429. Whenever I can't find the meaning of existence, whenever I get lost in the night
"Hey, you're really interesting."
"I've always been called a turtle." Siyuan sat in the dark void with his knees crossed: "Where did you see that I was interesting?" ”
"It's just interesting, there's no why, how many whys in the world."
There was a fish coiled in front of Siyuan, this fish was about the size of forty Siyuan, staring at Siyuan with a pair of round eyes.
This guy didn't know when it came out, but when Siyuan found this glowing big fish, it was already staring at Siyuan like this, and then accosted him, feeling a little weird.
However, in this dark void, Si Yuan also felt quite bored, as long as someone could talk to him, even if it was a fish, he didn't mind, but this fish was a little bigger, and its body was still glowing.
"I ask you. Do you know where this is? ”
"I don't know, I don't want to sit here if I know." Siyuan smiled bitterly and adjusted a comfortable posture: "How did you come here?" ”
"Me? I'm sleeping. Has been sleeping for hundreds of thousands of years. ”
"Then how can you talk to me? At the very least, there should be a language barrier. ”
The big fish flicked its tail beautifully in front of Siyuan, and then said triumphantly: "I have seen countless people's dreams from one person's dream to another's dream. ”
"And who the hell are you?"
"I'm just a fish, and I love every world, from here to there, and from there. What about you? Why is your world so desolate? ”
"Desolation?" Siyuan took a look at the surrounding darkness like outer space, and even if it weren't for the fact that this fish had its own LED internal light, this place didn't even have the most basic light particles, and it couldn't be described as desolate at all, but with ...... Nothingness.
"Don't you feel too desolate?" The big fish continued to wander back and forth around Siyuan, and his swinging posture could even be described as graceful and luxurious: "I will sleep for a while after I don't go to a world." It's a way to reminisce about the world I've experienced, and then I'll forget who I am and where I've been, but you're not worth reminiscing about at all. ”
"You mean this is my world?"
"That's right, everyone has a world of their own, and this is your world, but why is it so desolate? I've never seen anything like it. ”
Siyuan was shocked by its words. For he only knew that he had closed all his senses and had come here, and it was, as the big fish had said, desolate. It's just that what he didn't expect was that this was actually his world, but why was his world like this?
"I asked you the same question. Who am I, what am I, what am I doing. But no matter how much I tried, there was not a single clue. Every time, I would spend a long time accumulating knowledge, and then forget all about it, leaving only some basic ones that I couldn't forget. And as for why there is no way to forget jì for these things, I don't know. Big Fish seemed to sigh: "I don't remember where I went last time." I just remember that I went. I don't remember the last time I met someone, I just remember that I did. And this time, it's you. ”
Siyuan was silent for a while, he slowly stretched out his hand to touch the big fish, and found that it had no entity at all, but a ball of energy that was so pure that it made people's hearts roar, even if a palm touched it, he could feel the flow of time rolling in and out of its body.
With this energy alone, Siyuan felt that it had surpassed any entity he had ever seen. Whether it is the fox or the Nuwa who only has one side and the unicorn that can make everything hibernating, it is not as powerful as it. Even the ancestor of the leylines is slightly inferior, and this energy seems to be able to purify the world. Even just physical contact made him feel an unprecedented purity and tranquility, so after this, Siyuan didn't know what to say or do, just kept this appearance in a daze, motionless.
The big fish didn't move, and finally even Siyuan began to emit a faint light, and on the arm where he was in contact with the big fish. Two very obvious veins of light appeared, one back and forth, like an artery carrying blood, causing the energy between Da Yu and Siyuan to begin to exchange and displace.
"Is the consciousness of the great universe gathered?"
I don't know how long it took, Siyuan suddenly raised his head and looked at this beautiful and docile monster fish. Suddenly smiled: "Or ...... Kunpeng Great Sage? ”
Kunpeng...... Well, that's a familiar name. The big fish slowly swam away from Siyuan's body: "It turns out that this is not your real world, but why are you locking yourself here." ”
In fact, when he knew that the guy in front of him was actually one of the three great saints, he was very, very surprised, as the most mysterious great sage, the only record of this Kunpeng was that the Kunpeng was so big that he didn't know how many thousands of miles it was. And its body is even one of the five continents of Shenzhou, because it is too huge, it can only travel too void with its consciousness, but even if it is a touch of consciousness...... It's all breathtaking.
"Me? If I go out, I'm going to be a monster. ”
"Monsters? What is Monster? ”
"It's ......"
Siyuan was suddenly speechless, and he was actually asked by a fish. What is Monster? Speaking of which, the word monster is only relative to human beings, as long as it is not within the scope of human cognition, it can be called a monster. However, this qiē is a common thing for the demon, and even in front of him stands a monster that lives with heaven and earth.
"I see! Are you afraid to become less like you, right? ”
"I ...... I do not know. ”
"But why is it not like you? You are you, and you are what you become. ”
"But I'll do things I don't want to do."
"If you don't want to do it, you won't do it, why do you do it?"
Siyuan was silent, any crazy and uncontrollable behavior is actually an idea that has been rooted in his heart for a long time. When one day these thoughts are no longer controlled, it will naturally drive people to move in that direction, which is a problem that Siyuan has never realized, but for this simple seafood...... It's simple, it couldn't be simpler.
"Isn't it just your choice to do or not to do? Why should you blame it on someone else? Isn't that what you become? So why should you be afraid of you? Don't you like you? Or do you have a lot of you? But there's only one you, and there's no more of you. ”
"I became who I became...... Is it me? ”
This question seemed to suddenly silence Siyuan. That's a great question. Good enough for him to think.
The "me" that "I" has become is naturally still me, but this "me" is not the same as the current "me", but in fact he is still "me", and all the changes produced in it are only a part of "me", why should I be afraid of myself? Since it's me, then I can control me.
Siyuan's silence did not make the big fish feel uneasy. It silently circled around Siyuan, looking leisurely. Even if the world is empty, it is just a dream for it.
"Then you say."
After a long, long time, Siyuan suddenly raised his head: "If I become a me who is not like me, can I still control me?" ”
"Of course."
After speaking, the big fish turned into Siyuan's appearance, and then sat opposite Siyuan's body in the same posture: "Look, I have become your appearance, but I am still me." ”
Then. It changed again, becoming the so-called monster with a tyrannical aura in Siyuan's vague memory, but its posture did not change, and even its tone did not change: "You see, I have become the you you became, but I am still me." I don't change, I am who I am. What's not under control, it's just your heart. ”
Siyuan raised his head. Let out a long breath: "It's just my heart that's not controlled? ”
"I know what you think, I hear you. What you're afraid of is what you want to do. Don't you think that's weird? Why be afraid of what you want to do? Why do you want to do it when you're afraid of it? ”
In a word, it was enlightened.
In an instant, fireworks bloomed.
The originally dark world began to appear with light, wind, a vast grassland and a towering tree, although it was still very simple. But compared to the original, it is already wonderful.
Siyuan looked down at the soft grass below him and the glittering tree not far away, and he didn't know what was going on.
But the big fish seemed very excited, and it kept rolling in the air, making a cry of surprise.
"I love it here! I love your world so much! ”
Regardless of the big fish with great wisdom in words but very low in behavior, Siyuan slowly walked under the big tree. He stretched out his hand to hold up a leaf, the leaf was crystal clear, and the memory pictures were constantly playing on it, and these were the memories that Siyuan had experienced.
The good and the bad. Bit by bit, as if it were solidified old times, the pieces are connected to this big tree.
Although the tree was tall, it had only ten branches, and each branch was covered with the leaves that carried the memories casually, some sparse and some dense, some withering and some slowly growing.
Siyuan put down the leaves in his hand, turned his head and looked at the vast sky in the distance, this unobstructed world really makes people feel calm, quiet, peaceful, and bright, only the sound of the whirring wind and the sound of the fish shuttling back and forth.
"This tree is you." The big fish coldly rushed to Siyuan's side and said to him, "And you are also the only person I have ever seen who can grow a world tree in your own world." ”
"This ...... Is it the World Tree? Siyuan looked at the big fish, his eyes flashing: "But shouldn't I be crazy?" ”
"Oh, you just touched me, didn't you?"
"Well, I touched you."
"You're already with me." The big fish rolled around leisurely: "But it's not strong for me at all, but it's fun." I suddenly wanted a companion, so I chose him. ”
Siyuan is a little unclear, so it's obviously a demon...... Why can I transfer?
"We exchanged memories, you are me, I am you, why not? I had been hesitating about what I wanted to set my world to look like, but I wasn't satisfied with any of the colorful worlds until I saw your world, and I was very satisfied. I decided, and that's how my world will be from now on. ”
"Exchanging memories? But I don't think I have much. ”
"Because I don't have any memory." The big fish said happily: "I gave you stability, you gave me memory." We flattened out. ”
I have heard of this point, but all great sages must follow the basic law of the world - equivalent exchange. So when you come into contact with the Great Sage, you will actually have a feeling of doing business, even if you want to give selflessly, the Great Sage will give them the chips they think is appropriate in exchange, so they will not harm any life and will not interfere in the development of anything in the world, because this price is something they can't afford.
This is one of the reasons why the Great Sage is transcendent and extraordinary, and this is the truth that all things are dogs, and in their eyes, there is probably the true equality of all beings.
"That, Great Sage. Am I supposed to thank you? ”
"I should thank you too, no one has spoken to me for a long, long time." The big fish slowly coiled on Siyuan's world tree and gently closed his eyes: "I'm sleepy, when I wake up, I can still remember you, we will meet again." If I don't remember you, I will help you protect your world as a thank you gift. ”
As the big fish at the top of the tree slowly closed its eyes, Siyuan's consciousness began to slowly become clear, but then it became blurry again, and then it remained blurry until he fell asleep.
"And then?"
"And then I woke up." Siyuan sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Luo Fu: "I didn't know it happened, but I actually met a great sage who only existed in the legend." ”
And after telling this bizarre story, Siyuan fell into an inexplicable contemplation, and he suddenly felt a sense of loss as he traveled between the three worlds, and he didn't even know which one really belonged to him. Of these three worlds, he likes the empty space of bliss the most, and he is most at ease with this world and the most concerned about the original world.
This kind of thinking is a bit brain-burning, but it really makes him feel a lot, and the big seafood also makes him understand a truth that he hasn't understood for a long time, which can be regarded as an epiphany or a point of enlightenment. When he knew what he was afraid of, he wasn't so afraid. The terrible things that were terrible to him were actually just trivial.
Fear is not scary, what is scary is not having the courage to face fear.
Those anger, those irritability, and those never-ending nightmares, to put it bluntly, are just those struggles in my heart that I want to get but can't get.
In the other world, the second master and the fox who guarded him were also surprised by Siyuan's changes, because he had already shown the characteristics of madness half an hour ago, but with the passage of time, this permanent madness actually faded, leaving only a stable sleeping face, breathing calmly and powerfully, his face calm, and the rapid movement of his eyes and the smile at the corner of his mouth showed that he was having a beautiful dream.
"Who the hell is it...... Can he defuse his anger so easily? The second master was very surprised: "This is too unscientific." ”
"Science? Do you think you're scientific? The fox sneered very coldly: "Maybe we will only know the result until he comes out." ”――
Oh, this chapter is actually an easter egg chapter. Many people don't remember this episode. This is the scene when Brother Yun meets seafood, and it is also the world of book souls. The template of that world is the world of Siyuan, Li Guo has cultivated here for eight hundred years to create a rabbit, and Brother Yun has awakened the seafood sage here.
Also, the biggest easter egg is the seafood sage, in fact, I want to give her an explanation in this paragraph, although she was awakened by Brother Yun, but what she misses most in her heart is this person who makes her unable to remember. And this person is Siyuan, who was integrated into her dream by Xiao Yue.
Ah, I'm reminding you, because the two plots spanned six or seven years, and many people don't remember it.
Also, the person who spews feces with his mouth, I'm not serving you, don't think too much of yourself. This is my book, I can write it however I want, and you have two sets of genitals, right? (To be continued......)