"That can't be called love, but guilt, deep and inextricable guilt goes deep into the bottom of my heart and becomes a demon, painful torment, refusing to let go of myself, I have never mentioned these things to others, you are the first and only one, even Maggie never knew, saying this, I didn't intend for you to forgive me immediately, just purely want to sweep away the prejudice and resentment against me in your heart, at that time, it was not really me who wanted to kill you when the love was out of control, it was me after becoming a demon!" Su Zhengxiao was not in a hurry, and said in a slow and deep voice.

Hearing this, Tang Xiaoran was speechless, she lowered her gaze, still continuing her previous movements, and drank porridge lightly.

Indeed, all she knew in her heart was the surface of the matter, and as for the inside of the matter, she did not know anything at all.

"Indeed, before I divorced you, I tried hard to fit into your life, wanted to understand your loneliness, if you had said such things to me before the divorce, I would have been happy for a few days and nights without sleeping, after nine years of acquaintance, eight years of marriage, how could I not be thrilled that you opened your heart to me so much for the first time? But it's only before, and now you have no relationship with me at all, and it's useless for you to say this to me. She looked up at him, and her words were very firm; I'm really planning to forget about the past and start a new life, so you don't have to say these things to me! ”

The tightly furrowed eyebrows were raised, Su Zhengxiao's eyes stared at her for a moment, the voice that belonged to the man was calm, there was no anger, no strength, some were nothing more than deep decadence and helplessness; "Have you ever heard of such a sentence, it is difficult to recover it, whether it is the words that were said or the things that were done, they have passed, I can't get it back, and there is no way to turn back time, how can you put those things down?"

"There is nothing to let go of, forgive or not, it's already a thing of the past, and I've forgotten it."

Tang Xiaoran's expression was faint, still unfazed, giving people a feeling that oil and salt were not entering, and she didn't know what Fang just said, she listened to a few words, and put a few words in her heart.

This indifferent, cold, but indifferent attitude finally succeeded in angering Su Zhengxiao, however, more helplessly.

She made up her mind, if she didn't get firewood, rice, oil and salt, what could he do to her?

The chest rose and fell violently for a moment, and then stabilized, he was not a person who would control his feelings before, if he was really irritable, more than a dozen people would not be able to resist him.

"Have you had enough breakfast? If I don't have enough, I'll go to the street and buy some, by the way, what do you want to eat at noon? I'll bring it to you when I come. ”

In the past, Su Zhengxiao would only be irritable and angry at this time, where could he say such things to her with a soft expression?

Some things and thoughts emerged deeply and clearly from his mind, Tang Xiaoran's lowered eyes flickered slightly, and the tips of his heart trembled uncontrollably, closing his eyes, and then when he opened them again, his eyes were already clear; "When the nurse arrives, I'll help me bring it from the cafeteria, so I won't trouble you, and I almost forgot to say thank you to you."

After some alienation, the distance between the two was easily widened again!

Su Zhengxiao's hand hanging down to his side tightened, his thin lips squirmed, he wanted to say something, but he didn't open his mouth after all, he was stubbornly holding back his temper!

He left, leaving Tang Xiaoran alone in the ward.

The window of the room was opened by the nurse, and the room was located in the right position with a panoramic view of the green lawn and the sparkling lake.

Looking at the scenery outside the window in a daze, she was in a daze, her thoughts were drifting, circulating, and distracted.

She was thinking about what Su Zhengxiao said just now, as well as her look and expression, a few days ago, he said that he liked her and loved her, and all she had in her heart was indescribable consternation, but she was not moved and touched, and more was unbelievable.

Just now, she said such unkind words unscrupulously, Su Zhengxiao was obviously very angry, but in the end she didn't do anything, didn't say anything, but continued to ask her what she wanted to eat at noon with a soft expression, and he brought it to her.

At that moment, the words he had said to her came to her heart, and her heart trembled, and she could be regarded as truly believing his words.

Those words didn't seem to be pretending, but the helplessness after anger, with compromise and pity, otherwise, her heart would not have been so obviously touched.

At noon, she asked the nurse to help bring one to the cafeteria, and when she was about to eat, Uncle Liu came, carrying a warm box, and said with a smile; "The president asked me to bring it here."

Tang Xiaoran said that he had already cooked a good meal, and he couldn't eat two portions by himself, so Uncle Liu should eat that portion.

As soon as he heard this, Uncle Liu came over with a smile, took away the lunch box in her hand while she didn't pay attention, and moved the chopsticks with a smile; "I didn't eat lunch just yet, so I won't be polite to you, but the lunch sent by the president is a nutritious meal for the patient, and it's not good for me to eat without soldiers or injuries, so let's eat this."

Tang Xiaoran; “……”

In the afternoon, after Su Zhengxiao went to the school to pick up Jing Xuan, he took him and went in the direction of the hospital, saying; "From today onwards, you will live on your mother's side, and after the clothes and things are packed, I will bring them to you."

"Why all of a sudden?" Jing Xuan was still gnawing on the duck's neck, his face was slightly red, and he couldn't stop panting, it was so spicy.

"Your mother has been walking quickly these days, and she is still sick, and I am not worried that there is no one around to take care of me." As he spoke, he shifted the steering wheel to the left.

Jing Xuan nodded; "I'll take care of her!"

"There's one more thing I have to warn you!" Between the words, Su Zhengxiao squinted his slender eyes and warned in a deep voice; "You dare to dismantle my backstage again this time!"

"Don't dismantle it, don't dismantle it." Jing Xuan hurriedly opened his mouth to respond.

Hearing this, Su Zhengxiao continued to speak with satisfaction; "Actually, there are some benefits to keeping you with your mother."

Jing Xuan tilted his head and looked at him puzzled, not understanding what his father's benefits meant.

"Leaving you with your mother is equivalent to me placing a radar next to your mother, which is equivalent to a spy, I can know as soon as possible what the enemy is like, and if your mother encounters any difficulties, of course you will choose to call me first, then I will fall a hero to save the beauty, just like this time." Su Zhengxiao has his own thoughts and plans in his heart.

Hearing this, Jing Xuan touched his head and thought about it; "Is it Han Jian?"

"Wrong, it's a spy, and the English name is spy." Su Zhengxiao tugged at his thin lips and continued to speak.

Being said like this, it felt instantly tall, Jing Xuan thought it was very interesting, and the title was not bad, he thought about it again, and patted Su Zhengxiao's shoulder; "I can do my best to help you, but whether or not I can get back together with my mother in the end depends on your creation, Dad, although I don't have much hope for you."

In an instant, Su Zhengxiao's eyes narrowed, and he reacted immediately, and Jing Xuan said busily; "Dad, you concentrate on driving, I will never dismantle your backstage!"

The car was parked in the parking lot, as if thinking of something, he leaned slightly, took out a packaging box and handed it to Jing Xuan; "I'll give it to your mom in a moment."

"Dad, aren't you going up?"

"The company has a particularly important meeting to hold tonight, I won't go into the ward, what do you want to eat, what you want to use, call me at any time, if I can't get through the phone, then call Uncle Liu." Su Zhengxiao admonished.

Jing Xuan nodded and said deliberately; "Uncle Liu Genghong? I have his phone on my phone. ”

"Do you have to find me a beating today!" Su Zhengxiao glared at him and said word by word; "It's not that Liu Genghong, it's Liu *Gang, do you remember clearly?"

Jing Xuan was secretly happy in his heart, and couldn't stop nodding; "Dad, it's not right for you to use violence against children like this!"

Su Zhengxiao didn't pay attention to it either, and glanced at him directly; "That Uncle Liu?"

"Uncle Liu*Gang." Jing Xuan stretched the tail note so long that he couldn't stand it.

"Alright." Su Zhengxiao reached out and stroked his head; "Let's go in, I'm leaving."

Tang Xiaoran didn't want Jing Xuan to live in the hospital, but Jing Xuan didn't want to leave, and she had no choice, she lived in a suite, with a TV, and another *, which was enough for Jing Xuan to sleep.

After dinner, Jing Xuan was lying on the coffee table to do his homework, and when he pulled the schoolbag, he happened to see the packaging bag placed inside, and he took it out and gave it to Tang Xiaoran.

Tang Xiaoran stared curiously, not knowing what was inside, thinking it was a gift from him, Jing Xuan shook his head; "I didn't send it, it was my father."

After speaking, he returned to the coffee table, squatted there, and continued to write his homework.

She didn't plan to see it, because she wouldn't accept any gift from him, and the corner of her eye swept away, but she inadvertently saw the word album.

Could it be that he sent a photo album?

Sitting on the sick * with nothing to do, and a little bored, Tang Xiaoran paused for a moment, thought about it, and finally opened the bag with his hands.

It was indeed a photo album, there were as many as two books, each of which was particularly thick, and it was not the photo she had given him of Jing Xuan's childhood.

She leaned on her head and curiously opened the photo albums, all of which had been taken at the Grand Canyon.

Seeing this, she was a little surprised and surprised, in the Grand Canyon, when did he take so many photos?

Many of them in front are Jingxuan's, or noisy, or laughing, and some are playing in the water, picking up leaves, and the smiles on their cheeks are bright and bright.

When I turned over the photo, there was a sentence at the bottom, hoping that he would always be able to smile so brightly, happy, signed, Su Zhengxiao.

It was indeed his handwriting, she knew, and his words were exactly the same as his character, wild, wild, atmospheric, and profound.

Tang Xiaoran's heartbeat seemed to be starting to beat faster, and she continued to flip down, seeing a picture of her own.

The picture shows her sitting on a stone after her foot was sprained, her brows were twisted together, and he happened to make him tease her, making her even more irritated, glaring at him angrily, and her face was very unpleasant.

Flipping through the photo again, there is such a sentence below, when she was not divorced, she was afraid of me and never showed her true side, I think her truest side was shown in front of me without any expression.

The tip of his heart couldn't help but tremble, and Tang Xiaoran's heart seemed to be hit by something, and he couldn't help biting his lip slightly.

There are a lot of photos in the next one, most of them are photos of him carrying her on his back, because it is an uphill road, so he basically carries her all the way, and she has never seen his look, until this moment, she saw it through the photo.

His thin lips are slightly hooked, and the lines on his handsome face are very soft, always with a faint smile.

Open it, there is a sentence there - just keep it on your back, yes! Even if it's for a lifetime!

Women have always liked men to give gifts, even if they are not valuable, but as long as they are thoughtful, they also regard them as treasures and like them very much.

There are many photos in the back, all of which are of three people, all kinds of postures, various appearances, and even photos of her being tired and yawning on his back......

At this moment, Tang Xiaoran really liked these two albums, liked the gift he prepared, and his heart, which had always been calm and indifferent, was also broken and turned upside down.

Since the divorce, she has been saying to herself every day, forget the past, forget the past, forget the Su Zhengxiao, you must forget the whole thing, don't be tempted by him again, don't make ripples for him again, don't make cheap mistakes again!

As a woman, you can have no beautiful appearance, no bewitching posture, no good family background, no money, but you can't have no dignity.

She has always followed her own rules, so even if he ran to her accommodation all day long, she could take it calmly and without waves.

But at this time, Tang Xiaoran could clearly feel that his heartbeat was accelerating, and the determination he insisted on was also wavering, and the heart was shaking, rising and falling violently.

At the same time, she is hesitating and afraid, she has paid a lot in the past eight years, and she has received a lot of hurt, and in the future she just wants to live her life peacefully, calmly, without harm, without pain, even if there is no love.

Love hurt her too much, and now she no longer has extravagant hopes, and as for his changing personality now, she can't touch it to the end!

How long will his popularity last, a month, two months, or even shorter, it can be said that she still understands Su Zhengxiao before, but after the transformation, she really doesn't know him.

To be reunited with him again, to endure an unknown fate, maybe even more pain?

No, she shook her head, timid, after one time, she no longer had the guts, determination, and impulses that she had at the beginning, so let's stop here!

……

I'm a lovely divider*********************************

On the other side.

Su Zhengxiao was also flipping through those photos, and the curvature of his thin lips never dissipated.

These photos were taken by a staff member in advance, and there were few photos of him with her and Jing Xuan, which could almost be called none.

When he saw the photos she took of Jing Xuan, he was deeply touched in his heart, so he chose to go to the Grand Canyon.

The words on the photo were his momentary emotion, so he couldn't help but write them down, and at that time he drank some wine and was slightly drunk.

Otherwise, it would be impossible for him to do such a sensational thing that makes people goosebumps when he is in the most sober state!

Looking at it quietly, in this quiet and lonely night, he is no longer so lonely and silent, but feels happy.

She should have seen the photo albums he asked Jing Xuan to bring over, so, after seeing it, what was her reaction, expression, and look?

Su Zhengxiao was very curious, and couldn't help guessing in his heart, but he couldn't copy her look and reaction at this time.

But he thought, she would be happy!

After staring at the album for a while, he got up and went to the study on the first floor, which was originally built for Zuo Qingrou, and now, there is no need to save zài here.

Asking the servant to come over, he began to clean up and tidy up one by one, and he was going to burn all those things.

Placed on the empty ground, Su Zhengxiao quietly stared at the flames burning, and the red light in the sky rushed to the sky, facing the night sky, he said softly; "I'm sorry ......"

This sentence of sorry is said to Zuo Qingrou, it is said to so many wrong things he has done, and it is his repentance.

Before going to bed at night, he still drank the medicine prescribed by the doctor, and now he can rarely dream of Zuo Qingrou in his sleep, but he still has to go to the hospital for psychological treatment.

Early the next morning.

Su Zhengxiao didn't go to the company, changed into a casual outfit at random, drove away, and went directly to the hospital.

When he rushed to the hospital room, it was empty, and the nurse who came to clean told him that the patient who lived here had been discharged and left.

Immediately, Su Zhengxiao's face sank, why didn't he receive a call from Jing Xuan for such a big thing as being discharged from the hospital?

Without any further stops, he returned to the car and hurried towards the apartment, and when he reached the downstairs, he saw the man's car parked downstairs.

With that breath in his heart, Su Zhengxiao raised his foot, and the leather shoes he was wearing on his feet kicked directly at the tire.

But where is he the opponent of the tire, the tire is still standing still, but kicking his toes painfully, he can't hold back the breath, he curses; "Fuck!"

Long legs moved, the steps under his feet strode meteor, and he reached the upstairs in a few steps, knocking on the door, and the door of the room was opened by Jing Xuan.

As soon as he saw that it was his father, Jing Xuan stretched out his hand and scratched his head, summing up the situation in one sentence; "By the time I woke up, I was already home and I didn't know anything."

Su Zhengxiao raised his eyebrows, raised his feet and walked into the room, Tang Xiaoran sat on the *, and Liu Genghong was busy back and forth, pouring water and placing suitcases.

The mass of qi was blocked in the chest, and it was very uncomfortable to hold back, especially at the moment when he saw Liu Genghong, it all burst out; "Why didn't you tell me about being discharged?"

Tang Xiaoran looked up at him; "Why should I sue you?"

"Then why did you sue him?" Su Zhengxiao stretched out his hand and pointed directly at Liu Genghong.

"That seems to be my freedom, and I am not obligated to report it to you." After experiencing last night, Tang Xiaoran planned to completely stabilize his shaken heart.

Hearing this, Su Zhengxiao's chest rose and fell even more, and he asked again; "Why did you sue him for being discharged from the hospital, but not me?"

"Do you have to have a reason?" Tang Xiaoran looked at him straight, his gaze was clear for a moment.

"Of course!" Su Zhengxiao couldn't bear such a result.

"Well, I tell you, I have agreed to date him this morning, he is now my boyfriend, and you are nothing, is this reason enough?" Staring at her, Tang Xiaoran said word by word.

At this moment, Su Zhengxiao only felt that his eyes were dark, and then bursts of indescribable pain rose up from the soles of his feet, his whole body was hot, and the uncomfortable feeling was shouting in his body and limbs, and he said directly to Liu Genghong; "I'm going to talk to her alone."

"Yes, but there is a time limit, she is my girlfriend now, and you have thoughts about her, if you stay together for too long, I will be uncomfortable and uncomfortable, so you only have a short time, and if you can't end it by then, then I can't care so much." Liu Genghong smiled lightly, then glanced at Tang Xiaoran deeply, turned around and left with Jing Xuan.

And when he said these words, the joints of Su Zheng's hand were already creaking, and if he said one more word, the fist would inevitably fall on his face!