165. [164] I was born for you
Ever since they came in, she hadn't looked at Su Wuxian squarely.
"I'm worried about you." His voice was soft.
"I'm fine, I don't need you to worry." She sneered.
"I care about you."
"I have a lot of people who care, and there is no shortage of you." Her tone grew colder and colder, and even the words she spat out seemed to be made of ice.
"I miss you, I want to see you." It really didn't seem like what Su Wuxian would say, but he did, and he was extremely gentle.
Mu Chen was stunned for a moment.
He came to the ghost town because he missed him, should she be happy?
For so many days, she didn't stop thinking about him, his figure always appeared in front of her, constantly swirling in her mind, she tried hard to calm herself down, and kept telling herself that Eun had broken off, even if she said goodbye, it would be in vain.
When she met in the market, she couldn't believe her eyes, she couldn't believe that he was coming, why? The ripples in my heart continued.
She still has expectations, expectations that she shouldn't have.
He had already rejected himself, refused fiercely, and he finally accepted it, just waiting for time to slowly heal the wound.
At this time, after she gave up, he came to give her hope again.
She really didn't want to have a third time, accept hope and then suffer the blow of despair.
She couldn't afford it anymore.
As long as she no longer accepts the sweetness of the beginning, she doesn't need to suffer the final hurt anymore.
She smiled bitterly, and she laughed at herself: "You and I have broken off our righteousness, you don't need to say such things again, I can't bear whether you want to or not." ”
Mu Chen's cold words stabbed at Su Wuxian like an ice pick, and his heart ached.
Did he hurt her, too deep to remedy?
He blamed himself: "I'm sorry ......"
Before the words began, the three words "I'm sorry" had already provoked Mu Chen's deepest depression.
"Shut up." Mu Chen suddenly scolded angrily, raised his eyes full of tears, and looked at Su Wuxian coldly, "Don't tell me these three words again, besides, I'm ...... I cut you. ”
She stood up and pulled out her long sword casually, the tip of the sword pointed directly at Su Wuxie, and it was only a fraction of a millimeter that it could stab him in the throat.
She must be crazy, but only with a cold disguise can she make herself a little more ruthless and protect herself.
Su Wuxian didn't flinch, but this sword, although it was quietly condensed in the air, had already slashed down as if it had really been, smashing his heart to the ground, and he was paralyzed in pain.
He deserved it, he knew it.
Mu Chen just scolded him angrily, and he was already in great pain in his heart, as if he had been sentenced to death, and he had given her so much heartache, how could he not know her heartache?
He can empathize.
If he could, he would have to bear all the pain alone, he couldn't bear to see her tortured anymore.
Su Wuxie's eyebrows tightened, and he wanted to reach out and hug the woman in front of him who was almost collapsed, giving him insignificant tenderness and comfort, but that long sword, like a thousand icebergs, was separated between them.
"Chen'er, I know that nothing can save your heart now, but I don't want to hide my heart because of other people and other things, I just want you to know that I love you." Su Wuxie's dark eyes faintly flashed with light waves, flashing with sadness and sadness, unable to hide the man's cowardice.
"Enough, your love is cruel, you know?" Mu Chen's long-tense emotions became more and more uncontrollable, "The first time, you hugged me and kissed me, saying that you loved me, I finally recognized my heart, I wanted to put my love into the kite I made with my own hands, but you said you didn't need it." Well, you let me know, you don't want my love, I'll let you go. ”
Her hand holding the sword was shaking, and like in her heart, she couldn't calm down: "The second time, you have already carried me to the bed-on, and I am happy too, isn't it?" I thought you still loved me, but what happened? You pushed me away, do you remember? You pushed me away. Even if I begged you, humbly begged you, begged me, you still pushed me away. Well, you let me know again, not only do you not want my love, but you also don't want my body, for you, I am useless, I admit defeat, I will let you go completely. ”
She became more and more excited, tears had already broken down like a, her heart was like a stormy wave, her blood was constantly surging, and even her breathing was rapid: "I really completely admit defeat, I have accepted the fact that you don't love me, why do you still appear in front of me?" Why do you still say you love me? Does playing with me really make you happy? I don't have anything left for you to spit on, what do you want from me? ”
By the end of the day, she had exhausted herself.
She didn't understand why she was out of control, anyway, she was completely out of control, this kind of loss of control, she couldn't stop, her heart throbbed because of the violent emotional outburst, this abnormal throbbing pain almost killed her.
The pain spread all over her body, as if the skeleton of her whole body was sucked away, her hand was weak, and with a "bang", the long sword fell to her feet, her legs were weak, and the whole person sat on the ground limply.
Su Wuxie's eyes tightened, and he hurriedly stepped forward and squatted down to help.
His hands were about to hold her arms, but Mu Chen shouted, "Don't touch me." ”
A pair of long arms froze in mid-air as if they were frozen in an instant.
Obviously, the woman he loves is in front of him and within reach, but his heart seems to be blocked thousands of miles away, unable to move forward half a step.
Looking at her as she collapsed, Su Wuxian felt for the first time that he was so incompetent and couldn't do anything.
She is already resisting, resisting, and even disgusted with herself.
He was sad and sad, like eating a big mouthful of coptis, bitter, his heart was pressed tightly by a boulder, and he couldn't breathe.
Tears flickered, and two lines of clear tears finally couldn't help but fall silently from their eyes.
The man has tears and doesn't flick, he really regrets it, but is it too late?
He had broken her heart, her self-esteem, her arrogance, and he had broken her to the brink.
It turned out that the injury he gave her was a thousand times worse than he imagined.
He's cornered her to the point where he can't go.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know that I was so despicable, and our love had been completely ruined by me. I won't upset you again, but I'm not leaving. If you don't want to see me, I'll hide and watch over you out of sight. Su Wuxian stood up in pain.
He wanted to embrace her, soothe her wounds, and give her the most intimate kisses, but he knew that he was disqualified.
It's all because I didn't cherish it at the beginning, and when I wanted to cherish it, I was turned away, and I didn't even have a chance to mend it, so I was really to blame.
He thought that their love could still be saved, just like the pair of golden step shakes, although the outer box was damaged, but the step shake was still there, as long as the outer box was repaired, it could be perfected again, but it turned out that he was too naïve, their love had been destroyed by his own hands, and the bones were all gone, turned into ashes, and could not be remedied.
Now, his appearance will only bring her more damage, and he can only choose to protect silently.
Su Wuxian looked sad, his voice was hoarse and choked, and his black eyes had lost their former demeanor: "Even though you may not accept my love again, in my heart, you can never be replaced by anyone." I say never, not impulsively, because I finally understand that I was born to exist for you. I love you, and where you are, I will be there. ”
Su Wuxian glanced at Mu Chen deeply, extremely affectionate: "Chen'er, I love you." ”
Finally, with great reluctance, he closed his eyes, clenched his fists, and resolutely turned and strode away.
Mu Chen's emotions couldn't be controlled, and after listening to Su Wuxie's words, she was even more at a loss.
Does he love her? Does he really love her?
Can she still believe it?
She laughed, laughed loudly, but God knows, such a laugh is worse than crying.
Tears fell to the ground like pearls with broken threads.
Her heart hurts so much, that kind of heartache, like a heart being put on a chopping board, grinding it around with a rusty blunt knife, it hurts more than a knife to chop it open.
Blood rolled in her chest, and the smell of blood rushed up her throat, and she felt that breathing became more and more difficult.
She clutched her chest, and heard her own heartbeat at a very fast pace, and her heart pounded violently against the flesh of her chest, as if she was about to rush away from this body.
She felt as if she was about to suffocate.
Are you going to die?
She didn't know why she had such thoughts, but she suddenly felt that death was very close to her.
If you die like this, it doesn't seem to be bad, anyway, I'm just a person who has crossed over, and if I die, I can return to the heavenly realm and completely cut off all this.
When there is no love, life is so carefree.
However, what kind of love is she? It's just wishful thinking.
Between thoughts, I felt that the scene in front of me was becoming more and more blurry, dizzy, swollen and painful, and physically and mentally exhausted.
The blood stuck in his chest finally gushed out like a torrent, staining his lips red and spraying all over the ground.
She rolled her eyes and fell to the ground.
By this time it had begun to fall into the night, and after a battle during the day, everyone had returned to their respective camps early to rest, and no one knew that there had been a quarrel in the prince's tent, let alone that the prince had fainted inside.
The moon had already hanged, and Ren Shaotian was still playing in the water by the nearby river.
After he left Mu Chen's tent, he rushed to the river alone, took off his shirt and jumped into the river.
Only when you are soaked can you not be noticed that tears are flowing from your eyes.
He soaked in the water for a long time and refused to get up, and the skin of his fingers was wrinkled.
He was imagining that in the prince's tent now, Su Wuxian should be confessing to Mu Chen, saying what he had missed for many days, and his true heart.
And Mu Chen is also in love with Su Wuxie, and when he heard Su Wuxie's confession, he should be so happy.
It's a good thing that they love each other and have a happy outcome.
He should be happy for them.