Paid Chapter (16 points)

23. The same is the end of the world

"I was removed from my post for the unauthorized use of illegal narcotics, and my anesthesiologist license was almost revoked, and all my friends cut off contact with me, and I was like a walking corpse, living a mess," Thinking of those gloomy days, Shen Qiu couldn't help but smile bitterly, "My wife also thought I was embarrassed to her, so she took the initiative to file for divorce and remarried another man, leaving me a six-year-old daughter." ”

He burped, his eyes already clouded by the drink: "You know I have a daughter, right?" ”

Thinking of the girl with a bright smile in the photo, Jian Ling nodded: "I know." ”

Speaking of her daughter, Shen Qiu smiled a little happily: "Hehe, she is a very cute daughter and very obedient, knowing that her father is very unhappy, she will always smile and comfort me." But because of this, I didn't even know that she was sick, I only knew about drinking, and even numbed myself with all kinds of drugs, and I didn't notice how uncomfortable she was......"

He leaned against the wall in despair, his fingers clenching the wine bottle as if he was going to crush it, and his eyes were full of pain: "By the time I found out that her health was getting worse and worse, it was too late, and the malignant tumor in her brain could not be removed." I once boasted in front of Xiao Ke how good my medical skills were, and how many seriously injured patients I had saved on the battlefield who were about to die, and she believed me no matter what I said, but in the end, I couldn't save her at all."

Jian Ling stood quietly in front of him, opened his mouth, wanted to say something, but found that he didn't know what to say, just lowered his eyelids and continued to listen.

"She later had amnesia, and when she opened her eyes to me, she asked me blankly who I was. Little by little, I helped her regain her memory, but she couldn't remember, and I watched as her body grew weaker and weaker, and her breathing became weaker and weaker. Until she was dying, she took the other doctor's hand and called out to the man Daddy, and I was standing next to her, and she didn't know me......"

He raised his hand, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, looked up at the ceiling, and tried to take a deep breath: "I used to think of Xiao Ke as my little angel, no matter how uncomfortable I am, she will accompany me." But she was gone, leaving me alone, without restraint and estimation, I began to indulge myself even more, not only taking narcotics, but also getting drugs. During those days, I could barely feel the feeling of being alive, and every day and night were reversed, like a puddle of mud, and I didn't understand why I was still alive. ”

Later, I accidentally found the diary left by Xiao Ke, which wrote the bits and pieces of her life, she said that she was in pain, but she couldn't make trouble for her father, she had to encourage her father to persevere. Even if everyone didn't believe her, she would always believe that her father was a good doctor. Every time she felt uncomfortable, she told herself to endure it a little longer, and when her father regained her strength, her father would definitely be able to cure her, and she didn't want anyone else's healing except her father......"

When he saw this diary, he still had a syringe in his hand, and after reading it, he looked at the syringe, looked at himself in the mirror, and suddenly began to hate himself. He threw the syringe on the ground, stepped on it, and allowed the drug addiction to kick in, and his whole body convulsed casually, as if he was being eaten by ants, and life was worse than death.

He was like self-harm, and no matter how the addiction hit, he didn't want to find drugs to free himself. He was so uncomfortable that he banged his head against the wall, bit the back of his hand with his teeth, and pierced his wrist with a needle......

During those two months, he was tortured by drug addiction to the point of almost dying, but each time he struggled back from the brink of death. Every time he was sober, he turned out Xiao Ke's diary and read it over and over again, hating himself more and more for being so incompetent and ugly.

He wanted to punish himself with self-abuse, but he unexpectedly got rid of his addiction and began to drink heavily without taking drugs. In order to get drunk faster and deeper, he would even mix anesthetics into the wine, and only when he was drunk to the point of nerve paralysis could he forget his incompetence.

He threw away the wine bottle, grabbed his hair vigorously, and slowly squatted down along the wall: "I am an incompetent doctor, but also an incompetent father, I have no face to go to another world to see Xiao Ke, I can't even die, I can only live in such a daze." ”

His words reminded Jian Ling of the scene when her brother died in her previous life, seeing her loved ones die in front of her but she couldn't do anything, and she also hated her own incompetence.

But she still had to live, because her brother wanted her to live, and this was his last wish to her, and she couldn't let him stay in the ground.

She walked over and squatted down next to Shen Qiu: "Show me your daughter's picture again." ”

Shen Qiu let go of his hand, looked at her sideways, saw that her expression was very serious, took out the communicator and handed it to her.

She turned on the communicator and looked at the girl on the screen, smiling brightly at a sunflower, just looking at it can make people infected. Jian Ling couldn't help but hook the corners of her mouth and laughed slightly: "She looks very similar to you." ”

Shen Qiu smiled a little ugly: "Others say that we are carved out of a mold." ”

"She would be very happy if she knew that you were still a doctor and had saved so many people."

“…… But I couldn't save her. ”

Jian Ling glanced at him: "But she saved you, she has been protecting you in the dark, if you don't live well, it will really be in vain for her hard work." ”

He reached out and rubbed his face vigorously, obviously disbelieving: "Really? ”

"Didn't she call 'Daddy' before she died?"

His voice was hoarse: "But he was facing someone else......"

"But his name is 'Daddy', are you her 'Daddy'?"

Shen Qiu was stunned for a moment, slowly lowered his head, and did not answer.

Jian Ling pointed the photo on the communicator screen at him: "She was sick at that time, maybe she was dazzled, or maybe her body didn't listen to her call, but all she thought about in her heart was you." You're in your thirties, and as an adult, you don't really have to worry about such a trivial matter with a sick child. ”

"I didn't bother with her, I just ...... I just feel sorry for her......"

"Knowing that you are sorry for her, you have to be like a man, shoulder this responsibility, and find a way to make up for it. There is such a thing as wine, the more you drink, the more you can't get drunk, and if you have time to play drunk and toss, it's better to accumulate more yin virtue for your daughter, so that she can have a good baby in the next life, and don't die early like in this life. ”

Shen Qiu slowly raised his head, his eyes full of confusion: "Do you think there is really such a thing as reincarnation in this world?" ”

Jian Ling said affirmatively: "I didn't believe it before, but now I believe it." ”

Otherwise, how could she have traveled through thousands of years and come to this strange era? Isn't this kind of rebirth another sense of reincarnation?

She said word by word: "At the beginning, the whole world didn't believe in you, only Xiaoke believed in you, and some things no matter what the truth is, daring to believe it represents a kind of belief." Why can't you trust her the way you do? ”

Shen Qiu looked at her eyes and paused for a long time before muttering: "If Xiao may be reincarnated, I really hope to see her again......"

"If you can keep believing it, you may be able to see it." Although this chance is almost zero......

He stared blankly at the communicator's screen, as if remembering something, and his gaze slowly became determined. He took the communicator back, smirked twice at the cute little Lori on the screen, and then pursed his lips and leaned in loudly.

Jian Ling looked at the obsession in his eyes, and felt more and more like a strange Shu Huang, no wonder this thing always likes to fantasize about all kinds of little Lori, and his feelings are full of fatherly love, but he can't find a person to vent, so it leads to endocrine disorders, and he rushes directly towards the goal of Wei Shu Huang and can't drag it out.

She wiped the goosebumps that came out of her arm, stood up and took two steps back, trying to save him one last time: "I can understand the mood of missing your daughter, but you must not do anything to other people's daughters."

Shen Qiu hugged the communicator like a baby: "Maybe someone else's daughter is my daughter who was reincarnated, I can't do it for Mao?" ”

"......" Jian Ling really wanted to smack his mouth, logical thinking doesn't have such a use

At this moment, the nurse came back: "Doctor Jane, the information you asked for has been called up and sent to your computer." ”

Jian Ling nodded, quickly got rid of the crazy weird Shu Xiao, and strode towards his office.

When she turned on the computer, looked at Aemon's file, and was slightly stunned - Emmon had the experience of drug abuse and drug rehabilitation before, and every time she was found out soon after taking drugs, and then she was forced to detoxify, and it didn't take long after success, but she re-became addicted to drugs, and so on three or four times.

Remembering that Shen Qiu said that Emon was suffering from heart disease, Jian Ling pondered, this is not a problem that can be solved simply by detoxification.

Aemon was able to quit drugs, indicating that his body had some resistance to drugs, and that his addiction was not so big that he could not live without drugs. But he still keeps getting addicted to drugs, as if he has walked into a strange circle, constantly circulating a certain evil ** thing.

If you want him to get rid of drug addiction completely, you must find out the root cause of the matter, so that you can cure the root cause.

Jian Ling is not good at psychology, Qi Mu is much more professional in this area, and Shen Qiu, he has experience in this area, he must know more about Aemon's mental activities than ordinary people. Catch up with Ming'er when she has time, she has to go to Qi Mu and Shen Qiu and let them work together to prepare a set of treatment plans, she can't just watch Emon fall into the abyss.

She thought very attentively, and didn't notice Ji Yue walking into the office, until Ji Yue called her, she came back to her senses, looked up at Ji Yue, and said lightly: "Why are you here?" ”

Ji Yue walked to her desk, caught a glimpse of the information on her computer, and smiled strangely: "I didn't expect you to even take care of such things as drug use, it seems that you are really an omnipotent savior, my little mind has really become a clown in front of you, making you laugh." ”

Jian Ling turned off the computer directly, turned the chair, put her hands around her chest, and looked at her coldly: "You came to me on purpose just to say these things to me?" ”

"Of course not, I'm here to bid you farewell."

"Congratulations, you're finally back at your medical headquarters."

Ji Yue couldn't help sneering: "It's thanks to you, if you hadn't gone to make a small report, how could the teacher suddenly call me back?" ”

"You almost committed suicide because of your selfishness, and this matter was submitted to the medical headquarters by Section Chief Bai in accordance with the rules and procedures, and Dr. Fan asked you to go back to prevent this kind of mistake from happening again. You don't repent of doing something wrong yourself, but instead push your mistakes on me, Dr. Jane, you have to be careful, I'm afraid this amount of belly won't make a big deal. ”

Ji Yue, who was poked in the sore spot, couldn't bear it, slapped her palm on the table, and raised her eyebrows: "It's not your turn to intervene in my affairs."

Jian Ling shrugged helplessly: "Your matter has nothing to do with me, you sent it to the door to find fault, I just talk about things, you don't need to be so excited at all." ”

"Doctor Jane, don't be too arrogant, this planet is turning, a person will not always stand in an unlucky position, if you change places with me one day, I see how can you still watch jokes casually?"

Jian Ling stared at her with a smile: "Do you think that you can be here today because of your bad luck?" Doctor Ji, dare to ask, have you ever seen a real bad luck and downfall after a smooth ride all the way to the present? ”

Ji Yue retracted her fingers and clenched her fists: "You say I'm smooth?" In order to be able to study and study, I even gave up my self-esteem and knelt on the ground to beg for the woman's alms, no matter how she mocked and disliked me, I had to put on a smiling face to please her, I tried every means to cater to her, and you will never understand the grievances I suffered."

Jian Ling had done some investigations on her affairs before, and the backgrounds of the two were unexpectedly similar. is also born to a woman outside, is also an illegitimate daughter who can't be on the stage, and is also a sad **** charming who has suffered from all kinds of dislikes from her stepmother since she was a child

But the difference is that Ji Yue is far harder than Jian Ling before, even under the various oppression of Mrs. Ji, Ji Yue still works hard to learn everything that a noble daughter should have, and she does her best to hide her humble background. Whether it is study or etiquette, she must do her best, so that Mrs. Ji, who has no children and no daughters under her knees, has nothing to say.

But the more perfect she is, the more Mrs. Ji looks at her unpleasantly, and this mother and daughter, who seem to be harmonious on the outside, are actually full of contradictions.

Jian Ling looked at her unwilling appearance, and said lightly: "Even if you are both an illegitimate daughter, you at least have the love of your father, as long as you are coquettish, there will be all kinds of opportunities in front of you immediately." If you really feel unlucky, go home to your dad and shed a few tears at him, and all your problems will soon be solved? ”

Ji Yue hates others for relying on her father the most in her life, and Jian Ling's words undoubtedly guessed her sore spot

She gritted her teeth and said word by word: "I can have today, all of which rely on my own strength, and I have nothing to do with my father"

"Well, if it really doesn't have anything to do with it, why do you bother to please your stepmother? Is it only by pleasing her that you can take advantage of your father's love for you and successfully inherit all the property of the Ji family? ”

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