On October 15, 2046, after dinner and sent Xu Chunmei and Zhang Ting away, Jiang Dajun and I returned to the dormitory, and after the two of us washed, I lay on the bed and looked like I had just borrowed a martial arts novel "Gan Nineteen Sisters" from Cao Dongxue. I haven't read much martial arts novels before, but now that I'm free and have time, I took it and flipped through a few pages and became fascinated. While I was fully immersed in the storyline of the novel, I heard a new text message coming from my phone. I took it and saw that it was sent by Xu Chunmei, and the text message read: Sir, I have arrived at the school safely, and I will go to class in a while, don't kiss goodbye, love your rose. I immediately replied: I am at ease, let's go to class. Rose sent another short message: Sir, I have a birthday in a few days, what kind of gift do you give me? I thought about it and replied: What do you want. Xu Chunmei sent it: Whatever, don't talk about it, it's time to go to the classroom, it's time to go to class. I sent it: Okay, kiss goodbye.

After going to work on October 16, 2046, I often follow the editing team to other places to collect and edit, sometimes I come back on the same day, sometimes I don't come back for a few days, and I always feel like I'm wandering on the road and my heart is wandering. Seeing that Xu Chunmei's birthday on the 16th day of the ninth month of the lunar calendar was approaching, she bought her a ceramic doll kissed by two people in the mall that day, and bought her a silk scarf embroidered by Suzhou, which I wanted to give to her on her birthday. Because he was in Quancheng for an interview, he was not able to return to Binhe City, Central Plains Province that day. I can only edit a text message: on such a special day, I really want to be by your side, send you the most sincere birthday wishes, and send you the birthday gift I chose for you. Now, I am in a different place, and I can't do this, I can only use my sincerity. Edit a message of wishes sent to you, wishing you a happy birthday. I checked it and sent it out.

After waiting for a long time, I didn't see Xu Chunmei send a message back, so I lay down on the bed and went to sleep. When I woke up the next day, I looked at the mobile phone message, and there was a message from Xu Chunmei at two o'clock in the morning, and the message was written like this: I just saw the birthday wishes you sent, I am very happy today, I spent my birthday with several classmates in the information department today, and I am now singing in the song hall. I edited a message and sent it to Xu Chunmei: Don't stay up all night in the future. This is not good for your studies, and it is not good for beauty. After checking that there are no errors, it will be issued.

I haven't received Xu Chunmei's message for a long time, and when it was eight o'clock in the morning, Xu Chunmei's text message came again, I clicked on it and looked, and the short message was written: Got it, work hard. When I got back to school at five o'clock, I had just woken up. I'm going to class right away. I edited a short message: Okay, I wish you good luck in your studies. Xu Chunmei sent: Thank you, kiss goodbye.

On October 26, 2046, I returned to Binhe City from Quancheng, and on the same day, I called Xu Chunmei and said, "Rose." I'm going to Riverside this afternoon, are you free in the evening, I want to send you a birthday present, and have dinner together in the evening. It's kind of making up for your birthday. Xu Chunmei said: "Sir, I have received your wishes, I really don't have time to go out tonight." Thank you for your kindness. I said, "Since you're busy, let's talk about it later when you have time." Xu Chunmei said, "Okay, I'll hang up the phone if it's okay." I said, "Okay, take care." Xu Chunmei said, "Thank you, kiss your husband." I said, "Kiss goodbye, rose." Xu Chunmei hung up the phone.

For a long time after that, there was no contact between Xu Chunmei and me, Xu Chunmei was busy with her studies, and I was busy with my work. In his spare time, he reads idle books, and occasionally writes about his feelings about life and a few short unwritten poems. After a long time, the emotions are in a vacuum. Some encounters, no matter how beautiful they are, can't stand the coldness of time. If you don't say anything, this is the distance, and over time, you don't even have the courage to make a phone call. When I was free, I thought of the beauty and warmth with Xu Chunmei, and my heart was still a little itchy, warm, as time went by, this feeling became weaker and weaker, and finally I felt that sometimes I couldn't remember Xu Chunmei's appearance.

I often think like this when I'm fine, you have to insist on loving someone, and love also needs to be expressed, even if it's a message or a greeting every day, this is also a way to express love. Deep love also needs each other's telepathy, love is a matter for both parties, not a one-sided effort, and true love also needs a sincere response. Thinking about it now, I don't even have the courage to make a phone call, and I really don't know what is wrong with my relationship with Rose.

In mid-November 2046, when the heating was about to be provided, I edited a text message and sent it to Xu Chunmei. The text message is written like this: A person wants to leave you for a thousand reasons, and a person wants to be with you for only one reason, and that is to like you, appreciate you, and cherish you. After more than an hour, I finally saw Xu Chunmei's reply: It's very good, I'm sorry, I've been busy reviewing exams recently. Knowing that she was really busy, how could I be embarrassed to send another message to disturb her, so I didn't send another message to Xu Chunmei. The spiritual emptiness can be filled with learning, and how to fill the emotional emptiness really bothers me.

When love is a thing of the past, some things are the same whether they are said or not. When I left school and was about to enter society, I felt that my ideals and beliefs had changed in different ways, and even my attitude towards feelings had become much more realistic. Thinking about the emotional differences with Xu Chunmei, there is no time is also a reality, the contact is becoming less and less, it is also a reality, the misunderstanding starts from scratch, there are more and more differences, these slowly help my lack of confidence in loving Xu Chunmei, my doubts about this more and more ethereal feelings, I have not completely let go of it yet, but I want to hear Xu Chunmei's goodbye or a reason.

When this kind of feeling permeates my heart more and more, and I am more and more confused, it is actually only a matter of moments to let go.

On the evening of December 31, 2046, Yu Jinling, Wang Xiaoqin, Chen Shushan, Nie Xin and others, a total of seven or eight people, celebrated the 2047 New Year at the shabu mutton shop near our media building. A first snow dressed the city of Binhe City in silver, Yu Jinling and a few of us were shabu mutton, Yu Jinling looked at the snowflakes flying outside the window and said: "Come on, new friends and old friends, Ruixue Zhaofeng year, there are two or three hours to 2047, let us raise our glasses, and wish everyone here all the best of luck and all the best." Chen Shushan said: "Well, we would also like to thank today's host, Mr. Yang Zaixu, who provided us with this rare encounter. ”

I picked up my glass and said, "Thank you all for taking time out of your busy schedule to see today's gathering, I sincerely wish my friends all the best work and full love in the coming year, and the most important thing is to wish everyone peace and happiness." ”

Wang Xiaoqin also picked up the wine glass and said: "Thank you, handsome guy, you haven't forgotten us, and I also wish you a happy New Year and all the best." Nie Xin said: "On the occasion of the New Year, thank you for sending us all blessings, and I also wish you all the best in the new year." I raised my glass and clinked glasses with Wang Xiaoqin and Nie Xin beside me, and I said to Nie Xin: "I wish you progress in your studies, and I wish Sister Qin a happy internship." ”

The wine glasses jingled, and everyone shouted in unison, "Cheers." (To be continued......)

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