Chapter 20: Self-deception

"I'm coming back this time to take you out of the United States, Xiaoli come with me to the United States! Let me take good care of you, I have made you suffer for more than ten years. Ling Yun grabbed Xiaoli's hand tightly and said, her eyes were so sincere.

Looking at Ling Yun's sincere face, Xiao Li suddenly felt so sarcastic, her hand was suddenly withdrawn from Ling Yun's hand, and she pursed her lips, and there was indifference under her eyes, "No! ”

After speaking, Xiaoli stood up suddenly, picked up her bag and was about to leave.

"Xiaoli." Ling Yun stood up nervously, wanting to reach out to catch Xiaoli, but the manual movement was still embarrassing and put it on her thigh twice.

"I'm not going to the United States, I'm fine now, I don't hate you, but I don't like you either." Xiaoli said, and then left without looking back.

There are some people that we will eventually miss out on - life in the world, and we will experience some emotional twists and turns. Looking back, those who have surged in life, in the depths of their hearts have been loved to set foot in the green grass, whether they still retain precious emotions to reminisce about the passing time. It's just that we will eventually miss out on someone who can accompany us for a lifetime.

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With her hands on the doorknob and looking at the closed iron door, Xiaoli sighed.

After wandering the streets all night, she finally came back here, the world was so big, but she found that this was the only place she could go.

Unscrewed the doorknob vigorously, walked into the room, and was greeted by a large disgusting smell of alcohol, through the moonlight, Xiaoli looked down at her feet, only to see that the ground was full of empty cans.

Xiaoli frowned, "What the hell is going on?" ”

Do you think that her entanglement with Li Junfeng makes him uncomfortable like this? What about Xinyi? Why not there?

Xiaoli swept her foot, cleared a path, and walked towards the room.

Xiaoli thought that when she entered the room, she would see Ma Wenhao drunk and lying on the ground in embarrassment, but who knew that what came into view was him sleeping on the bed, covered with a quilt, with hard shoulders and a handsome and charming side face exposed.

Looking at Ma Wenhao's face, Xiaoli sighed and wanted to move forward, but from under Ma Wenhao's body stretched out a slender jade arm, and then a familiar and delicate face poked out, she closed her eyes tightly, her face was red, and she slept so peacefully, but there was a moan overflowing from her mouth, her hand stretched out, and the quilt slid down, revealing Ma Wenhao's wide back and her shy white breasts, and Ma Wenhao's hand was on her chest.

Seeing these two faces that she was so familiar that she couldn't be more familiar, Xiaoli opened her mouth wide and wanted to make a sound, but just as the screams overflowed her throat, she immediately stretched out her hand to cover her mouth, and swallowed the sad screams that reached her throat back into her stomach, so afraid that the screams ran out.

Caught raped in bed, she should have screamed and cried hysterically, but in the face of these two heartbreaking faces, she found that she couldn't scream.

It turned out that it was not desolate to cry, and the most desolate thing was that I had to swallow the crying back into my stomach when I wanted to cry.

Looking at Xinyi and Ma Wenhao hugging each other on the bed, Xiaoli covered her mouth and slowly squatted down, her stomach hurt so badly at this time, as if she was noisy with her hands, her hand was on her left chest, and there was a place called the heart under the muscles that hurt so badly.

Xiaoli bit her lower lip tightly, biting out the blood, letting the blood fill her mouth, and her eyes were red as if they were about to drip blood.

She kept taking deep breaths, trying to calm her heartache and sadness, but she found that she couldn't do anything, and the heartache didn't seem to weaken, but the sadness increased a little.

Xiaoli pinched her thighs hard, hoping that the physical pain would distract her, until she pinched her thighs black, until the pain made her grin, although it couldn't relieve the heartache, but it made her feel again.

Xiaoli sniffed, then stood up with difficulty against the wall, and then walked towards the door.

She thought she was strong and brave, but after one betrayal after another, she found that she was really tired, really broken, and really had no way to pretend to be strong.

She had to admit that she was cowardly, cowardly, and evasive, so in the face of her lover and best friend who betrayed her, she chose to flee.

She left cautiously, trying her best not to make a sound, now she is not like a person who catches rape in bed, but like a thief who enters the house to rob, so cautious, afraid of waking up other people, yes, she is a thief, stealing other people's secrets, discovering things that she shouldn't have discovered, discovering secrets that make her heart ache.

You may be sad occasionally, either you think too much or you see too thoroughly, some things you see clearly are not necessarily underestimated, you stubbornly want to ask the truth, and when you know the result, how? Sad about it! Ask for yourself!

Xiaoli walked out of the house and gently closed the door, isolating her from the secrets of the room, and let it continue to blur if she couldn't see clearly! Some things, some love, some feelings, some people see too thoroughly, but they will be hurt.

She left step by step, walked into the elevator, did not say a word, did not cry, did not scream, sometimes, just wanted to cry, because of the grievances. Sometimes, I just want to go crazy because I'm depressed. Sometimes, I just want to scold because I feel unhappy. Sometimes, she just wants to be quiet, because she's really tired.

When the elevator reached the first floor, she walked away, walked out of the apartment and looked back at the room that broke her heart, and she sighed slightly.

The hand that was clenching his thigh finally let go, but his heart still hurt badly, and the sky was drizzling at this time, adding a biting cold to the cold night, and adding a trace of dead ashes to the broken heart.

Xiaoli stood there straight, and the drizzle that had been a slight drizzle slowly turned into the size of a soybean, and then into a peanut-like ......

Under the pouring rain, Xiaoli raised her head and closed her eyes, the raindrops hit her raised face painfully, although she wanted to cry, but she couldn't help laughing. She's not a strong person, but she has no choice but to be strong.

"Mo Xiaoli, you are mistaken, how could Xinyi betray you, how could she and Ma Wenhao do such a thing? She is the person you protect with your life, and she is your closest best friend! Yes, you must be mistaken! Xiaoli smiled and muttered.

In the face of the cruel reality, we choose to escape, choose to deceive ourselves, although this is a cowardly behavior, but it is also an act of self-help.

I was making a fool of myself, I just didn't want to hurt my body...... If self-deception is cowardice, then continue to be cowardly!