Chapter 37: Heart Tribulation
The patriarch seemed to be emotional, tears flashed in his eyes, and he said quietly: "You are too young now to understand the hardships of cultivation, but your father and your mother know that they just know too well how difficult the cultivation of geniuses is, and they don't want you to suffer like them."
Especially your talent is even more outstanding than your grandfather, your grandfather's talent and temperament were excellent back then, and his luck was not too bad, so he broke through the foundation building realm in one fell swoop almost before the end of his life, and he stepped into the side of life by rubbing the life and death line of returning to the earth.
There are many geniuses in the Chiyan clan, everyone came from that time, and those of us who have come here know very well that the cultivation that makes people lose hope is really too hopeless, even if they are all extremely dedicated and hardworking, there are not a few who die halfway.
Didn't your father and mother know that there might be danger before making such a decision? Naturally, it couldn't be clearer, but they still went, and they were willing, you were a treasure they held in the palm of their hands, even if the odds were low, as long as they could make you successfully awaken the life pattern, they would be willing to break in.
You think about your father's heart for you, Zao, grandpa knows, in fact, you don't understand, don't blame all the blame on yourself like this, okay? You are a sensible child, don't live up to their expectations of you, don't let them worry about you when they fight against the power of the Demon Pattern. ”
Feng Zao's eyes were red, and her torn heart slowly bridged, but she shouldn't be so decadent, she would definitely not let down her parents and let their efforts and their efforts go to waste.
She choked back tears and choked up: "Grandpa, I know it's wrong, I shouldn't give up on myself, I will cultivate hard, build a foundation as soon as possible, and don't let my father's and mother's efforts be in vain." I will also take good care of my younger brother so that he can grow up healthy and strong, and then we will be reunited as a family.
I will work hard, definitely, I will not live up to my parents' expectations, and I will live well. ”
The patriarch finally breathed a sigh of relief, touched her bald head lovingly, and said, "It's good that you can figure it out." And Dandan, he is scared these days, he can't sleep well all day long, he is very attached to you, and none of us can replace your place in his heart. So, since you made a promise, take good care of him. ”
Feng Zao felt a lot of responsibility on her shoulders, but it also made her heart more firm, and she responded: "Grandpa, I know, I will take care of the balls." Thank you elders for taking care of me for these times, and I have to persuade and relieve me when I am busy, I have caused trouble to the clan. Please rest assured, elders, I will not be as lazy as before, and I will work hard to cultivate. ”
The patriarch patted her on the shoulder and said, "Don't mention any trouble, we are a family, since we are elders, what do we have to do something for the children." If you need anything, or if you encounter any difficulties, don't hide it, just tell it to the clan.
This is Zhang Yang, the worship of the clan, in the future, he will be responsible for guarding your house, taking care of the formation, if there is anything that needs to run errands, you can also call him. ”
A figure slipped out of the shadows beside him, standing aside.
Feng Zao politely shouted, "Hello Uncle Zhang!"
Zhang Yang quickly raised his head and glanced at Feng Zao, and let out a sullen "um".
Feng Zao was a little surprised, the glance that Uncle Zhang looked at just now seemed to contain a lot of complicated things.
The patriarch glanced at him coldly, and instructed Feng Zao to say: "Since you said that you want to cultivate well, then start as soon as possible, but today you also have to rest for a day and adjust your body." ”
Since that day, he has spent the darkest moment of his life, and when he came out of the mental calamity he had set up, Feng Zao never let go of his emotions again, and did not let emotions dominate his mind and behavior.
Even though she still can't let go, she still has self-blame and remorse, but this has all turned into the motivation for her cultivation, making her work harder and more actively, never slackening and doing her best to cultivate, even if there is still no result now, and there is no light in sight.
But she didn't think about giving up.
This memory is bitter, but also sweet.
The look of pain on Feng Zao's face gradually subsided, and the much fainter shadow swam wildly, and it did not change her expression that gradually calmed down.
In a few moments, a large amount of darkness poured out of the ground, converging from all sides of the room, and up her body to finally merge with the previous shadow.
A much thicker shadow writhed on Feng Zao's face, forming special lines, if she could see it at this time, she would be surprised to find that the lines on her parents she had seen were somewhat similar.
Feng Zao suddenly recalled the cultivation process over the years, and the various hardships and setbacks she had personally experienced suddenly overwhelmed her like a mountain torrent.
There was a situation where she cultivated spiritual power at the beginning of her childhood and the first time she participated in the awakening ceremony, and the explosion of the life pattern almost sucked her to the ground, for some reason, she couldn't bear the coma at the time and didn't remember it, but at this time, she felt the pain of being drained of life by the life pattern very deeply.
She practiced desperately day after day, year after year, but the life pattern was still out of reach, as if her future could be seen at a glance.
With her estrangement from her friends, the original intimacy has gradually drifted apart, and their faces come to mind, yelling at her, full of disgust and jealousy.
She occasionally heard the exclamations of the clansmen, but her words were full of mockery, disdain and indifference.
......
All of them didn't come one by one, but exploded almost simultaneously, exploding in her mind, and all kinds of intense emotions twisted together almost broke her.
So be it...... I don't have a future...... Until now, no trace of the lifemark has been found...... I'm not destined to succeed...... How is it possible to break the curse of the early death of genius......
She was immersed in memories and couldn't extricate herself, and she couldn't break free at all.
These feelings suddenly surfaced at some point, bits and pieces, echoing in his heart, and Feng Zao felt extremely desperate.
The complacency that used to exist now seems really ridiculous!
Perhaps in the novel, the supreme genius cultivates thousands of miles a day, far surpassing the world, and is omnipotent across the world, but here, the saddest and most unlucky person is the extremely talented genius!
The truth in this world has never been to get the benefits in vain, if you want to get it, you must have to pay, just like this talent, born to decide, can not refuse, whether you want to or not, born with a talent far beyond others, then the difficulties faced are a hundred times greater.
She really didn't see any hope.
Is there anyone like her, who has never slackened off her practice for five years, day after day, year after year, and still can't even see a single star of the road ahead!