Putting down the phone, Shui Xiaolin's tears burst out of her eyes.

Now it is no longer a question of whether to diagnose or not to diagnose. Wu Weidong made it very clear on the phone that according to the preliminary examination done further in the provincial hospital, the conclusion of the consultation has been very clear and has been transferred!

Next, Shui Xiaolin, whose brain was already messed up, couldn't listen to it anymore!

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On the afternoon of the first day of going to the provincial capital, Wu Weidong, who had been thinking twice, still felt that he should tell Shui Xiaolin about Qiu Zichuan's condition. After graduating from university, Wu Weidong came to work in Binshui City with Shui Xiaolin almost at the same time, and Qiu Zichuan also came later, after all, the three of them have always had a friendship beyond ordinary people. Of course, what is more important is that she Shui Xiaolin and Qiu Zichuan still have this unforgettable first love relationship. As for Wen Qing, she can let it go first, and at such a time, Shui Xiaolin must tell her!

At that time, Shui Xiaolin was stunned! It's just that Wu Weidong comforted her that she had to go to the provincial hospital for further examination and consultation, and told her not to talk about this matter with Qiu Zichuan for the time being, and wait for the results of the consultation to come out.

Shui Xiaolin agreed, and at the same time asked Qiu Zichuan if he knew. Wu Weidong told Shui Xiaolin that he talked to Qiu Zichuan the morning before New Year's Day, and Qiu Zichuan was very calm after learning about his condition!

The day before New Year's Day!

Shui Xiaolin understood! No wonder he Qiu Zichuan promised to go to the March River so happily that day, it turned out that he Qiu Zichuan wanted to take another look at the March River after learning about his condition! And he happened to want to go, so he just got what he wanted.

That afternoon, one night, Shui Xiaolin was deeply blaming herself!

If he knew that this was the case, why did he still talk about those idle things, and even more so that Bai Xiaohua was his aunt. Why can't I walk with him by the river, talk well, if he is willing to reminisce about the past, then accompany him to reminisce, but what did he do that day!

What's more, since the first love broke up, even if they reunited later, although they have also been to the March River together, although they have also had memories together, they are either complaining or regretting! Why can't we just take a good walk together with warmth!

Qiu Zichuan, under such circumstances, first thought of going to the March River, and first thought of the place of his first love, which shows how heavy that first love is in his heart! Moreover, he had already seen in his heart that his days were short! What kind of mood is that?

What a bastard!

Shui Xiaolin reprimanded herself deeply in her heart, but at the same time, she thought that this was probably the last time she and Qiu Zichuan went to the March River together, and she let it pass meaninglessly!

Why can't I accompany him well, so that when he is about to come to the end of his life, he will remember the beauty of the emotion that he has always regarded as life!

Also, Qiu Zichuan! You bastard! Why couldn't you tell me then?

I've spent almost my whole life tormenting that initial emotion, no matter how much you scold! Regardless of your taunts! No matter how disdainful you are all the time, I will laugh! Why? Because as long as I can be with you, I can feel a kind of warmth, a kind of tenderness! It's not just because I left heartlessly! And my regret for my life, and the loneliness and emptiness in this regret!

Yes, Shui Xiaolin has always admitted in her heart that since Xiao Yujiang's image as a lover died in her heart, Qiu Zichuan after the reunion has become the pillar of her spiritual world. No matter how empty your life is and how lonely your soul is, at least, there is a man in this city who is your first love!

OK!

Shui Xiaolin in regret still has a trace of happiness! Fortunately, I have been trying hard to control myself that day, and I have never said the unspeakable thing that has been pressing on my heart!

Otherwise, Shui Xiaolin really didn't dare to think about the next result!

Also, if Qiu Zichuan is really absent one day, in this city, in his future life journey, how will he live!

For a few days, apprehension, worry, and panic filled Shui Xiaolin's heart.

And today, Wu Weidong's call from the provincial capital made Shui Xiaolin feel a terrible despair all of a sudden!

Although, Qiu Zichuan has always firmly adhered to the distance from himself, but at least, as long as he is there, as long as he is still in this city, he can think about it and talk about it! And, no matter how much disdain he had for what he said, it was still a kind of care! It's just a disappointment and resentment in my Shui Xiaolin's life!

And what about after that?

Shui Xiaolin suddenly felt a burst of coldness and darkness in her heart, accompanied by an indescribable depression!

Look at it, it's not time to get off work yet, but Shui Xiaolin really can't stay in the office anymore! At this time, Shui Xiaolin really wanted to cry, but she didn't know whether to cry herself or Qiu Zichuan!

Shui Xiaolin, who drove away from the academy, drove endlessly on the outer ring road, she didn't want to go home, she didn't want to talk to anyone, and she didn't want to stop the car.

All she wanted was the car to keep moving forward, and the trees on both sides of the road kept flashing backwards. is accompanied by the past scenes appearing in my mind one by one.

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By the beautiful March River, the boy who reads a book......

In order to protect himself, he is not afraid of rape......

Seeing that he was about to fall off the cliff, he flew without hesitation......

Also, when I write that I want to hold my hand when I die, I look at my own determined eyes......

Also, for the sake of integrity, he shyly but never hesitated to reject the greenness of his love thing......

What's more, the heroic posture when he came to reunite with himself with him with solid steps of life......

And, his atmosphere! His perseverance! His openness! His persistence!

What's more, he is about to have a brighter life!

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Oh my! You're not fair!

Thinking of this, Shui Xiaolin suddenly leaned the car to the side of the road, stopped with one foot on the brake, and as soon as the gear was picked up, she hugged the steering wheel and cried!

Qiu Zichuan is terminally ill, Qiu Zichuan will die soon, and he will be alone in the dust of the years! At this time, Shui Xiaolin felt that her heart was empty, and all the past grievances and grievances in her brain were gone!

And at this time, Shui Xiaolin really discovered that once Qiu Zichuan is no longer in this world, all his life and all his life will be colorless in an instant!

Although she broke up with Qiu Zichuan at the beginning, whether she married her ex-husband at the beginning or later married Xiao Yujiang, at this moment, Shui Xiaolin felt more deeply that in her heart, Qiu Zichuan's status could not be replaced by anyone!

Qiu Zichuan is terminally ill! Maybe one day Qiu Zichuan will leave this world! Shui Xiaolin didn't know who to complain about at this time! Where to go and who to talk to!

Shui Xiaolin continued to hold the steering wheel and cry!

can't lose Qiu Zichuan, he can't live without Qiu Zichuan in his own world, even if he will never ignore himself, even if he will always hate himself, even if he will always look at himself with disdain! But as long as he lives!

In the pain, Shui Xiaolin also found that she had never felt so trembling in her heart at this moment like today! Emotions are so tormented!

Yes! In the depths of his soul, in his truest emotional world, what he really loves, which no one can ever replace, and who can never be erased even with the passage of time, is still only him Qiu Zichuan!

and Qu Mengmeng, at this moment, she will never complain about her, no matter what the relationship between her and Xiao Yujiang is, and how deep it is, she will no longer complain about her! That's fate! This is the fate of himself and Qiu Zichuan!

Everything is its own sin! Everything is providential! Everything is God's punishment for himself! I don't complain about all this! But why did God do this to Qiu Zichuan!

My first love, my teenager! My Qiu Zichuan!

Shui Xiaolin couldn't imagine how fate could be so unfair to Qiu Zichuan! So cruel!

In the midst of crying, Shui Xiaolin raised her hand from time to time and slammed the steering wheel, the seat, and the dashboard!

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Twilight had begun to fall, and Shui Xiaolin, who had suppressed her crying, leaned back on the back of her chair like a dementia, her body motionless as if frozen. Then he started the car again, and began to drive forward slowly. When it was completely dark, Shui Xiaolin still slowly drove the car on the outer ring road.

Shui Xiaolin doesn't want to go home!

Shui Xiaolin even thought that this would be the most eager to find a boundless wilderness, and Shui Xiaolin wanted to cry loudly! Even louder shouting! Cry out loud and say the true love in your heart! Shout out loud your deep remorse!

0202 The intersection to the academy has appeared twice, and when the intersection to the academy appears for the third time, a thought appeared in Shui Xiaolin's heart:

0202 I'm going to the provincial capital, I'll go tomorrow!

I want to see Qiu Zichuan, and I want to tell him that there is nothing to be afraid of this illness in front of you Qiu Zichuan! Qiu Zichuan, you have to show courage! You have to show the courage to fight for me by the March River, no matter what kind of strong opponent you face, you Qiu Zichuan have always been fearless!

Right! I want to say to Qiu Zichuan, there is never anything to be afraid of in front of you, why? Because you are Qiu Zichuan! Because you are my Qiu Zichuan! That handsome young man Qiu Zichuan who looked down on everything by the river in March!

In addition, the library of the college is preparing to expand, and a report has been sent to the provincial department to apply for special funds, which is the responsibility of himself and the vice president in charge of logistics. Also, some time ago, in order to pass the time, Wen Qing persuaded himself to re-do a project that he had done in the department in the past, and he had also made a funding report to the provincial department. It just so happened that he used these two reasons to live in the provincial capital for a few days, so that he could help Qu Mengmeng take care of Qiu Zichuan.

Yes, I haven't told Wen Qing yet.

Wu Weidong just said on the phone that he wanted to tell Wen Qing, after all, the four people in this waterfront are different from other people's classmates, how can such a thing not be told to Wen Qing!

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