At this moment, waiting is also tormenting, thinking that Zhao Yan failed to hear her determination clearly, Jin Yu, who was completely open, said again.

"Please let the emperor give me a death!"

It was not enough to hurt people once, and it hurt his heart again, Zhao Yan's whole person suddenly seemed to be filled with anger, shook off the golden jade, stood up like a mountain rising from the ground, and scolded loudly.

"At this moment, you are still full of the safety of that criminal, Huo Xiaoyu, it's been eight years, and you and Luo Zhiqiu have deceived me for eight years! What is it that makes your heart so iron, so ruthless, where do you put my feelings, where do you put them!! ”

With tears in his eyes, Jin Yu raised his head to look at Zhao Yan with the strength to eat, and he was still so unattainable in his hazy sight, which made people feel awe-inspiring; The flying dragon in the sky, the fish in the water, the distance between them was so obvious, under Zhao Yan's innate majesty, Jin Yu leaned down weakly and bowed at his feet.

"Eight years, it was eight years and eight years ago, a fire in the Star Hall burned the past to ashes, there is no Concubine Chen in this world, there is no Huo Xiaoyu in this world"

After the anger, there was infinite regret, and Zhao Yan, who had already left his dignity behind, also bowed down and knelt down in front of Jin Yu, locked her into his arms again, and said in a panicked voice.

"I know, I know that you blame me for not protecting you eight years ago, you're blaming me for hiding that's why I'm hiding, right?! I will make up for the debt I have incurred in the past eight years, and I will, I just ask you not to treat me like a stranger."

Men don't flick when they have tears, but even if they are resolute, they can't beat the cold heart. The feelings are lingering, and the slightest thread is heart-wrenching, destroying the unbreakable will in the heart. Love to the depths of the people. The tears still fell out of Zhao Yan's eyes that had lost their square inches.

How can there be hate without love? Love and hate are infatuated, even if a person with a strong heart falls into "love", no matter how much he resists and struggles, it is in vain. And Jin Yu, who had already woken up from the girl's dream, wanted to compromise again and again, but he couldn't resist the little persistence in his heart.

If you don't love it, you can't love it, and Zhao Yan wants to regain the old love. She can't give it, and she can't afford it.

"It is difficult to collect the water, and it is difficult to round the broken mirror. Betrayal is like a rift in the consummation, no matter how much you try to cover it up, it still exists. Your Majesty, I can't be the Huo Xiaoyu you expect anymore. ”

It was like a punch in the chest. The pain made Zhao Yan's eyes burst into tears. The trembling embrace was faintly visible, and it was his firm confidence to regain the past and then be invisibly destroyed. But even if she said something piercing, Zhao Yan still refused to let go and didn't want to let go.

It turns out that a proud son like him can also love a person to the bone. But now facing Huo Xiaoyu's determination, he is like a hedgehog who is afraid of cold, frantically trying to find warmth in others. was poked in the soft spot by the vertical thorn on Huo Xiaoyu's body, and it hurt. Endure it too.

"I don't care, I only know that you are me, my Zhao Yan's woman, and no one wants to get involved in half a point again!"

What a grace!

Jin Yu couldn't help but shiver in Zhao Yan's arms, and his heart was as cold as frost and ice. At this time, she realized that the repression in the palace in those years was such a reason.

She is a living person, not an artifact that anyone arbitrarily possesses according to their likes and dislikes!

"Okay, I'll give it to you."

Jin Yu responded in a trance, but Zhao Yan felt that the back of his head was hit hard, and he was stunned! I didn't have time to argue, but I heard Jin Yu continue to babble.

"In addition to Huo Xiaoyu's skin, what other traces of my past are? If the emperor thinks it's rare, take it, it's just an empty shell. ”

The words were like an invisible slap on Zhao Yan's face, as a man, a man who had loved Huo Xiaoyu for many years, he naturally couldn't help but compare himself with another man.

"You, you can tell me, what is there about me that is not as good as Luo Zhiqiu? What he can give you, I can give you too! ”

"You can't give me peace."

Simply answered, Jin Yu quickly closed his eyes, and the unbearable past of the past resurfaced in his mind, as if he was in another world.

"What I want is calm and quiet, which is exactly what the emperor can't give me. The palace is a huge golden cage for me, and although I have fine clothes and food, and enjoy endless glory and wealth, I can stay in that place like a bird with broken wings, unable to fly freely in the vast world; Stuffed in that harem, the heart will become insensitive, become insatiable for power, and gradually, in order to keep this golden cage and consolidate its position, it will begin to breed a harmful heart; I was afraid of that life, so I chose to run away. ”

Tears flowed, but Jin Yu's face gradually showed a smile, bitter.

"For me, what is the difference between being given death by the emperor at this moment and being slowly tortured to death by the darkness of the harem? With the same ending, I'd rather choose a more comfortable way to die than live in that treacherous hell. ”

"Keke Xiaoyu, isn't there me?"

Zhao Yan's words were quite unconfident. Eight years ago, this sentence was broken, and now what is the convincing power of moving out again? Even Zhao Yan himself was wondering what an ugly and dark house he was in.

"How can I, Huo Xiaoyu, have the emperor's mercy and work hard to maintain it? You are the emperor, the Son of Heaven who is admired and relied on by all the people, and your existence is not for a single person, but for the well-being of the world; In the past, he occasionally received the favor of the Sacred Heart, but he attracted the jealousy and hatred of others, which led to the disaster of killing, who is right and who is wrong, in the final analysis, Huo Xiaoyu's own fate is shallow and blessed, and he can't afford the emperor's favor. ”

The faded past is only accompanied by black and white, and there is no color that I have been looking forward to.

"You can't protect me. The Son of Heaven has the responsibility of the Son of Heaven, not everything is as he wants, just as he couldn't protect Ah Heng's child at the beginning, how sure is the emperor to protect me in the harem? The ancestral family law can't tolerate me, the court ministers can't tolerate me, and the harem has no place for me, your emperor, your Huo Xiaoyu is dead, I can't be her anymore, right? ”

Jin Yu's words were as cold as ice water, extinguishing Zhao Yan's expectations from head to toe; He has been the son of heaven in the Great Song Dynasty for twelve years, but he didn't expect to retain his naïve side! She said it very reasonably, even if Zhao Yan took care of her again, took pity on her, and took her back to the palace regardless of her previous suspicions, but she could no longer be the Huo Xiaoyu she used to be.

There is a kind of regret in life, which is called the passage of time. (To be continued......)