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"I'm sorry." Su Wuxian spit out these three words in a deep voice, and for some reason, his gaze did not dare to fall on Mu Chen's pretty face.
He didn't see Mu Chen's grief-stricken expression, nor did he see that her tears had gathered in her eyes.
In the end, can you only give me these three words "I'm sorry"?
Hearing these three words, she suddenly felt unhappy, and she really had the urge to scold her mother, no, she just wanted to ...... Punch people.
But what's the use of beating up?
These three words are so hurtful.
She felt extremely aggrieved in her heart: "You really don't want me? ”
This sentence really asked Su Wuxie's heart, and his whole heart instantly softened.
is as arrogant as a prince, how much pride and self-esteem do you have to let go before you allow yourself to say this?
Su Wuxie was extremely distressed, but he was speechless.
He once suspected that he was too careful and misunderstood her affection, otherwise how could a woman easily make such an astonishing act and say such humble words?
However, when he saw the handkerchief still lying quietly on the ground, and the particularly annoying words on it, how should he explain it?
He couldn't convince himself.
If he could, he would have picked up the handkerchief right away and ...... Tear to shreds.
His silence seemed to have said a thousand words in Mu Chen's eyes.
What better way to reject a person than to be silent?
She's got the answer.
It's really embarrassing, this should be the most embarrassing thing in her life, and there is nothing more embarrassing.
If you continue to entangle, it will not only be embarrassing, but inferior.
There is also a degree of self-inflicted humiliation.
She slowly got up, turned her back to Su Wuxie, and casually took a robe and put it on her body.
Looking at that back, the emperor's domineering spirit seems to be back.
"You go, you don't have to worry about the king's affairs in the future, you are no longer the king's personal guard." She is rarely so indifferent and resolute, more indifferent than Su Wuxie, which makes people feel creepy, "You and I will be cut off from now on." ”
Grace broke off righteousness, Su Wuxian was stunned, and his heart ached.
In fact, he had long expected that this would be the result, but he didn't expect that this day would be so sudden and so fast.
He thought it could end a little later.
Just now he took the initiative to leave, but at this moment, he was reluctant, not believing that the final parting would be like this.
He stood behind Mu Chen, wanting to reach out and touch her shoulder, but he was afraid that if he touched it, he would be even more reluctant.
"You go." Mu Chen once again gave the order to expel the guest.
Her every word was like a cold arrow, sharp enough to pierce the heart, and make the man behind her bear the pain of piercing the heart.
With so many things in his head, he had already thought too much just now, and Su Wuxian was no longer able to speculate about Mu Chen's mood at the moment.
Everything is his fault, and if he knew that he couldn't afford it, he shouldn't have a beginning.
She must have hated herself so much.
But no matter what her mood is, whether she is helpless or sad, resentful or hateful, she has come to this point, the long pain is better than the short pain, he really shouldn't entangle the prince anymore, and he shouldn't get involved in the prince and the second prince Zixi anymore.
With the second prince by the prince's side, the prince's future road will be smooth.
The beauty of the past has been a gift from God, and he should be satisfied.
For the rest of his life, these memories are his greatest happiness.
He will always bless them, and the lover will eventually be married.
Goodbye, Prince.
Goodbye, Chen'er.
Never again.
Su Wuxian looked at the slender back, and the only thing that fell in the end was "Prince, take care." ”
At the end of the night, Mu Chen was left alone in the cold stone room.
Su Wuxian walked for a long time before she finally shouted out a word hysterically: "Get out." ”
Then the tears rolled down in an instant, and the body collapsed to the ground.
When the body is tired, you can rest, but when the heart is tired, you can't solve it, so you can only wait for the collapse.
She's supposed to be happy, isn't she?
A man who has repeatedly played himself around, don't do it.
Now that he is finally free, Eun has broken his righteousness, and he has no chance to play her like a monkey, and he has no chance to lift her to a high place and fall into hell.
Isn't it supposed to be happy?
She should have laughed.
"Haha......" looked up to the sky and smiled.
Why is it so ugly? It's worse than crying, so bad that I can't even stand it.
Mu Chen didn't know how ugly it was for her gray face to be hung with two lines of bitter tears, but she forced out an arrogant laugh.
She should be happy, but she was so sad.
I can't find a reason.
She took the initiative to fight back, but the result was so tragic.
Why did he do this to her?
You can have sex without love, but he doesn't even want sex, what does this mean?
It shows that he doesn't love her soul, not even her body.
So what else is she worth to him?
The answer is so pathetic, no.
At this moment, she is not a high-ranking prince, just an abandoned girl.
She slowly climbed onto the bed, pulled over the quilt, covered her body, and curled up in a corner.
No one gave her a warm embrace, only herself hugged herself.
She hugged her knees tightly through the quilt, for fear that as soon as she let go, even the remaining temperature would disappear.
She put her face over her knees, trying to cover her bleak tears with the quilt that still smelled of him.
It's just that tears can be hidden, but the huge heartache has nowhere to escape, she can only let this grief cut her heart.
She trapped herself in a small world, unable to save herself, allowing her heart to drip blood and pain to spread to her bone marrow.
And Su Wuxie over there, like Mu Chen, stayed awake all night.
He took a cold shower, put out the fire on his body, and then lay quietly on the bed, staring out the window.
The night was quiet and clear, the crescent moon was bright, and he suddenly felt that the suddenness of this day caught him off guard and produced infinite regrets.
He has not yet had a chance to celebrate a festival with the crown prince that belongs only to two people. Last year's Mid-Autumn Festival, the two just met, the relationship is still not deep, this year's Spring Festival, he missed the time when he left the East Palace, and the Qixi Festival is not so fast, as for the prince's birthday, alas, he was too careless, he didn't understand.
He thought that he was ready to lose before, so he tried to cherish it as much as possible in a limited time, but when he really lost it, he realized that it was not enough to cherish it.
The sentence "Grace and righteousness" kept echoing in my mind.
It's really over, he knows, this time it's real.
Watching the moonlight slowly fall and the sun gradually rise, Ren Shaotian came to dig Su Wuxian very early and got up.
Ren Shaotian always remembered Mu Chen's instructions, as long as it was Mu Chen's business, he would never be sloppy, and he would not allow himself to make mistakes.
Su Wuxian didn't think there was anything special about this departure, he just went to run errands for a few days, but after last night, he knew the meaning of this departure.
"Grace and righteousness."
Mu Chen's words are still in his ears.
In front of the palace gate, he stood for a while with his baggage, and looked around the East Palace, I don't know when he will come next time.
Ren Shaotian only felt that the time was almost up, and said heartlessly: "Old Su, but after going out for ten or eight days, is it necessary to be so sentimental?" ”
Su Wuxian sighed and said, "Remember to take good care of the prince. ”
Ren Shaotian glanced at him: "Do you still need to say this?" You're too long-winded, aren't you? ”
Regardless of whether Su Wuxian was there or not, Ren Shaotian would serve Mu Chen like a god.
Speaking of the crown prince, he found that Mu Chen had been missing this morning, didn't she need to come out to see Su Wuxie? Although she had only deceived Su Wuxian for a few days, she should have known that she didn't know when she would meet again after this parting.
Ren Shaotian couldn't help but turn his head to look at the Prince's Palace, it was cold and deserted, and there was no movement.
Su Wuxian saw through Ren Shaotian's thoughts: "Don't look at it, the prince won't appear." ”
With such a result last night, he had already expected that the prince must hate himself very much, so how could he want to see him again?
"Why?" Ren Shaotian couldn't help but think of the strange thing last night, obviously there was a voice in the hall, but there was no one, "By the way, where did you two go last night?" When I enter the temple again, I will not see you. ”
"We're just going out to get some air."
"Is that so?" Ren Shaotian was skeptical, he had been helping Xiaoyu and them clean outside the hall, and then pruning the flowers and plants, although the range was very large, but even if the open place was far away, the prince's hall was still in sight, if someone came in and out, he had no reason not to see it.
Even if they really happened to slip away when he wasn't paying attention, what was the voice in the temple?
Ren Shaotian still wanted to ask, but after thinking about it again, forget it, if Su Wuxian didn't lie, they really left the Prince's Palace, and they wouldn't know the situation in the palace, and if Su Wuxian deliberately concealed it, then if he asked again, he wouldn't tell the truth.
What's more, he had already sensed that there was affection between Mu Chen and Su Wuxian that no one else could intervene in, there were already too many secrets between them that he didn't know, and now it was just one more thing, so don't be too persistent.
Although he had already expected that the crown prince would not appear, Su Wuxian still held a glimmer of hope in his heart.
He looked silently and greedily at the open door of the temple, expecting footsteps to come from within, and a figure coming out of the darkness.
For a while, it was silent, and even Ren Shaotian seemed to be infected by something, and he didn't urge to bother anymore.
It's just that for a long time, the prince still hasn't appeared.
Even if it's expected, there can still be a sense of loss.
He's really not going to show up.
Su Wuxian smiled bitterly: "Let's go." ”
Ren Shaotian nodded and sent him out of the palace.
In the dim palace of the prince, in fact, Mu Chen had already leaned behind the palace door, quietly, feeling the breath that Su Wuxian was still there.
She won't see him again, and it's embarrassing to say goodbye.
Hearing the footsteps of Su Wuxian and Ren Shaotian walking away, she walked out from behind the temple gate, looking at the back that she might never be able to see again, getting smaller and smaller until it disappeared.
In fact, such an ending is not inevitable, the separation has long been planned, but the final unhappiness has become a regret.
On this day, Mu Chen rarely went to court on time.
She is not pretending, she just feels that what is going to come is going to come after all, and it is better to face it positively than to accept it helplessly.