Chapter 190: Let Me Go
Chan'er shook her head, no, that's not what you want to do.
Don't say that now you are already riding a tiger, even if this is not the case, can I really say to you that I want you to let go of everything and leave with me? Even if I really say it, you and I are really gone, so what about Ling Huan? She married you, and she can only be your person in this life, what do you want her to do?
And the general, he is my father-in-law, but I took you away, what should he do?
There are also Sister Zixi and Brother Yiruo, Liang Ping, Ruqing, Xia Lan, Bilian, and many innocent people in this Lanyue Pavilion, what should they do? We ran away, and that would hurt them!
"Ah Ye, you let me go, give me a letter of resignation, or just kick me out of the palace, I just ask you to let me go."
Situ Ye looked at Chan'er's eyes, her eyes were clear and bright, and he knew that she was serious.
But he couldn't let her go, he couldn't!
"Impossible!" Situ Ye gritted his teeth and said word by word: "Impossible!" â
He suddenly turned around and walked to the door, but before opening the door, he said, "Chan'er, I like you, always." Once I thought about wanting to be with you, the two of us were at ease, but you refused, it was you who chose this path, and let me go on this road to this day, you want to leave, impossible, I won't allow it, I want you to stay with me, until I die. â
After a pause, the tone became more firm, "No matter what method I use, I will keep you, even if you will hate me and resent me." I'm going to do the same! Because I can't live without you! â
After speaking, Situ Ye turned around and went out, "Ruqing go and call all the people in Lanyue Pavilion to me!" â
Ruqing, who listened to Situ Ye's instructions and went to call people, also acted quickly, she knew what had changed between Chan'er and Situ Ye, if she delayed any longer, it would only make it more difficult for Chan'er, after all, she was the person close to Chan'er.
Soon the people in the Lanyue Pavilion gathered in the warm pavilion in the west chamber, Situ Ye glanced at it, except for the people in the main house, they were all here.
"Very good, from today onwards, Concubine Chan will be confined to Lanyue Pavilion. If anyone dares to let her out? I will let this person die without a place to be buried, if you let Concubine Chan encounter any danger, or if something happens to her, I will definitely kill the entire Lanyue Pavilion. Funeral for her! â
Situ Ye's volume was very high. He deliberately said this in the West Chamber. He just wanted Chan'er in the house to hear, he knew that Chan'er was a kind person, and she would not let so many innocent people in Lanyue Pavilion die for her.
Chan'er was in the house in a daze. Listening to Situ Ye's words, he smiled sadly.
If you don't believe me, why do you have to keep me? Do I want to have a long pain that is better than a short pain, but instead it has become a knife and a water cut-off?
After the order, let everyone go down, Situ Ye stood in front of Chan'er's door and hesitated, he didn't know if he should go in.
Don't you go in? But he was still worried about Chan'er, he wanted to see Chan'er, he wanted to comfort her, he wanted to talk to her and explain well, but he also knew that at this time, they couldn't talk and explain well.
Can I go in? He didn't dare, he was afraid to see Chan'er's resentful gaze when she looked at him, or Chan'er's cold eyes to him like a stranger, and he was even more afraid to hear Chan'er say something that made him even more afraid.
It was only today that he realized that he had the words and things he feared the most. The words he was most afraid of were none other than Chan'er saying, let her leave and let her cut off relations with him! The most feared thing is not to have her around!
He doesn't know what he likes Chan'er, in short, he just likes her inexplicably, he likes it so much that he can do such crazy things for her without himself, just to keep her!
In the end, Situ Ye decided to go in and have a look, he was really worried about Chan'er.
When he pushed open the door, he saw Chan'er sitting on the bed, her eyes were dilated, as if she had no focus, he came to her distressedly, "Chan'er, Chan'er, I know you are angry, you are angry with me for treating you like this, but I really care about you and don't want you to leave!" â
"Hehe," Chan'er slowly turned her head to look at Situ Ye, her eyes finally had a focal length, but there was a touch of indifference and alienation, "What did the prince say?" I'm just a concubine of yours, a plaything, you can do whatever you want, I have nothing to say, but Chan'er has a sentence that I have to say. â
"Chan'er... You know I like you, and in my heart you are my wife, how can you say that about yourself? â
"Lord Wang, if you let Chan'er go, you don't have to suffer, you don't have to struggle, since you don't trust people, you shouldn't be around, aren't you afraid that one day I will help others to harm you? You left me behind, and you need to be on guard at all times, so why bother? What's more, if two people who hate each other and don't love each other have to meet every day, isn't that torture? Why bother? Lord, let me go. â
"I'm just a plaything of the prince, it doesn't matter if I discard it, discard me one, and others, although the prince has always been very good to me, but Chan'er can't stand it, I used to think that I could be generous enough to tolerate those people, but now I find that I can't do it, not only that, the disparity between my identity and you, I am a red dust girl, how can I be worthy of the prince? is to be a concubine for the prince, Xu is to promote me, hehe, prince, let me go, Chan'er knows, maybe you will not be comfortable for a while, but in the end, in this world, who is gone, who is not the same life? â
"Chan'er!" Situ Ye was really angry, how could she belittle herself like this: "Chan'er, I don't allow you to say this about yourself." â
"Oh, Chan'er obeys."
Situ Ye was stunned for a moment, his heart sank a little, he suddenly pulled Chan'er up and hugged her in his arms, "Chan'er, don't be like this, I just do this because I care about you, really!" And you... Don't say that, what the hell do you want me to do? â
"I want you to let me go and let me go."
Situ Ye slowly let go of the hand holding her, her words today have always been honorific to him, only this sentence is not, that is to say, only if Situ Ye meets her request, she will treat him as her former Ah Ye!
Chan'er saw that he let go of himself, so he walked to the door and opened the door, "Lord Wang, please leave, think about it tonight, maybe you can't accept it for a while, it takes time, Chan'er sends off the prince." â
After Chan'er finished curtsiding, it really meant to send off the guest, Situ Ye closed his eyes, and after a long time, he exhaled lightly, and then stepped out of the back room, "Chan'er, even if you make me think about it for ten or eight years, my decision will still not change, but think about it." â
Seeing Chan'er close the door expressionlessly, there seemed to be two lines of liquid flowing down his face, he raised his hand and dipped it, it was... Tears?
He even shed tears, or for her, he really liked her! He can regard her as his second life, but now, why did he and her come to such a point?
Situ Ye's heart began to ache faintly again, he unconsciously stroked the location of the wound on his heart, this is the location of his injury, Chan'er had helped him heal, her jade finger had been touched, and his heart was beating wildly, he was a little distracted at that time, if he wasn't injured, Chan'er didn't grow up, he really wanted her.
But...
It's only been a few days, why has everything changed? Why did Chan'er suddenly leave him and go back to the palace by herself? Why did she suddenly ask to leave the palace and cut ties with him?
"Ruqing, come with me."
Ruqing lowered his head and followed behind Situ Ye and came to the study, Situ Ye sat behind the bookcase, and pointed to the chair on the side, "Ruqing, you can sit too, I have something I want to ask you, you only think of me as Ah Ye at the moment, I am Ah Ye of Chan'er, not the prince." â
Ruqing heard the conversation between Chan'er and Situ Ye just now, and she knew that Situ Ye's heart was also fragile at this time, so she didn't say anything, just followed his words and sat down on the seat next to her.
"Why? You should know, right? Chan'er, why did she leave me suddenly, and she wanted to leave me forever. â
If you have clear lips, I don't know when to say it or not, what can I do? Situ Ye, can he believe Chan'er just because she said the truth? Can he and her reconcile just because she told the truth?
It is said that the mirror is reunited, but can it really be reunited? And even if it could, would the rift be able to heal?
It's like Situ Ye took a knife and stabbed it into Chan'er's body, although the wound was healed, but the scar was always there, and that scar was always a reminder to Chan'er that Situ Ye had hurt her!
Ruqing remembered the scar on Chan'er's chest, she heard Chan'er say that it was left for Situ Ye at the beginning. And this scar can only be seen by Chan'er herself at all times, but Situ Ye can't see it, so he naturally won't remember it.
"Chan'er... Chan'er she has done so much for you, and even once left a scar on your chest, how ugly it is for a woman to have a scar on her body, but she used to be proud of that scar, at that time I had just followed her for a short time, I asked her, she talked about the origin of the scar, it was a happy face, she said that she and you were married because of this scar. â
Situ Ye was stunned, that scar? Isn't there nothing? If there is still zĂ i, then why didn't the mother and queen mother find it when they checked Chan'er together?
Seeing Situ Ye's doubts, Ruqing said: "In fact, there is no beauty mole at the tail end of Chan'er's right clavicle, but there is a scar on the left chest, near the heart. (To be continued......)