180. [179] My brain is not in water
Hearing the prince ask about this embarrassing topic, Hongling was extremely uncomfortable, and saw that there seemed to be nothing to do with herself for the time being, so she hurriedly packed up the medicine bowl and then retired.
Gao Yuan saw that Hongling was leaving, so he hurriedly retired under the pretext of being busy with military affairs.
It's good to go, Mu Chen is happy to be quiet, and it is good for Su Wuxian to have a quiet environment to rest.
"Hongling, Hongling." Gao Yuan caught up with Hongling and stopped in front of her, "Are you angry?" ”
Hongling smiled at him reluctantly: "General Gao, you are too careful, how can I be angry for no reason?" ”
"I admit that I went to General Su's frequently for you, but I haven't confessed to you, are you really not angry with me because of this?" Gao Yuan actually thought that it was because of his dishonesty, so Hongling fled in a hurry.
Hongling only felt funny in his heart, who could he hide from his clumsy tricks? She Hongling is also the protector of the Cangshen God Sect, and her head is not grassy, how could she not know that his frequent appearances are to get close to her?
She just didn't want to demolish him.
The hurried departure just now was purely because Mu Chen's question hit the point, and she didn't want to listen to herself becoming the protagonist of other people's discussions, so she chose to leave.
I didn't expect that after three years, Gao Yuan's thoughts about women are still so ...... Stiff.
It's really not angry, Hongling glanced at Gao Yuan: "General Gao, don't overestimate yourself too much, you don't have the ability to make this girl angry." Also, I'm very busy right now, so please don't be a roadblocker, it's an eyesore. ”
Hongling said this, and the graceful man had no choice but to shrug his shoulders and spread his hands, and then flashed to the side to make way for a big road.
Besides, Gao Yi, after chasing him out of the tent, put his arm on Ren Shaotian's shoulder, shouting that he wanted to drink.
Two brainless people didn't know where to get two jars of wine, and sat next to a camp tent and drank it in a big gulp.
Ren Shaotian was very decadent, and he drank very arrogantly, and after a while, he drank half of the jar, and his face became as rosy as if he had been painted.
He still wanted to continue, but Gao Yi held down the wine jar: "Don't drink so quickly, it hurts your body." ”
Ren Shaotian was so drunk that he couldn't help but burp, he wasn't drunk, but he wanted to get drunk: "If you hurt, you can get hurt, no one cares anyway." ”
"Don't think so negatively, the prince is just grateful to Su Wuxie, unlike the relationship between you and the prince, you should have confidence in yourself, and you should also believe in your other half." From Gao Yi's point of view, the relationship between Ren Shaotian and the crown prince has developed to the bed, and it should be so intimate that it should be impenetrable, but just after seeing Mu Chen's actions for Su Wuxie, his comfort seemed to be a little weak.
But the fact is, of course, far from what Gao Yi thinks, and this fact is now only known to Ren Shaotian himself.
"You don't understand, the two of them are a couple." Ren Shaotian's eyes were already a little empty.
Gao Yi was even more confused: "Won't it?" Then didn't you and the prince already ...... "have a skin-to-skin relationship?"
He was a little embarrassed to say it directly, he always thought that the prince and Ren Shaotian could break through the gender barrier, and it must be true love, but he didn't think that the three men would also develop an intricate love triangle.
In fact, if you really want to calculate it like this, there are more than three of them, but Gao Yi doesn't know.
Although Gao Yi didn't explain it in the second half of the sentence, Ren Shaotian understood what he meant, so he shook his head: "It's not what you think, don't talk nonsense about me and the dwarf in the future, although I also want to, but such a beautiful thing doesn't belong to me, from beginning to end." ”
It turned out to be unrequited love, so Gao Yi no longer dug up his sadness, so he had to continue to comfort: "Since the prince doesn't like you, let's look at it." There are so many beautiful men in the world, you don't need to love him alone. ”
Ren Shaotian turned his head and looked at Gao Yi with confused eyes.
Gao Yi hurriedly blocked in front of him with one hand: "Na, don't look at me like this, I'm not good at this, although I don't look worse than the prince, but I like women, do you understand women?" Although you look good, no matter how beautiful you are, you are not a woman, so don't look at me, I can't save you. ”
also said that it was not worse than the prince, but it was far worse, Ren Shaotian couldn't help but despise Gao Yi from top to bottom and from the inside out.
"Don't worry, my brain is not in the water, I won't like you in this life or even the next life, you don't have to be sentimental."
"Then why do you look at me like that? Pervert-wolf-like. Gao Yi looked sideways.
It's just that Ren Shaotian's phoenix eyes are too charming, and Gao Yi's thoughts are too obscene.
"Forget it, I don't know what love is." Ren Shaotian was too lazy to continue playing the piano to the cow, so he simply stood up, picked up the wine jar and wanted to leave.
But Gao Yi would easily let him run around, and dragged him back to the place with one hand: "It's okay, can't you laugh?" Don't say it, isn't it just for a man, pretending to be melancholy and deep. ”
Ren Shaotian took a few more sips: "Do you know what it means to have her?" Others cannot be replaced. ”
Gao Yi finally put up that ruffian smile: "But the twisted melon is not sweet, and the forcibly picked melon is not fragrant, why are you bothering?" ”
"I never forced her to accept me, I just want to be by her side forever, I have long been mentally prepared that the person who will stay with her all her life will not be me, and I have imagined countless intimate pictures of her and Lao Su, I thought I was mentally prepared, thinking that I could accept it gladly, thinking that that person was Lao Su I would feel better, but I didn't expect that I overestimated myself too much, when I saw scene after scene with my own eyes, my heart was still very uncomfortable, and even my breathing felt painful." After that, Ren Shaotian drank again.
He really wanted to get himself drunk and get drunk to relieve a thousand sorrows, but unfortunately, he had been exercising since he was a child, and he was not so easy to get drunk at all, but he was even more sad when he got drunk.
Gao Yi was also suddenly infected by the thick sorrow, his face sank, he raised his wine and drank heavily, and after a few sips, he also hiccuped: "Okay, you still have a chance to be by his side forever, I don't even have a chance to meet, isn't that worse than you?" ”
Listening to others say things that have nothing to do with him is usually the most spiritual, Ren Shaotian really hasn't heard of Gao Yi's feelings, and his curiosity makes him come alive: "How can you be worse than me?" Listen to it, and think of it as some comfort to me. ”
"In the past, I also had a woman who loved her very much, just like you said, she had to be, and even when she died, I wanted to accompany her to death, but the person she loved was my brother, and even what she said to me before she finally died told me to take good care of my brother, to be honest, I was really unwilling at that time, and I wanted to live for my brother, what did my brother have to take care of? Isn't it true that the elder brother takes care of the younger brother? In fact, in the final analysis, Gao Yi's unwillingness has never been able to let go.
"I guess that girl likes you."
Ren Shaotian's words made Gao Yi a little surprised, the first time someone said that she liked him.
But he was only surprised for a moment, and even denied it: "No, you don't have to comfort me, my brother has always been better than me, more capable than me, more stable than me, whether it is my parents or friends around me, I think he is better than me, even I often think, in fact, in this family, and even in this world, it is enough to have an old brother, I am just a follower who has followed my brother's ass since birth." ”
Usually, I really can't see that the man who hangs his son is chic on the surface, but he hides such a deep inferiority complex in his heart.
Is it because of the failure of the relationship that the inferiority complex arises, or because of the inferiority complex that the relationship fails? Two twins who look the same will inevitably be compared.
It's just that the deceased woman is really indifferent to Gao Yi's dedication?
Ren Shaotian always had a different idea: "Actually, asking you to take care of your brother may be just an excuse, she knows that you love her very much, and she is even willing to die for her, so she found an excuse and wants you to live well." I think, whether she loves Gao Yuan before or not, but in the end, she still loves you. ”
Is that so? Is that really the case?
Actually, there is some truth to it.
Bystander Qing, maybe Shaotian is right, her last wish may really be to hope that he can live well, but he has always misunderstood that she only has her brother in her heart.
Now thinking back to that scene, she did repeatedly emphasize that she wanted him to live well.
But that doesn't mean it's love, or just pure concern.
But no matter what, no matter how much she loves him, at least at the last moment, she still cares about herself, and his attachment to her will not be so miserable as nothing.
After many years of knotting, I finally have a little relief.
Gao Yi exhaled deeply: "Maybe." In fact, people are dead, and it doesn't matter whether they love or not. ”
Ren Shaotian shook his head: "Do you still not believe that she loves you?" But that woman loves you so much, if you can't understand her heart, you will be too disappointed to her. ”
He seemed to be very sure that the woman loved Gao Yi, not Gao Yuan.
"Why are you so sure she loves me?" Although Gao Yi longed for this to be true, he really didn't have the confidence to believe it.
"I know for sure from what you say." Ren Shaotian said conclusively, "You will also say, you are a younger brother, why do you want to take care of your brother?" In fact, she has already seen the inferiority complex in your heart, you have always felt that you are not as good as Gao Yuan, but in fact she is sure that you are a capable person, and even thinks that your ability is stronger than Gao Yuan, so she will say that she wants you to take care of your brother. She is really well-intentioned, and while dissuading you from seeking death, she also encourages you to break through yourself and get out of the haze of inferiority. ”
Gao Yi was shocked by this explanation: "Is that really the case? If she wants to encourage me, why not just say it? Why go around in circles? I'm not as smart as my brother, how can I understand? ”