Chapter 238: This Is Me
"Big brother!"
"President!"
Zheng Xiuheng stopped, stretched out his hand and rubbed Li Zhien's head and smiled: "How about studying with three teachers?" ”
Li Zhien was very happy to see Zheng Xiuheng, but he was surprised that the eldest brother looked more handsome than before: "Big brother, I am still studying hard, Teacher Liu Xilie said that he is studying well, the new hairstyle of the eldest brother is so handsome, does the eldest brother wear contact lenses?" ”
Zheng Xiuheng smiled: "It's a new hairstyle, as for the contact lenses, there are no more, my eyes are actually very good, by the way, Zhiyan!" ”
"Ah, what's the matter with the president?" Park Ji-yeon looked at Zheng Xiuheng blankly, her face was red, in fact, her thoughts were the same as Lee Ji-eun's, the current president looks so handsome, maybe this is the type that little girls like more, it's better than being mature and stable or sunny.
"Let's go home when you have time, although your Abba is at fault, but no matter what the reason, since he is willing to change, this is always moving in a good direction, because it is a family, so be tolerant!"
"You two have to work hard, whether you want to be a singer or an actor, especially Ji-eun, the big brother has a lot of expectations for you, but now, you can do what you want to do the most, tomorrow I will tell the teachers and let them teach you what you want to learn the most, everything is determined by your preferences, work hard, and make music happily, you know?"
Zheng Xiuheng gently pinched Li Zhien's little face, and Li Zhien blushed and nodded his little head excitedly.
After saying goodbye to the two little girls, Zheng Xiuheng took a step and walked down, and Li Xiaoli, who was following behind, looked at Zheng Xiuheng in great astonishment.
Coming to the first floor, Zheng Xiuheng went to the practice room again, and gave them pocket money to eat well, and the five girls who were practicing hard were all shocked by such a sunny president, and heard Park Ji-yeon say that the president also has a twin brother. Choi Ji Na wonders if it can't be true?
Standing at the door of the company, the afterglow of the sunset shone on people, Zheng Xiuheng stretched his waist, his eyes kept looking at the sky, and the sky in the evening made him a little dazed.
"Hey, aren't you going to eat, shall we go like this?" Li Xiaoli looked at Zheng Xiuheng with a sunny face and asked in a stiff tone, but his eyes were full of curiosity when he looked at Zheng Xiuheng.
Zheng Xiuheng glanced back at Li Xiaoli, who was gorgeously dressed, then looked at his white shirt and black trousers, and then smiled: "That's it." If you're not afraid, that's it! ”
"Huh?"
"That's all!"
Zheng Xiuheng grabbed Li Xiaoli's jade hand and pulled her to the other side of the street, which scared Li Xiaoli, but seeing that Zheng Xiuheng had no affection in his eyes except for gentleness and a smile on his face, he couldn't even find the slightest worry, and somehow his left hand was a little harder.
Thinking of the scandal that might sweep the Internet tomorrow, Lee Hyo-ri shook his hair and looked at the man next to him. Suddenly he smiled, and that kind of vitality was really fascinating.
The two were walking on the street, and there were already people around them who were exclaiming Lee Hyo-ri. Seeing the two holding hands is even more crazy.
After walking hundreds of meters, the two entered a Western restaurant.
The two talked and laughed in the western restaurant, and Li Xiaoli no longer said anything to Zheng Xiuheng. The two dated like a couple, and Lee Hyo-ri cleverly took the opportunity to ask a lot of questions about Zheng Xiuheng, and some of them were answered. Some of them are cute and say they are secrets.
After dinner, the Internet was already full of news that Lee Hyo-ri and the mysterious man were holding hands and shopping for dinner, and the whole Internet was already boiling.
But the party went to the cinema after dinner, and after watching a romance movie sweetly, the time was less than ten o'clock, Zheng Xiuheng seemed to be about to use up all the time of the day, and Li Xiaoli was also influenced by Zheng Xiuheng, became engaged, and his words became a lot more unrestrained, and his mouth also recovered the words of his sister and mother, and occasionally reached out to pinch Zheng Xiuheng's cheek, while Zheng Xiuheng fought back with a smile, and the two laughed on the road, as if they had taken off all the shackles.
When I came to Myeongdong Commercial Street, although the flow of people was reduced at the moment, it was just the closing time of some shops.
The two walked hand in hand on the commercial street, and there were already a lot of people holding mobile phones to take pictures behind them.
"There are a lot of people in the back, aren't you worried? I'm the pillar of the company, what if this is the end of it? Li Xiaoli took Zheng Xiuheng and asked with a smile, the slippers under his feet were thrown up and down, and he seemed to be in a very happy mood.
Zheng Xiuheng also replied with a smile: "There are always many things that must be done in life, just treat it as indulgence, some things should always be done!" ”
"So what exactly do you want to accomplish?" Lee Hyo-ri asked curiously.
Zheng Xiuheng looked at the bright shopping malls around him, looked at the sky again, and then said with a smile: "Because, I didn't jump out of a stone, so I don't belong to me alone, so there must be something to do!" ”
"Cut, fake mystery!" Li Xiaoli pursed her lips and replied dissatisfiedly, but at this moment her mood can no longer be described as excited, she has been in the entertainment industry for so many years, she has never been so crazy, she is already a 28-year-old woman, for Zheng Xiuheng, Li Xiaoli feels that she is an old woman, she has got everything she deserves, and now she is pursuing more things that she has done differently than before, and today she has done what she would never dare to do before, and the unwillingness and unhappiness that have accumulated in her heart have also disappeared in the date with Zheng Xiuheng.
Looking at the boys and girls taking pictures around him, Lee Hyo-ri also raised his scissor hand with a smile.
"Hyorioni, is it a relationship?" A young girl shouted.
Li Xiaoli replied with a smile: "This is my cousin, handsome, haha!" ”
Zheng Xiuheng smiled slightly, seeing that this sister who didn't answer positively was really smart.
Came to a shoe store that had not yet closed, Zheng Xiuheng pulled Lee Hyori and walked in, and when he came out, Lee Hyori had already put on a pair of black flat shoes under his feet, although it looked a little ruined the overall fashion, but Lee Hyori didn't mind, and the two happily walked around Myeongdong.
Soon they turned around the mall, the alley, and circled around several times, and the time was already 11 o'clock, and the two came to the square where they rested on the east side of Myeongdong Commercial Street, and the people who followed them basically dispersed.
"Happy?" Lee Hyo-ri looked at the smiling man and asked with a smile.
Zheng Xiuheng nodded, his eyes shining incomparably. Li Xiaoli was a little strange, and looked at Zheng Xiuheng's eyes, but found the band that was cleaning up after the street performance.
"Why do you want to put on a show?" Li Xiaoli asked with a smile, suddenly thinking of something interesting, his eyes rolled wildly, as if he was thinking about something.
And Zheng Xiuheng didn't hide his thoughts at all, and nodded directly: "Now there are a lot of inspirations coming from all directions!" ”
"Really?"
Li Xiaoli suddenly pulled Zheng Xiuheng forward excitedly, Zheng Xiuheng did not resist, and the two came to the band that was already cleaning up.
"Lee, Lee Hyori!!"
The four boys, who looked like college students, screamed in fright. Then there was excitement.
"Can I borrow your keyboard and equipment?" Li Xiaoliwei raised his head and asked with a smile.
"Absolutely!"
"Wow, I'm not dreaming, Lee Hyori wants to use my keyboard!"
Looking at the excited boys, Lee Hyori responded with a smile, and Zheng Xiuheng is the same, in fact, maybe they are about the same age as themselves, so it's really good to make music and perform together.
Soon the four young people put the keyboard, the microphone, and the stereo connected. looked at Lee Hyo-ri expectantly, thinking she was going to perform.
But Li Xiaoli looked at Zheng Xiuheng, but Zheng Xiuheng turned his head and smiled: "Actually, today is the twelfth year that my mother and father left." Thank you very much, thank you for your concern for me, and thank you for being willing to accompany me for this time, even if it is a deception, even if it is a day. I want them to know that I'm having a good time, and that I'm not trying to avoid you or doing anything, because that's who I am. It's not fake, that's what I am! ”
"Thank you, my lovely cousin"
Zheng Xiuheng bowed ninety degrees to Li Xiaoli, the smile on his face slowly faded, turned around and walked to the keyboard not far away, and slowly sat down in the chair.
Li Xiaoli looked at Zheng Xiuheng blankly, the excitement on his face dissipated, he suddenly bit his lower lip, looked at Zheng Xiuheng's eyes with incomparably heartache, and his nose was a little sour.
"It's not that he ignores me, it's that I don't know him at all!"
There are countless things to say to relatives and Zheng Xiuheng, whether it is parents or Zheng's father and Zheng's mother, but for biological parents, Zheng Xiuheng finally stopped deliberately avoiding that question at this moment, just like comforting the girl on the radio, maybe heaven is so close.
Zheng Xiuheng also wants them to know that he is also living well, just today, the twelfth year, a round of years, is enough for him to get out of the forbidden area that he does not want to touch.
Everyone has their own memories, there are happy and beautiful parts, and there are sad and painful places.
The small room, the piano, the books, the sky outside the window, the small trees in the yard, the sunlight shining into the hut, shining on the pale and weak boy, and the boy just staring at the sky, this is the way of life that Zheng Xiuheng has occupied for nearly half of the past ten years.
From a teenager to today, Zheng Xiuheng's body has experienced pain and suffering, and his heart is also surrounded by loneliness, whether it is Li Xiaoli or Han Jiaren, Zheng Xiuheng can't accept them not because he deliberately rejects them and avoids them, but because this is his true self.
If Xiujing was older, she might know her brother better, and if Xiuyan wasn't so decisive, maybe Zheng Xiuheng would have been slowly melted two years ago.
But after all, there is no if, Zheng Xiuheng's life has not really come to his heart except for his parents, it has nothing to do with responsibility, just feelings.
Zheng Xiuheng put his hands on the keyboard, he had a lot to say, maybe it would be easier for them to hear it in this way.
"Ding!"
The soothing and emotional sound of the keyboard made the four young people who were still puzzled look at it in amazement, although it was not a difficult performance, but just an ordinary CODE grabbed their ears and attracted their attention, and the boy with glasses thought that he could not do it.
Zheng Xiuheng had a flat smile on his face, his eyes seemed to be empty, and he seemed to be looking at the distant sky, and he sang along with the music.
"I'm not used to looking up at the sky at any given night
Because it was as if the whole world was going to abandon me, and I didn't like that delicate feeling
The sun that has set far away will still rise again tomorrow
But it doesn't seem like the sun that once shone on me anymore......
Even if you are far away, new feelings will still come
But after that unforgettable separation
You still touch my heart deeply......
Occasionally laugh because I like it
And more often than not, it's because of the experience of happiness
You are still buried deep in my heart today
When I speak to anyone, I have a habit of keeping half of it unspoken
Because it's as if you're going to be left behind if you say it all, and I don't like this subtle premonition
That half-cherished mood, no one can give it
Half broken, I hate to be discovered
Even if you are far away, new feelings will still come
But after that painstaking separation
You still touch my heart deeply
Occasionally laugh because I like it
And more often than not, it's because of the experience of happiness
You are still, still buried deep in my heart. ”
Zheng Xiuheng looked at the sky with red eyes, his vision became a little blurry, maybe he could completely forget about it at a certain point, and he wouldn't be so painful anymore, but was he still a human being at that time?
In the blurred vision, I seemed to see my mother's smiling face and my father's strict expression.
The boy lying on the hospital bed in his mind, looking at the sky outside the window, slowly closed his eyes, tears slipped down again, crying...... I don't know how many times.
For the boy, perhaps the tears had really dried up.
Many people were attracted by singing, and some sensitive girls had already fallen tears, perhaps because Zheng Xiuheng sang too sadly, or maybe it was because of his own emotional richness, but Zheng Xiuheng's singing did not stop!
"Where are you?
Are you still worried about me?
You may have forgotten about me
And occasionally I want to get rid of all the time
And I still can't calmly mention your names and surnames
If it weren't for you, who else would have hugged me?
If it weren't for me, who would remember you?
Even if you are separated, you have to go on forever and forever
There is still a lot to say
There is still love that cannot be fully poured out in my heart, and you are still, still, you are still in my heart! ”
Living with a mask, a cheerful life, a happy life, or a single life is just a way of living.
People always choose the way of life because of the life path they are facing, but most people can't get the way they want to live.
But everyone has the qualifications to be willful, to give up the so-called path of Qiē, just to do something that is willful, boring, and boring in the eyes of others......
Just this time, Zheng Xiuheng was also willful like a child for the last time.
And tomorrow...... I'll leave it to tomorrow. (To be continued......)
PS: "Evening.Sky" AILEE with a slight change of words