I didn't go straight home, but went to the hospital to see Bai Bingbing first, so I could ask her what she wanted to have for breakfast tomorrow morning. Since Bai Bingbing stayed in the hospital, because she didn't like the food in the canteen of the hospital, she would rather ask me to go to the food stalls on the street to buy food than eat in the hospital, so I had to ask her.

At the same time, it is also necessary to show your face in front of her. Otherwise, one day in the future, her mother Lianxin said that she met me in the supermarket today to help others buy toilet napkins, and Bai Bingbing remembered that this day, she had never seen me from morning to night, so she couldn't explain it clearly.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was about to push the door into the ward, and when I looked up, I found Pan Guoqing sitting on the chair next to Bai Bingbing's bed, talking and laughing.

Since I said that I would compete with Pan Guoqing fairly, and he arrived in Bai Bingbing's ward early tonight, I silently found a chair leaning against a very corner in the corridor of the medical department and sat down. I have done such a generous and polite behavior, so sometimes I can't help but have the words of Fang Ya in my heart!

"Actually, what I want to ask is if you really love Bai Bingbing? It's to think in your heart that she is the one you are looking for in this life and this life! ”

According to normal habits, when I saw Pan Guoqing in Bai Bingbing's ward, I didn't say that I would immediately go in to make trouble, dismantle the stage, or something. Even if you politely walk in and say to Pan Guoqing, are you here? It's a coincidence to talk like that. Then find a chair and sit in front of Bai Bingbing, gossiping about things and talking about things, and you can't let the time be exclusive to Pan Guoqing.

But I sat out almost consciously and without jealousy, waiting for Pan Guoqing to come out of Bai Bingbing's hospital room before it was my turn to go in. I found that the competition between me and a civilization like Pan Guoqing was not like coming to see patients, but to see doctors.

In the quiet aisle, I felt a little empty and lonely, how many times I wanted to pick up the phone and call Fang Ya, but in the end I gave up. Although I have always encouraged myself in my heart to say that you just asked her how she talked with the investor, and it did not involve personal feelings, but I just didn't dare to call.

This is so unreasonable, at this moment, I am sitting in the aisle where Bai Bingbing is staying in the hospital, I am here to visit Bai Bingbing, what's the matter, I have to be single-minded, right? What's more, how long have I been away from Fangya? I can't wait to call Fangya, that's too much. Moreover, maybe now Fang Ya is talking to the investor Chen Zhijun, and I made a phone call, wouldn't it disrupt the atmosphere!

But what if, what if...... What if that Chen Zhijun is the same as Cao Jie, who is uneasy and kind under the banner of investment? I called Fang Ya at this time, and it was possible that I helped Fang Ya a lot. To fight or not to fight? I took out the phone and played with it in the palm of my hand, but I didn't actually call Fangya.

I forced myself not to think cranky, I need to calm down for a while, Bai Bingbing is in the ward less than a few dozen meters away from me, perhaps, she is talking with Pan Guoqing at the moment, but they have this convenient condition, objectively they still give it to them. As for the subjective, alas, I don't know how to put it......

If Pan Guoqing impressed Bai Bingbing tonight, I asked myself, would I be jealous? Or secretly congratulate them? I have discovered that man is an animal with complex feelings and feelings. In certain circumstances, it is possible for people to become very single-minded and unique.

However, don't let this lead you assuming that this is a person's ultimate choice and commitment. In the case that the environment and conditions remain the same, that uniqueness may be observed. However, when the environment and conditions changed, just like Yi Ting and I did; Just like Tang Yanxin and I followed, how we were separated, there is still no clear conclusion.

As I write this, I find that I am more profound than Rousseau, and certainly not as profound as him. But in terms of the authenticity of human feelings, and the fragility of feelings, and of course, the complexity and diversity of feelings, I still write boldly. We are in a noisy commodity economy society, and the flood and temptation of material things have made us unable to calmly deal with the temptations of society, so it is difficult for our society to maintain such characters and spiritual worlds as teenagers.

However, this is not to say that people living in a commodity economy do not have emotional norms. Relatively speaking, it's not so delicate, it's not so dead-hearted! The pursuit of materialism, as well as the temptation of materialism, often makes people uncertain. Coupled with the diversification of interests and hobbies brought about by social development, people no longer rely mainly on books in the process of absorbing spiritual nutrients.

For example, the bombardment of information and the multi-angle nature of indoctrination have made the spiritual world of modern people no longer depressed by the delicacy and fantasy of feelings, but more involved in the material, so that vulgar, material, and comparative views naturally occupy people's minds, so very pure and real feelings have become a kind of naïve ......

So, I don't even know how to evaluate myself about my emotional microwaves! In short, I can feel the wavering in my mind! I'm actually very materialistic, and I can't resist the temptation of the opposite sex. So much so that as soon as I close my eyes, the fragrant fat and bumpy will appear in my mind. I want Fangya's whole body, and I want Fangya's qiē. You can't get rid of it!

In this way, am I going to abandon Bai Bingbing and throw myself into Fang Ya's arms? Neither is it. It's just that at this moment, I am sitting in the hospital where Bai Bingbing is staying, but my mind is full of Fang Ya's shadow, some people toss and turn, when I think of Fang Ya will be thrown into the arms of others, I have infinite melancholy, infinite loss!

I sat quietly in the rest chair at the end of the medical department, holding my head alone, but my eyes were blank and I didn't know what I was looking at. Suddenly, I heard a hearty laughter of men and women in the ward where Bai Bingbing was hospitalized. I couldn't help but get up from the chair, tiptoed to the door of the ward where Bai Bingbing lived, and looked in from the small glass window, yes, Pan Guoqing and Bai Bingbing were like the same pair of lovers, smiling so happily and so sweetly!

Depend on? Got it wrong? In the end, am I your Bai Bingbing's boyfriend, or is Pan Guoqing your boyfriend? I couldn't help but want to reach out and push the door open, but my hand stopped in mid-air! A thought quickly crossed my mind, since they were so harmonious and so talkative. Seeing Bai Bingbing's happy appearance, it seems that she has returned to the era of a girl, and there is no painful expression of the patient at all, so why should I ruin this rare moment!

I withdrew my outstretched hand and stepped back slowly, gently. I walked up to the elevator door and pressed the wait button. Soon, I was out on the street, blowing in the night breeze, reaching into my trouser pocket and taking out a cigarette and taking a hard puff against the night breeze. Then, the smoke came out of my mouth.

So I walked aimlessly......

That night, Fang Ya returned to the rented room in a depressed mood because she asked Chen Zhijun not to see her, and after taking a casual show, she went to bed and fell asleep. But how could she sleep? Mortals are like this, when you have a lot of things on your mind and you can't achieve your goal, although you want to forget about it on the surface, it backfires.

Fang Ya fell on the bed, she only thought about sleeping with Meng Da, but she couldn't sleep when she thought of her tossing and turning. After a while, I remembered that during the day, her aunt came, and I bought sanitary napkins for her, and then somehow she pulled it out and talked about her liking me, and took the opportunity to hint at confession.

After a while, she remembered the investor Chen Zhijun again, this guy has always been a joker when he sees me, and he actually flew me up tonight, and even his face was gone, so she didn't know how to explain to Brother Yi! Fang Ya thought, you Chen Zhijun, don't think that having two stinky money is great! In the future, don't see me in public places, and you will have soft legs!

The rest of the night was thinking about this, and Fang Ya's mind was a mess. Suddenly, I heard the sound of rustling in the private room opposite the bedroom. Fang Ya was very strange at the time, she clearly remembered that she lived opposite a girl who looked like she should be born in the nineties, she had met her when she rented a house, her figure was okay, her appearance was okay, she looked relatively simple, she should be the kind of little girl who worked and lived in peace, but tonight she somehow came out of her room with this kind of heart-warming sound! Hey, Fang Ya couldn't help but sigh, the current post-90s generation is getting more and more crazy.

As time went on, the voice of the girl in the private room opposite became more and more trembling, and the irrepressible scream became louder and louder. Because it was late at night, almost everyone was asleep, and the atmosphere was particularly peaceful, however, a burst of rapid screams shattered the silence in the room.

Fangya's sleepiness was disturbed by the sudden muttering, and she was so angry that she smashed her fist against the stiff wall. This smash had some effect, only to hear that there was suddenly no sound in the private room opposite. However, it was not long before the scream came again, and it was more violent than before. According to her judgment, this kind of crying is expected to last for a long time, and it is only the initial stage now, if it will be rectified later...... Damn, why are some girls so open now? Isn't it okay to be a little more convergent?

Sleepy, Fang Ya sat up from the bed, she even wanted to knock on the door of the private room opposite, but it always felt that it was too abrupt. Besides, she doesn't have the right to interfere in other people's lives! People live in their own rooms, they can do whatever they want, why should they ask others?

Hey, she lay down again, thinking that isn't this what the two of them live together for, not to mention that they are boyfriend and girlfriend. Besides, isn't this kind of thing after I drank up with Xian Yi before? In comparison, she felt that she was more excessive in a certain way, at least the people in the opposite room were boyfriend and girlfriend, and Fang Ya and Brother Yi were just because they were too drunk, so it could be said that they were not even friends with each other! Otherwise, my confession today would not have been answered at all!

At this time, I somehow wandered downstairs to Fang Ya and made an inexplicable phone call to Fang Ya!