193. 193.Extra: Who has loved without regrets (9)
When Sheng Yangge bought the porridge from outside, Emma was sitting on the edge of the bed peeling oranges for Azure to eat. Emma had just peeled it off and put it on Azure hand, when Sheng Yangge, who appeared at the door, silently stepped forward to take the orange in her hand away.
"It's already very cold now, you can eat less of these cold fruits and drink porridge." His breath was still a little unstable, and it seemed that he was running back and forth.
Sheng Yangge poured the porridge into a sterilized porcelain bowl and handed it to her.
Azure looked at him and didn't move.
Emma sat on the side, feeling a little embarrassed, and said to go make a phone call and went out. After all, Azure and this man are former lovers/people, and she has no right to interfere, which needs to be handled by Azure herself.
After Emma went out, the Sheng Yang singer was still carrying that night's porridge, but Weilan never answered, her brows were half-furrowed, and she couldn't see any joy.
The more Sheng Yangge looked at her, the more she felt that she had changed a lot, and her former high-spirited, aggressive, and imposing spirit had been neutralized by her current motherhood and turned into gentleness.
Her mocking, calm eyes seemed extremely strange to him, and she had been like this for the past few days. He would rather she say a few words that pierced him than nothing but a faint hint of weariness.
"Do you want me to feed you?" Sheng Yangge stirred the porridge, "If you don't eat it, it will be cold." ”
When he finished speaking, he took a spoonful of porridge and fed it to her mouth.
Azure frowned and tilted her head, "Sheng Yangge, why are you doing this?" ”
"I just don't want nothing to happen, I take care of you and you reject it? Am I so unpopular with you? Sheng Yangge's gentle face had a hint of discoloration, as if it was self-deprecating. It also seems that after Azure left him, such a look often appeared on his face.
Wei Lan felt very powerless, she thought that she had explained last night that Sheng Yangge would be determined to live his life well, but he was more stubborn than she imagined.
A faint sour feeling flashed through my heart, why, didn't I do this when I still had time, what's the point now?
So she blurted out like this, "Why do you always regret not cherishing it after losing it like this?" ”
After finishing speaking, she herself was shocked, she paused, and saw Sheng Yangge's hand holding the spoon tightened, trembling a little, and then regained her calm, she pursed her lips and continued: "There are some things that we don't need to say a second time, what do you think?" ”
"First of all, I didn't have an accident, and now there are people who take care of me, as for rejection, you know, after so many things, I can't be calm and accept what you're doing now, I'll be uncomfortable, I'll regret why you didn't do that, then I'll feel guilty about Rick, he's my husband! He loves me so much! I don't want to hurt him because of what happened to me. I'm going to be conflicted and hard, you know? And what do you think of Shen Yu by doing this? I don't want to be said to be a junior who is inserted into someone's family, I also have my own family, so don't do this kind of thing anymore. ”
After saying one sentence at a time, Azure became a little excited, and her voice was raised, looking a little annoyed and a little out of control.
Sheng Yangge's hand holding the bowl almost crushed the bowl, and her words were all sentence by sentence reminding him that he couldn't go back, he was married and she was married.
He really wanted that there was a medicine in the world called regret medicine, and when he saw her entangled and collapsed, she wanted to push him away inch by inch, and the things that had happened slowly climbed into his heart, he understood what it meant to be painful and regretful.
Sacrificing love for the country is a mystery that no one has discussed right or wrong since ancient times. He's deep in it.
He moved his throat, and in a deep but gentle voice he said, "Then you drink the porridge first, and neither you nor the child can go hungry." ”
Sheng Yangge held the porridge persistently, Weilan closed his eyes, very weak, and finally reached out to take the porridge in his hand and drank it himself.
After drinking, she put the bowl on the bedside cabinet, Sheng Yangge pursed her lips, and immediately picked up the bowl and said, "I'll wash it." ”
Before he could answer, he had already left.
As soon as Sheng Yangge walked out, he saw Emma sitting on a chair in the corridor, he glanced at Emma, and then went to another place.
Seeing that he was leaving, Emma stepped forward and stopped him, "Sheng Yangge." ”
Sheng Yangge turned his head and did not speak.
"I'm Rick's cousin."
"I know."
"My brother and my sister-in-law are very happy now, and you also have a family, what's the point of you doing this? It's impossible for Azure to destroy two families for you, and ......" She looked at Sheng Yangge's deep eyes like the sea, and couldn't bear to say, she finally spoke, "Moreover, she doesn't love you anymore, even if there is still a little residual feeling, it is not as strong as before, you should let go." ”
"Do you know where we were? Do you know our feelings? Don't take it personally. Sheng Yangge's eyes narrowed slightly, not showing the gentleness just now. He seemed to be angry, and I am afraid that he wanted to hide the guilt and regret in his heart.
Emma was startled by him, but when she came back to her senses, she thought he was ridiculous, and she sneered slightly, "Your past? Isn't it that you have repeatedly chosen the former between power and money and her? Why do you feel that it is necessary for the woman who has been repeatedly hurt and abandoned by you to accept your harassment again and again and her current peaceful life? You can't give her something, there are other men who can give it, so don't pester her and destroy her happiness, Weilan is a good woman. Let it go sooner rather than later, and don't let your feelings become vile and twisted. ”
Emma naturally saw anger in his eyes, and she naturally felt the atmosphere, Weilan had probably told her about her and Sheng Yangge, who didn't have a before, vigorous and vigorous may not be better than a long stream. At least she was happy to see the Azure with her cousin. Or even very satisfying.
So this man, he shouldn't bother her anymore, if he really thinks he still loves Azure.
By the end of the day, Emma had gone from anger to sighing.
The anger on Sheng Yangge's face grew, and after Emma turned around, he waved his hand and threw the porcelain bowl in his hand to the ground, and the delicate white porcelain was torn apart. The loud noise drew many complaints from the hospital room.
Because it is a VIP ward, it is not a simple person, and there are many doctors and nurses on duty here, a nurse came out, frowned and said: "This is not your home, it is a hospital, there are patients here, please take into account the feelings of other people." ”
Sheng Yangge glanced coldly and left one word, "Get out." ”
Azure sat at the head of the bed and didn't know what to do, she had just heard a faint quarrel outside, but it wasn't very clear. Then she heard the sound of a huge weight falling to the ground, and as soon as she propped herself up to get out of bed, Emma came in.
"Don't get up, you can get some rest." Emma hurried over and pulled her to lie down.
Azure glanced outside, pursed her lips, and lay down without saying anything.
She lay on her side, her hands clutching the quilt. Something came to mind.
In fact, Sheng Yangge rarely gets angry. Because of the growth environment, he learned to forbear since he was a child, because his mother was killed by the junior and was not favored by his father, he learned to protect himself when he was very young, and learned how to be silent, even if he was silent, he would not be as unscrupulous as Tang Xiaohui and act arbitrarily.
Because in his world, at least until he became a member of the prosperous family, he did not have the right to lose his temper at will. Because it may make his status in the family even lower, and it may also make his goal further and further away from him.
Forbearance became one of his skills.
It seems to be a habit to endure it, he doesn't like to show his anger, Weilan has seen him the most angry, that is, because Old Man Sheng mentioned his mother after Sheng Yangge became president, and said some derogatory and insulting things about him.
She actually knew that when Sheng Yangge faced her, she was so angry that she wanted to tear her apart, but she was enduring.
Why didn't he know before, he could have acted arbitrarily, because he didn't care very much before. And now, he didn't show his anger, probably because he was afraid of making her angry and pushing him farther and farther.
The sound of the plate breaking outside seemed to be still ringing in my ears, and the door of the ward had been pushed open, and the singer was already holding a new porcelain bowl, exactly the same as the previous one.
This is something that Gu Xing can buy when she stays.
He casually put the bowl on the cupboard, and without raising his head, he came straight over, and went straight out.
Emma looked at his back and couldn't figure out what he wanted to do, not even Azure could figure it out, let alone her.
said that he wanted to recover her, but he didn't say so, ambiguous, Weilan was tired of guessing, and she didn't want to guess either.
The door closed, Emma sighed, walked over there and turned off the light, "I don't know when my cousin will come, even if I leave when I am told, it will be two hours before I arrive, do you want to sleep for a while?" ”
Azure had closed her eyes, and she nodded.
Emma walked to the door and glanced outside, and immediately frowned, "Sheng Yangge is still outside." ”
The blue eyes were half-opened, and in an instant they closed again, and she breathed deeper, "Let him be." ”
Emma thought for a moment and said, "What if my cousin comes and the two fight?" ”
"Don't worry, they're not people who can fight." At least two men can't do what they tear up in the hospital, and both of them are gentle-looking men. Rick, in particular, doesn't take the initiative to find fault.
Emma walked over to the couch and sat down, covering her body with a blanket so it wasn't so cold.
"Sister-in-law, will you abandon your cousin and forgive Sheng Yangge?" Emma asked cautiously, of course she was selfish, of course she hoped that Azure and her cousin could be happy, on the other hand, she also felt that Azure had been hurt so much, it was time to be happy.
Azure closed her eyes, and her tone was light, but it was categorical, "It's impossible." ”
Emma breathed a sigh of relief, but she didn't know why, but she still tugged at her heart.
Half-asleep and half-asleep, what Azure swore would never happen really played out in the hallway......