395. I could have lived well without him
"He's not as hard-hearted as you are! I can watch Yukihime die! Nian Nian argued angrily, but he clearly knew that his heart was really painful.
What Zhan Muyan said, how unreasonable? These words pierced Niannian's fragile heart at the moment, and her heart was broken.
yes, he can say no. However, he took Yukihime away without hesitation, and went without looking back.
At that time, he really thought that Yukihime was more important.
So, what about her? What is she in his heart now?
For him, she lost her beloved child. But now, I can only lie here alone, licking my wounds alone......
Thinking sadly, a feeling of almost despair rose in my heart.
If this kind of love can't be held to the end. So, how can she believe that there is eternal true love in the world......
Feeling another layer of fog in his eyes, Nian Nian quickly shook his head and swallowed back the tears that were about to gush out.
Since there is no love anymore, at least, leave yourself a little strength and self-esteem. Never cry again, never cry again for that ethereal love.
Seeing Nian Nian holding back her tears and pretending to be strong, Zhan Muyan felt heartache for a while, and couldn't help but take her into her arms: "Nian Nian, cry if you want to cry." Your third brother...... He said he would come back to you, but he didn't leave you alone. ”
"Hehe, what do I want him to do with me? It's not that I can't live without him, and it's not like no one likes me. Zhan Muyan, didn't you just say that you were willing to marry me? If he doesn't care about me, and since he doesn't care about his children, why should I worry about him coming to me? I could have lived well without him. Nian Nian honestly leaned on Zhan Muyan's chest, and laughed nonchalantly, smiling beautifully and sadly.
Hearing Nian Nian say this, Zhan Muyan lowered his head and stared at her smile.
It stands to reason that he should be happy, he should be glad that Niannian is really angry with her third brother. And in this way, his chances of getting Nian Nian seem to be a little greater.
But at this time, Zhan Muyan's heart did not feel joy at all, but felt heavy.
Because, the happiness and relaxation of Niannian knew at a glance that it was fake......
"Why don't you speak? Zhan Muyan, have you also changed your mind? Do you also have another woman you like more? Seeing that Zhan Muyan didn't say a word, Nian Nian raised her eyebrows, tilted her head and stared at him with wide eyes.
"How so? Niannian, my love for you will never change! Even if you don't love me, I still love you, and I dream of being with you. Zhan Muyan sighed and said softly.
"So, take me out for a bite to eat, I suddenly want to eat Sichuan duck palm hot pot." Nian Nian sat up from his arms and got up and got out of bed.
"Do you really want to eat duck paw hot pot?" Looking at Nian Nian for a moment, he seemed to cheer up a lot, and Zhan Muyan was surprised and incredulous. Because in the past few days, Niannian has no appetite for anything to eat, and he eats very little, and now he suddenly takes the initiative to say that he wants to eat, which is great.
"Of course I really want to eat, these days you always get me those light and tasteless things to eat, I'm tired of it, I want to change the taste." Nian Nian seemed to have fully recovered, and her face was delicate and cute.
Zhan Muyan looked at Niannian's face carefully, a little worried about whether her excitement at this time was abnormally stimulated.
But it seems that everything is fine with Niannian, except that her face is still slightly pale, and her smile can even be said to be sunny.
The two of them went out together, came to a luxury Sichuan restaurant, asked for a private room, and ordered a spicy duck palm hot pot.
Originally, Zhan Muyan said that Niannian's body was still under maintenance and wanted a lighter pot bottom, but Niannian insisted on eating something with a heavy taste, and Zhan Muyan had no choice but to rely on her.
When the hot pot with red oil was served, Niannian's eyes lit up, and she was unceremonious in front of Zhan Muyan, grabbing the chopsticks and eating them.
The duck paw ate one after another, so spicy that she inhaled, and tears finally found a grandiose excuse and kept pouring out of her eyes.
Nian Nian desperately wiped her eyes with the back of her hand while eating, and occasionally didn't forget to say to Zhan Muyan: "It's so spicy...... It's too spicy...... But I just like to eat. ”
Oil stains and tear stains suddenly blurred her face, how embarrassed and embarrassed she looked, and the ladylike demeanor that she could barely maintain in the past was gone at this time.
This scene is as if Nian Nian is a person who has not eaten for hundreds of years, and Xiao Er, who came in to add water, was also a little frightened by Nian Nian's strong eating appearance. After adding water, he forgot to leave, and couldn't help but look at Nian Nian for a while, until Zhan Muyan said unhappily: "It's none of your business here!" Only then did he quit.
After eating for a long time regardless of the image, Nian Nian suddenly found that Zhan Muyan, who was sitting opposite, almost didn't move his chopsticks, just looked at himself without blinking, looking at himself with indescribable pity and pain.
"I know I don't look good when I eat, but you don't have to look at me like that. Why don't you eat such a delicious hot pot? Just look at me, I'm embarrassed to eat it! Nian Nian stopped and said.
"No, Niannian, the way you eat like this is cute, I like to see it. But...... If you feel sad, just cry out, don't hold yourself up so hard. Zhan Muyan said softly.
"Am I sad? Cut, what a joke! What am I upset about? Isn't he gone? What's so great about him? There are so many good men in the world! I don't care who he loves! Isn't it just the loss of a child? It's nothing, I can regenerate children. As long as I want, with you or with others, can't I still have my own children? I won't be upset! Forget it, if you don't eat it, I'll eat it! Nian Nian said angrily, grabbed the chopsticks again, and continued to obsess over the pot of duck palms.
"Niannian, don't pretend...... If you're like this, I'll feel even worse. Zhan Muyan crossed the table and gently held Niannian's hand holding chopsticks.
All the disguises collapsed in an instant, all the pain broke out in an instant, and he cried out with a "wow", crying breathlessly: "Zhan Muyan, why did he treat me like this?" I love him so much, I have already thought about life and death with him. Yukihime can die for him, and so can I. If I had been standing closest to him at that time, I would have pounced on him without hesitation, as Yukihime did. But...... He actually left, and in order to save Yukihime, he chose not to see me! Am I stupid, you say? Isn't it stupid? ”
"You're not stupid at all, Niannian, Niannian, don't cry. Your third brother...... He actually loves you very much. When I asked him to agree to my condition before he was willing to save Yukihime, he was very painful, and he never directly relented and said yes. And, he said he'd come back to you eventually. Looking at Nian Nian's appearance, Zhan Muyan could only try her best to say something that could comfort her.
These words came out of Zhan Muyan's mouth, and he himself felt strange.
Why is it so kind all of a sudden? I want to say good things about Su Junchu in front of Nian Nian. Maybe there was only one reason, and that was that he couldn't bear to see Nian Nian so sad.
Nian Nian cried for a long time before he stopped crying and stopped eating duck paws.
She began to talk non-stop, from the first time she saw Su Junchu by the lake in Xiangfu Garden, to saying that she promised Su Xiangye to marry Li Mo instead of Su Xiaorou, and that Su Junchu went to the border to fight and married Princess Lanxin after coming back...... has been talking about Su Junchu becoming the emperor. told Zhan Muyan all the experiences of her and Su Junchu from meeting and falling in love to the present, and did not miss a single thing.
In the middle of this, Zhan Muyan didn't interject a word, and kept listening to Niannian quietly.
Nian Nian said a lot in one breath, and seeing that Zhan Muyan had no reaction, she suddenly stopped talking and looked at Zhan Muyan stupidly: "I said so much, what's the point?" You're tired of hearing it. ”
"No...... You go on, I want to hear it. Zhan Muyan said gently, his eyes were deep.
In the past few days, Zhan Muyan and Nian Nian have been together, as if they have changed as a different person. is no longer as indiscriminate as before, and has become much more serious.
"Don't say it, it's almost all that needs to be said. I said it because I just didn't want these things to take over my mind anymore. I want to forget all these bits and pieces, and I should forget about them, don't I? Nian Nian looked at Zhan Muyan and smiled, turned her eyes away and continued: "The third brother and I, according to our superstitious saying there, are destined to be together without fate. So, I don't want to force anything. When my brother and they find Xiaorou, I will meet Xiaorou, and I will go back to Lingnan with you, and I am willing to be your good wife. ”
Nian Nian finished talking to herself, but she didn't hear Zhan Muyan's response.
No, hasn't he been desperately proposing to himself? He should have been ecstatic to hear that he was willing to marry him at this time, why didn't he react?
Nian Nian's eyes widened in surprise and looked at Zhan Muyan carefully. But seeing Zhan Muyan looking at him thoughtfully, his expression was not surprised but complicated.
"What's wrong with you? Not happy? Unhappy then when I didn't say. Niannian muttered in a low voice, secretly feeling ashamed of herself in her heart: Meng Niannian, do you want to marry someone now? People are indifferent at all, and you still take the initiative to say that you want to be a good wife to others, which is really embarrassing.
"Nian Nian, how could I be unhappy? You already know that what I dream of is to marry you as my wife. But...... I want to make sure, is it true that you're saying that now? Or is it just your whim? Zhan Muyan looked at her with the color of inquiry and research in his eyes.
"Of course it's true. To be honest, I was in the past, I was in the crossing, and I really didn't expect to find such a handsome husband. Now that I've met you, I'm ready to hold on to it. Maybe I'll be able to wear it back again one day, just in time to take you with me, so I can show off in front of my fox friends. Nian Nian said with a smile, as if getting married now is as simple as eating and dressing for her.
Zhan Muyan laughed softly, and his expression returned to his previous teasing: "It turns out that you still want to bring me back to your time, hehe, except to show off, you don't mean anything else to take me back?" ”
"Let me tell you, Zhan Muyan, if you really go to us, it will definitely be a killer-level sought-after item. Not to mention that you look so eye-catching, just with your unprecedented miraculous medical skills, you can open a hospital or clinic or something, and you will make a lot of money. When the time comes, the beauties who are waiting in line to marry you will grab a lot of them, but I am afraid that your eyes will be dazzled. Nian Nian said seriously.
"Hehe, I don't know if you are not included in the bag among those beauties in line?" Zhan Muyan looked at her with a smile.
"Of course there is no me, although I like handsome guys, I also thought about marrying a rich handsome guy. However, as long as my mind is still in my right, I definitely won't chase the boys. Nian Nian grinned.
If gibberish can forget all painful memories, then it's better to continue talking nonsense. Anyway, Zhan Muyan is a good person to chat with.
The atmosphere seemed to be lively all of a sudden, and the relationship between the two of them seemed to have returned to the previous close to nature.
After talking and laughing like this for a while, Zhan Muyan said, "Nian Nian, have you eaten well?" Let's go back after eating, your body hasn't fully recovered, you need to rest in bed more. ”
This sentence pulled Nian Nian back to reality from the distant time and space, she looked at the desktop that she had made a mess of, and sighed softly: "Let's go, go back." ”
When the two of them walked down the street, bathed in the cool evening breeze, they were both silent. I don't know where all the weird topics just now have gone.
After walking quietly for a while, Zhan Muyan said in a deep voice: "Niannian, you just said that you were willing to be my good wife......
Before he could finish his sentence, Nian Nian interrupted him eagerly: "It's really true!" I'm not kidding! ”
Zhan Muyan looked at Nian Nian and didn't speak again, but gently hugged her waist. This is the most affectionate action he has made to her in the past few days.
The two were silent again, and after a long while, Zhan Muyan said again: "He said that he would come to you again, you were ...... What will be done? ”
"If he dares to come again, I will simply ignore him! On what basis can he come and go at my beckon? Let him go and be with Yukihime, anyway, the person he values more is Yukihime! Nian Nian said angrily.
However, even she could hear the thick, unconcealable, sour taste in these words.
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