Shen Chan hurriedly took the pot and added some heat to her: "On a cold day, I drink it regardless of whether it is hot or cold, how can it be good to frostbite my spleen and stomach?" He gave her hot tea, and said, "What about Sister Yi?" Is she okay? "In the end, it is a sister, and how important the reputation is to the girl's family, Shen Yi is so restrained on weekdays, and when she encounters this kind of thing at this time, she never expects her to be bad.

Shen Yan shook her head and looked at her: "I didn't talk to her. ”

As he was talking, Rouge came over again and said, "Luo Ying of Mixiang Pavilion just stuffed a note to the girl." He handed it over.

Shen Yan took a look, and Shen Chan asked, "What's the matter?" ”

Shen Yan raised her eyes and looked at her: "Sister Yi asked me to go to the long room after dinner." ”

Everyone in the room was silent.

After dinner, Shen Guanyu went out to Guo's mansion, and Shen Mi also discussed with Shen Xuan for this matter. sent Shen Chan to Hua's house to sit and talk, and Shen Yan took Fu Niang to the long room.

Ji Shi came out under the porch, her face was like a fallen leaf in the courtyard that was raised by the wind, it was scattered, and when she heard that she came to find Shen Yi, she didn't say anything, silently led her to Mixiang Pavilion, and then exited the door.

There were only two lamps lit in the Mixiang Pavilion, and Shen Yi sat on the couch with his knees crossed, his hair was scattered, his feet were not wearing socks, and his face was so calm that it made people panic.

Shen Yan sat down on the embroidery pier under the bed, dragged the embroidered quilt over to cover her feet.

Shen Yi slowly turned his face to the side and looked at her, his gaze seemed to have been frozen for thousands of years, and he turned it with difficulty.

Shen Yan looked at her and said, "You are actually the smartest, but unfortunately you are too smart, and you are always easy to think about simple things too complicated. ”

Shen Yi raised his head, his lips trembled slightly, he was silent on his toes for a long moment, then suddenly snorted slightly like self-deprecation, and inhaled: "I'm not like you, you don't lack anything, you are blessed."

"As for me, if there is no accident, mine is indeed a noble and elegant lady in the Jingshi, but now that my father is gone, my grandmother is also paralyzed in bed, my mother only knows how to be cautious, does not know how to plan, does not know how to calculate, even to maintain my status and reputation as a lady of an elegant family, I can only rely on myself.

"And no matter how smart I am, now I am defeated by your hands, do you think God is fair? He's not fair at all. ”

"How is it unfair?" Shen Yan wrapped the hot milk soup warm on the small copper stove and took it off with a handkerchief, stretched his hands, and raised his eyes to look at her: "My mother was born in a merchant, and she has no children for so many years, my father has been under great pressure because he loves her and is loyal to the choice of the year.

"And at the same time, I am not really gentle and dignified like you, when you can't see it, I am always torn between being an elegant lady to meet everyone's expectations, and being my true self.

"I often wonder, if I had done the former, would I have come here to live for others? And if I do the latter regardless of it, wouldn't I be too selfish in the name of Miss Shen? You may think that this is not a problem at all, but in fact, at some point, I do envy you. ”

Shen Yi looked at her steadily, as if he wanted to see her heart through her eyes and see the truth of her words.

"But I never wanted to be you." Shen Yan looked back at her, "Each of us is different, we are destined not to be born from the same place, nor will we leave this world in the same way. Each of us has taken a different path, and I don't have to force myself to be you, nor do I force God to make my life like yours. ”

"That's because you don't need to."

Shen Yi stepped on her voice and blurted out, she was a little too big because of her excitement and range of movements. "I know what you're telling me, but the reality is always cruel. I'm a drowning man, I'm adrift adrift on the boat of your second room, I'll go wherever you go, but I'll always be below you.

"I can't control my own direction, but I'm not reconciled, as you said, if a person can't decide what kind of person she becomes, whether she can live in the shadow of others or stand under the sun on her own, then isn't she coming to the world in vain?

"I'm not a man who resigned myself to fate, and neither are you. So you should always know that if you are me, when you find that the person you admired since you were a child can't pull you out of the water, nor can you pull you out of the shadows, and at this time, there happens to be someone who completely meets your ideals, you will definitely make a choice like me! ”

Shen Yan was silent for a while, reached out and tested the temperature of the milk custard, and then said, "Speaking of which, what you are doing is actually for yourself."

"I haven't experienced it firsthand, and I can't say for sure that I won't, but at least one thing I can be sure of is that if I were you, when I realized that the other party was not suitable for me, I would at least end any possibility of developing with him before approaching a new goal. This is the principle. And the follow-up of these things, you can avoid. You're so smart you don't need me to clean up the mess for you. ”

"I'm just worried he's going to be a scoundrel!" Shen Yi hurried, "And it turns out that he did it." ”

Shen Yan paused and said: "Actually, I have already inquired about the matter clearly, the reason why Lu Zhenqian is annoyed and angry is because Fang Yu is too much when he mentions this marriage, and he often walks around the Shen family, which makes him suspicious. If you hadn't designed that chance encounter in Zhujia, so that Fang Yu had a deep love for you, he wouldn't let Lu Zhenqian catch the handle.

"I say all this, and you still don't understand that the problem is with you. If you were just close to Grandma Fang, you wouldn't have a handle to catch it, and you wouldn't be so embarrassed by yourself. When you arrive at Fang's house in the future, you may be more respected by Fang Yu, but because you are eager for quick success, it will be self-defeating. ”

The red tide on Shen Yi's face receded again, replaced by the previous gray and white.

"Did you come to see my jokes?"

Shen Yan's eyes darkened, "I never wanted to see your jokes. Maybe I didn't help you much, but I thought that even if we didn't really know each other, we still knew each other a little bit. Do you think I need to laugh at you too much? ”

Shen Yi's eyes were stunned, and she glanced away at her face for a long time, and her long eyelashes stained with tears covered her face with two shadows like a brush.

"I admit it, I'm afraid that you will replace the second room to become the next sect master and patriarch of the Shen family, I once thought that even if Brother Rui's achievements are not as good as other children, let alone compared with the second uncle, as long as you have the identity of this patriarch, there will still be a lot of benefits. As long as Brother Rui is strong, I will have no worries.

"You can never comprehend these changes that took place around me after my father's death, and I even thought viciously that if I had to lose one, I would rather lose my mother than my father! I am a pampered eldest lady, my father is dead, my younger brother is still young, and no one can guarantee me a beautiful future.

"I can't accept this disparity, whether it's chance, identity or future. I want to preserve my dignity as the eldest daughter of the Shen family, and I willingly plan for it. And your second room happens to be strong at a rapid speed, and I have no choice but to treat you as an obstacle. I can't get rid of you, so I'll put you down. ”

Her tears flowed down again, and her slender shoulders shrugged, and she looked more and more weak.

Shen Yan handed her a handkerchief and said, "If we have the idea of fighting for the family property, it is not something that you can stop by your ability at all. ”

Shen Yi took the handkerchief and exhaled, "I've thought about this." But even if I knew, I still wouldn't believe it. ”

Shen Yan smiled bitterly: "And now we don't have to do it at all, the old man is afraid that he will also consider passing on the family business to us." ”

Shen Yi raised his eyes to look at her and didn't speak.

Shen Yan stretched out her hand and took the bowl of warm milk soup and handed it to her: "Don't worry, we don't have any idea of taking any family property at all." Even if the old man passed it on to my father, I can guarantee that my father would not want it.

"As you said, we have no shortage of glory and wealth, even if we are separated, we are still the descendants of the Shen family, and we can also enjoy the honor we should enjoy. Although my father didn't say it, I could see that in order for the Shen family to stand firmer, he had no intention of separating up. Because Brother Rui is still young, he can't afford such a big family.

"But now it seems that the Shen family doesn't need us at all, and you don't need us either, and after a hundred years, we will inevitably split up and live another life. You are my sister, I hope you will be benevolent, you want Shen Rui to be the head of the family, we will not have the slightest opinion. I hope you can follow your ideas all the way, support your younger brother with your own strength, and carry forward the Shen family.

"In addition to this surname, we have never received more favors from the Shen family, and some of them are just deceitful and not quiet. We have to take care of these things and live our own lives. ”

A gust of wind blew through the curtains, and the beaded curtains in front of them were crackled.

Shen Yi stood up in a daze, "Are you saying that you don't care about Brother Rui?" She approached, "The master will definitely not forgive me this time, and I can't help Rui'er anymore." And I've already learned that I'm wrong, why don't you still forgive me? If Rui'er didn't have the help of her second uncle, what would he do alone? ”

"It's not a question of forgiveness." Shen Yan sighed.

She turned to look at her, "You didn't trust the second room as a relative before, you didn't treat me as a sister to get along with, you only regarded the Shen family as unique to your long room, and now you can't help Brother Rui, so let us take over, no one is a fool, how can you let you call how you want?"

"What's more, Brother Rui will be fine if he is good in the future, if something goes wrong in the future, to be honest, I am afraid that you will put the responsibility on our heads."

"Shen Yan!"

Shen Yi screamed silently, and the blood on his lips faded in this instant. R1152