"My mother actually had a child out of wedlock, and in her family, it was not tolerated at all. But in order to protect me, my mother had to tell my grandfather about my father's identity, that is, the emperor who was still reigning at that time, and because of this, I was retained. ”

Wu Ying vaguely remembered what Qin Yan said, but she didn't expect it to be true.

"Although I was left behind, I had to experience the pain of being separated from my mother since I was a child."

"Why?" Because she is also a mother, she understands the pain of separation, and at this moment she feels a little sorry for Yan Mo, who was forced to separate from her mother.

Yan Mo's answer was faint, and he couldn't hear any feelings, "Because my grandfather was afraid that my mother's affairs would be discovered by people outside, and he was afraid that it would affect the family's business, so he sent me to Ganlu Temple." ”

"And my mother is only allowed to visit me once a month."

"Have you ever hated it?" Is he indifferent in the face of the indifference of his relatives?

"Hate, how can I not hate, but later, I became the ruler of this southern kite country, and the height is unbearable, do you know, in fact, the rumors of people outside are not wrong, I just stepped on the blood of my brother to get to where I am today, but I don't regret it, because they were unfavorable to me first, I just wanted to protect myself. But when I remembered my grandfather, they didn't hurt me, and then the hatred gradually faded. ”

It's good to be light, if a person lives his life with hatred, I'm afraid he will never be happy.

"Although my grandfather let me live in the temple, he didn't let me shave my head, in fact, he was also thinking that one day I could be taken back to the southern kite country, but because of the hair accumulation, I didn't get along with the other novices in the temple, they rarely interacted with me, and even isolated me. At first I didn't understand, but then I realized that I was really different from them, at least I had relatives who came to see me every month, and they were all orphans, and I knew they envied me. ”

"Gradually, I got used to their cold eyes, and I didn't talk to anyone anymore, except for the occasional Ye Kang who would come and talk to me, although most of the time he was talking, I don't remember if I was listening at the time. Even the abbot told my grandfather that I was not suitable to stay here, and that I would only become more and more withdrawn, but my grandfather would never let go. ”

"After many disappointments, I began to think that it was good to stay at Ganlu Monastery, and I had been living in the temple for ten years."

At the age of ten, he can already distinguish some things, not to mention that Yan Mo actually grows faster than his peers in such an environment.

"That year, you and your family came to the temple to make incense, at that time you were only so small, a small one, with white skin, soft hair, and very well-behaved, I promise that it was the cutest little girl I have ever seen," Yan Mo recalled the past, he was a little excited, and even his hands were gesturing, the whole person was less angry, and he looked like a gentle son of a rich family.

"My mother just came to see me and brought me a lot of delicious food, but I didn't like the sweet and greasy feeling, and I was thinking about how to dispose of these things when I heard a voice."

On that day, the sky was blue, and because of the rain the night before, the ground was slippery, and the smell of earth could be smelled everywhere.

Ganlu Temple is a temple in Cannes where incense is at its peak, and the sound of chanting can be heard from inside all day long.

The first day of the new year of each month is the big day for the release of life in the temple, and it is necessary to start preparing from the day before, because this time I heard that there will be many wives of official eunuchs coming here, so it is very important.

The boy looked at the oiled paper bag in his hand, what did his mother say to him just now: "Mother knows that you are not having a good time here, if you wait a little longer, your mother will definitely come to pick you up and go home." ”

Go home? My mother seems to tell him this every time she comes, and her ears are calloused.

I don't have expectations for a long time, but I always come to give him hope, and my mother doesn't seem to recognize the facts.

"Woo woo, it hurts."

Why is there still crying in the backyard? The boy was tempted in his heart, thinking that it was those little novices who wanted to fix him again, and he was not so easily fooled.

Guarding the way to the source of the sound, he saw a small dough sitting on the ground, his whole face buried in his arms, crying miserably.

Is she alone too? A feeling called distress came to him, and for the first time, he took the initiative to ask, "What's wrong with you?" ”

The little girl didn't seem to hear anyone calling her, and she couldn't stop crying, and the boy didn't mean to leave, so he sat down beside her, one big and one young, just silent.

Xu was tired of crying, the little girl finally raised her head, saw the people around her, was stunned, and asked in a milky voice, "Who are you?" What are you doing here? ”

The boy saw her appearance clearly, small facial features, with tears in her big eyes, but she didn't feel sloppy at all, in his impression, crying children always have a lot of tears and snot, dirty, but the little doll in front of her is different, even if she is crying, but so cute that people can't help but want to pinch it, is it as soft as cotton.

"I should ask you that, little milk baby! I'm living here, and you say why can't I be here anymore! He suddenly felt that this little doll should be interesting.

The little girl nodded as if she didn't understand, but after looking at him carefully, she pouted, "You liar!" ”

"Liar? I don't! The boy cried out.

"I've seen the little novices in the temple, they, the top of their heads are all bare, you're not!" At such a young age, I really can't find the right words to describe it.

Fortunately, the boy did not have much trouble listening, "because my brother is different from them." ”

"Different? Why is it different? The little girl looked like she was humbly asking for advice.

The wet eyes look at you like this, and the boy is itching to see it, and finally reaches out and pinches the soft flesh of her face. The touch was even softer than he imagined, and he was reluctant to let go.

"Yes, it's different. Because my brother is going home in the future, just staying here temporarily, those bald brothers are going to stay here for the rest of their lives, and they have no home. The boy tried to say the words that the little girl could understand.

"They don't have a home, that's not very pitiful." These wet eyes are about to cry again.

Looking at her appearance, she should have been pampered since she was a child, she is a little girl from a rich family, she has never experienced any illness and pain, starvation and cold, so she is very simple and kind.

Are they pitiful? The boy really didn't think that compared to those displaced children, these little novices were already very happy here, and they didn't have to worry about three meals, and they finished their morning and evening classes every day, and lived a dull life, which was not very good!

But what is the use of telling her this, she doesn't understand.