"How?"

When asked about her Chinese chef, Anna's voice was filled with anticipation. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

"This ......"

With a wry smile, Su Li shook his head slightly and said, "I'm sorry, madam, Mr. Huntelaar still only used a bowl of soup tonight, and everything else didn't move." ”

It has been three full days since the old man was buried.

During the three days, John barely ate, especially in the evening, except for a few bowls of soup carefully boiled by Su Li, John barely ate a grain of rice, which made the atmosphere in the whole house more and more gloomy.

Biting her lip, Anna said softly, "Okay, you go down and rest, but...... Maybe he'll want to eat at any time, so don't sleep too deeply. ”

For her own Chinese chef, Anna is also quite polite.

From this incident, she can see that John really likes Chinese food, and even if he uses Western food, he just accompanies him and the old man. And in the current situation, Su Li's importance has increased even more, and Anna can't help but be polite.

After Su Li went down, Anna knocked softly on the door of the study.

"Come in."

After a brief silence, a tired, hoarse voice came from the study.

Feeling a pain in her heart, Anna hurriedly pushed open the door and walked in. There was only a small lamp in the room, and John was sitting at his desk, writing something, and when he saw Anna come in, he raised his head and smiled, "It's so late, why haven't you rested yet?" ”

"I ......"

Opening her mouth, Anna didn't know what to say for a while, and finally walked up to John and said softly: "John, I know you're sad, but you can't ignore your body...... You haven't eaten tonight, have you? ”

"Hoo ......"

With a sigh of relief, John shook his head with a wry smile. Of course, he knew that his performance in the past few days was worrying, but to be honest, he really didn't have much appetite, and it was enough to drink that bowl of soup.

After hesitating for a moment, John gently patted Anna's little hand and said, "Don't worry, I just suddenly want to write something, and it's going to be over soon." After I finish writing, I will never do this again. ”

"Really?"

Resisting the urge to ask what to write, Anna's eyes lit up.

"Of course it's true."

Taking a deep breath, John said lightly: "If you don't believe me, you can wait for me here for half an hour, and I will finish writing in half an hour at most, and then I will eat, how about it?" ”

"No, I'll let them go and get you some good food."

As if afraid that John would repent, Anna immediately trotted out.

Shaking his head slightly, John quickly refocused his attention on the blank paper in front of him. It's not important, it's just that John is recording the more than 20 years he has spent with old Huntelaar, leaving the clearest memory of his future self.

For this grandfather, John has mixed feelings.

Naturally, he came with a golden finger and provided him with super benefits, but in the same way, the traverser also has troubles that ordinary people can't understand. For example, the attitude towards his family in this life, whether it is his mother Elizabeth or his grandfather Huntelaar Sr., John has always been a little confused.

Blood-related, they are indeed close family.

But emotionally speaking, it was difficult for John to regard Elizabeth, who was younger than him, as his mother, so from birth to Elizabeth's death, this strange feeling was always with him, as if ...... It's as if Elizabeth wasn't his mother, but just a very close friend. So when Elizabeth died, John would be very sad and sad, but he would only lose one of his closest friends, and definitely not like a person who lost his mother, as if the sky had fallen.

But this time old Huntelaar died, John felt completely different.

Perhaps because of his age, John really regarded old Huntelaar as his grandfather, and from the initial antagonism between the two to the later intimacy, the transformation of this relationship also perfectly fits this feeling. So when old Huntelaar passed away, he really felt the departure of family affection!

Complicated feelings have been tormenting him for the past few days.

It was not just a pain, but also a trepidation, a trepidation unlike anything he had known since he was reborn. That's why he didn't think about eating and drinking these days, and he kept struggling and hesitating in his own little world, until he thought of using words to remember his mood!

After I started writing, something amazing happened.

As the lines of old Huntelaar were recorded, John's mood slowly began to calm down, and today when he wrote to the end, he wrote that he was aware of old Huntelaar's illness and began to prepare for his departure, his mood was miraculously completely calm. At dinner, he was actually fine, but he was in a hurry to finish the last paragraph, so he only drank a bowl of soup......

Just ten minutes later, a memory of a life was recorded.

After packing up what he had written, he put it in an envelope and locked it up, and John sat down silently. In his life, because of his status as a traverser, it was difficult for him to truly identify with the people of this era - just as a Chinese immigrated to the United States and may adapt to that society, but it is difficult to integrate. Perhaps if you are serious about it, there are only a few people to talk about, such as Elizabeth, Old Huntelaar and Anna, and this identification is limited to family affection and other aspects.

It was with this understanding that the departure of old Huntelaar would make John so sad. And this sadness is not only because of the sadness of losing family affection, but also because it makes John feel a strong sense of loneliness.

Over the years, as he has become more and more successful, he has fewer and fewer friends.

The friends I met when I first arrived in New York, including Joshua and Funk, are now rarely interacted with, and the relationship between Osler and Thomas and others in the school and hospital is slowly changing. In comparison, John even prefers to get along with Carnegie, Morgan and others, at least they treat themselves more like ordinary people treat ordinary people.

It was a feeling that John had never expected before.

That's why old Huntelaar's departure made John react like this, and it wasn't until he recorded this memory and mental journey that he calmed down. After all, he is not an ordinary person in his thirties, he has been a human being in two lives, and he has been more than sixty years combined, and his mind is naturally much firmer than ordinary people.

And......

"Squeak!"

The door to the study was pushed open from the outside, and a slender figure walked in quickly.

"John, you're done?"

Anna, who was trying to hold the plate in her hand and had two beads of sweat hanging on the tip of her nose, was pleasantly surprised: "It's just right, I asked Su Li to prepare your favorite food for you, hurry up and eat some." ”

“…… Good. ”

A warm current welled up in his heart, and finally turned into a faint response.

Su Li was indeed very caring, knowing that it was late, and John hadn't eaten much in the past few days, so he prepared a small pot of porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork, a few easily digestible side dishes and a small egg cake.

Taking a deep breath, John picked up the chopsticks in his hand.

The side dishes are light, the egg cake is soft, and the porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork is fragrant, and after being swallowed in one mouthful, John's originally cold body has become warmer.

"How's that, is it enough?"

Adding preserved eggs and lean porridge to John's empty bowl, Anna asked cautiously, a gentle smile on her face.

"Well, that's enough."

Seeing the worry and concern in Anna's eyes, John's heart warmed again, and the loneliness in his heart a few days ago was like an Arctic glacier encountering a greenhouse effect, although it could not disappear completely, but it had melted a lot.

Taking a sip of warm, lubricated porridge, John savored the taste of it earnestly.

He knows that what is gone will never come back, so what he needs to do is to look forward and accompany the people around him step by step. And he also knows that not only the person around him needs him, but the goal in his heart has more people who need him, waiting for him to move on......

……

Well, this chapter is too pretentious.

I am reluctant to delete it when I write it, you have seen it. (To be continued.) )