219 Idealistic hopes
"Why don't you ask me if I'm doing well, ten years, how many days and nights, with the residual lights like beans to the dawn, in your heart, there is a trace of reluctance to me?" Bai Xing looked at her delicate and beautiful face eagerly, and slowly stretched out his hand, wanting to touch her, but he didn't know what to do, his right hand hung in the air, frozen in place.
Bai Zhu sighed lowly, wiped his hair a few times with the dry towel in his hand, and threw it on his hanging hand, slightly annoyed in his heart, at first he almost killed her, but now he is deeply affectionate, except for strangeness, Bai Zhu really just treats him as a friend, and has no other meaning.
"It's not necessary to say it, you are the Heavenly Court Immortal Monarch, and standing in front of me well now is enough to prove that you are fine, and now, Hanshi's life and death are unknown, and Lu Huaiying died because of me at the beginning, do you think I will be very happy, I just want to return to Luo Chenyi, and ignore the lives of others?"
Turning sideways, her eyes cast into the distance, verdant and vibrant, but she was already like ashes, and all thoughts disappeared: "My relationship has borne too many sacrifices, and I don't have the courage to be as desperate as I was at the beginning...... I went back to Shushan because I couldn't find a cold stone in the mortal world, and he didn't leave a word for me, even if it was a smile or a look...... Nothing, do you understand my pain?"
"Since I went to Shushan, eight years, he has always been silently giving, helping me hide my identity, always standing behind me, I never thought that one day he would leave, no longer appear in my sight, after ten years of wind and rain, I just want to find him now, do ......you understand? I really owe him a lot, if I can find him in this life, no matter what he wants, I will agree!"
Bai Xing couldn't bear it anymore, grabbed her shoulders, and the whole person went around to her, meeting her calm and waveless gaze: "I don't expect you to respond to me anymore, maybe I am just an irrelevant person in your eyes, but you are a person with a husband and children...... Over the years, I have watched little Ah Fei grow up in the dark, he is so sensible, can you bear to leave him, your time with him is not short, you should know better than me, how much he needs his mother!"
"Don't you still understand?" Bai Zhu pulled down his hands and looked at him coldly, without a trace of emotion and emotion: "Whether it is Scarlet Smoke or Bai Zhu, I died ten years ago, and I am just the concubine of the Liu family who was rescued by Hanshi with a soul-attracting lamp - Liu Wangchen!"
“...... From the moment I opened my eyes again, I thought, this name is really suitable for me, and I like it too, do you understand what I mean?" Bai Zhu turned around and stopped looking at him: "If you still remember my kindness to save you in the first place, you can tell me where the cold stone is, if you have nothing to say, then please go back, forgive you!"
Bai Xing watched her back walking away quickly, and couldn't help but roar in pain: "Scarlet Yan, where is your heart? Do you still have a heart?"
The light steps slowed down slightly, paused, and the voice as cool as water did not fluctuate: "My heart was ......crushed by me as early as the day the Lock Demon Tower collapsed" Bai Zhu looked back at him, and evoked a beautiful but no warm smile: "Bai Xing, do you believe it?"
Bai Xing stood in place in a daze, watching her walk and drift away.