstable and quarrel again, how can the slave concubine be worthy of the king's favor?
Your Majesty, if someone provokes an incident and there is a war on all sides of Qindi, how do you want your concubines to face you, how to face the world, and how to live their own inner difficulties? ”
I felt aggrieved in my heart, and I said what was in my heart, but my eyes involuntarily turned red.
Ying Zheng, who was playing tricks to vent his anger, saw that I was so delicate, and let go of his stubbornness to show weakness to him, his face softened, and his tone softened.
"If you are going to be a concubine, do you still shed tears at every turn?"
He gently stroked my cheek, the coldness in his eyes dissipated, and he shot at me with a hidden pity.
"The slave concubine is going to be the mother of the king's son, does the king still have to be so domineering, not caring about the situation and mood of the slave concubine?" I reproach him faintly.
Hugging me into his arms, Yingzheng kneaded my shoulders and pressed his jaw against my forehead.
"The widow naturally knows what you think in your heart, and it is because you know it that it is difficult to give up love; Because it is difficult to give up, it will be so anxious. ”
Yes, how many times, well-intentioned love and compassion will become a burden on the favored, and those inseparable love will also evolve into unsolvable hatred when inexplicable.
One wants to make him famous at any cost; A person who wants to be arbitrary wants her to be safe and happy, and for the sake of him and her during this period, how much helpless affection has been aroused!
"The king has the responsibility and mission of the king, not only the husband of a slave and concubine, but also the savior of the peace and tranquility of the people of the seven kingdoms. If you abandon the world for the selfish desires of the two of us, wouldn't you be on par with the Shang King and the like who were confused by Su Daji at the beginning? ”
I said things very strictly, and I also compared Ying Zheng to a very unbearable one, because I knew that if I said it inconsequentially, Ying Zheng would not go to my heart, and no matter how I hurt him, he would not blame me.
Those who are loved are fearless, I once again realized the mystery of this sentence, and the last time I felt it deeply, it was in front of Lin Jixiang...
Seeing that I was lost in thought again, Ying Zheng's hand on my shoulder shocked me hard, and when he met my puzzled gaze, he pressed his thumb to my lips with pity. (To be continued.)