Sunshine lived in Yuanshan Temple for a month, in addition to meditating with those little monks and chanting scriptures, she talked with the old monks about the scriptures, coarse tea and light rice, sunrise and sunset rest. Under his careful care, her body is slowly getting better day by day, but her spirit is always tired, and when she is upset, she will run to the Tibetan Scripture Pavilion to stay all day, flip through those ancient scriptures, listen to the familiar Sanskrit sounds, and let her mind slowly calm down.

The regular days are very quiet, so quiet that many times she will want to just enter the Buddhist family! Don't think about anything, don't do anything.

But Master Yongxing smiled and said that she couldn't let it go.

She really couldn't let it go: Yun Feng hadn't come to see her for almost a month, and she knew from the beginning that he was seriously injured, and she was just deliberately hiding it from her. But she had been by his side for so long, how could he hide from her with that look on his face? If they don't say it, she won't say it, after all, her current physical condition, even if she is with him, she can only drag him down. Her eldest brother, it is enough to toss himself into a serious injury for her.

"Little benefactor, you're going to lose." Master Yongxing's voice interrupted her thoughts, and she looked at the chessboard: Aren't you going to lose? She is very good at playing backgammon, but she is a beginner in Go, and she is not very good at it, and she often kills herself when she plays.

"I lost." She resigned herself to abandoning her son and surrendering, and habitually counted the rosaries in her hand.

Master Yongxing looked at the chessboard and sighed. "Little benefactor, you are obviously everywhere, why bother to push yourself into a desperate situation?"

Sunshine smiled nonchalantly, "I want to win." But there is no master's ability. What about taking a step back? It's just early and late death, so why can't you just do what you want? ”

Master Yongxing smiled kindly, "It's a pity that this game is a good game." His eyes swept to the rosary in her hand, and he smiled slightly: "Who gave this Son of Heaven?" It's extraordinary. ”

Sunshine was stunned for a moment, "Master, what did you say?" Isn't this Bodhi? ”

"This Bodhi is called Providence."

"Providence?" Sunshine muttered silently, and suddenly let go of his hand. The bracelet suddenly broke, and the beads crackled all over the ground, as if she had suddenly woken up. Quickly squatted down to pick up the beads that had fallen everywhere, and when I picked them up, I burst into tears.

"The bead is broken! The bead was broken...... she choked and cried, and the more she cried, the louder it became, and she simply lowered her head and cried.

These days she thinks hard. Think of what he looks like. Thinking about what he had said, but his face was getting more and more blurry, and she couldn't remember anything. When he was there, she regarded him as Gongsun Jing, and she regarded him as a slut who liked the new and hated the old and abandoned him, so she never looked at him seriously. But he is Gongsun Yan, he is the Gongsun Yan who is naked to her, if she could have used more of his heart at the beginning. Maybe it will stop him, maybe he won't end up like this. But she just wouldn't even look at him more.

He gave her this providential son, did he want to give a qiē to heaven? But this string of beads had been in her hands for so long, and she only knew the deep meaning of it today, and she understood it, but the beads were scattered, and the last bit of thought he left for her was gone.

Li Yunfeng pushed the door in, looked at the sunshine who was squatting on the ground and picking up beads indiscriminately, while snot and tears, and turned his head to look at Master Yongxing, Master Yongxing bowed slightly: It's been a month, and she finally waited for her to vent her love.

All the sorrows in the world are nothing more than life and death. This month, she eats and drinks well and sleeps well every day, but she is still getting thinner and thinner, and the hardships and karma are all created by herself, and she has to eliminate them by herself.

Since this qiē is all providential, why struggle and why suffer yourself?

Li Yunfeng walked over and pulled her up, she looked up and saw him, so she hugged him and cried like a wronged child.

The fate given by God, no matter how bitter and painful it is, and no matter how wronged it is, it must be accepted, this is the fate of the people of destiny. She is like this, and so is Gongsun Yan.

"Sunshine, if you're well, let's go home with my brother." Li Yunfeng said softly.

*

In the afternoon of the same day, Li Yunfeng said goodbye to Master Yongxing with sunshine and went down the mountain to go home.

It's the first time in a month that Sunshine has stepped out of the door. There was no wind and no snow outside, the sky was blue, it was a rare sunny day in winter, the sunlight was a little dazzling, she covered her eyes with her hands, raised her head to look at the blue sky, remembered that day on campus He said happily that the sun was very good today, and he had not seen such a blue sky for a long time; I remembered that day he was very sad on the boat and said that if there was such a peaceful world, I would also like to see it; I remembered that day, he said helplessly, do you know how helpless it is to fall in love with an unintentional person? He said sunshine, don't say anything, in fact, I just want you to accompany me; He said that no one had ever really taken me to heart, and I was used to it; I remembered that day at KTV and said that I never knew what it was like to really like someone, and after falling in love with you, I knew...... He said sunshine, you listen to me, because—

She didn't listen to him that day and ran away, and now she knows, because ...... Those words may never have been said to her again.

Although the weather was good, the temperature was still very low, Li Yunfeng helped her put on a scarf, saw her looking at the sky fixedly, and asked her softly: "Sunshine, what do you want?" ”

"I'm thinking, the matter of the criminal family, we are outsiders in the first place, why did we get involved inexplicably in the end?" Sunshine whispered, "Actually, before that day, I always thought I was a bystander. I didn't know he was Gongsun Yan, I didn't believe he was really in love with me, I didn't even see his appearance clearly, it was all over. ”

It doesn't matter whether she loves or not, she just feels sorry for the sudden loss of a life, she just sighs at the mistakes in this world, no matter how they struggle, they still can't escape this doomed ending.

Li Yunfeng stuffed a USB flash drive into her hand, hugged her shoulder, and said softly: "This is what he said to me when he negotiated with me, and he said a lot of things between you. If you want a thought, keep it, otherwise you will always feel regretful in your heart. He found the best ending for himself, and you, and me. ”

"Brother, where are we going now?"

"I'll take you to S City to attend Shen Yu and Fei Fei's wedding. I have already accepted Fei Fei as my sister-in-law, so we have to send our relatives as our mother's family. ”

"Shin Yu and Fei Fei's wedding?"

"Yes, the Underworld." (To be continued......)