Chapter 385, the old thing is revisited

Shu'er turned her tear-stained face and choked up, "Auntie, is it true that my mother has died a long time ago and will never come back?" ”

Changsheng was stunned.

In the past few years, after so many things, several times of life and death, she has no time to think about these anymore, she thought that Shu'er had forgotten about it.

In fact, when her sister died, she was more than four years old, and her four-year-old child had already remembered, and her relationship with her sister was so deep, how could she easily forget her mother in her memory?

When she entered the Xie family, she was already seven years old, and the seven-year-old child had already begun to understand personnel, and she was so precocious, at that time she relied on Mama Lu wholeheartedly, although Mama Lu left the Xie family and died under her own and Mingjing's design, but how could she forget such an important person in her life?

Everyone thought Shu'er had forgotten, but in fact, she hadn't forgotten any of them, she just never mentioned them.

In order to make Shu'er trust her and make her become like a normal child, she once told Shu'er that her mother was seriously ill and went to a far away place for treatment, and when she was cured, she would come back to see Shu'er, and she was sent by her mother to take care of her.

At that time, Shu'er was convinced, and gradually walked out of the shadow of her soul, so she trusted her and relied on her, and under her and Mingjing's design, she slowly got rid of Mama Lu's psychological control over her and became a normal child.

Without Mama Lu by her side, she became more and more normal from being unaccustomed at the beginning, and became more and more cheerful and intelligent, no different from a normal child. Later, she gradually stopped mentioning Mama Lu and her mother, so that Mama Lu and Bai Mei had been dead for several years, and she didn't know at all.

Later, the Xie family suddenly suffered a catastrophe, the whole family was imprisoned, and everyone's life and death were uncertain, who could think of this problem again? By the time he got out of prison, the phoenix was not as good as a chicken, and his life had changed dramatically. The old lady and the Ming and Qing couples used Shu'er as a threat, and forced Mingjing to enter the merchant step by step, and the two designed to escape from the Xie family.

In the midst of the crisis, even survival is a problem, and I will no longer care about whether Shu'er still remembers Mama Lu and her mother.

And she sensibly never mentioned it, and everyone thought that she had forgotten about it, let alone anyone would mention it.

I heard that my father can only be released from prison if he marries the county lord of Anyang, although she hates Anyang very much, she still accepts her and takes the initiative to have a good relationship with Anyang, so she can't even pretend to be her mother and Mama Lu in front of her, and even thinks that the child's heart is undecided, and he has forgotten about it after so many lives and deaths.

In fact, in her heart, maybe her mother's appearance is not clear, but it has always been like a beautiful and warm dream, never able but will not forget, so many years, she has never forgotten, but sensibly no longer mentions it.

About the time An Yang got married, she woke up from her dream. She finally understood a fact that she didn't want to accept, that is, her own mother was dead and would never return to her, what Mama Lu said was true, and her aunt was just comforting her.

But her aunt was so good to her, for her to be willing to go to the terrible prison, for her not to go home to see her mother, for her to escape from the Xie family and hide in Tibet, for her to be angry with the county lord of Anyang, my aunt paid so much for her, even to lie to her and for her good.

And although her own mother will never come back, and her father married her stepmother, she is not a lonely, unloved child, so why should she expose this matter to blame her aunt for making her uncomfortable? So she kept it all to herself and never mentioned it again.

But the kind and sweet smile and warm and soft embrace of my mother in my memory will never be forgotten.

If it weren't for Zichen uncovering the most painful wound in her heart and mentioning the things she didn't want to mention, in order to make her relatives happy, I'm afraid she would have kept pretending that she had really forgotten all this. But Zichen mentioned it, and all her pain was shaken, and she couldn't pretend anymore.

Changsheng held Shu'er tightly in his arms, blaming himself incomparably.

Poor and sensible child, she has never forgotten what she said at the beginning, she has never forgotten her own mother, she has long known that her mother will not come back, as early as when she knew that her father was going to marry again, she knew it.

But in order not to worry about her relatives, she kept pretending that she had forgotten, never revealing the slightest, and never mentioning it again, she just thought she had really forgotten, and tried to accept Anyang, and deliberately had a good relationship with Anyang, just so that everyone would no longer worry about her.

If Zichen hadn't mentioned it today, I'm afraid everyone would have forgotten about her. Poor child, how much torment did she have to endure to accept the fact that her mother died?

"I'm sorry Shu'er, it's my aunt who thinks Shu'er is a child, and she may have forgotten about it, and I'm afraid that it will make you sad if I mention it again, so I haven't mentioned it, and I don't care about Shu'er's feelings, it's my aunt who is too careless."

"My mother is dead a long time ago, isn't she? I died when I was very young, right? What Mama Lu said is all true, right? ”

There is no way to hide the matter, and there is no need to hide it anymore, Changsheng nodded: "Yes." But I don't know what to say.

Shu'er hugged her and choked up and said, "Auntie, don't worry, I have grown up and become sensible, and I know that you are hiding it from me for my good." I've secretly cried many times before, and I'll never cry again, and if my mother is alive, she must want me to be happy, right? ”

Raising his head as he spoke, although he had tears in his eyes, he smiled: "Auntie, don't be sad, don't you see that I am smiling?" I'm going to have to laugh a lot in the future, so that my mother will be happy, and my aunt will be happy, right? ”

Changsheng wiped away her tears: "Auntie is not sad, aunt should laugh as often as Shu'er, so that your mother will also be happy." ”

Yes, if my sister knows in the dark, she must hope that she and Shu'er will be happy every day. Shu'er didn't understand a little: "If you're happy, my mother will be happy too?" Did my mother know you before? ”

Changsheng was stunned for a moment, how could Shu'er know that she and she were the closest people in her sister's two lives combined? Xuan Ji shook his head and smiled: "Of course your mother doesn't know me, but she knows that I am Shu'er's relative, and she must want me to be happy, right?" ”

Shu'er thought for a while and nodded: "Yes, of course my mother wants people who are good to me to be happy." ”

Changsheng remembered that Mama Lu had just mentioned by Shu'er, and decided to solve all these problems at once, if you want to be sad, you can be sad enough, and don't bother Shu'er in the future.

"Shu'er, why don't you ask Aunt Bai and Mama Lu, don't you want to know their whereabouts?"

Shu'er's eyes were wet again: "I want to know." But I don't dare to ask Daddy, and I don't dare to ask you, I'm afraid you will be sad. I didn't say that Aunt Bai was going to give birth to Xiao DD before, but I haven't seen Xiao DD for so long, and my father never mentioned Xiao DD. We all went to the prison for that raid, I wonder if they also died in Jinyang's prison? Is Mama Lu like those mammas sold and can't be recovered? I'd love to know, but I didn't dare to ask. Little dd is so pitiful, it's so ...... so small."

"Don't be upset, that's not the case. Didn't Mama Lu go to Jinyang to take care of Aunt Bai that time? After she went, Aunt Bai was seriously ill and died before she was born, so there was no little dd. And Mama Lu also got sick because of her sadness, and died not long after, your father buried them in Jinyang, and they didn't suffer from any prison. Don't be sad, there's no way around it, and they'll be very relieved to know that you care so much about them. ”

Shu'er was stunned, lying in Changsheng's arms and crying, Changsheng didn't persuade her, these are the people she once cared about, no matter what she did to be sorry for her, they were very important in her heart, let her cry well, burying it in her heart is even more uncomfortable, after crying, the people and things that used to be gradually diluted by time, she can really get out of the shadow of the past.

Changsheng suddenly thought that if she gave birth to a daughter in the future, who was also Xiao Jinshu's sister, she would be named Jinyuan, the name of her sister in her previous life. Although the size is reversed, they are always sisters, good sisters for life.

Fortunately, when Xie Mansion was copied, he had the opportunity to hide his sister's silk statue and hide the little golden pig that symbolized the affection of the two sisters.

Anyang was quiet after a seizure, and suddenly became polite and polite to Changsheng and Mingjing, and took more and more thoughtful care of food and clothing. Changsheng figured out inexplicably after that, Anyang's attack did not mean that she and Mingjing had done anything wrong, she just wanted to tell everyone that now everyone relies on her to have a good life today, you should live by looking at her face, she is the master of the county lord's mansion, and she can do whatever she wants.

As for her being polite to Changsheng and Mingjing again, it's just because she's worried that she's doing too much and forcing Changsheng and Mingjing to leave, so she can't do it, not only ruining her good name, but also affecting the relationship between husband and wife, although it's not her nature to be polite and polite, but she won't do too much in the future.

It's just that in Cen Hao's matter, An Yang is still unwilling, several times he invited Changsheng to listen to Cen Hao Fuqin together, Changsheng everything goes with the flow, he goes when he is free, and refuses when he is not free, neither deliberately dodging, nor taking the initiative to bow down, An Yang said something sarcastic, she just didn't understand.

Cen Hao is also a smart and introverted person, since the invitation to Changsheng to listen to the piano was rejected, he finally realized that the fate of the two was over, and now the identity is even more disparity, and he is not even qualified to be friends.

And he was unrighteous first, so what qualifications did he have to blame Changsheng, not to mention that the two did not have any agreement, and they didn't have time to make any agreement, so something happened to the Xie family, and the fate was broken so far, and there was no way to continue. If he doesn't restrain himself and is caught by Anyang, it will not only damage Changsheng's reputation, but also have a great impact on him in the future. If there is gossip about him and his employer's wife and concubine, don't think about mixing in the capital in the future.

So since then, he didn't see anything unusual when he saw Changsheng, he was respectful and polite, and he dealt with it properly, especially when Anyang was present, it didn't feel the slightest bit wrong.

After a few times, An Yang finally understood that it was impossible to catch Changsheng's fault in Cen Hao's matter. Changsheng is a person born as a palace slave, and he can marry Mingjing with an unlimited future, but he really burned high incense in his previous life, how can he be stupid enough to be innocent with a pianist?