146. [145] Make peace with your pain
"Hmm." So what's wrong with admitting it.
"It's a happy thing to be able to find someone you like, but looking at the prince's expression, it doesn't seem to be very happy."
"Because he doesn't like me, barely happy." Mu Chen's answer made Gao Yi confirm his conjecture.
Gao Yi said with a smile: "The crown prince is the candidate for the emperor in the future, and his mind should be used more on national affairs, is it worth it to be depressed for a woman all day long?" ”
A woman? Mu Chen was a little unaccustomed to listening, but Gao Yi was not wrong, he thought that he was a man, trapped by feelings, and the other party must be a woman.
It's just a synonym anyway, so it doesn't matter.
"Did the second brother ever really like someone?" Mu Chen looked at the other side of the river, his eyes were a little confused, and he couldn't help but think of everything in the past, "I really like him, love him, even if he is rejected and toyed with again and again, I still love him so much." Sometimes I feel that my love is so stupid, so humble, so humble that it is worthless, and when he thinks of me, he will be kind to me, smile at me, take care of me, and even ......" will even hang the bed with me.
Scene after scene, she can't help but don't want to.
Yes, two hot-blooded men and women rolled onto the bed and rolled up the sheets, but at the last moment, the innocent ended.
It's ridiculous.
She continued: "But the next moment, he doesn't want to do it anymore and will push me away again. I should hate him, but I can't. Even though he said that he wanted to break off with him, he kept thinking and reading it in his heart, and wanted to see him again, wondering if he was doing well. The heart is so unstoppable, it obviously feels a lot of pain, but it can't be controlled by itself. ”
Gao Yi looked at her quietly and listened to her tell her about her feelings, that kind of deep love was something Gao Yi never expected.
He originally thought that even if the prince was sad for a woman, it was just a family wine, and a little man who was more than sixteen years old was just beginning to fall in love, what unforgettable love could he talk about?
But when he looked at her deep and distracted eyes, and listened to her affectionate and painful words, he couldn't help but be infected by the feeling of deep love but no response.
It seems that the prince's experience is richer than he imagined, and that relationship is a hundred times deeper than he imagined, and the pain must be something that others can't easily understand.
"Prince, sometimes love is so hurtful, you are still young, if you want to grow up, you must learn to live peacefully with pain."
Mu Chen was stunned for a moment, and turned his head to look at him: "Peaceful coexistence with pain?" ”
"That's right." Gao Yi picked up a small stone, and threw it into the river like Mu Chen, making waves on the surface of the water again, "You see, it's like this small stone hit the river, invaded the world of the river, and made the river ripple, but after a long time, the river knew that it was impossible for Xiaoshi to leave, so he chose to accept it calmly and live in peace with Xiaoshi." ”
What he means is that suffering is like a stone, and people should learn to accept the existence of pain calmly even if there is pain that cannot be washed away, even if there is pain that cannot be washed away.
Mu Chen understood this meaning.
She suddenly had a feeling of enlightenment, since she couldn't forget these pains of fait accompli, it was better to try to store it in the depths of her heart, as a kind of nourishment for growth.
She smiled: "Thank you, second brother, I seem to understand something, I will try my best to adjust my mood." ”
"That's good." Gao Yi smiled back.
At this time, another handsome man who looked exactly like Gao Yi appeared beside them.
He is lofty.
"Why are you so happy talking?" Gao Yuan also sat on the other side of Mu Chen along their place.
"It's nothing, seeing that the prince hasn't slept so late, I'll come out and talk casually." Gao Yi knows that emotional matters are all private, and he will only mention them when appropriate, not everyone likes to spread their emotional matters to the whole world, so as soon as he saw his brother appear, he stopped continuing the topic of the prince's feelings.
It's a really sweet idea.
Mu Chen also took the opportunity to change the topic: "Senior Brother Gao, Senior Second Brother, you are really too decent, if it weren't for the Second Senior Brother who just arrived first, I would really be stupid and couldn't tell which of you is who." ”
Gao Yuan and Gao Yi sat next to Mu Chen on the left and right, the two men looked exactly the same, they were still wearing the military uniform of the deputy general, and the military rank was the same, it was really difficult to distinguish.
But it is precisely this image, under the reflection of the moonlight, that makes the picture by the river particularly beautiful and freehand.
"But looking at the surface, it's really hard to tell the difference." Gao Yuan smiled and nodded, he seemed to feel that this resemblance was something to be proud of.
"It's hard to distinguish on the surface, that is, there is a mystery inside?" Mu Chen was curious.
"When we marched and fought, there were naturally a lot of scars on our bodies, although fortunately our two beautiful faces did not have scars, but there were really a lot of scars on the chest and back, so naturally this scar could not be touched at the same time. Do you want our two brothers to show off their charming bodies and give you a slow look at them naked, so that you can distinguish them? Gao Yi has a little lustful smile, compared to his brother, he is more cheerful, more humorous, more narcissistic, and prefers to be open.
Mu Chen looked at Gao Yi, the corners of his mouth twitched, and he barely squeezed out a smile that couldn't be faker: "Did anyone tell you that your head contains a lot of garbage, and it's still yellow garbage." ”
"I'm doing this for your own good." Gao Yi looked great, "If I hadn't sacrificed my head to put so much garbage to make room for you, how would you have so much space for nutritious things?" ”
Does it matter? You pretend to be garbage yourself, how much space do you have with others, you can't have anything to do with it for eight lifetimes, right?
Mu Chenhan, how do you feel that this hippie frivolous and a little cheap Gao Yi is not the same person as the Gao Yi who enlightened himself just now?
Could it be that I am delusional? Or are you dazzled?
No, it's Gao Yi who has been on his right, and Gao Yuan, who just came, is sitting on the left, no mistake.
Just as Mu Chen was stupidly dividing who was the brother and who was the younger brother, Gao Yuan spoke: "Gao Yi, don't make trouble, it's always not serious." ”
Gao Yi spread his hands with a smile: "It's all men, what's the matter." Okay, leave the serious stuff to the old brother to say. ”
Gao Yuan continued: "Prince, in fact, we are not usually much different, but there will be during the fight, and we don't know why, when it comes to the fight, my eyes will turn red, and Gao Yi's eyes will turn blue. ”
"That's right, only those times are we the easiest to distinguish." Gao Yi echoed, "But, brother, why are you so honest and tell the truth?" ”
Gao Yuan said lightly: "The prince is not an outsider, so it doesn't matter." ”
Mu Chen remembered it, but: "That is to say, there is still no way to distinguish on weekdays?" ”
"Not really." Gao Yi looked serious.
"Tell me?" Mu Chen immediately asked.
Gao Yi said earnestly: "Don't you think I'm better than my brother...... Is it more handsome? ”
Mu Chen Khan, more than a drop of sweat, although his appearance is indeed not bad, but he is too narcissistic, if he introduces Ren Shaotian to each other, they will definitely become good friends, because they are too smelly.
"Two words for you." Mu Chen glanced at Gao Yi, "Stinky beauty." ”
"It's not too early, the prince should rest early, in a few days it will be close to the border area, you need to have enough energy." Rise high and pat your shirt.
"Have a good dream, good night." Gao Yi also got up and threw an eyebrow at Mu Chen.
The two brothers turned around and left, leaving Mu Chen alone to face the moon.
Su Wuxie, are you okay? It's time for you're almost back in the capital, right? I won't forget you, but I won't be depressed anymore, and the memories between us will be the nourishment for my growth, and I will live well.
She smiled, she hadn't smiled so comfortably in a long time.
Mu Chen was on guard everywhere, but he was a little too calm along the way, he had already arrived in the border city, and the people of the Cangying Sect still hadn't appeared for a long time, what were they waiting for?
This city is called a ghost town, and the origin of the name cannot be traced, but the residents here say that the ghost town is unlucky, and it is clear that there are often ghosts and ghosts, so there are not many permanent residents here.
All the way through the residential area, the army set up tents here and settled down.
Mu Chen sent people to inspect the surrounding area, Gao Yuan went to the front line to hand over and communicate with the border defenders and communicate the current situation, Gao Yi was stationed in the barracks, and he changed into private clothes to shake around, on the one hand, to inspect the environment, on the other hand, he could also go to the streets of the city to take a walk and relax.
Compared to the capital, the ghost town is indeed very depressed.
Mu Chen's first thought was to find a good restaurant, have a good meal, and try the local food by the way. All the way from the capital, I haven't eaten anything good for many days.
"Objective, one? Why don't you go upstairs to a private seat? "The little two of the hotel were very welcoming.
She learned from local residents that this Jufulou is the most upscale restaurant in the ghost town, with good taste, good environment, and of course, the price is also very expensive.
The environment of Jufu Building is indeed elegant, at first glance it is a place where dignitaries can afford to eat, there are few people, and there is no one on the second floor.
In other words, Mu Chen is a one-person charter, and he can sit wherever he wants.
She chose the location of the terrace, which had a wide view and just overlooked the entire street.
At a glance, there are not many people, and there are even fewer open streets, which really cannot be compared with the prosperity of the capital.
She couldn't help but think of the bustle of the Beijing bazaar, especially at night, watching, playing, eating, everything, those business bosses have a very good mind, and the money-making games they come up with are really varied, and it is not easy for guests to win prizes, but it is not easy for Su Wuxie, a penny won a pair of golden step shakes, no matter how much you make a lot of money.
The scenes of that time floated in front of me, and it was really warm to look back on.