Fourth, the mantra
The hustle and bustle of the day passed, and the quiet night arrived.
"Xinmei, are you sleeping?" Jia Shi lay flat on the kang, folded his hands on his lower abdomen, and quietly looked at the beams above his head.
Xiao He turned to face Jia, "No, mother, I can't sleep." ”
"My mother can't sleep." Jia sighed heavily.
Xiao He sat up with half of his body crooked on his side, and said, "Mother, I'm fine, really good." ”
It's like asking others to believe, and it's like self-hypnosis. I'm fine, don't read it.
Mother and daughter are connected, you can understand the meaning of the words without many words, and the only thing that can make the mother worry about the child is the child. Jia patted Xiao He's arm and asked her to lie down, although it was summer, they lived in the middle of the mountainside, and the temperature was low at night, so they still had to cover a thick quilt.
"Your mother-in-law ......" just started and Jia Shi closed his mouth again, can He Shi treat her badly? is a niece again, and she is a widow for her son, is it reasonable to say that Xiao He is good? Mothers are worried that their married daughters will not have a good relationship with their mother-in-law, but what about her? She just wants her daughter to have someone by her side while getting material satisfaction.
"Or ......"
"Mother, don't." Xiao He shook his head. Almost every time she goes home, her mother has to mention her remarriage, but what is the point of a woman who can't give birth to a child just remarries? Is it just to serve men?
"But my mother really feels distressed. You are still so young, you don't feel how difficult it is now, who will take care of you in ten or twenty years? Jia said: "Even if you fill the house, as long as you treat other people's children sincerely, you will have someone to take care of you in your old age." Mother can rest assured even after a hundred years. ”
Xiao He also had tears in her eyes, she didn't know how much she longed to be like an ordinary woman. When it's cold, your husband and children squeeze a kang head, and when it's hot, someone next to you makes an umbrella for you. She also understands that if only she dares to take a step. Even if Jia overcomes obstacles, he will also clear up the anxiety for her happy life in the future. But she was afraid, afraid that she would face a situation of being ridiculed again after getting married, and she had already endured enough white eyes, and she was not confident that she could afford it again. Besides, she's been alone in the empty house for so many years, and she's used to it. Why change what she is used to, it's already a part of her life.
Moreover, even if she treats her future father-in-law's children as her own, can she guarantee that she will have a safe life in her old age? Is it guaranteed for a lifetime? She was in her thirties, and she didn't want to take any more risks. If she is swept away, she will really have no face to survive in the world, and I am afraid that it will be really unfilial at that time.
"Sleep, sleep, don't talk about it." Jia patted Xiao He's back, "What you say is what, as long as you don't feel wronged, your mother will support you." ”
Xiao He didn't speak. It's just to wrap his arms around Jia's neck and get closer to Jia's.
The candles burned silently, and occasionally a few sparks popped up.
Toshi sat on the bed with his hair loose and a pillow behind him. Half-hugging the quilt, his head tilted into the bed.
Li Zhuang sat on a round stool, four or five feet away from Du's. Keep your head down, and occasionally look up at Duch.
No one spoke. No one moved, not even a cicada. There was an invisible tension in the room.
The stalemate is not a solution, the man's family should take the initiative, Li Zhuang stood up and asked, "Lady, are you hungry?" ”
Duch did not speak.
"Eat as much as you want." Li Zhuang walked to Du's bed with a bowl of warm bird's nest and stood still.
Du Shi glanced at the bowl, looked up at Li Zhuang again, and asked, "Do you care if I'm hungry or not, do you feel sorry for me or the child in my belly?" Because he didn't speak all afternoon, Du's voice was a little hoarse.
"It's you, naturally." Li Zhuang replied without hesitation: "No one is as important as you." ”
As soon as the corners of his mouth curled up a small upward amplitude, Du Shi regained his cold face, thinking of Li Zhuang's intimacy with Qian Ying's child and his acquiescence to the title "Mrs. Du", Du Shi felt like a fish in his throat. Does he really care about feeling sorry for her? If so, why not correct that misnomer?
"Really? But I think you care more about Qian Ying. Toshi tried to pretend he didn't care.
After saying this, Du Shi was suddenly stunned, what did she say just now, she was minding Qian Ying, how could it be, was she jealous? How is it possible, she came to Li Jiatun today just to go to the place where Li Zhuang was born and raised, and wanted to try to understand Li Zhuang, after all, he is her husband. Thinking that Qian Ying asked her son to call her Mrs. Du, she must have been confused. Yes, I'm confused. But why is she angry?
"Don't worry too much, Qian Ying and I grew up together, she married an alcoholic, and when she was drunk, she loved to beat people, and she felt that her children were a little pitiful, so she just asked a few more words." Li Zhuang hurriedly cleared up, is it really because of Qian Ying? Don't say that they didn't have anything in the past, but nothing is possible, he has Du Shi in his heart, and he can't tolerate others.
Growing up together, isn't that a childhood sweetheart, two little guesses? Du Shi sneered and tugged at the corners of his mouth. Still caring about others and not having a good time, what, has it aroused your manhood to protect the weak?
Seeing that Du Shi said two words and sulked alone, Li Zhuang was anxious, "Lady, if you have any dissatisfaction, you must say it out loud, just beat me, scold me, in short, you must vent it, otherwise it will not be good for the fetus to be stuffy in your heart." ”
Fetus, fetus, fetus, these two words rang in her ears all day long like a mantra. Du Shi had already planned to give birth to the child calmly, and no longer paid attention to the "him" in her heart, restrained her temper, and lived a good life with Li Zhuang, but as soon as she heard this word, her head exploded like a coax. I had never taken Li Zhuang to heart before, so Du Shi knew that she had done something wrong, but she still ignored and was arrogant, and she could ignore the safety of the child in her belly for the sake of a maid sent by "him". But when she found out that Li Zhuang was good and planned to accept him again, someone directly or indirectly reminded her of a qiē. Let her see her own shamelessness, so Du Shi became angry.
"What about Zixuan and Zimo? Didn't they also fall out of my stomach, why don't you care about whether they eat well, whether they dress warmly, whether they are bullied in the school, and if there is anything they don't understand in their schoolwork? Du Shi slammed the quilt hard, and his long black satin-like hair rushed to his side, like a ghost, and said loudly: "You care so much about this piece of meat in my belly, is it because he is the only one of your species?!" ”
Li Zhuang was stunned for a moment, then the bowl in his hand fell to the ground, he took a few steps back, his face suddenly turned pale, pointed at Du Shi, and said in a trembling voice: "What do you mean by this?" (To be continued......)