Chapter 130: Poverty and Self-Esteem

The vegetables are all eaten every morning, and there is nothing left at this hour, so Tongxi cooked a bowl of noodles and brought out the remaining steamed buns and side dishes for the clerk to eat.

Su Miao didn't look at the paperwork, so she let him eat in the corner by himself, sent away the other employees, and didn't let Su Xian and others watch, only she and Hu Shi were left in the hall on the first floor behind the counter.

The clerk ate slowly with his head down, although he couldn't tell that he was hungry, but the noodle soup, steamed buns, and side dishes were all eaten, and even the green onions in the pickles were all eaten. After eating and drinking, he fidgeted for a while before getting up from the chair, tensed his back, walked to the counter in a restrained manner, made a deep bow at Su Miao, and said softly:

"Thank you girl for helping me twice, and I will definitely give up my life when I have the ability to stay in Xia."

Su Miao put down the account book, glanced at him, and asked, "Your name is clerk?" ”

"Yes." The clerk was stunned for a moment and responded.

"You seem to like to faint outside the gate of our Su Ji." Su Miao said lightly.

The clerk was ashamed for a while, his face flushed, he took a step back, and made a deep gesture:

"I have caused a lot of trouble to the girl, I am ashamed, and I hope the girl will not mind, this time must be the last time."

"Count me nosy, Zhao He is your neighbor, he said that you haven't passed the exam for ten years, you are already twenty years old, you have not entered the official school and have no ability to make money, and the mother who raised you is currently sick. I don't know if he's too harsh, but if your mother is sick, you can still faint from hunger. In other words, your mother doesn't even have the money to ask for a doctor to take medicine, so it's just a minor illness, and if it's a major illness that can't be treated without Langzhong. What's the difference between your delay and murder? Besides, you are twenty years old, you are still a man, and you have no disabilities, and I can't understand that you would go hungry without a mother. I heard that it was because your mother wanted you to study and forbade you to go out to work, but the next children's exam is next year, can you be a god who can insist on the next year's scientific examination just by studying without eating or drinking? Su Miao asked lightly and slowly.

Even the paperwork is red in the neck, and I have eaten too much just now and piled it all up in my heart. At this time, because her words kept going up. He hung his head and gritted his teeth, and after a while, he said softly:

"Thank you for your care. But this is a matter of the next, the girl doesn't know the truth, and asks the girl not to say more. ”

"How do you talk, you kid!" Hu's temper has also been much restrained since his family was on the right track, but at this time, he still couldn't help but drop the abacus, and his triangular eyes widened. "My girl is saying good things to you for your good. Why don't you know what to do, she didn't say anything unpleasant, she said it politely enough, you dead boy kicked your nose in the face, our family is open to do business, not for people like you to eat white food, you are shameless to be kind to you, if the old lady would have scolded you to death and kicked you out. You think that if you fall in front of someone's house, someone will entertain you with delicious food and drink, dream about you! ”

Clerical's brain buzzed. The hot blood all surged up and made his body shake a little, and he didn't know whether he was frightened by Hu's vicious appearance or stabbed by the sharp scolding, he took half a step back, hung his head and made a deep gesture:

"The eldest lady misunderstood, and I am very grateful to the girl. I won't come again in the next, the girl's kindness will be repaid on the next day, thank you girl, say goodbye in the next! With that, he turned around and staggered out with his spine strained.

Su Miao didn't say anything, lowered her head and continued to take inventory.

In the corridor leading to the back door, Chun Niang clasped her hands to her chest and said disdainfully:

"Sure enough, he is a poor scholar, and he takes shamelessness as a face!"

"I have a kind of idiot girl," Ning Le originally wanted to call her "idiot woman", but she changed her mouth in the cold face of the aftertaste, touched her nose and said sarcastically, "I have a premonition that Su Miao is going to start picking things up again." ”

"If that's the case, you have to get along well, East and West One, East and West No. 2, take care of East and West No. 3." Su Yan pointed to the aftertaste, then pointed to Ning Le, and said with a smile.

Ning Le glanced at him and wrapped his elbow around his neck: "You say it again!" ”

Aftertaste pressed Su Yan's beautiful head, Su Yan screamed, and covered his mouth again.

"The second sister is nosy." Su Chan squatted at the base of the wall and sighed helplessly.

The paperwork had already walked to the threshold, hesitated, did not take a step, stood for a long time before turning around, clenched his fists, strode in front of Su Miao with the rag bag on his body, and plucked up courage to say:

"Girl."

"Do what?" Su Miao's tone didn't get worse because of his previous ignorance.

"The girl's family has a Xiucai Gong who is studying in the official school, and there is a Chengni inkstone here that was handed down from her grandfather, I wonder if the girl is interested?" The clerk stiffened in front of the counter, gritting his teeth and whispering.

"You're here to sell inkstones?" Su Miao was stunned for a moment and asked.

The clerk felt more and more ashamed, but had to answer: "My mother is seriously ill, and there is no silver to invite Langzhong, the only valuable thing is the inkstone handed down by this ancestor, and I hesitated for a long time before deciding to sell it. This inkstone is definitely a good inkstone, my father has been reluctant to use it when he was alive, and after his father passed away, he was kept by his mother until he was given the next time to use it after the county examination. Although it has been used, it is cherished very much in the next, and it is no different from new. Thinking about your house, Su Xianggong is already a student, a good inkstone is rare, if it is really collected by the pawnshop, it may not fall into the hands of anyone, if it is in the hands of Su Xianggong, it is not an insult to accompany the master to read every day, if the girl wants, you can sell it to the girl at a low price. When he said the word "sell," his head pressed even lower, as if squeezed out of his teeth.

This person really doesn't know how to sell things, and he said that he didn't sell it because he was not satisfied with the price offered by the pawnshop, and now he said that he would sell it to her at a low price.

Su Miao couldn't cry or laugh, looking at him, he hung his head deeply, and his hands tightly held the cloth bag in his arms, I don't know if it was because he was about to sell the ancestral treasure or because he was really ashamed to sell like this, although he couldn't see his face. The aura he exuded was very frustrated, obviously a seven-foot boy who was already twenty years old, was even more helpless and panicked than a seven or eight-year-old child when he encountered difficulties. This person seems to have no ability to survive on his own except for reading. After a while, she sighed lightly and asked:

"How much are you going to sell?"

The clerk was happy in his heart, and then he became sad again, and he felt a sense of guilt for betraying his ancestors, paused, gritted his teeth and replied softly:

"Ten taels of silver ......" he replied very apprehensively. I am afraid that my asking price will make the other party feel too high and be rejected.

"You kid robbery!" Hu didn't know how valuable the Chengni inkstone, one of the four famous inkstones, was worth it, she only knew that ten taels of silver could buy many heavenly dishes.

"Okay." Su Miao simply agreed.

"You girl has a brain worm too!" Hu screamed.

Su Miao had already picked up ten ingots of silver from the cash box and handed them to the paperwork.

"Thank you, girl! Thank you, girl! Although the guilt is still accumulated in the chest, the mother's medical expenses have been settled. The clerk rejoiced and thanked him again.

"This is the last time, don't faint at my door again, I save the emergency but not the poor." Su Miao said lightly.

The clerk stiffened. There was a pause. Nodding, his face hot and red spread to the base of his ears, and he whispered again, "Thank you, girl." He turned around, hugged the cloth bag in his hand that had been rewrapped in silver, and went out with his back straight.

"Is Chengni inkstone so expensive?" Su Yan asked curiously about the aftertaste.

"The real Chengni inkstone is worth a thousand gold, and the fake Chengni inkstone is no different from the ordinary inkstone."

"Is he true or false?"

"Chengni inkstone is only for Liangdu, and other places are fake."

"That means that the second sister spent ten taels of silver to buy a fake?"

"Your second sister is not buying fakes, she is being a Guanyin Bodhisattva." Aftertaste said with a smile.

The clerk walked out of Su Ji with his baggage. Walking home, when he passed by the side door of Su Ji, he suddenly heard a man calling him in a deep voice:

"Hey!"

He was stunned for a moment. Following the prestige, I saw a short but sturdy young man looking at him with his feet crossed and his chest crossed, the man was wearing a short brown, his hair was tied with a hairband at will, the sky was too dark, and he didn't know who this person was, but he vaguely guessed from the position where he was standing that this person should be Su Ji's person.

"What advice does Brother Tai have?" He asked politely.

Ning Le glanced at him, scratched the back of his head, and sneered a little impatiently: "Your crepe talk is really annoying!" ”

The clerk was stunned, his self-esteem was bruised, and he bit his lip, he didn't need to be scoldly spoken by a stranger, and turned around to leave.

"Hey!" Ning Le called.

The clerk frowned and turned to face him.

"If you have the heart, even if you come to Su Miao and ask her to give you a job, you know that you won't do anything, but Su Miao is the kind of person who will not blame you for driving people as long as you study with your heart, even if you make a mistake no matter how strict you are, you are not a fool, as long as you are willing to learn, you will definitely become comfortable. Not to mention the salary, at least there is no problem for you to provide three meals, and maybe you can pack the leftovers and sell them back to your mother. When do you have to rely on your mother to raise you, a big man with complete hands and feet can faint on the street with hunger, and when your mother is sick, she has to rely on selling inkstones to invite Langzhong, you are not ashamed, I am ashamed of you! ”

The clerk's heart was tumbling, he only felt ashamed, extremely ashamed, biting his lip without saying a word, his head was almost lowered to the bottom of his neck, his fists were clenched tightly in his sleeves, and he didn't say a word.

He guarded his self-esteem, which had long been shattered and meaningless, which made Ning Le look angry for a while, sneered, and said disdainfully:

"What, because your father is a showman and you are a scholar, you can't come out to work as a handyman at a low price? Phew! Your father is a poor sour show is a fart, Lao Tzu's father is still a second-class jinshi, and Lao Tzu is not still a handyman now! Don't you realize that you are now a cheap life that will starve to death if no one gives alms, and people who don't even have the courage to change their cheap lives still want to be a nobleman, and you don't pee to take care of whether you are worthy or not! He spat hard, turned his head contemptuously, and went through the door.

Every bone crack in his body was buzzing, he hung his head in a daze, his heartbeat was louder than ever, it seemed that every inch of blood in his body could be heard clearly, and in the night, he hugged the burden in his arms tighter.

Ning Le turned around gloomily and walked back. He is not the same as the clerk, he is luckier than the clerk, he has a capable father, he has had a presumptuous life, but they also have the same, that is, the self-esteem that is still inflating even when they are deep in darkness, the useless self-esteem that cannot even fill the stomach. He seemed to see the self in him who was stubbornly guarding his face, which made him feel annoyed and made him want to subconsciously tear up the useless protective net and force him to recognize the reality.

"It's really rare that Xiao Lele can say such strict words, although it is a little vicious." Su Miao leaned against the brick wall in the corner and said with a smile.

Ning Le was startled, calmed down, and suddenly became angry, and shouted at her angrily: "The person who eavesdropped is the worst!" Idiot woman! With a flushed face, he strode towards the room.

Su Miao raised her eyebrows.

"Ning Le has been getting more and more unruly recently, and it seems that he needs to be re-taught." Aftertaste brought a cup of tea, and heard the roar from afar, frowned, and said in a deep voice.

Su Miao took the tea he handed over, blew it gently, and said with a smile: "That's right, I'll leave it to you." ”

So in the next month, Ning Le spent a month that was even more "sad" than when he was a rookie since he arrived at the Su family, of course, this is a later story.

Dead.

Aftertaste opened the back door of the restaurant and came to the kitchen, and Su Yan followed behind him.

The stove was lit, and after a while, the soup stock was tumbling in the pot, and after a while, he shook his head, stepped forward and patted him on the shoulder. Su Yan stepped aside, and the aftertaste lifted the wok lightly twice, and the heavy iron pot swayed freely in his hand like a fan, skillfully and smoothly, Su Yan flattened his mouth and lowered his head.

"Your strength is too small, take the time to practice more." Aftertaste said lightly.

"Oh." Su Yan responded lightly, paused, and raised his head to him, "Nasty ghost, thanks to you for holding the second sister today, I'm really afraid that she will kick Xianglin out." Although I think it's strange that Xianglin likes to apply grease and powder, he is a good friend of mine, and he is good to me, and he always helped me not to be bullied when he first entered school, and I didn't want to stop him from coming to our house because he liked to apply grease powder. ”

"Your second sister is just a little surprised, she is not the kind of person who judges people by their appearance."

"I know, but if she knew that there were many people like Xianglin in the official school, and those people still earned pocket money by currying favor with rich students, the second sister would definitely be worried, and maybe let me drop out of school directly."

"Worry is for sure, dropping out won't."

"Anyway, I've never had friends, but now I have friends, and I think it's fun to go to school. Xianglin is a nice person, and although he always does things I don't understand, I think he must have had his own ideas. Su Yan said firmly.

Looking at him, he sighed lightly: "You are really similar to your sister at this point!" ”

"Huh?" Su Yan was stunned.

After the aftertaste, he didn't say it anymore, put the roasted chicken on a plate, Su Yan immediately took the chopsticks and tasted it, squinted his big eyes and smiled:

"Not bad!"

"Far from it." The aftertaste is faint.

Su Yan's smiling face suddenly collapsed. (To be continued......)