279 I have the heart but I don't have the guts
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In the darkness, Yin Xian clearly sensed that the girl who climbed into his bed wanted to do something.
"Don't do that." Yin Xian hugged the soft and slippery body in her arms tightly, making her unable to move.
It's just the touch from his hand that makes him a little appere.
"Oppa, what else do you want from me?" Kim Taeyeon suddenly burst into tears.
"Taeyeon, you're a good girl. I don't deserve you. Yin Xian felt a deep sense of guilt.
One is to jump to the Han River by yourself...... No, jumping into the Pacific Ocean washes away the guilt of not being clean.
He suddenly felt like crying. I don't know if it's because of Kim Taeyeon or because of myself.
“oppa……”
"Listen to me tell you a story." Yoon Hyun interrupted Kim Taeyeon's words, took a deep breath, calmed his feelings, and then told Kim Tae-yeon the story of himself and Han Hyo-joo. There is no hiding at all.
Including those things that happened in Beijing, and that night.
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It also includes regrets after getting off the train.
After the story was told, Kim Taeyeon fell silent.
"Taeyeon, you see, I'm actually such a person." Yin Xian smiled bitterly at himself, "Don't take the initiative, don't refuse, don't be responsible." Although it is not heinous, it is definitely not a good person. ”
Kim Taeyeon didn't speak, and struggled slightly.
Yin Xian didn't know what she meant, but instinctively immediately let go of the hand that was tightly wrapping her.
"Taeyeon, I'm grateful you like me." Yin Xian said very sincerely, "And I don't deny that I have a good impression of you." But this favor is not enough to support me to take the initiative to do something for you. And even how much sacrifice. But I found that I couldn't refuse all your overtures and dedication to me. ”
"Aren't you rejecting me?" Kim Taeyeon suddenly interjected, "Otherwise, maybe I would have become your person by now......"
"That's why I can still say that I'm not heinous......" Yin Xian sighed.
"Oppa, your story is very good, why do you want to listen to me?"
"Oh? Yours? What's the story? Yin Xian suddenly felt that the two had been together for so many days and had such a sincere conversation. Or for the first time......
"My story is simple, I started with a song and fell in love with someone. Then, for his sake, I willingly gave my hand. Kim Taeyeon's story is indeed very simple: "Whether he cares or not, cherish it or not." This is my own business. ”
Yoon Hyun was silent.
"Oppa, if you're still a man. Kiss me. Kim Taeyeon said seriously.
"If I were a responsible man, I wouldn't do it." Yoon Hyun refused. The voice of the little man called sanity in his head was getting quieter and quieter.
"Oppa, didn't you say that you don't take the initiative, don't refuse, and don't take responsibility?" Kim Taeyeon asked rhetorically.
Yin Xian was dumbfounded.
"If you ...... Then I'll ......," Kim Tae-yeon whispered.
Then, Yoon Hyun felt that his mouth was kissed by Kim Tae-yeon. Instinctively, he wanted to push Kim Taeyeon away. But it didn't work out.
Just like Yoon Hyun was afraid that Kim Taeyeon would mess with just now, so he hugged her tightly. Kim Taeyeon hugged Yoon Hyun tightly, making him unable to struggle.
"That way, you won't have any mental pressure, right?" I don't know how long the kiss lasted, the lips parted, Kim Taeyeon said lightly.
Early the next morning.
Yoon Hyun woke up from his sleep again. looked at Kim Taeyeon in her arms.
Nothing happened after last night.
Although Kim Taeyeon is very ambitious, she doesn't know what she should do to successfully hook up Yoon Hyun. Coupled with Yin Xian's insistence on clenching her teeth and not relaxing, it was difficult for her to move, let alone any strange behavior.
Last night, I want to say that Yin Hyun didn't react at all......
That's also completely impossible.
It's almost a little bit close...... Just a little bit.
It's inexplicable. Just when Yoon Hyun was about to give up his last sane resistance, Kim Taeyeon shed a tear in a wonderful way.
Then this tear hit Yin Xian's back of the head like a slap in the back.
Although Yin Hyun knows. Kim Taeyeon cried because of grievances, but for him, it reminded him of his sister.
I remembered the feeling in my heart when I was facing an indifferent face while cooking instant noodles and telling myself that she was pregnant.
Some things don't seem to work out, but there are always people who want to do it.
Yes, it's not that I can't reluctantly accept Kim Tae-yeon, and even, it's not reluctant. Do you hate her yourself? Not at all! Speaking of which, in Yin Xian's heart, he faintly still has a good impression of this girl.
After all, in his previous life, he seemed to have a good impression of this girl!
But if you really want to make up your mind to become a boyfriend and girlfriend with her, or even go further or what kind of relationship, Yin Xian has an inexplicable and wonderful resistance in his heart.
Why?
This question has been thinking about this since the two stepped on the plane to Europe together, and Yin Hyun guessed that the relationship between the two would come to an end after this trip.
He doesn't like Kim Taeyeon, but he doesn't hate it either. Also, he loved the feeling of playing music with her.
It's really like what my sister said, I feel like I'm in my heart, and it's very comfortable.
In Yoon Hyun's heart, he still doesn't want to cut off Kim Taeyeon like this and never have any more dealings. He still wants the two to return to the relationship of pure friends, or, bosom friends.
So, he is sorting out and sorting out the possibilities between the two. Among them, it naturally includes why the two can't be together.
In addition to those objective factors that can be overcome in Yin Xian's view, such as idol baggage, the company's resistance...... outside. During this period of time, the two got along day and night, which made Yin Xian realize that the two had never really had a heart-to-heart relationship.
Even when chatting, it's half of the talk and half of it.
On the contrary, the two still have a lot of resonance in music. And then these things that touch the soul can often reflect the deepest emotions in a person's heart.
As a result, the way of communication between the two of them, which looked a bit Tai Chi, was put on the emperor's new clothes......
It's ridiculous.
I knew you were like this, but you didn't tell me that you were like that, and asked me to guess......
Although Yin Xian knew from his previous life that this was the norm that girls should have, he still didn't like it. Not used to it.
However, if you don't like it, you can like it slowly, and if you don't get used to it, you can slowly get used to it, these can only be said to be diaphragm things, which are not contradictory reasons.
At this moment, he finally understood. That's something he should have understood a long time ago.
Because of that "Onion", because of ...... My sister once said. She's like her.
Although Yoon Ji-hye's busy and fulfilling life now seems to be good, Yoon Hyun knows that his sister is not happy.
My sister's affair is what happened to me by myself. The man who made his teeth itch, Yin Xian also went to see it quietly.
But that's what it looks like. However, my sister just likes it. And...... Regrets.
What else can I do?
It was a sense of powerlessness. I know it's wrong, but I can't change the feeling of powerlessness.
Therefore, when faced with this girl who he doesn't like at all, or maybe even can't like it, Yin Xian will instinctively reject something that may cause too deep a bond, right?
Like what...... Like now.
I was with Han Hyo-joo at the beginning. Isn't it just that confusing...... Then Yoon Hyun found that although he could persuade himself, it was just a one-night stand, but just a little indulgence......
But in my heart, I have been caring about that girl.
Then, Yin Xian understood what the ancients said about the Lei Chi.
So...... Yoon Hyun's last trace of Lingtai Qingming was still not finally broken by Kim Taeyeon. And he would rather be said not to be a man, than to find himself in trouble with these cuts and untidying up.
Bear with me...... Not really...... Let's go out and have fun, it's not like there's no place to talk about money and not feelings......
Yoon Hyun, who calmed down all of a sudden, has no idea, so Kim Taeyeon really has nothing to do.
Kim Tae-yeon, who was just a little depressed, launched an offensive against Yoon Hyun's mouth.
From the two tossing and turning on the bed to falling asleep in a daze, Yoon Hyun's lips were swollen by Kim Tae-yeon.
His persistence paid off in the end. Although Kim Taeyeon cried like a tearful person, in the end, she was not ruined by her own impulses.
Or, Yin Xian kept the last bottom line that he felt that he could barely be regarded as a "non-evil" person.
It's just that whether this is really the case, no one can say.
He just wanted to mix up his own peace of mind.
As for whether it is really at ease? God knows......
Yoon Hyun got up from the bed, didn't dare to take a second look at Kim Taeyeon, who was still asleep there, and after covering her with the quilt, he rushed directly into the bathroom.
He's 27 years old. Even according to Chinese parlance, they are all 25 years old.
It's the time when the flesh is strong!
Although he only had one time with Han Hyo-joo...... But...... He's not a chick after all.
can hold a little lady like a flower like jade like this, and she didn't do anything all night.
Yin Hyun suddenly felt that he should be able to be friends with Megumi Yanagishita?
Of course, just because you don't do it doesn't mean you don't want to do it. If you don't sit still, you can't mess up and those who don't dare to mess up.
Yin Xian belongs to the kind that can, but doesn't dare.
Alas, I have to say that the little dinosaur's evaluation of Yin Xian is definitely the most correct. Although it was only their first meeting.
Yin Xian really feels that he is not a man at this moment!
Then, the more he regretted it, how could he have ...... last night Think so much!
So he needs to take a good cold shower and cool down now......
This cold shower takes a long time. It took Yin Xian a long time to calm down his restless mood. Or, at least, not so ......
But when he came out of the bathroom and woke up when he saw Kim Taeyeon, he was sitting there in a daze. Immediately he didn't calm down again.
"Yikes! Taeyeon! Get dressed when you get up! ”
Kim Taeyeon ignored him. sat there blankly, looking at Yin Xian blankly. I don't know if I haven't slowed down, or if I'm thinking about something.
"Get dressed and don't catch a cold." Yoon Hyun went straight to her bed and turned over her pajamas to put them on her.
"You don't have to." Kim Taeyeon didn't know if she was angry or angry......
But the atmosphere became very eerie for a moment.
Kim Taeyeon suddenly showed a very evil smile.
Yin Xian's face also turned red all of a sudden.
Early in the morning, the edges of the curtains were never drawn. The faint light that comes in, reflected by the milky white wallpaper of the hotel room, gives the room some gentle illumination.
Blurry and dreamy.
Kim Taeyeon with her long hair and M-shaped legs just did it on the bed, naked.
The light shone on her body, and her skin glowed like white jade.
It's beautiful and warm. It's breathtakingly beautiful.
And the curve of the body like a gold-rimmed body, although it is not very ...... But it also shows the most vivid temptation.
Seeing such a picture, if Yin Xian can still remain calm......
Then he's really not a man......
In this case, how does the body react...... That's perfectly normal......
And just now, Yin Xian used cold water to distract himself and barely suppressed this evil fire. Now stimulated again......
And then it was seen by Kim Taeyeon......
"Hurry up and get dressed!" Yin Hyun was about to be annoyed.
"Don't!" Kim Tae-yeon's playful heart jumped up directly from the bed. pounced on Yoon Hyun.
Yesterday, I just touched Kim Tae-yeon's back when I hugged her with my hand.,Except for the feeling that made him a little distracted.,There's no actual feeling.,Today this is matched with a shock of the picture......
Yin Xian used the stupidest method he learned from the Internet in his previous life and bit his lip......
Originally, Kim Tae-yeon's lips were swollen by Kim Tae-yeon last night, and the swelling has not subsided until now.
Directly with a hard effort, I bit through the ......
And then there is no then......
After the two of them packed up, they set off from Bruges. All the way back to London, and then. Returned to South Korea. Along the way, Kim Tae-yeon's phone ran out of battery again.
But this time she wasn't taking a photo, but sent the photos of the two of them on Yin Xian's phone to her phone......
"Get off the plane, shall we go our separate ways?" After a long journey of nearly 20 hours, the plane finally landed smoothly at Incheon International Airport. Kim Tae-yeon, who was silent on the plane, said a word to Yoon Hyun.
"Okay." Yin Xian nodded.
"These songs written by OPPA this time ......" Kim Taeyeon put her sunglasses on, and Yoon Hyun couldn't see her eyes.
"I'm not going to publish it." Yin Hyun shook his head.
Kim Taeyeon bowed her head. said: "The song "Princess of Two Weeks", I want. ”
"I'm sorry." Yoon Hyun continued to shake his head.
Kim Tae-yeon didn't speak anymore.
In the taxi back to the company, Yin Xian received a text message.
The beautiful princess did not end up marrying the handsome prince. So she won't grow old and ugly as she gets older, then become a jealous queen, and then turn into an old witch to trick the young princess into eating poisoned apples. She would only sing to the moon every night from her tower. Remembering the happiness and sweetness with the prince, and then quietly aging and dying.
Yin Xian read it three times seriously.
Then the information was deleted.
Then I deleted the number in my phone.
If you delete the number, can you forget it? Yoon Hyun closed his eyes. He knew he couldn't forget. But it must be forgotten.
He had already made his decision 20 hours ago when he bit his own lip.
It's too late to regret it......
Although, he really regretted it......
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