Chapter 196, turn around and go

Mingjing silently listened to Changsheng's tantrum. Suddenly felt that she thought she loved her deeply, but in fact, she could only bring her trouble, she had never considered problems from her own standpoint, but she had never really thought about her, and she had never faced the obstacles between the two, no wonder she had been unwilling to answer herself, and suddenly felt that she should reflect on it.

He looked at Changsheng apologetically, and said sincerely: "I'm sorry, I said that day because I drank too much, an uncomfortable tight, I wanted to talk to you, and I was afraid of causing you trouble, so I went to find my aunt, I only knew that I drank too much, but I didn't know how serious it was, I babbled a lot that day, it was all my own psychological words, maybe I inadvertently said something that shouldn't be said, but please believe that I didn't mean to." And you know what kind of person my aunt is, although she is afraid that I will really do that, but she will not misunderstand you. Maybe I just want you to persuade me. I'm going to explain it to her! ”

Changsheng sighed helplessly, what else could she do? The temper tantrum has already been sent, people are always masters, and they can't go too far, anyway, the aunt will definitely be wary of herself in the future, and she finally has someone in this Xie Mansion who can both trust and help herself, and she will definitely have a melt in the future. Changsheng didn't think that people should be so generous that even the women of Yin*'s son Mo Ben had to accept it, the key was that she didn't do that, she was innocent.

But if Mingjing went to explain, even if Aunt Tai didn't believe that she was a person who provoked the feelings of other people's mother and son, she would definitely think that she had said something to Mingjing, and he didn't shy away from coming over today to tell the truth.

She looked at Mingjing and said seriously, "Explain what?" What is there to explain? Do you want Aunt Tai to misunderstand me even more? Let her think that I am not only a woman who eloped with the son of a **** family, but also a woman who sow discord between the mother and son?

As she was talking, Zihu came in and said that her aunt had sent someone to spread the word that she and Master Cen were coming over after lunch.

Mingjing smiled bitterly, and suddenly felt that he was really useless, he said goodbye to Changsheng and was about to leave.

Changsheng felt that he was a little excited just now, after all, he was the dignified third son of Xie Fu, and it was not his intention to bring trouble to himself, so he slowed down his tone and said: "Third master, don't blame Changsheng for speaking straightforwardly, I have a last resort, you probably can't understand it, after I came home from the palace, I thought everything was beautiful, thinking that everything was fine by my father's mother's side." What's more, most of the moonsilver I had in the palace was given to my family, thinking that I would have a bowl of rice to eat no matter what, but who knew that life was not what I imagined.

You can't understand what it means for a woman who is too old to marry in the middle of nowhere. At home, I have been haunted by mundane things, and I have encountered some unthinkable things, life is very difficult, fortunately I saw the job posting, and I have to be valued by the general, so I have such a bowl of stable rice to eat, can you imagine how much I attach importance to this errand?

So I've been doing my duty very hard, trying to be worthy of this job, and now I'm so close to Jinshu, I really don't want to leave her, I want to keep this job, I can't think about it, if the old lady knows that I'm that kind of woman, will she keep me? It's a small matter for me to lose my job, but what about Shu'er, she is so young, she has no mother, and the general is not there. You are entangled in all kinds of things, and if you say something that you don't like, except for the general and you, I can't find that the master in this mansion really loves her, can you bear to change a Jinshu who has finally regained her health and nature?

It's not that the third master is bad, to be honest, being able to marry the third master is a blessing from the cultivation of the third generation. But the difference in our identities is a gap that cannot be crossed, it is impossible to be together at all, and I am resolutely not a concubine, what kind of life Aunt Tai has lived in this life, you must know better than anyone else, if you really like that woman, do you want her to live like that for the rest of your life? So please don't say those words again in the future, because it's impossible for us. ”

Mingjing smiled bitterly and nodded again and again: "You are right, I also know these problems, but I have been deceiving myself and refusing to face reality." I never think about how to solve these problems, I only live in my own illusory feelings, thinking that I have a sincere heart for you, in fact, as you said, it is simply a Shandong Province between us, you can rest assured, that is a mountain I will also move away. I'll leave now, and I'll be more careful in the future so as not to trouble you. ”

Turning his head to leave, Changsheng was a little unbearable, but he didn't know what to say, so he simply let him go, but Mingjing turned around and glanced at her greedily. Said sincerely: "Changsheng, although I can't give you the title of wife, but I can make you my only woman, if I don't marry a wife for the rest of my life, and you are the only woman for life, are you willing to be my concubine?" ”

Changsheng was really moved, she deeply understood this society, knew what it meant for a son from a family, and knew what it meant for a man to say such an oath when the status of the two was disparity. But she also knows that no matter how beautiful Mingjing's wish is, it is impossible to achieve it in this world, unless it is really as he said, abandoning everything behind him, the two of them wander the world incognito.

But is this possible? Even if she doesn't care about her name and doesn't care about that security, but Mingjing has his mother's relatives who have been wronged all his life, she has the only real relative Jinshu in this world, and her mother's relatives who really love her in the mountain village of Jinbei in this life, how can she bear to leave them all down and live her own?

What's more, she cares about fame and security, in this era, fame is the most tangible thing for a woman. Just like the house and savings in the previous life, and a man's heart is the same everywhere, it is the most volatile, Ming Jing's sincerity at this moment does not mean that he is sincere and sincere in his life, he doesn't care about fame and fortune at this time, it doesn't mean that he doesn't care after trying the hard days of the common people, at that time he is his biggest burden, it is better to keep a clear mind from today.

She took a deep look at Mingjing: "Can you really leave everything behind you?" Are you sure you live only for yourself? Can it be okay to care if everyone else is dead or alive? I want to say that I can't, I can't ignore my relatives, I can't even ignore Shu'er, a motherless child. Although I am just her upbringing aunt, I really feel sorry for her, I am afraid that she will be hit hard again if I suddenly disappear, and I am afraid that my mother will not be able to bear it! ”

Mingjing was shocked again, he shook his head ashamedly: "I'm not as good as you, Changsheng, I'm really not as good as you, no wonder I'm always down-to-earth with you, because you are a person with affection, righteousness, and a beginning and an end!" ”

Changsheng shook his head and laughed: "Don't praise me yet, I haven't finished my words yet, I want to say, I care about fame, I care about fame very much, I'm like this I can't stand being wronged, I don't want to be someone else's little wife when I die, I'd rather be a poor ** than a rich concubine, but I can't stand the pain of freezing when I marry a poor man, and I don't want to be a concubine when I marry a rich man, so I can only rely on this errand to make a living, and the third master must not smash my job!" ”

Thinking of Cen Hao clearly, jealousy suddenly churned. Her requirements are not high, no woman wants to be a concubine, and no woman wants to suffer from frost, so doesn't Cen Hao just fit her requirements? The two are equal, she is worthy of him as a wife, and with the name of a famous pianist, he will definitely give his wife and children a good life, but he will not be rich enough to take a concubine, the two are single-minded and have similar interests, isn't this exactly what she wants?

A sensible woman like her must have planned for her marriage, like herself, knowing that it is impossible, she is like a moth to a fire. only to be sad.

It turned out that his identity as a noble son was so unbearable, it was better to be a pianist who supported himself by his craft, he staggered a few steps, and looked at Changsheng painfully: "I know, I hate my identity, since I was a child, I have been like the grass in the cracks, I have been growing up painfully, when I was a child, I was despised and cold-eyed because I was a concubine, and when I grew up, I couldn't live the life I wanted because of the identity of the noble son, what do I want this identity to do?" ”

Changsheng remembered the bitterness and burden he suffered every day in the palace to survive, after returning home, his father and brother worked every day to avoid starvation, his younger brother studied day and night in order to gain fame, and his uncle drove a car in order to live in the cold and heat. He was dressed in ordinary homely clothes, which were enough for the living expenses of the villagers for a year.

She shook her head and laughed: "What you have is something that most people can't reach, you envy ordinary people, that is, you don't know the suffering of ordinary people, you enjoy the blessings of your birth, you should be burdened by your birth, this is unchangeable." ”

Mingjing still stubbornly shook his head: "If you have a choice, I'd rather not have my own background, I'd rather be like Cen Hao, and let you have the qualifications to be my wife." ”

Then he lowered his head and said bitterly: "What I can't give you, I hope someone else can give it to you and let you live the life you want." I know you don't believe me, but everything I say comes from the heart, don't worry, I won't bother you anymore. After saying that, he turned around and walked away without looking back.

Changsheng couldn't cry or laugh a little, Mingjing actually stubbornly thought that she was interested in Cen Hao, but so far, she just felt that Cen Hao's conditions were comparable in terms of identity and family age. Just like the current marriage agency, put forward its own conditions, and the other party provides a man who meets the requirements in all aspects according to the conditions.

Ancient and modern, women are afraid of marrying and afraid of Lang, ancient times are still very much, because women have no right to choose once they marry for life, although the Tang Dynasty is open to couples can be reconciled, but women after leaving will still be despised, she is not like suffering from that kind of pain and torture, so I want to marry a person who can be entrusted with a lifetime.