Chapter 75: The heaviness of feelings
"When my tears can't shed anymore, only the blood dripping from my heart, do you still love me?" The choked sound sounded hoarsely in Zhang Zijian's ears.
"Yes!" The heart is also grieving, and it is also colic.
Embracing that innocence with the sin of betrayal, it was only the promise that it was broken, and it was only the absurdity of last night that it was broken. The wound in the heart of a beautiful woman is not a word, a hug, a promise can be cured, can it still be promised at present? What to commit?
"Are you still leaving?"
"Yes!"
"Will you take me along?"
“……”
"I just want to be by your side, I just want to look at you, I don't want anything, I just want to be by your side." The hoarseness of the choked voice with a kind of expectant anticipation slowly entered Zhang Zijian's ears.
"Yes, but you have to heal your eyes before you can see me." Zhang Zijian coaxed the girl in his arms while the iron was hot, which was the only thing he could do, and he didn't dare to take it lightly.
Zhang Zijian called his uncle Zhang Jianjun again, and he had to find him for the job of wiping his buttocks, and he had to use it easily, asking for a car, asking for money, and going to a relationship, all of which were a matter of one sentence.
Zhang Jianjun came in person, pulled Zhang Zijian to the edge of a corner, and asked about last night, he wanted to enter the house, but Li Mei refused to let him in, and Zhang Jianjun was also implicated.
"Who was that girl last night! I said, don't play like that! It's so casual! Zhang Jianjun looked at Zhang Zijian, who was bowing his head, with a straight face, and said angrily.
"Didn't you arrange it?" Zhang Zijian raised his eyes disdainfully and glanced at it, why is the girl you arranged, it is on my head, you made me chic, and when you look back, you ask me if it is.
"You? The girl was the night before yesterday, Ma Wendong on the day of the dog. Look at what you look like, a woman, just fell into the abyss, a few days ago I was still depressed, you are good, by the way, tell me about this in the house, how do you deal with it? Zhang Jianjun couldn't say clearly, he didn't arrange this matter, but he agreed, but he didn't expect Zhang Zijian to play continuously. Emotional things can't be used for debauchery, which is also what Zhang Jianjun wants to say.
"Looking for you, it's to fight the fire, what, hurry up and arrange the hospital, where is the best way to treat the eyes, you see this is done." Zhang Zijian stepped on Yantai and said.
"You, don't talk about you, there are a lot of crooked reasons, I'll look at the General Military Hospital! It's a good place, I'll arrange it for you, and I'll send it over today. Zhang Jianjun pointed at Zhang Zijian with his finger and walked into the car.
Dong Qian was sent to the hospital, and Zhang Zijian accompanied her all the way. Although he was about to leave, Zhang Zijian wanted to accompany Dong Qian more in the past few days, and just wanted to let her watch him well before leaving. Since it cannot be ended, then continue, and since there is no future, then use the most limited time to end the short future.
Xu Jiaqi tiredly dragged her body back to her nest, she was tired after waking up, not to mention the headache, and the pain under her body made her unable to take a step.
As soon as she returned to the house, the other two female companions immediately came out of the back room, sat on the edge of Xu Jiaqi's bed, and looked at her curiously. ”
"It's broken!" Luo Xiaoqi said with a hint of excitement.
"Broken, broken?" Xu Jiaqi probed, her eyes widened, and she asked incomprehensibly.
"Ugh! That means you don't! "Luo Xiaoqi was really defeated by this one who was about to be defeated, the most important thing in a woman, just like that.
"I think there is!" Xu Jiaqi shrugged his shoulders and said.
Chen Meijuan took Xu Jiaqi's little hand on the other side and said, "What does it mean that there seems to be, do you know if there is one?" ”
"He drank too much the day before yesterday, and I drank too much last night, and I didn't feel anything?" Xu Jiaqi continued.
"I don't feel anything, I'm really defeated by you. Alas! Such a great opportunity, you don't have to use the tricks I taught you! Luo Xiaoqi said anxiously.
"Tricks, don't mention it, maybe you can use it in the future, maybe you won't use it in the future, he said that he is going to the south, I don't know when I will come back, I don't know when we will meet again, and he will tell Director He Da about me, and I don't have to play a maid in the future." Hey! Xu Jiaqi's little face said excitedly with a yearning, an expectation beyond life.
"This girl is hopeless!" Luo Xiaoqi glanced at Chen Meijuan and said.
Chen Meijuan asked again unwillingly: "You really didn't do it last night?" ”
Xu Jiaqi had a sense of loss and said: "I did it, but I really don't know what I feel, I drank so much, who knew he wanted it!" I wouldn't have drunk so much if I had known, otherwise I would have known what it was like to feel for the first time. I'm tired now, and it still hurts there? Oh! By the way, Sister Xiaoqi, you were in pain for a few days at that time! ”
After Xu Jiaqi finished speaking, the two people around her had an urge to roll their eyes, this girl usually seems to be lacking in heart, this is good, she drank too much at a critical time, and she didn't know the most important moment in her life!
"Fortunately, it's your first time, if you drink too much in the future, you don't know what to be treated with. By the way, it will hurt for three or two days. Jiaqi, take ten yuan, and I'll buy you a chicken to make up for it. Luo Xiaoqi reached out and asked for money.
"Yikes! Jiaqi, you didn't bring that! What if you do? Chen Meijuan said hurriedly.
Luo Xiaoqi rolled his eyes and said to Chen Meijuan: "I don't know the most precious thing, what do you expect from that, I have calculated, it's okay, Jiaqi only came last week, using the ancient method to count the first seven and the last eight, it just so happens that today is the last five days." Safe. Jiaqi, I'll teach you how to use contraception. Silly girl, if you make a baby in a daze, you will be big. ”
On the morning of the fourteenth day of the first lunar month, Zhang Zijian came to the ophthalmology inpatient department of the Capital General Military Hospital early, and a bouquet of flowers was inserted in the vase on the balcony as usual. Dong Qian's illness is not very big, and the capillaries of the tear glands are broken. After the treatment of experts, the recovery will be very fast, although Zhang Zijian is here every day to accompany her, but today is different because he is leaving.
On the small stool next to the bed, Zhang Zijian took Dong Qian's little hand, stroked it gently, and said, "I hope you are a happy girl, happy every day!" ”
"I'm happy with you!" Dong Qian said.
"How do you say that, if the two love for a long time, how can they be in the morning and twilight? It would be better to be separated for a while, and I will write to you. When you are admitted to university and graduate, maybe we can be together again. Zhang Zijian said.
"Liar! You're really good at deceiving people. You know? I really don't want to leave you, but you're married, for whatever reason, I don't want to hear it, I don't want to know, I don't want to live like my mother, it's tiring to live! The little girl was in tears as she spoke.
Zhang Zijian hurriedly stepped forward to comfort and said: "The doctor said, you can't cry anymore, the medicine in your eyes will flow out, you're really blind, you won't be able to see me in the future, I don't want our child to have a blind mother in the future!" ”
Dong Qian laughed mockingly and said, "Child, illegitimate child?" ”
Zhang Zijian, who was choked with this sentence, couldn't say it, Zhang Zijian remembered his identity, wasn't he also an illegitimate child? If it weren't for the high-level demand for stability, would he have proved it? There is no trivial matter in the courtyard of the deep house, and Zhang Zijian is really not sure about the future. I don't have a single qiē in my hands when I am reborn, and I am very tired of being a human being, God is right.
The first girl he liked, not his future wife, the first sex was given to others, but the future wife had no feelings at all, the first pot of gold, hehe, it's funny to think about, there are few friends around, at least there is no one who can say what is in his heart, all of them are pressed in his heart, this is not what he wants, the trajectory of life is controlled by others, like a puppet, everything you want can be satisfied, but the only emotion is that you can't be satisfied, who is living for, do you want vanity?
But behind the vanity, there is too much to lose, this is not the kind of wish that Zhang Zijian said in front of God, people are very tired of living, and they are even more tired as a high-ranking child, not to spend all day drinking and being chic, but emotional. Emotions are added to his life, which makes him feel responsible, the heartache of betrayal, and the sin of emotional disputes.
"I'm leaving tomorrow, school starts on the sixteenth! I've written you a lot of songs!" Zhang Zijian said lightly and put a few pieces of paper on the bedside table. After all, I have to leave, and the way to leave is not a colorful lie.
"When will I be back!" The language is cold, like a lifeless color.
"I don't know, it could be May Day, it could be summer vacation, it could be the end of the year." Zhang Zijian said a lot of possibilities, he didn't want to deceive this innocent little girl anymore, he could only use the possibility to make her have that kind of expectation.
"Where are you taking the test!" Dong Qian asked.
"Probably Fudan!" Zhang Zijian said. I can't sue her, because you're in the capital, and I can only go to Fudan.
"Do you think I'm good at being admitted to the play!" Dong Qian said again.
"Go to the play! Hehe, okay, I'll go back and say to Director He! "What else can Zhang Zijian say, if Dong Qian is really admitted to the play, maybe he will go to school again? Life is capricious, and plans are not as good as change.
When He Baoguo received a call from Zhang Zijian, his mouth opened a little wide! Zhang Zijian pressed him with words and said, "You took her out without permission, and this matter is not over?" If you hadn't taken him out, would this have happened? I won't say much, arrange for me to go into the play, if you can't arrange it, you can jump the moat yourself! It's okay if you don't jump, I'll arrange a wonderful traffic accident for you. ”
Threats, naked threats. Director He can't help it, he will have to mix it up in the future, the last rehearsal was angry Zhang Zijian pulled out Chairman Ma of the General Staff to ask, and after Chen Jing in the hotel, he said that he was married, obediently, and came to the grandson-in-law of the successor of the General Staff. As soon as I thought of the supreme halo on Zhang Zijian's head, I was afraid, I couldn't get any benefits after running, not to mention, I actually did some kind work to do blind things, this time Zhang Dashao said that he wanted to be admitted to the play.
This difficulty is more difficult than the Central Conservatory of Music, the site is too far to reach! The brain is fast thinking, who knows who is in the play. He has to pay for this money out of his own pocket, and he dares to be angry but dare not speak!
Zhang Zijian wanted to give a sweet date after a slap, and said: "As compensation, I will write a script during the summer vacation, and you will make a drama to ensure that you can be popular!" ”
Director He said thank you with a bitter face, but he muttered in his heart, you write the script, dizzy, not popular, I have to make him popular. How do I know you? ……
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