148 For four years, I have had a bad life
Some indescribable feelings rose from the bottom of Zhang Dongyuan's heart, and he felt a dull pain, he watched her movements, looked at her attitude of not caring.
Du Xue glanced at him, went to the second cabinet, took out a bottle of medicine, opened it, looked at the instructions carefully, poured out two pills, reached out and took the water cup next to him to drink.
Zhang Dongyuan pressed her wrist with one hand, frowned slightly, and said, "What is this?" ”
"Birth control pills, what else?" Du Xue looked up at Zhang Dongyuan with a look of incomprehension: "What's wrong?" You can't try to get me pregnant, do you? ”
Zhang Dongyuan knocked down the pill in her palm with one hand, and the medicine fell to the ground.
Du Xueping said calmly: "Dongyuan, we are not children anymore, you said that you want me to be a lover, I can't get pregnant, how do you explain that I am pregnant?" Wei Jiangtao is my father no matter what, and you are already married. Take 10,000 steps back, even if I try my best to avoid everyone and secretly give birth to this child, will you recognize him? I've seen this scene, Lin Yanchuan is like this, he ......"
"Shut up! Stop it! Zhang Dongyuan suddenly burst out.
Du Xue paused for a moment, reached out to get the bottle of contraceptive pill again, Zhang Dongyuan snatched it and threw it hard, and the whole bottle of medicine fell to the ground, shattering all over the ground.
"Dongyuan, you know better than me......" Du Xue's words only stopped halfway through.
Zhang Dongyuan's whole person pressed over, pressed her on the wall, lingering kisses followed, she couldn't say a word more, almost angry deep into her lips and tongue, so manic and left no room, she didn't move, just endured it like this, let him come.
His movements were so rough that they were almost punishment, and the smell of blood spread out of his mouth without knowing whose it was.
Du Xue remained motionless, like a puppeteer, with her eyes open, looking at him in front of her.
There was a thin line in the corner of his eye.
Du Xue's heart hurt when she saw it, but in such an instant, her heart hurt.
In four years, she has only matured, from a little girl to a woman, and he has lines in the corners of his eyes.
Time never waits for anyone.
Her tears fell and hit him on the cheeks, and he stopped suddenly, as if he was frozen, and slowly raised his head for a long time, looking at her.
There were tears in her eyes, hazy.
This is her, this is Du Xue, the little girl who looks cautious, the little girl in the palm of his hand he feels that he can't run away...... She's not the most beautiful, she's definitely not, but what is he obsessed with it? He said so many vicious words, and in the end it just became a pretext to keep her, he just wanted to keep her......
"Dongyuan, I just didn't meet you at the right time, but I can't go back now, you let go of me, I'll go, I won't show up again, okay? What's the difference between you being with me, with your father and Iwakawa's mother? An illegitimate child, is this what you want? Du Xue's voice was a little choked, and she said slowly.
Zhang Dongyuan just stared at her eyes, kept staring like this, staring tightly: "Du Xue, you have already calculated, you asked me to come up, acting in such a long play, you have calculated everything at all, you know that I can't continue, you know how to let me go, you know that I can't do it, you grasp my weakness step by step, you just rely on me to love you, you are so unscrupulous, you use your little cleverness, relying on me to love you, you want to leave so much......"
Du Xue pursed her lips, and tears fell uncontrollably.
By his love for her......
After all, she never even had any doubts in her heart, he loved her, she always knew.
If he doesn't love, he can't do this, if he doesn't love, he won't say such things in front of her, if he doesn't love, he won't show her his vulnerable side.
"When I loved you, you were in love with Ling Nan, and you can't blame me until today......" Du Xue only said.
His shoulder hurt very much, and he was almost broken by the pain, and he didn't have any strength at all, but compared to the torture in his heart, it was far less.
Zhang Dongyuan let go of his hand, suddenly let go, took a step back, looked at her deeply, turned around and walked out.
Du Xue looked at his back, watched him open the door and go out, listening to the sound of the door closing, tears kept pouring out of his eyes.
Leaning against the wall, barely able to support himself, the temperature at the corners of his lips seemed to remain at hers, but the person had already left.
As she expected, Yiqiē was walking according to her expectations, but why, her heart hurt like this at this moment......
Du Xue sat down slowly, because she had no strength, she slowly sat down against the wall, tears fell uncontrollably, holding her knees with both hands, tightly holding herself together, hugging herself tightly, so as to gain a little strength.
He was gone, completely out of her life, and he said he loved her...... He said he always loved her, but she pushed away.
What he couldn't let go of was the part of the past, the part where he was crazy about Ling Nan, at that time she was tortured too deeply, she couldn't let go of anything, and step by step she came to the day of torturing each other.
Tears fell, breathing could not be steady, trying to inhale, trying to calm down, but the body convulsions were incapacitated.
His body trembled, thinking of his sentence "But I love you", and his heart was like a knife.
But I love you......
***
When the doorbell rang at the door, Du Xue was stunned, stood up, wiped her tears with paper, and went over to open the door.
Why did Zhang Dongyuan come back again? The matter of her living here, only Zhang Dongyuan knew about it when Pan Chen saw it, and she didn't think twice at all.
Opened the door and looked at the people outside the door, Du Xue closed the door hard.
The moment the door closed, a hand stretched out, blocking between the door frame and the door, and was heavily sandwiched, but pushed the door open.
Du Xue was about to close it again, but the people outside had already pushed the door in, looked at Du Xue and smiled: "Long time no see." ”
Du Xue looked at the person in front of him and only said three words: "Get out!" ”
Lin Yanchuan smiled: "Why are you still crying?" When I met Zhang Dongyuan, I thought you ***, it would take an hour to come out, but I didn't expect it to ......" Lin Yanchuan glanced at his watch: "Twenty-four minutes, still crying, it seems that the situation is very interesting." ”
"You get out now! Otherwise, I'll call someone! Du Xue screamed, took a step back, went to get the mobile phone, and called the service number downstairs.
Lin Yanchuan waved his hand: "Don't be so fierce, Du Xue, you forget, I won't hurt you, I'm different from that Zhang Dongyuan, I won't hurt you if I hurt anyone, I will stand in front of you in a car accident, I never want you to get hurt......" to share