Chapter 190: He had mixed feelings
After seeing Lan Lu's daughter Leia, Rong Fanxi could directly think of why Lan Lu wanted to leave back then, and why she refused to sue him all the time, because she and other men had Leia.
"Who is Leia's father? When did you start? Although he was no longer attached to why, he couldn't help but ask.
Lan Lu's expression became deep when he thought of that man, and he sighed heavily before he said, "As you can see, Leia is a mixed-race child, and her father is an Italian named Nicola, a mafia big brother. β
Mafia bosses? Rong Fanxi frowned slightly: "He forced you at that time?" β
To say that there is no coercion, but there is also an element of half-pushing and half-doing, Lan Lu did not specifically explain, but said: "The wood is already in the boat, this is the case, after I had a relationship with him, I became pregnant, he took me to Italy, and I gave birth to Leia." β
Lan Lu voluntarily gave up Rong Fanxi at that time and went to Italy with Nikolai, but her current words, to Rong Fanxi's ears, she was absolutely forced!
Rong Fanxi has always believed that Lan Lu loves him, and Cheng DΓΉ, who loved him so much that he didn't marry him, how could he voluntarily go with the leader of the mafia!
"At that time, he threatened me, saying that if I was not with him, he would kill the man I loved the most, and I couldn't help it." When Lan Lu said this, he didn't dare to look at Rong Fanxi, and he didn't dare to face his eyes directly, "And at that time, I was already with him...... During that time, there was an accident at your house, and you went home for several days without contact...... And then you came back, I don't know and I don't dare to tell you, I'm afraid, you know, I'm afraid you can't forgive me......"
Rong Fanxi covered his face with his hands, and his hands went to the door of his head, feeling complicated.
He himself didn't dare to imagine that if Lan Lu really told him directly, would he forgive her?
And listening to Lan Lu say that Nikolai had threatened her and said that he would kill the man she loved the most, he was even more convinced that Lan Lu was really involuntarily taken away by Nikolai. Otherwise, she wouldn't have even said goodbye, wouldn't have left those words, saying don't look for her, forget her!
Lan Lu's palm wiped it on his nose, erased the nasal voice that came out because of his unsmooth speech, and continued: "A month later, I became pregnant...... At that time, I really didn't know how to face you. I love you, but I'm pregnant with someone else's child...... After that, Nikolai took me to Italy and I gave birth to Leia ......"
As she spoke, she turned her head and saw that Rong Fanxi's eyes were burning with anger, her hands were clenched into fists, and she continued: "Fanxi, I'm sorry, this is an explanation that I have always owed you, and I should have sued you a long time ago, but I really ...... Can't talk about ......"
"Xiaolu, I'm sorry, I didn't protect you well." Rong Fanxi fell into angry self-blame, "I'm sorry to let you suffer so much grievance......"
He wasn't there for her when she needed it most, so she was subjected to Nikolai's poisonous hands!
That Italian man, he Rong Van Xi will definitely not let him go!
"No, Van Xi, you don't have to blame yourself, it's me who is sorry for you." Lan Lu held his hand and grabbed his fist, but comforted him, "In the past few years, I have not been wronged, Nikolai was good to me at first, and I was doing well." β
Hearing Lan Lu say such comforting words, Rong Fanxi felt even more uncomfortable in his heart.
It's that he's useless, his woman was snatched away by someone else and taken away, he actually, without knowing it!
Rong Fanxi felt very defeated, a failure as a man, an unprecedented failure!
"Xiaolu, I'm sorry, I didn't protect my woman!" In addition to feeling that being a man was too much of a failure, Rong Fanxi was full of distress for Lan Lu, and couldn't help but hug her into his arms, thinking of what happened to her, his heart was violently cramping.
Lan Lu was also in a complicated mood, and his voice was choked: "Fanxi, I don't want you to say I'm sorry, listen to you say I'm sorry, I, I feel embarrassed, it was my fault from the beginning, I was sorry for you...... When I arrived in Italy, I decided that I would cut off the past and no longer deserve to be your woman, not worthy of having you, and I believe that there will be a woman who is more suitable for you than me to love you for me...... You've been looking for me all these years, many times, I want to see you, but I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I see you, I can't help it......"
At first, she didn't dare to see Rong Fanxi, because she was sorry for him, so she didn't dare to face him. Later, he was afraid to meet him, and she couldn't help it and wanted to return to his arms, but she felt that it was impossible......
If they meet, even if she can return to him, but she can't hide it from him for the rest of her life, Rong Fanxi knows the truth about her departure, even if she is willing to forgive her, can she still love her as before?
It's better to miss each other than to see each other, as long as Rong Fanxi can't see her, in his heart, she has always been the woman he loves deeply.
With a long sigh of relief, Lan Lu reluctantly raised a pretending relaxed smile: "But it's not over, now it's over." In the past two years, Nikolai has a more tender and beautiful new love, and his mind is not on me, I am dispensable to him, so with the help of my friends, I performed an accident to make everyone think that I am really dead, so that I am free! Now that I'm completely free, I have a daughter, my princess Leia, it's enough......"
"You even lied to me." Rong Fanxi still remembers that when he received the "news of Lan Lu's death", he was difficult to accept and painful.
It was after that that the former Lan Lu, in his heart, really died, he buried her in the bottom of his heart, emptied his heart, and let Xing Ruimeng live in it.
Lan Lu's tone was helpless: "Tricking you over will make it seem more real." β
She thought she was completely free and no longer controlled by anyone, but there was no free lunch in the world, Kang Peiyang kindly helped her, not in vain, she got rid of Nikolai and fell into the hands of Kang Peiyang, these two people are threatening her with their daughters, and whoever is in the hands of her daughter, she will be accused by whom.
"Xiaolu." Rong Fanxi was in a complicated mood, and almost lost the ability to express himself, so he could only hold her tightly in his arms.
Blaming himself for not protecting his daughter back then, feeling an unprecedented failure for thinking that he was not a qualified man, feeling angry at that Italian man, and feeling distressed by what happened to Lan Lu, let Lan Lu float from the bottom of his heart again and occupy his heart.
Leia came out of the airport, and when she was in the car, she was so tired that she fell asleep, and now she woke up and came out of the room to see her mommy and Uncle Shuai hugging each other tightly, opening two watery eyes, and tilting their heads for a while.
Seeing her daughter come out, Lan Lu hurriedly pushed Rong Fanxi away and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.
Leia opened her mouth and asked Lan Lu in Italian: "Mommy, Uncle Van Shee, is it Mommy's new boyfriend?" β
Lan Wei explained to her in Chinese: "Uncle Van Xi is a good male friend of Mommy, a better friend than her boyfriend. β
Boyfriend, once, now he's someone else's husband!
From Lan Lu's answer, Rong Fanxi guessed what question Leia was asking, and added: "Yes, I am your mommy's good friend, a very good friend." Leia, uncle will take care of you and your mommy in the future, do you like uncle? β
Although he didn't keep to this uncle, for the sake of his handsome appearance, Leia nodded: "Leia likes handsome uncles." β
Rong Fanxi accompanied them to eat before leaving, and it was getting dark, and he didn't go home directly.
Parking the car by the river, he stood straight facing the river, and his mood was difficult to calm down.
Xing Ruimeng didn't call him either, urging him to go back, just waited at home, ate first, played with Xiaobao in the playroom for a while, and watched soap operas on the sofa half-lying.
She knew that Jonvanchy might be coming back late, but she just wanted to wait until he returned.
It was already late at night, and when Rong Fanxi walked into the house with a smell of alcohol, Xing Ruimeng was already asleep on the sofa, covered with a thin blanket that someone didn't know who put on her.
Standing in front of the sofa, Rong Fanxi looked at Xing Ruimeng on the sofa fixedly, her brows were slightly tangled.
In his mind, just like the time after he knew that Xing Xiaobao was his biological son, two shadows appeared side by side, one was Lan Lu and the other was Xing Ruimeng, and the faces of the two women were as clear and cute in his mind.
He reached out to touch Lan Lu's face, Lan Lu disappeared, he touched Xing Ruimeng's face again, and Xing Rui Meng also disappeared.
He shook his head vigorously, and only Xing Ruimeng was left in his eyes, Xing Ruimeng who fell asleep on the sofa.
"Wife, if you don't go back to your room to sleep so late, are you waiting for me?" Rong Fanxi squatted down, knelt on one knee to support her body, kept her balance, reached out to wipe the tangled heart of Xing Ruimeng's eyebrows, and then went down the bridge of her nose, scraping the tip of her nose, and her fingers fell on her soft lips.
He leaned over slowly, trying to kiss her, and as he got closer, he suddenly let out a strong burp.
Xing Ruimeng's eyes moved, but she didn't open her eyes, and leaned towards the outside of the sofa.
"Xing Ruimeng, sleep so honestly, you are not allowed to sleep on the sofa in the future, what should I do if I fall down and break my daughter!" Rong Fanxi muttered in his mouth, reached out to catch Xing Ruimeng who was rolling outward, picked her up, and walked upstairs.
When she was put on the bed, Xing Ruimeng woke up in a daze, half-opened her eyes, and called out: "Husband, you're back!" β
"Hmmm! Go back to sleep. Jonvancy kissed her on the lips.
"Uh-huh, what a heavy smell of alcohol, you're drunk......"
Xing Rui flattened her mouth, her brows tangled again, and she twisted her head to the side.
She didn't like to smell such a heavy smell of alcohol, especially after she was pregnant.
Rong Fanxi raised his hand, smelled his arm, there was indeed a strong smell of wine, and turned around and walked into the bathroom: "I'll wash first." β
Standing under the shower, letting the cold water rush down, Rong Fanxi didn't know how long he stood there.
When he came out of the bathroom, Xing Ruimeng fell asleep again.
When Xing Ruimeng woke up the next day, Rong Fanxi had already left, and next to her pillow, she placed a bouquet of flowers picked from the garden.
Although she didn't see Rong Fanxi, the bouquet of flowers made her feel good, and after breakfast, she went to water the flowers herself.
When Lan Lu walked in with a little girl, the watering can in Xing Ruimeng's hand forgot to move its position and watered a newly planted flower bed wet, as if it had suffered a flood.