Chapter 96: Chen Jing's thoughts

Time seemed to forbidden, sweat seemed to freeze, Chen Jing's consciousness seemed to be thrown into the boundless darkness, there was no pain or even felt like death. For Chen Jing, the statement of escaping death is not too much, at least not long ago, she did experience a parting with her companions.

When her consciousness gradually recovered, Chen Jing found that she had not fallen under the ice and snow of a strange land, nor had she died alone in the silent darkness. It's still dry and comfortable, and it's a hotel room.

Who brought himself here, or if it was just a dream since I met the gast, yes, it should have been a frightening nightmare, and the gast wouldn't have died anyway. Thinking like this, Chen Jingxiang sat up on the bed with the support of her own hands, but the weakness and numbness transmitted between her arms and nails, and she couldn't even forget the tension that forced her to hold her hands tightly, and the heart that was gripping and the shocking and terrifying spiritual power that appeared at that time.

It turned out that it was true that he went to get some holy weapon, and it was also true that he participated in releasing sin again, and it was also true that the invincible gast fell into the abyss

"No-――――――" Chen Jing, who finally sat up, was panting, thinking that she was going to die if she got rid of the lying position. But obviously not, thinking of what happened to GAST, Chen Jing knew that she was hurt and was still pure in her heart. The man Gast had already protected himself for a long time, even if in the end the Guardian could not even protect his own life.

Chen Jing, who survived safely, began to slowly think about what happened not long ago, thinking about the mistakes that might be caused and the objects that should be mourned, even if Chen Jing didn't want to believe it, it was impossible, and her own thinking still cruelly declared the death penalty of gast. Falling through like that, falling into a place where angels are imprisoned? No, it's a demon there, and what gast says until the end is that everyone has been deceived. Chen Jing mistakenly thought that she could get the holy weapon that had sealed the angels, but she never expected that due to some deception, what she and Gash worked hard to get was a demon artifact that imprisoned the demon, and it was not an ordinary demon, that was the demon head second only to the demon king, and even the three executive officers of the demon world had to obey his orders.

"Chen Jing!!" Furong's voice quickly passed through the door and hit Chen Jing's eardrums, and with a flustered pace, this relative in the other world came to Chen Jing's side wearing a sleeping canopy. "Are you alright? The innkeeper said that he had found you in the woods, and they said that you had been out at this time yesterday and had been out for a day. When you slept here, send someone to me. ”

"It's been a day? Uh, no. I'm fine, don't worry about me. From Chen Jing's sluggish expression and hesitant voice, it was not difficult to tell that this girl was also panicked at first. She is different from her sister-in-law who has been in a hurry, Chen Jing at this moment seems much calmer and even more indifferent.

After about a quarter of an hour, Chen Jing clearly recounted her actions during the day and the final result. The whole narrative process does not carry a trace of personal emotion, even the most primitive joys, sorrows, and sorrows, Chen Jing seems to be incarnated into something abstract, like an opportunity to actively cooperate with the action and exist.

"As you can see. We have found an artifact against the angels, but we may well have lost the existence of the Guru forever."

"Xiaojing, are you sad?"

"Of course" was a crisp answer, but Fleur noticed that the girl's facial expression was stiff and rational, as if the mention of death was a plan to reduce it to necessity.

"Then why didn't you come out?" Although Fleur, who continued to question, was a little incredulous, she was more inexplicably annoyed at the moment. Look at this niece.

"There's no need for that, I'm not so familiar with him as to cry over his death, and isn't it for the sake of us people? I only know how to be depressed. To grieve, I might as well be liberated from this grief as soon as possible, in order to better grasp the warplane."

"You're a liar!!" Although Fleur is an elder, she is usually like this, and she is also open-mouthed to her juniors. If she thinks it's necessary, she'll go out of her way to explain it. "You and your eldest brother and sister-in-law are the same character. Xiao Jing. They really broke you by not being responsible like this, where is this what a girl would say, and now your wife is too cruel. ”

Chen Jing, who was sitting on the edge of the bed, tilted her head downward, and just after Furong said the last adjective, her eyes widened, as if she was enough to stuff into a ping-pong ball, and her hands grabbed the sheets violently, like an eagle treating its prey.

"Am I cruel?"

"Not only that, but you have been taught for a long time, don't you know how to resist? Do you know that your parents chose to leave you in the care of your second brother when the high expectations you gave you were not met? They are all such heartless people! ”

"Don't say that about my parents!" Chen Jing, who raised her little head suddenly, shook off her hair, and her bright eyes in the jet-black hair were shining with crystal luster at this moment, as if she couldn't bear it anymore, and tears mixed with intense emotions gushed out.

"I know you respect and even adore your parents. But please pay attention to your life in the past ten years, have you really completely abandoned the shackles of your family and lived happily? Other people's little girls don't have the same childhood, all you have is the burden of increasing on the road to becoming stronger in order to become stronger. Shizu, sometimes you are so calm that even after we let Rumiko Hizhao make contact with you for the first time and carry out a mission, even after you know that everyone below Grandpa knows about the Otherworld, and even after you know the situation behind the path of enhancement that your parents have imposed on you, you are completely indifferent, what the hell are you thinking. ”

Facing the criticism of her elders, Chen Jing really stayed quiet for a long time. Probably because he was also tired of loneliness, and then said something in a trembling girlish voice: "It's not like that, I don't want that." I know what I'm doing, and if my efforts can be appreciated by my parents, I'm happy even if it's just like a toy, and I really want to know how to get along with them, and I don't want them to go when they're leaving, but I'm absolutely, I'm just absolutely nothing. Maybe I'm headstrong."

Although the dream-like words cannot clearly express the girl's thoughts, they are very convincing. Chen Jing, who has been unhappy since birth, has actually been expected by her parents, and even overly utilitarian parents are more often dissatisfied with their daughters. Faced with this situation. Chen Jing will be more serious and hard-working than every failure, even if she has to disappoint her parents every time, but she has always worked hard.

Until recently, such a hard-working, ruthless, and meticulous little girl even shocked many adults, but Chen Jing's efforts have never been praised by her parents, and no one has ever told her to stop, and no one has ever taught her what real feelings are.

Of course, this situation has changed after meeting Rumiko in Rizhao.,This usually doesn't play cards according to routines.。 The elusive, powerful predecessors really changed Chen Jing a little bit, and the girl who was like a stubborn stone loosened a little. If it weren't for Rumiko Hiko. Chen Jing has no so-called sense of companionship at all, and will never waver for the life and death of his companions.

"That's all you want to say, Jing?" Stretched out his hand and pinched the flesh on Chen Jing's shrugged arm, which made Chen Jing suddenly wake up and scream in pain.

"You know what it feels like, feel your conscience and look for it. Even if the pain in the heart can be hidden, it will never be deleted like an old photo. Do you remember the guy Gast? ”

gast。 What about the weirdo who wears a black cloak at all times, the uncle who always appears in unexpected places, or the life-saver who conveys the situation of running quickly?

In the face of GAST, Chen Jing is indifferent and vigilant, Chen Jing is indifferent in the face of meticulousness, and in the face of the impending death, Chen Jing still wants to get out of danger. The lonely figure of fighting was desperately covered up by Chen Jing. What would happen if Ueno Dark Fragrance's straight character knew that he was treating his companion like this now? Will you call directly regardless of the identity of your predecessors?

Suddenly, Chen Jing felt a sore pain on the tip of her nose, and she realized her original expression. His cute little face has been stiff for a long time. The soreness turned into tears, and once again snatched its way out of his eyes, like refugees rushing to be the first, these refugees now have no scruples to ravage on Fleur's shoulder.

"Do you remember something? What is erased by oneself seems to hinder one's true self. Fleur, who gently pulled Chen Jing's head and patted her, smiled, knowing that the innocent and willful niece she had seen when she was a child had returned.

"Gast says I'm a nice guy and says I'm different from Charlie"

"Would you like to trust GAST's judgment? You and Charlie's girl are very similar. It's all the problems of the previous generation that persecuted your deserved childhood, and it's our fault. Some people are born with a different destiny. Even if their lives are sadly fixed until death, like donkeys hanging on a milling cart, but ah, Xiao Jing" At this time, Furong held Chen Jing's shoulders and pushed her away, and held down and fixed in front of her to stare at her, "Your life is still your own, even if you are destined to do something, but it is up to you to decide what kind of mentality you want to spend." Poor people may be under pressure from birth, but they can still be very happy, even if your birth was made by the eldest brother because of some kind of interest, but you don't have the obligation to dedicate your whole life to yourself will not be interested in saving zΓ i, isn't it too stupid to blindly sacrifice your youth? ”

"Thank you, sister-in-law. I don't know why, when I'm feeling sorry for the gast, I seem to understand something about our enemy Charlie. That guy and I, like everyone else, should have been happy living girls, but seeing the utilitarianism and killing wanton, she faced only despair, and she was surrounded by people who had subservient to her since she was a child, which was also her sorrow. A companion who had never been in contact with true temperament made this girl, even if she was so young, have a ruthlessness and thought that even an old man could not match. I'm really starting to sympathize with her, people who have nothing but toys, and I used to be, and of course not anymore. ”

"I guess that's why Gast wants you to do this, she wants you to really understand yourself and get yourself out of the misery and despair. When you are so hesitant that you can't choose, you might as well think about those sincere friends who came to this world, those most ordinary, the most enviable feelings, and you will find that you have been fighting independently is actually quite selfish! Fleur, who stood up, took back a small durian from the table. This is what you hold in your hands, is it a holy weapon? ”

"Huh?????? How could this thing be" But a surge of familiar power came out, and this thing was the same thing that gast threw at him, but why was the holy weapon deformed?