Charlize couldn't control herself, she only felt a chaos in her brain, the darkness that emerged from the depths of her heart made her tremble, as if the whole person was floating on the ice of the Arctic Ocean, the cold air surrounded herself firmly from all directions, she was like a wooden boat with a leaky bottom, falling into the cold and biting ocean little by little, she tried to struggle, but found that she couldn't move at all, she could only watch the sea slowly swallow itself, from the soles of her feet to her waist, and then to her chest, Little by little, slowly rise along the lip line.

The fear of sliding into the abyss of darkness was even more painful than death, and Charlize felt like he was going to be completely shattered in the next second. And she couldn't even shout "help" - the sharp ice slag filled her throat with bright red blood.

The memory goes back to that June, the June of 1991, the autumn of the southern hemisphere, and the memory is covered by the overwhelming rain, and the continuous cold makes the whole world black and white, as if all colors have completely disappeared. It was that night that a gunshot completely changed her life, freeing her and her mother from the dire situation, but it also became an indelible moment in her life, the blood that filled the sky was like the cold sea at this time, completely swallowing her, the suffocation of drowning choked her throat, even if she wanted to resist, but she was restrained hand and foot.

"No, don't...... No...... I'm going to kill Charles...... I want, I want to get that gun...... I'm going to get revenge on my mom...... Don't, Mom, don't shoot...... Don't, you can't kill for Hilby, when you start the first time, there's no going back...... Don't, you'll be completely out of touch with warmth, and you'll be imprisoned in that ice and snow forever...... Don't, don't...... Die, you shameful men deserve to die, you are good for nothing but to prove your strength by beating women...... Die, you all deserve to die! ”

All the lines had blurred in her brain, and sometimes she was herself, hiding in her room and shivering, trying to help her mother but only squirming like a pathetic moth, fear completely pinning her in place; Sometimes she was Gerda Theron, she held the pistol tightly with both hands, closed her eyes and pulled the trigger directly, the noise stopped, the cursing stopped, but the blood on her hands could not be washed away, and the ubiquitous smell of blood almost drove her crazy; Sometimes she is Erin Ainos, and the fresh lives are lost in her own hands, but she doesn't feel fear at all, because she has no faith, her only belief is "can't let go of Hilby", that is the only light in her heart, the only warmth, so, she will not give up, she has gone too far on this road, there is no chance to turn back.

"Mom, Mommy...... It's over, it's all over...... Damn, you all deserve to die...... We are saved, we are saved......"

Countless chaotic thoughts made her brain split, and the pain of tearing her soul apart made her mouth open wide, but she couldn't even make a sound. Charlize escaped into the boundless blood-colored darkness, the sharp cold pierced her bones faintly, she could only open her mouth like a puppet, stiffened in place, her dry eyes could not even squeeze out a tear, but the whole person could not suppress a slight tremble.

Suddenly, a glow as hot as the sun gently approached, and the dazzling light made Charlize want to dodge, as if she was exposed to the sun, she would melt as quickly as ice and snow, and then be erased like a wisp of green smoke.

Charlize raised her head, she couldn't see the scene in front of her clearly, the dazzling halo blurred all the edges and corners around her, leaving only a faint outline, but she could clearly feel that this halo was not aggressive, it just waited quietly beside it, the lazy warmth made her stop moving, and couldn't help but reach out and touch it gently, the coldness of her fingertips dispelled little by little, making her feel her fingers again, and the comfortable feeling made Charlize couldn't help but stretch her brows, The corners of the mouth are gently outlined in an arc.

Then, the halo embraced her, the warm breath enveloped her firmly, the chaos and restlessness were calmed down, the wind and rain in the brain, the ghost crying wolf howl was exposed to the sun, and the ashes were annihilated in an instant, and the turbulent sea calmed down again, she slowly fell into the cold and biting ocean, but after landing, she came to a milky yellow halo, and the security of her mother's arms made the tense muscles begin to relax.

There was a steady and powerful heartbeat in my ears, "Puff...... Puff ......" This made her chaotic heartbeat gradually keep up with the rhythm, and the steady and comfortable rhythm slowly relaxed the tight strings; Surrounded by the familiar scent, the fresh licorice fragrance mixed with the faint smell of sunshine, as if wandering in a warm sea of clouds, soft sunlight and soft cotton wool build a "home" atmosphere.

Charlize closed her eyes and let herself drift in the warm breath, and the memories in her mind shuttled from 1991 to 1993, the same night, the terrible and gloomy man followed her to Sunset Square, and followed in the dark and chaotic alley, no matter how hard she tried, she could not shake off, and at the extreme of fear, a halo of dazzling light like the sun crashed towards her, and then the darkness was dispelled, and the world was quiet.

"It's me, it's me ......" The warm voice echoed in his ears, and for the first time it really made Charlize feel safe.

Today, it seems to be the same halo, the same breath, and the same taste.

Charlize fumbled for memories with that breath, and when she looked up, she saw the arc of Hugo's jaw, which was tense with nervousness. Hugo just hugged her tightly, carefully holding her shoulders, and his strong arms and broad, solid chest made the whole world quiet.

Hugo in front of him, so familiar, looked no different from usual; But Hugo in front of him is so unfamiliar, an indescribable strangeness, as if ...... It's as if he's not just Hugo, he's a man at the same time.

The powerful shoulders firmly surrounded him, and the surging male aura surged in an instant, making his breathing become rapid, and the heart in his chest became fast and chaotic, and almost before he realized it, he couldn't help but swallow a mouthful of saliva, and then he realized that his throat was about to catch fire. His eyes involuntarily fell on Hugo's soft lips, and he just wanted to raise his head to explore the red taste on the lips, and the feeling was so strong that his heartbeat skipped several beats in a row, and the whole person became flustered.

Charlize was startled by this strange feeling, and she hurriedly lowered her head and closed her eyes tightly, lest her pupils reveal her true feelings. But the chaotic rhythm of the heartbeat could not lie, and the heartbeat that violently hit the chest danced wantonly on the eardrums, dancing the Argentine tango, passionate and sexual. Sense, ambiguous. Ambiguous but dangerous.

The strong impulses left Charlize with little control to control, and what remnants of his sanity were telling Charlize that this was not right, that they were friends, that they were best friends.

The brain, which was so hot that it was almost blurry, finally cooled down a little, Hugo was her friend, and they should be just friends, they already knew each other...... It's been six years, and it's been six years in the blink of an eye, and Hugo has long been an indispensable part of her life, he is her best friend, and the only friend she wants to trust in the depths of her heart. So, this feeling is really too dangerous, and once you cross the line, maybe everything will be ruined.

Possession is the beginning of loss.

She didn't want that. She still wants to be by Hugo's side, even as a friend, as if today, without Hugo, she can't be sure if she will be able to persevere. She is used to being alone, she is used to arming herself with strength, she is used to using her strength to open up the world, and Hugo is the only other existence in her lonely world, and the only "outlier" she can accept.

The night I was followed, the night Mr. Perfect said goodbye, the night I got mad because I studied the acting, the night I stayed up studying the script, the night I watched a classic movie while eating junk food, the night I was so immersed in the game that I forgot the passage of time, the night when I couldn't sleep at all after moving out of Sunset Square......

She was used to the company of the figure beside her, she didn't want to break such a situation, and she couldn't break it, because she couldn't bear the possible "loss", even if it was just thinking about it, and her breathing stopped in an instant.

Therefore, this tango should be over, it should be over at this moment, she shouldn't continue to think nonsense, she should suppress the boiling turmoil in her mind. However, just closing his eyes, the surging leaping sensation made the whole chest cavity as if there were a hundred butterflies flapping their wings at the same time, as if they were trying to break out of the cocoon all the time, which made Charlize suffer.

"Just for a moment...... Just like that for a short while, and then continue to enjoy it for a short time. Don't worry, Hugo won't notice it, it's ...... This is just her instantaneous sprout, which may appear all the time in her life, does not mean anything, and does not have any practical significance, so ...... So it doesn't matter, when this moment is over, everything will be back to normal. Yes, yes. ”

So, let the tango last a little longer.