"Hongling, that's not what I meant." Gao Yuan has no way to justify.

He really hasn't done his best, but that's because he was not familiar with Bai Yan's martial arts at the beginning, and if he made a big move all of a sudden, it would be easy for the other party to see through it, and Bai Yan had been verbally provocative, and Hongling was affected by emotional fluctuations but made more and more flaws, he had to first use Hongling's safety as a basis to resolve her crisis, if even he was impulsive and only cared about attacking, it was likely that Bai Yan would take advantage of it and fall into a fiasco in minutes.

But Hongling didn't understand, even if he explained it to her, she wouldn't accept it calmly.

Today's Hongling only has hatred in his eyes.

But her hatred was mainly aimed at Bai Yan, and after venting to Gao Yuan, she seemed to feel a little too much, but she wouldn't apologize, she just held back her anger and turned away.

"Hongling." Gao Yuan caught up a few steps and came to her side, "I don't know, it turns out that these things happened three years ago, I'm sorry." ”

Hongling walked in a hurry, and she said as she walked: "You are not wrong, there is no need to apologize." ”

Gao Yuan thought for a moment before he mustered up the courage to speak: "Are you ignoring me because of what happened three years ago?" ”

"You're overthinking." Hongling replied lightly, "It's just that I don't love you anymore." ”

"But I still love you." Gao Yuan stopped and clasped Hongling's wrist.

The two of them were silent for a moment in the darkness of the suburbs.

"I love you very much." Gao Yuan calmed his thoughts, and his dark eyes were full of indescribable love, "I love you very much, you know, it hasn't changed." You said to be an ordinary friend, I promised, but I don't want to see you uncomfortable, any sadness, you tell me, don't hold all the pain in your heart. ”

Hongling couldn't bear his fiery gaze, she turned her face: "It's good that you know your position, I have nothing to tell you, and...... You've just heard it, and I don't have much more to say. ”

Gao Yuan felt guilty about what happened three years ago: "I'm sorry, this happened three years ago, and I didn't protect you and your family well." ”

He didn't say that it was okay, but when he said it, he reminded Hongling of the sad past in his heart.

She remembered the cause of the tragedy: "What's the use of you feeling guilty now? I said a long time ago that Hua Qianchuan is not a good man and a woman, so I told you not to offend, but you didn't listen. He doesn't want you to go on the expedition, so you don't want to go, but you want to go, what is the result? You only care about your national affairs and great achievements, but you ignore our feelings, miss our wedding, and pay me a ...... The lives of my family. Human life, can you bring them back to life by feeling guilty now? ”

Hongling could still hold back the depression in her heart, but the more she talked, the more excited she became.

She also wanted to say that she had lost her innocence and her life, but in the end she still left dignity for herself, and she couldn't bear to say it directly, so she skipped it directly.

Gao Yuan really knew tonight that Hongling had always blamed him for not listening to her persuasion and insisting on his loyalty and courage, and it was precisely because of his loyalty and courage that he finally caused an irreparable tragedy.

He was speechless, because what Hongling said was right. He's really selfish, and if he could have thought a little further and thought a little more thoughtfully, maybe none of this would have happened.

Hongling sneered bitterly: "What's wrong?" Nothing to say? Takato, I tell you, I regret it now, because I don't even want to be an ordinary friend with you. Don't pester me anymore, I'm a low-and dirty woman, and I don't deserve to be your friend. ”

She shook off his hand and walked on.

Gao Yuan chased after him again, his footsteps did not stop, and he did not listen to his pleading: "Why do you say this about yourself?" In my heart, you have always been pure and clean, and no matter what happens, no one can pollute you. ”

He knew what happened to her, and the wounds in his heart were indelible. He just heard such a fact and his heart was like a knife, how could he not know how painful she was as a victim?

But he didn't know how to comfort her, what to do to ease her pain.

Suddenly, he felt that he was very incompetent, unable to protect the people he loved, and felt powerless even to provide simple comfort.

But he genuinely didn't mind her body being defiled, but she misunderstood what he meant.

"Facts are facts, and if they are defiled, they are defiled, aren't you deceiving yourself?" Hongling felt ridiculous, she accepted the facts herself, and he was still deceiving himself.

Gao Yuan suddenly stretched out his long arm and pulled Hongling into his arms strongly.

Hongling was stunned for a moment, and before she could react, the whole person fell into Gao Yuan's arms, and the two stood in the breeze for a moment.

Such an embrace is both familiar and unfamiliar, it has been three years, and neither of them has ever thought that they can really feel this embrace again, not just in dreams and memories.

When Hongling finally reacted, she wanted to break free, but she was firmly clasped by a pair of big hands.

Gao Yuan said softly in her ear: "I didn't deceive myself, it's true, you are still the same as when I first met you, very pure and beautiful, and you haven't changed at all." Didn't we swear to be together forever? I want you to be the most beautiful bride in the whole world, and even now, I still think so, because I only want you. ”

But Hongling knows that this is not the only reason; "Okay, then let me ask you, if you were to choose again, three years ago, would you still choose to leave me and continue your expedition?"

Gao Yuan paused, his thin lips opened lightly, and he wanted to answer, but he hesitated.

He hadn't thought about this question, and when he was suddenly asked by Hongling, he didn't seem to have a positive answer.

He naturally didn't want such a tragedy to happen, but he didn't want to go along with Hua Qianchuan and do something harmful to the country.

In fact, he can not think too much and answer "no" directly, so that Hongling will definitely be satisfied, but he is not a person who is good at lying.

Hongling knew the answer from his hesitant expression, she was too in his arms, and looked up at him indifferently: "I know that your choice will not change, you keep saying that you love me, saying that you only want me, but in fact, you are not, the most important thing in your heart is a national event, in addition to wanting me, you want to be famous." I need a man who loves me with all his heart, laughs with me when I'm happy, and hugs me when I'm sad. But you, when I needed you most, you were thousands of miles away. I can't feel your love. ”

Gao Yuan really didn't know, it turned out that she still had such deep feelings that had been hidden.

He realized that he had never seriously understood what she was thinking.

All along, it was Hongling who paid for herself unconditionally, but she accepted her contribution as a matter of course, and gradually became a habit, and herself, because the other party gave too much, so that she forgot that she didn't do anything.

It wasn't until the other party finally became disheartened that he woke up.

Regret, self-blame, and guilt all came to my heart at once, like thousands of bees sting, and the pain of slowly corroding could not be shaken away.

"That's not the case, Hongling, although I will still choose to go on the expedition, if I had known that Hua Qianchuan was so ruthless, I would definitely arrange for you and your family before leaving, and I would definitely not let you be hurt."

Hongling took advantage of Gao Yuan's relaxation and broke free from his embrace: "Enough, General Gao, I'll beg you, okay?" Now that you know everything, if you really love me, please respect my decision, give me some breathing space, and don't bother me in the future. ”

With that, Hongling turned around and ran away.

Seeing Hongling so resolute, Gao Yuan didn't catch up anymore, just watched her back disappear in the darkness in the breeze.

He quietly sorted out the whole story alone, although he couldn't get rid of responsibility, but the culprits were definitely Hua Qianchuan and Bai Yan.

Gao Yuan clenched his fists and secretly swore that he would never spare these two people.

For a few days, Mu Chen felt that his vitality had recovered quickly, and his spirit was getting better and better, although it would take some time to fully recover to his uninjured physique, but this progress was already considered fast.

She didn't understand the reason at first, there was no reason to recover so quickly under normal circumstances, so she began to pay attention to everything around her, and found that there seemed to be something strange in Hongling's diet.

Since she saved Hongling at Bai Yan's hands, basically Hongling's diet has been taken care of.

But Hongling shouldn't know that she had met Long Aotian, and she didn't know that she had been seriously injured, unless, it was Yao who told her.

"Hongling, tell me the truth, did your sect leader let you use your hands and feet in your diet so that you can regulate my body?" Mu Chen asked casually while nibbling on the big chicken legs.

Hongling was surprised: "Prince, how do you know?" The medicinal powder given by the sect leader is colorless and odorless, so it should be difficult to notice. ”

But Mu Chen didn't smell it, nor did she eat it, but guessed it, she was complacent that she guessed correctly: "Don't think that you can hide it from me without color and taste, my prince is not in vain, how can I be an emperor in the future without any wisdom." You, this is not a bad thing, why don't you tell me directly? ”

"The sect leader said, this is just some medicine to condition the body, eating it can make you sleep better, you will naturally not be so tired after resting, the sect leader is worried that you are dealing with military affairs all day long, and your spirit is too tired, so he asked me to put the medicine in the food, he thinks that such a big mung bean, there is no need to tell you, as long as you are in good health." Hongling's expression didn't look like he was lying, it should be true.

Hearing this, Yao didn't tell the truth to Hongling, Hongling still didn't know about her serious injury, and she didn't know that the medicine she put in the food actually had a miraculous effect, and it was not a general medicine to regulate the body.

I really didn't expect Yao to be caring and careful, and he was very upright, knowing that some things were not public, and he didn't even say anything about his cronies.

I have to thank him.