Autumn day, dusk, just after a rain, the fresh time after the rain made Lan Xiaoer a little drunk. The heart is calm. Looking up, the faint sunset has not yet gone away......

If love is not grasped well, it may not be the warmth of the heart, but the extreme coldness. I always feel like I've been sleeping for a century before I wake up, and my body feels more and more weak.

Lan Xiao'er stared at the curtains fluttering in the wind with her eyes open. I have heard someone say that whether a person is happy or not depends not on the smile, but on the expression when he wakes up from a dream in the morning.

And now I feel so uncomfortable, life seems to have no meaning, as if it is a dream, as if I am going to die, or I am dead.

No matter how big the pain is, I forget it when I sleep, but I can't forget this pain, my heart hurts, as if the end of the world is more terrifying than the end of the world.

Don't rely too much on anyone in this world, because when you struggle in the dark, even your own shadow will leave. There are many people who are willing to accompany themselves, but there seems to be no one who will accompany them until the end.

Hearing the sound of the door creaking, Lan Xiao'er closed her eyes and pretended to sleep.

I only felt that someone was sitting on the edge of my bed, stroking my face with one hand, and after a long time, Yueyu's complicated voice came: "Xiao'er, are you awake?" ”

Lan Xiao'er moved her eyelashes slightly, but did not speak.

Every woman wants to have a man to rely on when she is wronged. If someone makes themselves feel safe at home, maybe they should stay together for the rest of their lives. But I can't accept it now, maybe I'm afraid, so maybe I'm running away now?

I only heard Yueyu's sigh, and said softly for a long time: "Xiao'er, have you forgotten?" ”

Forgot? If many things can be forgotten, then is there still such a word as pain in the world? Why does he keep saying it's unrealistic? What's more, is it something you can decide? And I can't, I've changed, although I don't want to, but I've changed, I've become so fragile in my heart, and I'm fragile and don't dare to love.

Because this feeling hurts, I have never felt so painful, the pain is like death, the pain makes people so scared, if this is the explanation of 'pain' in the dictionary, I have really tasted it, why is human life so fragile? Why is it that all people are facing death? If it's dead, why live?

Lan Xiao'er couldn't hide the pain in her heart anymore, and shed tears, and her body trembled.

Lan Xiao'er only felt Yueyu wipe the tears that fell from her face with her hands, hugged herself tightly with both hands, and whispered: "Xiao'er don't cry, don't cry, I'm here, I will never leave you." ”

Lan Xiao'er slowly opened her eyes, looked at the Yueyu in front of her, who was extremely gentle with herself, and gently pushed him away.

I saw that his eyes gradually darkened, and then he still hugged her with both hands, put her head under his chin, and said softly: "Xiao'er, don't be afraid, and me." ”

Lan Xiao'er didn't push Yue Yu away this time, maybe because her body was weak, maybe she was really afraid that she needed someone to hold her, maybe she was greedy for this only remaining tenderness.

Lan Xiao'er said faintly: "What I regret is not that I met him, but that I met us like this, how good it would be if we never met, how good it would be if he never had a zài in my heart, and how good it would be if I hadn't given him feelings at the beginning." But he left me alone and went to sleep. ”

Lan Xiao'er cried as if she wanted to die, but Yueyu beside her just hugged her tightly and helped her behind her back with her other hand, and said softly for a long time: "Xiao'er wants to forget?" ”

Think? Do you want to die in such pain? Maybe Lan Xiao'er looked at Yueyu without focus and nodded.

Yueyu pulled the corners of his mouth bitterly: "Is there a place for me in the heart of that smile?" ”

Lan Xiao'er slowly looked into Yueyu's eyes, only to see that there was a bit of bitterness, a little expectation, a little nervousness, and a little helplessness in his eyes.

Now ask yourself questions like this? Does it still make sense? Lan Xiao'er's tears fell again. And Yueyu still wiped her tears.

Lan Xiao'er opened her mouth, but found that she was a little struggling because she hadn't eaten recently, so she pulled her mouth down, but still didn't say anything, and closed her mouth.

I only heard Yueyu say as if she was lost: "That's it, I ask Xiao'er this question now, it seems too selfish." ”

Lan Xiao'er didn't answer.

Yueyu said softly: "Xiao'er, you haven't eaten anything, I'll ask my subordinates to make you some porridge to replenish your body, okay?" ”

Lan Xiao'er still didn't answer. Can I still eat like this? I used to always watch TV dramas and couldn't eat and sleep well, but now I can't eat and sleep well because I feel sad.

Yueyu held Lan Xiao'er's face and looked at him and said, "Xiao'er has to take care of her body, go see him, right?" Is Xiao'er going to be so tired and not go to see him? I don't think he will feel at ease if he doesn't see a smile, or if he sees a smile like this. ”

Lan Xiao'er looked at Yueyu's eyes full of worry, as if he was like this, he was more uncomfortable than himself.

Lan Xiao'er only felt that her heart hurt so much, as if there was a big stone pressing there, blocking there, making her feel as if she was about to suffocate to death.

Lan Xiao'er exhaled slightly, so that she would not be unable to breathe, and looked at Yueyu without focus and nodded.

Yueyu sighed again, slowly let go of Lan Xiao'er, walked outside the door, took the porridge from the maid who was already waiting outside the door, and then sat back next to Lan Xiao'er, slowly helped her up, and let her lean on his arms.

Yueyu gently blew the somewhat hot porridge, and when it was warm, she gently brought it to Lan Xiao'er's mouth with a spoon.

And Lan Xiao'er just opened her mouth mechanically. I have been thinking mechanically in my heart, if I don't eat, Yueqi will be uneasy, and if I don't eat, Yueqi will be uneasy

Lan Xiao'er seemed to be crazy, kept repeating, kept opening her mouth, but didn't take a few bites, and began to cough violently.

Yue Yu hurriedly patted Lan Xiao'er's back and called worriedly: "Xiao'er." ”

That laughter seemed to make Lan Xiao'er's heart reach an extreme collapse, and she suddenly knocked off the porridge bowl in Yueyu's hand, and a crisp breaking sound followed.

Lan Xiao'er suddenly grabbed Yueyu's hands and said in horror: "Help me, please let me forget this qiē, I'm so miserable, why do you treat yourself like this?" I just want to live simply, I just want to have happiness. Why am I left to face this qiē alone? ”

Lan Xiao'er suddenly let go of Yueyu's hands, grabbed her hair, and shook it desperately, as if the pain in her body could reduce the pain in her heart and not feel the pain in her heart.

Lan Xiao'er cried out: "Please, let me forget this qiē, okay?" I'm so miserable, I'm so uncomfortable, I'm so scared, what am I doing wrong? Let me be punished like this? ”