(114), 'that child's heart knot

Xing Feng was stunned for a moment after hearing this, because his eyes were focused on the horse in the water opposite at this time, so Mo Ye didn't see the change in the expression in his eyes.

"Maybe it's something wrong!"

Xing Feng's answer was a bit perfunctory, but there was such a reply not because he subjectively wanted to perfunctory Mo Ye, but because there were too many thoughts in his mind at this time.

He said to Mo Ye just now, if that confusion involved a private matter, Mo Ye could express it more vaguely, but when Mo Ye really followed the hints he gave, it made his thinking sensitive.

The 'child' who has puzzled Mo Ye for so many years should at least be her close relative, but after several years of familiarity, Xing Feng can probably determine that Mo Ye doesn't know who her parents are, so it's more likely that she doesn't know what relatives she has.

Then, 'that child' is likely to be Mo Ye's self who blurred her image after following the hints he gave.

In this way, doesn't Mo Ye know who his parents are now?

However, a few years of the unknown became knowable, which should have been something to be happy about, but why didn't there be a little joy on her face?

- Because, Xing Feng couldn't understand the strong feeling of being abandoned by his parents in Mo Ye's heart at this time.

In the process of growing up in the style of punishment, there is at least one father's storage zĂ i. Xing Laohan has fought the torture style, and there are also ominous places to take care of, but these did not make the punishment style estranged from his father. This is because Xing Laohan relies on his own personality characteristics, or his brave personal charm, in every day of life, he affects and sharpens the character of Xing Feng, making him stronger, and his rough personality sometimes has more strength to accommodate some sharp edges in life.

Moreover, Xing Laohan lost his wife in his early years, and later never married, and from time to time he would reveal his thoughts about his deceased wife, which made Xing Feng often sentimental to his father, and let Xing Feng forgive many Xing Laohan some shortcomings in his personality at the same time.

The harmony of parents occupies a very magical position in the growth of children, even if this harmony collapses half of Xingfeng's family, but half of the reason for the collapse is caused by irresistible illness, so it does not affect Xingfeng's understanding and respect for his father. Perhaps because there is less mother-in-law in the family, the rice will be harder, and there will be more holes in the bedding and clothes, but the spiritual world of Xingfeng is complete.

Mo Ye is different, under the care and influence of Master Lin Shan, her thoughts are more and more detailed than the torture style, and those who think more are more worried. Mo Ye has long wondered whether his parents are still alive, and if they are alive, why not be with him.

Before, because she was not too sure about the first half of the question, she was more skeptical about the second half. But in the events of the past few days, she began to be able to identify the first half of the problem, but if the assumption that her parents were still alive could be established, then the second half of the problem would come to the fore.

Therefore, the focus of the question in her heart has changed from 'are my parents dead or alive' at the beginning to 'why don't they want me' at the end, and obviously the answer to the latter question is more complicated and worrying.

Abandonment is a source of resentment that almost all children will fear from their bones on the way to growth.

Although through Mo Ye's words, Xing Feng can faintly feel that Mo Ye is herself at this time, but Xing Feng is not a party, so as an observer, he will be surprised when he knows about this matter, but he will not be bothered by a certain emotion like Mo Ye, and can come up with a more rational opinion.

This is called bystander clearing.

People from different perspectives have different opinions on the same thing, so sometimes when people are troubled, it is a good blessing to have someone they trust to discuss with.

Mo Ye was fortunate to meet Xing Feng in Xingjia Village, a friend who could talk openly.

Xingfeng's mouth seal is extremely strict, which allows Mo Ye to talk to him with confidence, and Xingfeng is not because he treats Mo Ye's words as a deaf ear and does not listen to his heart, so every time Mo Ye talks to him, he can get some different insights.

After thinking about Mo Ye's words seriously, Xing Feng added: "I believe that parents' concern for their children will not be cut off lightly, so children cannot question what their parents do." There will always be moments of separation in people's lives, and even parents cannot be by their side every day. That...... The child may be separated from his parents for a while, but as long as he comes home one day, he will know that his parents have always had him in their hearts, and this is enough. ”

Xing Feng was speechless here, and seemed to feel that his words were too weak to comfort Mo Yelai, so after he groaned for a while, he lowered his head slightly, and said slowly: "For as long as I can remember, I have the impression that my father rarely stays at home. I often squatted alone at the door of the house waiting for him to come back, and I was confused at first, but then I firmly believed that no matter how long he went out, there would always be a time to come back, bring me food, and ask me if I was warmly dressed, so I don't think I am any different from those children whose parents are around. ”

Xing Feng's words fell into Mo Ye's ears, and she couldn't help but be stunned, because she felt from this passage that Xing Feng seemed to have figured out that the 'child' in her mouth was actually herself.

It's just that when Mo Ye turned his head to look at Xing Feng, he saw that he buried his head very low, and he almost knocked on his squatting knees, so he couldn't see the look on his face at this time.

Without looking at the eyes of Shang Xingfeng, Mo Ye's heart was a little calm. This was the most complicated and sensitive time for her inner feelings, and she didn't want any eyes to touch her eyes to see the depths of her heart. However, Mo Ye's heart was dark at the same time, and he suddenly felt that compared to Xing Feng, he was already very happy.

Xingfeng only has a father who has not returned home for a long time, and there is a master by her side who always shields her from the wind and rain, Uncle Ma who often makes her happy, and an aunt who prepares delicious meals for her every day, washes and sews clothes.

The corners of Mo Ye's mouth subconsciously curved slightly, and with the change in the curvature of her face, Mo Ye only felt that the somewhat stiff frost covering her face was shattered in an instant, and at the same time, she felt that the thing tied to her heart had also been loosened.

Standing up, Mo Ye stretched out her arms and stretched her waist, then she looked at Xing Feng and said with a smile: "Listening to you like this, I suddenly understood something, and I will relay your words to 'that child' when I have time." ”

Xing Feng raised his head and looked at Mo Ye stunned for a moment, and then he also understood. The two of them already knew about 'that child' at this time, so Xing Feng didn't say anything more, just smiled and nodded in accordance with Mo Ye's meaning.

Then, as he stood up, he let out a loud sneeze.

Seeing this, Mo Ye suddenly thought that she had been immersed in her own thoughts just now, and she had ignored that Xing Feng had been talking to her in soaked clothes for half a day, and she hurriedly said: "The sun is sinking in the west, let's go back quickly!" You're drenched in water, and if you don't change into dry clothes quickly, you'll get cold if you're not careful! ”

Xing Feng rubbed his astringent nose, looked at Mo Ye and smiled embarrassedly, and only then did he realize that he was sloppy and wolfish like this. He whistled at the little hurricane in the water, and the wild horse, which was still fighting against the water, turned and swam back when he heard the whistle, and his fur was stained with mud.

After Xiao Biaofeng walked ashore, he seemed to dislike the feeling of the hair on his body being wet with water, and he subconsciously shook his whole body. It was like that, but it was bitter to Mo Ye, and a rain of mud drifted sideways in the air, and most of it fell on her body.

Mo Ye has always been dressed as a man since she entered Lizheng Academy, and when she went out of her own yard, she was also dressed as a man when facing the villagers of Xingjia Village. She didn't get angry after being thrown in the mud by the wild little hurricane horse, she just lifted the still clean side of her sleeve and wiped her face, and then looked at the guilty Xing Feng and said: "You are a mud man and a mud horse, I don't want to share such a mount with you." You go back first, and it's important to change your clothes quickly. ”

Usually, Xing Feng had the habit of picking up Mo Ye at Lizheng Academy on the way, so he knew that Mo Ye was refusing to ride with him at this time. Looking at the little mud horse that had just been slapped by himself and walked aside because he threw Mo Ye all over his body in mud, Xing Feng had to look at Mo Ye with deep apologies and was dotted with mud, and said warmly: "Then I'll go first." ”

Looking at the back of Xing Feng picking up a simple saddle cover from the ground, putting it on the back of the wild horse, and then riding away, Mo Ye first smiled, then breathed a long sigh of relief, and secretly said in his heart: "I'm going to leave too." ”……

Mo Ye went out in clean clothes, and before she could turn into a mud child in the middle, she didn't have to blame Li Shi for this tonight. However, Mo Ye did not feel aggrieved because of this reproach, but felt that he had to bother his aunt to wash clothes, and he felt ashamed.

Of course, she didn't think about washing her own clothes, but that kind of idea was rejected by Li Shi, just like Ma An asking to wash the dishes himself. The reason is very simple, Ma An wanted to wash the dishes and was kicked out of the kitchen by Li Shi because he washed three bowls and smashed one, Mo Ye washed clothes and definitely had to be washed again by Li Shi, in the part of doing housework, Ma An and Mo Ye are about the same way, and they are both mediocre.

However, when it was time for dinner, the two mediocre people at the dinner table who had opposite opinions about going to Kyoto suddenly found a common topic, and started a lively discussion about the horse training in the Xingjiacun reservoir in the afternoon