I have been hospitalized for 8 months since the cause was identified.

At the beginning, Lu Li's departure made me feel guilty and distressed. But my father's obstruction and Ah Chu's persuasion made me understand that my current physical condition is not allowed to be discharged from the hospital, and others treat Ah Chu as a suspending school together to accompany me, but in fact, Ah Chu is just afraid that I will run out of the hospital again.

Two months ago, my patience finally ran out, and after I finally escaped from the hospital and passed out at the airport, Ah Chu discussed with my father and resolutely took a break from school. People will always be like this, when they don't feel any hope, they will always stay honest. In the face of Ah Chu, that's what I thought. With him on guard, I never had a chance to escape.

I go out for a walk in the garden every day, and I love the large area of carnations in the garden. It was as if I could have recovered sooner by looking at them. Of course, this qiē is accompanied by Ah Chu. I took the pills very firmly, even if I took the pills for a few months and I would gag when I saw them. I tried my best to cooperate with the treatment in the most positive way. Since I can't escape, I can only get better faster.

After such a series of events, I really saw myself, weak and self-righteous.

Before the age of 18, I was the pearl of my parents' palm, I had the most perfect boyfriend, and I myself lived up to expectations and attracted attention! I am a well-deserved proud daughter of the sky!

But overnight, my biological mother actually changed, from a daughter to an underground lover. This incident once hit me hard, and I tried hard to tell myself that it was my biological mother, no matter what kind of background she came from, she gave birth to me, and she loved me deeply!

But with little success. After all, I had low self-esteem because of this. This made me no longer able to take for granted the envious and praised gazes from others, and I even used to resent Lu Yaoyao, my biological mother. I blame her for giving me such a background. I knew it wasn't right, but I forgave myself and I thought I needed time and that one day I would be able to accept it.

It's just that I didn't expect to get sick before I could come out of this trauma of my life. This disease almost killed me, and it almost knocked down my omnipotent father.

And I myself was so powerless. Even with Ah Chu's companionship from beginning to end, even with countless times of self-encouragement, I still can't change the status quo of collapse.

I've never felt so failed, so powerless.

I went back to the ward and watched the sunset outside the window, and Ah Chu sat next to me.

"That day, Xiao Li was sitting in that chair, facing the window with her back to us." The blood that opened the scene was dripping with blood.

"She must not want her past to be known, so she asked to let you out." But at that time, I was so willful, I asked her to say it in front of Ah Chu.

"Ah Chu, she is my only sister."

"Ah Chu, she has suffered so much. And at the same time, I was so happy. There is family, there are friends, there are lovers. Dai Chu wanted to say something to comfort her, he wanted to say that Lu Li's misfortune was not caused by her, and she should be responsible for it. But when the words came to his lips, he couldn't say them, and he felt so pale. Even if it wasn't caused by the clouds, it couldn't change the feeling of feeling sorry for her sister as an older sister, nor could it change the damage that her willful behavior brought to Lu Li as an older sister.

Besides, Yun didn't know, Lu Li, should like him. She is very similar to the clouds, and that is the pride hidden deep in her bones. She certainly didn't want to tear her wounds open in front of the man she liked.

If Yun knew this, I am afraid that he would feel even more guilty.

I didn't want Ah Chu to answer me anything, but I suddenly wanted to say something, which was self-reflection and self-redemption.

"I have a feeling that if it weren't for my illness, she wouldn't have sued me about this." "She told me so calmly about the things she had experienced, like telling a story, and I think there must have been a lot more that she didn't say."

"She has never been very good to me before, but she has never done anything bad to me except to tell me that Lu Miaoyao is my biological mother. I know she has a grudge against me, a lot of grudge, but when I'm sick, she can! But she can ・・・・・・"

"Ah Chu, what do I do to someone else's sister? My sister is like rubbish! ”

Dai Chu listened to Yun Yun's self-loathing, and his heart throbbed. He slowly wrapped his arms around Yunyun's waist and pressed her shoulders against himself.

"Ah Chu, do you think I'm self-loathing? No! Although it almost became like this! But I can't! I'm sorry for Pear, I'm her sister, whether it's because I want to make amends or because of my pity as a sister, I have to and must be her dependence! ”

So, I wouldn't be so lightly defeated! I still have a father and a sister, I am Ni Jun's daughter, and I am Lu Li's sister!

Dai Chu watched the delicate person in his arms say such resolute words, and his heart was mixed. It's incredibly complex. Lu Li's influence is really great, even if she leaves, the rest of the people are deeply affected by her. And what she brought to the clouds was not so much an ordeal as a practice. Make her heart tenacious!

In Dai Chu's arms, Ni Yun's gaze was weak but firm. It's just that she could never have imagined that what she was thinking about was destined to become unattainable regrets.