To be honest, this book should normally be released in mid-July, but because of a lot of things, it had to start early.

On June 17th, Chenguang became a father and got a son.

It was originally a very happy thing, but I didn't expect it to be the beginning of a nightmare.

The son was named Xuanxuan, and when he was born, he was only four catties and four taels, which is not a good thing for a full-term child. Sitting outside the door of the delivery room that day, the morning light had a sense of foreboding.

In the afternoon, news came from the hospital that the child had a large area of bleeding spots and needed to be transferred to the hospital for treatment. After arriving at the hospital, the doctor sent the child directly to the intensive care unit.

The next morning, after a series of examinations, the preliminary results came out, and Xuan Xuan had four deformities on his body. Cleft palate, tongue-tie, anterior urethral valve diverticulum, bilateral inguinal cryptorchidism.

At that time, I was dumbfounded, how could a child who was only two days old have so many deformities?

Who knew that the nightmare did not end, and next, the child discovered a series of problems such as neonatal pneumonia, neonatal encephalopathy, myocardial ischemia caused by the unclosed ductus arteriosus, congenital heart disease, and foramen ovale.

Some people may not be able to imagine that a five-day-old child can extract nearly four milliliters of sputum from his lungs each time, and I can't wait to bear the pain on behalf of my child.

A few days ago, the child had a subarachnoid hemorrhage, and at that time I was almost completely discouraged, because once the child's cerebral congestion could not be relieved, even if it was cured, it would be either cerebral palsy or intellectual retardation. If that were the case, what would the child do? I can take care of him while I am alive, and if I am gone one day, who will take care of this child? Even if there are siblings, isn't that a drag on the children behind them?

At that time, I often held the photo of Xuanxuan in my mobile phone, sitting alone outside the door of the intensive care unit and crying, in a trance.

Later, after many helps, it was finally determined that the child's bruising site was okay, and the number was not much, and it could still be treated. At that moment, I almost knelt in front of the doctor.

Originally, I thought that after the cloudy day, it must be a rainbow, but I never expected that the rainbow after the cloudy day was just a phantom.

In medicine, a baby is generally a child with a gestational age of 38 to 42 weeks and a weight of less than 2,500 grams, which is caused by intrauterine infection affecting the growth and development of the fetus, placental insufficiency, maternal diseases during pregnancy, and fetal chromosomal diseases. However, there are also normal conditions of stunted growth. Such babies are prone to other complications because they are gestational enough but have low ability after birth.

If that's all it is, Xuanxuan's breathing gradually became difficult, and the doctor said that he might have to use a ventilator. Even with the help of enthusiastic readers and authors to contact hospitals in Beijing and Shanghai, Xuanxuan was unable to go to the hospital for treatment.

Today is the eighth day of my child's birth, and I have been sending my feelings to the slightest bit lately, because I don't know how to vent my feelings. From the very beginning when my child was hospitalized, I was holding on to my whole body, and you can't imagine that I didn't eat or sleep for two days, just drank a sip of water and ended up pouring on the street. The daughter-in-law didn't know the truth of the matter yet, and both parents were hoping that the child would get better soon, and I felt like a dynamite bag that could explode at any moment.

Yesterday, the news from the doctor made me very helpless, even if the child is treated with a series of problems such as pneumonia and encephalopathy, the doctor does not dare to guarantee that there will be no follow-up diseases, in their words, this child is likely to drag the parents for a lifetime, or even longer.

Many people are persuading me to give up, but I can't help it, when I think of Xuan Xuan when he was born, I held it in my arms, and the moment he opened his eyes to me, my heart was trembling, and tears couldn't stop flowing.

I want to persevere, I want to work hard, even if my family goes bankrupt, I will protect my son!

In the past week or so, countless well-wishers have given me help and encouragement, friends in the writer's circle, no matter what website, have been helping, Mao Yu, Luo Badao, Qi Cheng, Wei You, Wei Yue, Ye Tiannan, Sister Weak Water, the blessings and help of countless friends, let Xuan Xuan know that in addition to his parents, there are many people in this world who care about him.

I won't say much about the brothers of the party and the masses, and I am grateful for your support and help.

There are also editors at the starting point, Haixing cried with me several times, and also applied for help from Dao Ye and the section leader, and especially thanked several leaders for lending a helping hand to me in my most difficult time and helping me through the difficulties. Not to mention my editor-in-charge Qingshan, who flew all the way from Shanghai to accompany me, thank you from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

There is a limit on the number of words, and I definitely can't type so many words, so I asked the editor to help open the new book and send this feeling. The text of the new book is estimated to be released at the beginning of the month, so please understand.

On the one hand, I have to be worthy of my editor, worthy of the trust of the leaders of the starting point, the author who did not send a word, did not hand in a word, and the company paid to help the child see a doctor, this starting point is the conscience of the industry, and I can't be sorry for others. Second, no matter how difficult it is, I will insist on writing the code word thing, for the simple reason that I need money, I need money to maintain this child's life and maintain this family. Even if my head is broken and my family is ruined, as long as I am alive, I will desperately try to save my son.