Step by step, I walked into the track of life, but I had no soul. Every day is just a blind pursuit, with no goals, no requirements, no motivation, and no attitude. How could I be like this, and what is more painful is to have to laugh all day long, I think this is the greatest irony for me. It's just, it's nothing, as the saying goes—laughter, for me, it's just an expression.

I don't want to be like this, I want to change, I hate who I am. It's just that I don't understand how I'm going to do it. Sometimes I feel like I'm crying, but I don't dare. I have the impression that I cried a few times, but the last two times it seems to be drunk. I don't understand how I did it. Is the brain melon cramping? Why can't you control yourself when you're drunk? Hehe, it's funny to cry. I just hope that I didn't say anything wrong......

My family was worried about my marriage, and sometimes even disappointed. It's just that my family doesn't understand, I only have a girl in my heart, just like the girl said in the letter, "My heart is very small, so small that I can only accommodate one person". I tried to accept other girls, but I couldn't accommodate them. I've always said that they're not my habit because I've been with girls for a long time. For them, I can only say that they treat them as if they were their own little sisters, or even a little girl, or even a strange passer-by girl.

I sued the girl, and I said I would wait for her. Then I will wait until she belongs to someone else. At that time, I will give up; I said that her body is the most essential premise that keeps us together.

Sometimes, I think that if I hadn't been with her, I'd be able to see her many years later. She hasn't married, and I'm not married, so will we cry, will we condemn each other, will we end up depressed...... How poignant, hehe, this is the most poignant love story in the world.

I'm so sad, girl, will you be sad? Do you ever think of me at some point? Won't you hate me? I've never hated you, although sometimes it feels like you're a fool or just a village girl. Hehe...... Come back, girl, I'm waiting for you, you know? Do you still have my imprint in your heart, and do you still have my tears? Yes, I know why I can't forget you, because in my heart, in my memory, there is a tear of yours, which was left for our secret.

Girl, I miss you, I want to walk with you through our future days, I want you to laugh and make you happy every day. I want to travel with you, I want to carry you on my back, to see if your little chubby mound is aggravated. Come back, girl......

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