Hawke huddled in the dark study, his naked/naked body glowing a faint blue purple, but he didn't seem to feel cold at all, and still cowered motionless on the ground, like a child who had done something wrong. He tugged at his hair in distress, his handsome face was painfully tangled, and his eyes were confused.

Holding the monitor in his arms, he stared at the screen blankly, then reached out and gently stroked the empty bed, and muttered, "Mei'er......"

He was very focused, as if it was the warm body that he had touched, and all the yin owls were cold and retreated like a tide, leaving only remorse and self-blame, and a little happiness of gains and losses.

"Mei'er, I knew you liked the sea, and when you were in Japan, you said you wanted to come to the beach, so I brought you...... You were smiling so beautifully! Hawke said excitedly, the corners of his lips turned up little by little, but his eyes shone with despair.

From the second Daisy opened her eyes, he carefully observed her actions, every look and every movement she remembered in his heart, he wanted to cover her with a quilt, wanted to hug her in the bath, wanted to kiss her face, but his footsteps always stopped outside the door...... Seeing the patches of blood and slender iron chains on the sheets, he felt as if he had been electrocuted, and his body trembled irrepressibly.

Hawke held his head down, hammered himself like a masochistic madness, and hissed and roared, "Mei'er, I actually hurt you!" I'm damned, damned! I know you'll blame me, blame me, and even hate me when you wake up, and I'm ready to be hated by you, but your strange eyes are really going to drive me crazy! I just want you to react to me, I'm just afraid that you will get farther and farther away from me, even if you hate it, it's better than being indifferent! ”

"Why don't you love me? Why would you rather die with that man than stay? You said you would always be with me! Mei'er, what should I do...... It's worse for you to leave than to kill me, I really can't do it! ”

The monitor shattered, sparks and splinters falling on him, leaving a burning and blinding red of blood, but he didn't realize it. The heart is already dying of pain, how can the body feel it?

"Why is Heaven so cruel, why did He send you to me and make me feel that I was reborn as a human and then took you away? There's nothing I can do anymore, I can only keep letting you/have sex with me like a beast in heat, and I can't control myself! I'm such a fucking asshole! ”

Hawke bit his arm hard, dark red blood gushing out of the wound, and his eyes were covered with horrific bloodshots. The cruel torture of Daisy was even more devastating to himself, and he blindly thought that as long as she felt pain, she would remember herself. As long as she is indulged in her body, she will never want to leave. But he also knows that she is **, and the things she recognizes will not change, if he doesn't want her to continue to be injured in his hands, the only way is to solve it himself!

Thinking of this, Hawke seemed to find a way to get rid of it, and he raised his face of decadence and despair and looked at the automatic pistol resting aside.

"Mei'er, you will always be my best memory! Always! He closed his eyes and muttered to himself, his handsome face wrinkled at times, relaxed at times, as if he was recalling memories of sweetness, happiness, or helplessness. He has struggled in pain all his life, and perhaps these few short months have been the greatest gift from God...... Hawke thought so, and then slowly raised his pistol and aimed it at his heart.

Maybe she'll be sad too, at least, not anymore......

The trigger was pulled, and with a bang, the sharp sound of gunfire made a roaring bang, accompanied by the dull sound of a bullet cutting through the flesh, and a suppressed muffled grunt came.

"Boss, what are you going to do!?" Juefeng pushed open the door and saw such a terrifying scene! Handsome's face was full of horror, and before the gun rang out, he slammed the man who was about to kill himself, thus making the muzzle of the gun lose its head, but Hawke was inevitably shot in the shoulder, and blood shot out of his face.

"You don't have to worry about it! I don't care about you! Hawke waved away the hand that was pressed by the wind, his face was gloomy, but his lips were already white, and big drops of cold sweat instantly soaked out of his skin, and even the floor was wet!

Desperate Wind's face sank, and he grabbed Hawke's wrist and slammed it away, snatching the pistol from the smoke. He lifted the weak man from the ground and yelled angrily, "You think this will solve the problem? Are you stupid!? No one can help you by doing this, it will only make Mei'er more miserable! ”

"She must want me to die now." Hawke hung his head and stated silently, without any ups and downs in his pale tone, as if he had no love.

Taken aback, he frowned incredulously and asked, "Why don't you explain it to Mei'er?" It's all my fault! The one you should punish is me! Didn't the shadow tell you......" He seemed to think of something, his solemn expression was fixed on his face, and self-blame, hesitation, and regret flashed in his gray eyes, and finally he shook Hawke's weak body and asked in a deep voice: "Sue me, what do you want?" What do you want!? ”

He never thought that Hawke would love Mei'er so much that he wanted to kill himself? Having been by his side since he was eight years old, no matter how tortured he was, no matter how hard he lived, this man never thought of dying! Juefeng pursed his lips, suppressing the idea that he often ran out to do evil, he must be obsessed with doing so many wrong things, he owes him too much, and he can't be selfish anymore!

Desperate Wind clenched his fists, as if he had made up some kind of determination, he looked at Hawke deeply, and said word by word, "You want her, don't you?" If you still want her, don't do this stupid thing again! If you still want me to help you, sober up! ”

Hawke's confused eyes suddenly became clear, and he seemed to grasp the only hope, and his body tensed instantly.

"Do you remember the kind of injection that made Mei'er lose her memory in the first place? An improved version has been developed in the real yàn room, and I call it Forget Worries. As long as she uses Forget Worries and gives her mental guidance, certain areas of her memory will be erased. Juefeng took out a dark green injection from his arms, held it tightly in his hand, and said with a struggling expression: "But there is a little ......."

"But what!?" Hawke's whole body came to his senses, and the cells in his whole body cheered because of the news, his voice suddenly rose a few degrees, and he hurriedly asked anxiously.

"This thing is addictive because it contains heroin, even if the addiction process is minimized, it will still have intermittent attacks, you must control the dosage when using it, be careful! Be careful...... "He once again delivered her to Hawke with his own hands, but it was the only thing he could do! If you have to go to hell alone, then go to it yourself!

Hawke's eyes widened, and a flash of ecstasy flashed across his face, and he couldn't wait to take the little bottle of injections, as if all the hope of life was pinned on it! Ignoring his injured arm, he hurried out.

In the quiet corridor, there was only a man running wildly, blood splashing all over the ground, but he laughed, and his handsome face was more excited than ever.

"Mei'er, Mei'er......" Hawk called her name in his heart, he seemed to be able to see her beautiful smile again, and he could hold her to sleep with peace of mind, and everything would be better! It's going to get better......

What does it mean to lose and regain? And so it is!