Paid Chapter (15 points)

104. Regardless of sacrifice and life and death

Xia didn't understand, since he was with Jian Ling, he would always be flustered. Obviously, it was just a trivial matter, but he couldn't help but worry about it, and even thought about it, for fear that he would do something bad and make Jian Ling angry, and then she wouldn't like him anymore.

So he always tried his best to take care of her, showing his most gentle and homely side in front of her, and when he encountered problems, he would habitually back down, even if this kind of concession was only superficial, he could do it beautifully, so that she could not see the traces, because he would not give her any reason to quarrel.

But what Jian Ling said on the phone just now made him feel very nervous, and her memories sounded like goodbye. He knows her character very well, he always likes to hold things in his heart, and he would rather carry it alone than take the initiative to say it and let him help share it, this time he suddenly said so many things, and finally said ...... Don't want her.

Such words would never have been heard from her mouth before.

Natsu didn't know what had happened to her, let alone what she meant, and he preferred her to be as usual, even if she was cold and indifferent, but at least he could guess what she was thinking. But now, he didn't know anything, he just felt more and more panicked.

He didn't mind being cheeky and rubbing it to make people happy, what he was most afraid of was that the person was gone, gone, and he couldn't even find anyone cheeky.

The car drove faster and faster, and according to the navigation tracking and positioning of Jian Ling's communicator, he finally found the source of the signal - a small deserted street garden.

When he landed and stopped, he pushed the car, and forgot to take the clothes and bags he had prepared, so he hurriedly pushed the car door and jumped out of the car.

The cold wind mixed with snowflakes poured into his collar, freezing his scalp tightly, but he didn't mean to back down at all. He raised his head, opened his eyes wide, and saw Jian Ling sitting on the bench at the entrance of the park through the snowflakes flying in the sky.

She held the humanoid Barbara in her hands and sat it on her lap, one big and one small, motionless. Behind the bench was a large tree, blocking some of the snow, but still missing snowflakes drifted in, landing on her hair, eyelashes, and clothes.

Barbara's eyes were sharp, and when she saw him, she immediately shouted excitedly: "General, here and here!" ”

Jian Ling, who was originally expressionless, heard Barbara's cry, followed his gaze, and slowly fused with Xia's gaze in the air.

Xia didn't pause, pulled his legs and ran over, and without saying a word, he took off his coat and wrapped her tightly. He helped her wipe the snowflakes off her face, and held her cold face with his hot hands, and when her body temperature rose a little, he couldn't help but lean over and smell it, and **** her lips impatiently, as if he wanted to use his own temperature to dispel all the coldness in her body.

Jian Ling still sat there without moving, opening his mouth slightly, allowing him to stick his tongue in.

The moment the tips of the two tongues touched, as if they had stimulated something, they were entangled urgently, fiercely attacking the city and plundering the ground, and their breathing became heavier and heavier.

They are like cannibal flowers, eager to crush each other whole and devour each other, and from then on they will become one and never separate.

I don't know how long the kiss lasted, but the passionate breath gradually dissipated, and the two of them were left to rub and blend gently. The tips of their noses touched, and the warm snort sprayed on each other's cheeks, and both of them had half-open eyes, looking intoxicated, but in fact, they took each other's every small expression into their eyes.

Barbara, who was sandwiched between the two, was staring straight at their kissing lips at this time, listening to those blushing and heart-pounding sucking sounds, and couldn't help but have her eyes shining, and her little face flushed. Seeing it, he even pursed his little lips, as if joining Jian Ling and Xia's kiss.

Without waiting for him to get his wish, Xia let go of Jian Ling's cheek.

He looked at her reddened lips, which were watery and moist from the kiss, like pink crystal jelly, and couldn't help but darken his eyes, and wrapped her whole into his arms, pecking her one after another.

After the two of them were breathing a little calmer, Xia Fang asked gently, "Did something happen?" ”

Jian Ling let him hold him, his nose was full of his breath, very warm and steady, but his voice became heavier: "The Jian family may be finished, so many people will die." ”

"Do you feel unbearable?" Natsu gently patted her back and used her body to help her block out all the wind and snow.

"I'm the one who harms everyone, if I can't bear it at this time, am I too hypocritical?"

Xia was slightly stunned: "You hurt it?" ”

Jian Ling leaned lightly on him, whispered the whole thing, and finally raised his head to look at him, his eyebrows trembling slightly: "I killed so many people at once, even my own relatives didn't let go, do you think that I, a woman, is a femme fatale and a bad and terrible heart?" ”

She asked very seriously, her eyes fixed on him for a moment, for fear of missing any change in him.

It was rare to see her so nervous, Xia couldn't help but melt his heart, and lowered his head and pecked lightly on her forehead: "You yin * him at the beginning, but the final choice has always been in his hands, and it was he who took the risk to frame the Lai family." He is already an adult, and since he has made a choice, he should take responsibility for his choice, instead of immediately blaming others for all the mistakes when things fail, and you don't have to blame yourself for other people's choices. ”

Although he didn't name him, Jian Ling knew that the "he" in his mouth was Christine.

She frowned slightly: "I'm not sympathetic to him, I'm just thinking, did I go too far this time?" After all, the rest of the Jian family is innocent, and many people I don't know at all, so because of my momentary selfishness, I lost my life for no reason. ”

Xia looked at her increasingly heavy expression, his arms were tightened a little, and his chin rubbed the top of her head carefully: "I have actually often thought about it before, every time I go to battle, there are always countless casualties, most of them are enemies, but there are also many innocent people who are helpless, and even our own brothers and comrades...... They didn't do anything wrong, but in the end they all died, and they died so miserably that some of them couldn't even find their bodies. I don't understand the point of such a war, and I don't find the slightest existential value in it other than death and separation. ”

As he spoke, Jian Ling slowly put away his heavy heart, reached out to wrap his arms around his waist, buried his face in his chest, and listened quietly.

"But the truth is, no matter how much I question it, the war is still going on, I am still killing people, I am like a gun that has killed countless people, the appearance is glamorous and worshiped as the god of war, but in fact the inside has long been eroded by blood. Every time I look at my blood-stained hands, I can only tell myself over and over again that it is all about defending the country and defending the people we love, and that I am doing the right thing, and I don't need to linger or question anything. I call this faith, and in order to uphold the faith, I don't care about sacrifice or life or death. ”

This is the first time that he has spoken out those hidden thoughts hidden in his heart in front of others.

With those dry and gentle words, he couldn't help but lower his head, seeking a warm breath around Jian Ling's neck. Just like before, use the warmth on her body to dispel the coldness that penetrates into the bone marrow.

"Ah Ling, there is no way to say whether many things in this world are right or wrong, let alone measure whether it is too much. Because they simply don't stand up to scrutiny, and if you have to tear through the surface to seek the truth, you'll only end up putting yourself in a more embarrassing situation. Living itself is a very hard thing, don't toss yourself so much, learn to forget and forbear, is the best way to treat yourself and the people you love. I'm worried about you, stop tossing yourself, okay? ”

Jian Ling hugged him tightly, nodded muffledly, and the corners of his eyes slowly filled with warmth and humidity.

Natsu picked her up horizontally and carried her back to the car, and Barbara had already wittily changed back into the shape of a bug and burrowed into the stud space.

It was very warm in the car, but Xia was still not worried about her, so he took out all the scarves and gloves and helped her put them on one by one.

Jian Ling, who was slowly calming down, noticed that he was still wearing an apron for cooking, the wetness in the corners of his eyes did not spread anymore, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but hook: "You just cooked at home?" ”

"yes, I'm stewing soup, and the fish has just been made...... Finished! Lao Tzu's soup! He slapped his thigh, slammed on the accelerator, and hurried home.

By the time he got home, the soup in the casserole was almost dry, and the room was full of burnt smells.

He looked at the black ribs in the casserole with full distress: "It's over, the soup is gone......"

Jian Ling took off his coat and poured himself a cup of hot water, and saw that he was washing the casserole while breaking his thoughts, and the content of his thoughts was all words of mourning for those ribs. She stood outside the kitchen with a glass of water, looking at his pitiful appearance a little speechlessly: "As for it? Isn't it just a pot of soup, just go back and buy some pork ribs to stew. ”

After speaking, she glanced at the snowflakes outside the window again: "Don't go today, wait for the snow to stop and the weather outside is better." ”

Hearing this, Xia turned his head and looked at her with a blank look: "Then you go with me?" ”

"Well, I'll come with you."

Hearing this, Xia immediately threw his frustration out of the clouds, and threw a big flying kiss at Jian Ling in the air: "My daughter-in-law is so good, the pork rib soup is gone, I will stew fish soup for you again." ”

Because Jian Ling agreed to accompany him to the mall, his mood changed from cloudy to sunny, and he didn't forget to hum a small tune when cooking that night, and finally made four dishes, a soup and a dessert.

There are so many dishes, obviously too much for the two of them, and of course all the dishes that can't be eaten are sent into the stomach of a certain fat worm.

At night, Jian Ling took a hot bath and put on a clean nightgown, only to find that the clothes belt was missing.

She searched all over the room, but couldn't find it, and finally had to give up and sleep under the covers.

In the middle of the night, she slept in a daze, and someone sneaked into her bed, and easily took off her nightgown without straps, kissing and stroking, and playing so excited.

When she woke up, before she could kick someone off the bed, she found that her hands were tied to the iron frame at the head of the bed, and what tied her was the "lost" belt?!

She looked at Xia, who was busy working on herself, and her forehead was bruised: "If you still want the child in my belly, roll off me immediately!! ”

I have something to do during the day, and I updated it late, sorry. Wait for another chapter to add more.,Even in the hard code.,Can't wait for the relatives to go to sleep.,It's the same when you get up tomorrow.。

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