Chapter 143: Nightmare
Li Xin was shocked by Xiao Hong's words, as if the thunder was rolling in, and it blew her up all of a sudden.
It turns out that a qiē is fake, friendship is fake, and love is fake, so what else is real? No, it's all fake, Xiao Luoyan and Xiao Hong are the two biggest liars at all, no, it shouldn't be said that they are liars, scammers cheat money and things, but they don't cheat feelings.
It seems that in an instant, all the qiē has been explained, where in the world there are so many coincidences, how can a qiē be so smooth.
Maybe the initial meeting between her and Xiao Hong may not have been arranged by Xiao Hong, but many things in the back were arranged by Xiao Hong! always gave her and Xiao Luoyan a chance to foresee, and when she saw Xiao Luoyan again, she asked Xiao Hong if Xiao Luoyan had a girlfriend. Xiao Hong said no, and asked her if she had taken a fancy to Xiao Luoyan, and at that time, she nodded.
The next qiē is all a conspiracy! No wonder Xiao Luoyan always knows her preferences, always knows how to please her, she and Xiao Hong are friends who talk about everything, and Xiao Hong naturally knows many of her preferences.
It's a pity that she was so stupid, she never suspected anything. Some people say that a woman in love has an IQ of zero, so she suddenly feels that her IQ is afraid of being negative! Otherwise, it won't make people play around, and they won't notice anything.
"We deceive people like this, what more do you want in return! Enough, that's the end of the matter, I don't want to hurt her anymore. Xiao Luoyan stopped Xiao Hong's chatter.
"Don't want to hurt her? What are you at a moment? Are you really doing a fake show, you really like her. Xiao Hong became even more hysterical. The sound is really not small, and I don't worry about others hearing it at all. That's right, there's nothing to worry about, everyone is on vacation, and there are few people in the whole building. Even if someone hears it, it's not a big deal, in college, there are many such couples quarreling, and they can be seen everywhere, and no one cares.
"You're really unreasonable, don't be unreasonable anymore, okay? I'll go first, you can be quiet! ”
"Don't go, don't think about leaving if you don't make your words clear."
"Crazy, you're crazy."
The door was suddenly opened, and Li Xin stood outside the door in a daze, looking at Xiao Luoyan and Xiao Hong who were surprised in the door.
"Why are you here?" After a long time, the two people in the door came back to their senses, and Xiao Luoyan said with some confusion.
"Xiao Xin is here! Come in and sit! When she came back to her senses, Xiao Hong smiled and pulled Li Xin in, as if nothing had happened. Have you just been here or have you been here for a while? Why don't you knock on the door! ”
"I've been here for a while, and I didn't knock when I heard you guys arguing." Li Xin sneered, his heart was so cold, it had never been cold, as if he had dug out his heart alive and buried it in the Antarctic glacier, which made people tremble. The heart hurts, it turns out that the heart really hurts!
Modern science has proved that people think with their brains, and they have nothing to do with the heart. She thought that since her heart couldn't think, it shouldn't hurt. It turns out that a qiē is a deception, and even knowledge can deceive people.
"You heard it all!"
"Yes! I'm sorry to hear it all! I eavesdropped on you, and you can't lower the decibels! I'm afraid that the whole building is still there! Li Xin laughed, at this moment, she really wanted to laugh and scream, but she couldn't. In front of people who don't care about themselves, the more they show weakness, the more humiliating they will be. Showing weakness, crying, and crying are all only useful to those who care about themselves, and are of no use to other people.
"Xiao Xin......"
"You don't have to say anything. I have nothing to say to you, from now on, we have nothing to do with each other, don't let me see you again. Li Xin interrupted Xiao Hong's words. Luo Yan, I have something to say to you, let's go outside and talk about it! She walked out.
This room really made her very depressed and annoying, and she really didn't want to stay here for a moment.
After that, she and Xiao Luoyan walked silently all the way, she didn't speak, he didn't speak. There was an inexplicable eerie atmosphere in the atmosphere. Walking all the way, before I knew it, the two of them had already walked to the playground. The playground was empty either, and it was empty. There are large fields of Kanesan cherry blossoms on the edge of the playground, which bloom best at this time. Vast expanses of red, like red clouds, stained most of the sky red.
It is a kind of cherry blossom that blooms very red, and when the flowers bloom, the mountains are red all over the field, and they are amazingly beautiful. When the flowers wither, they will also bear a lot of fruit, and when they are ripe, they are very beautiful, red and gorgeous, and the bright red of the trees exudes infinite charm and is tempting to taste. However, the taste is not very good, and if you eat too much, you will get dizzy, so the local old man said that it is not edible.
The cherries that can be eaten are pure white when they bloom, and the fruits are not so red and beautiful.
"We broke up." She suddenly turned to look at Xiao Luoyan.
"Xiaoxin, I want to explain it to you."
"There's no need for that, I already know everything I should know, and if you explain anything, it's just your quibble! Now that it's on this one, if you admit it well, I can still afford you more, and you still have to quibble, which will only make me despise you more. Is it really that much fun to lie to me? She smiled wryly. What did she do to them in her previous life, so that she will have the retribution now? Or is she a bad year?
At this moment, she felt that the person in front of her was so hateful, and she didn't know what she liked about him in the first place.
"Xiaoxin, I ......"
"You really don't need to say anything, you know? I once told myself that if someone betrayed me, I would pull out his heart with my own hands. But now I don't want to, because doing so will only dirty my hands and bury my own life. We have officially broken up now, and after that, there will be no relationship again. I don't want to see you again in this life. With that, she departed.
It's not that the heart is not painful, and the feelings that I carefully care for end up like this. It was really a heart-rending pain, as if the torture of ice and fire was ninefold, the piercing bones of ice, and the burning of fire were all in one. How many blood beads are in the palm of her hand to make her so decisive.
However, it didn't take long for her to hear from him again. In fact, it was only the next day, and the news of him had already spread, and that night, he was drunk driving and died. Later, she went to see him, in the hospital's many morgues.
In fact, she didn't see his face anymore, because the white cloth on his body covered his head and face. His parents cried in front of the bed, and on the side, she also saw Xiao Hong.
The moment she knew about his death, she actually knew that she didn't hate him that much, or even if she did, she never thought she really wanted him to die. He died, and also took away her ability to love people. Later, it wasn't that no one chased her, and there were many excellent people among them, but she couldn't learn to love anymore.
Some accidents can really make people's instincts disappear because of this.
In the morgue, in fact, she never cried, her tears had long since dried up, and she could no longer flow. For a moment, she really thought that he was a liar, maybe even death was a liar, maybe one day, somewhere, he suddenly appeared, with bright eyes and a smile.
She stood there stunned, as if the whole world had disappeared, and she was the only one left in the whole world. She could see Xiao Hong yelling at her, but she couldn't hear it, not at all. All she saw was the beautiful face, twisted and hideous, like a blue-faced and fanged goblin.
In fact, she really wanted to ask him if he really never loved her. However, when he was there, she could not ask, and after that, she could no longer get an answer from his mouth.
After that, for a long time, she desperately recalled those days with him, desperately recalled his face, over and over again, countless times, like a movie picture, dangling in front of her eyes. Because someone sued her, if you want to really forget and let go, then desperately recall, over and over again, until you remember it, there will never be any waves in your heart, then you really let go.
It's like being afraid of something, then think about it desperately, and when you think about it, you don't feel scared anymore, then you are really not afraid.
It seemed to work, and for a long time afterward, she wouldn't think of him, and then she lived a peaceful life on her own. Occasionally, when I think of such a passer-by in my life, it is just a sigh, and there are not too many waves.
But she still didn't really forget it, he carved it into her bone marrow, and she couldn't expel his influence on her. He is the nightmare of her life, and occasionally she dreams back at midnight, and she can't really be at peace. Or many things, the so-called forgetting and letting go, are just the illusion of her self-deception.
She woke up suddenly, and it was already dawn. She rubbed her head and struggled to sit up from the bed, the scene of last night was clear in her mind, it seemed that she had really drunk too much, and she was actually drunk!
It's just a dream! However, such a clear qiē told her that it was not just a dream, but a story that she had personally experienced in her previous life. It turns out that after all this time, is she still haunted? How can he be like a wronged soul, always pestering her!
Xiao Luoyan, I will never forgive you.
I have never regretted it, even if I once believed in you blindfolded, even if I was pierced by ten thousand arrows, I have no regrets. But remember! After the hurt, there is no forgiveness.
She struggled to get out of bed, her head still hurt a lot, and in the future, she really couldn't drink so much anymore. Wine really isn't a good thing. R1152