Chapter 682: How Do I Go Forward?
Out of the nightclub, I don't know where to go, is it home? Back to school? Or go to Liu Hanhan to question? Looking at the road in front of me, I even felt the urge to commit suicide. I stood on the side of the road for a long time, my mind blank. There are some things I don't dare to think about, and I don't want to think about them. Because the first time Wang Yuan happened next door to me last time, I was so afraid that Liu Hanhan would open a room with his ex-boyfriend and do that kind of thing. Yes, I naively thought that Liu Hanhan and her ex-boyfriend would only masturbate when they opened a room, or use their mouths or something, anyway, I felt that Liu Hanhan would not give his first time.
Although I knew that I was naïve, it was better for me to continue to lie to myself at this time. I was in a daze for about half an hour before other thoughts began to come to my head. The first is how do I deal with this matter, first of all, in the big picture, one is to break up, and the other is to continue! After the macro has an idea, then it is the processing of the details, how to divide the breakup, and how to continue! According to my character, the Su Wanrong incident is in front of me, and I can't spare the breakup...... I suddenly found that I couldn't retaliate against anyone, and my ex-boyfriend was studying abroad. I can't beat Liu Hanhan, so this is unreliable, breaking up is the next policy, and I may no longer believe in love.
So I chose to continue! Yes, you read that right, I was cuckolded and I have to continue! I am no longer the Huang Zhong I used to be, I really loved Liu Hanhan too much at that time. There are several ways to continue, pick out everything, as long as Liu Hanhan is willing to turn around and give me a guarantee, I will forgive her. But I'm afraid that Liu Hanhan won't give me a guarantee, and what if the jar is broken? So I chose the second way to continue, which was to swallow my anger and pretend that nothing had happened. After all, Liu Hanhan wants to be with me every day, and his ex-boyfriend will not return to China often.
Although this decision is very cheap and spineless, I was also forced. Because I believe that Liu Hanhan loves me now, and she will definitely surpass her ex-boyfriend. It's just that she is younger, who has never been young, I have also been young, and I have done more bad things than Liu Hanhan. The girls and many things I have experienced have also made me know that no one is reliable. No one can guarantee that the other half of themselves will be innocent, and I will be retribution. In the past, I brought cuckolds to others, cheap men, Cao Zhi, and Yang Xing. Now it's my turn, and it's time for me to admit it too!
At the same time, I believe that with my true love, I will slowly influence Liu Hanhan and make her completely forget about her ex-boyfriend. In fact, in our period, it was very common for girlfriends and ex-boyfriends to maintain a relationship, and it was normal for everyone to become lovers, friends or friends. I thought about a lot of things that night, and thought of all kinds of strange decisions, and this decision to pretend to be stupid was also decided after careful consideration.
I rushed back to school by car that night, and after returning to the dormitory, I sent a text message to Liu Hanhan: My phone is out of battery, good night. It turned off after sending it, I didn't even wash up, I took off my clothes and fell asleep in bed. Strange thing, I fell asleep very smoothly that day, and I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to sleep, so I fell asleep all of a sudden. I have escaped from reality from the subjective consciousness and subconscious, and escaped the fact that I knew that Liu Hanhan was cheating! I don't even want to verify whether the qiē that Soft Soft told me tonight is true! Although, there is a one percent chance that this thing is a soft lie.
The next day, after class at noon, I went to the lobby on the first floor of the teaching building of the Art Branch to wait for Liu Hanhan to come out. The hair dyeing girl was the first batch of students to come out, and after the hair dyeing girl saw me, she chatted with me as before. I didn't listen to what she was saying at the time, I was just thinking in my head, Liu Hanhan won't become a bus like her, right? Just when the dyed girl was about to leave, I stopped her and asked her: I have time to invite you to dinner with Fat Fat Fish, she has been clamoring for me to invite her, don't you, help me tell me. The dyed girl said that I was a little strange, I nodded and didn't speak, and the dyed girl left.
After a while, Liu Hanhan also came down, and when he saw me, he said coquettishly: I'm hungry, I'm hungry. Looking at her like that, how does she look like a girl who went to a different place to open a room with someone, I was suddenly sad to the extreme, what is the extreme, but I can't control my tears. I want to cry, I feel so wronged, I feel so uncomfortable, I feel so sad! I thought I would pretend to be casual, but the moment I saw Liu Hanhan, I was a little broken. Liu Hanhan came and I ran outside, ran two steps, Liu Hanhan stopped, looked back at me, and asked me: What's wrong with you?
If it had been in the past, I would have gone crazy with Liu Hanhan and took her to the cafeteria for two steps, which is a normal playful behavior between couples. But now I'm not in the mood at all, I'm running very slowly, and I don't have any energy at all. I lied at the time and said: a little sick to my stomach and a little cold! Liu Hanhan asked me with concern: Yan is not strict, have you taken medicine? Why don't we go buy medicine first, you don't look right at all. I hummed and said slowly: Go to dinner, just don't run.
Liu Hanhan put his arm around me, leaned on me, and walked sweetly in the direction of the cafeteria as usual. When eating in the cafeteria, Liu Hanhan, as usual, was a little emotional. And I'm very low, I can't pretend to be in that mood, I overestimate myself too much, in fact, I wasn't as powerful as I imagined, I even pretend to laugh, it's very difficult. Liu Hanhan also said to me: You are really sick, you usually talk all the time, today you don't talk when you eat but keep crying and sad face, go back to lie down for a while after eating, don't go to the afternoon class, rest in the dormitory.
I nodded and said, "yes, I see." After eating, I asked Liu Hanhan: Do you have classes in the afternoon? Liu Hanhan said: Yes, what's wrong? I said: It's okay, let's exchange mobile phones to play, Liu Hanhan was stunned for a moment and said: Okay, exchange. So when the cafeteria was separated, I gave my mobile phone to Liu Hanhan, and she gave her mobile phone to me. I took Liu Hanhan's mobile phone and went back to the dormitory, and the first thing I did was to look at Liu Hanhan's call records and text messages. Liu Hanhan, like me, likes to keep classic text messages. So there are a lot of text messages, but I found a few text messages that are not normal.
But after my investigation, I didn't find any substantive clues. Liu Hanhan doesn't have many photos on her phone, just a few, and there are no photos of her ex-boyfriend. Liu Hanhan once told me about her ex-boyfriend's name, but I found that there was no ex-boyfriend's name in the phone book. Even if he doesn't have his ex-boyfriend's mobile phone number, at least he should have a home phone. So when the two of us had dinner together in the evening, I asked Liu Hanhan: Have you not had any contact with your ex-boyfriend? At that time, I pretended to be very casual, but Liu Hanhan reacted very much.
Liu Hanhan stopped eating all of a sudden, and asked me with a glare: Why did you suddenly ask such an inexplicable question? I said: I played with your mobile phone today, and when I looked at your phone book, I found that there was no contact information of your ex-boyfriend, and the phone numbers of both of you and his house were deleted? Liu Hanhan sighed and said: It's all deleted, it's been deleted a long time ago, why do you suddenly think of him. I said, "I just looked at the phone book and suddenly remembered." Liu Hanhan snorted angrily and said: Why are you checking this? You don't believe me? I said, "Believe it or not, I'm just bored, and I ask, you see you're nervous, is there something hiding from me?"
At this time, my heart was beating very fast, and although I was still determined not to investigate the matter, I couldn't help myself. I was very afraid of Liu Hanhan's showdown with me, and I found that I was useless. Liu Hanhan said to me with a stern face at this time: Let me tell you something, don't be angry, okay? I felt like I was shaking a little, I couldn't speak, I could only nod. Liu Hanhan said: Actually, I haven't deleted my ex-boyfriend's phone number, but you don't know, I lied to you just now. I won't lie to you now, my ex-boyfriend is not called XXX at all, but Fang Chao!
Liu Hanhan showed me the phone as he spoke, pointed to Fang Chao's phone, and said: This is his phone number. I'm afraid you'll be angry, I'm afraid you'll think too much, so I'll lie to you. Liu Hanhan was still waiting for me to praise her for being honest, but I just said lightly: In this way, there is no need to lie to me. I found out that Liu Hanhan's lying skills are also first-class, if she didn't take the initiative to confess, I wouldn't have known about this at all. So I was very heartbroken at the time, why do you Liu Hanhan love me and lie to me.
We didn't go to the study hall in the evening to do what we used to do, under the pretext that I wasn't feeling well. I have been pretending to be sick until week 5, I can't do it if I don't pretend, I found that I can't be as enthusiastic about Liu Hanhan as normal. Even if I want to pretend to be stupid and continue to love her, I have to have an adaptation process. After returning home on Friday, I asked Liu Million to accompany me out on Saturday to meet and chat. At this moment, I found that Liu Million was very suitable to be by my side, because he would not be like a wild boar, no matter how I love it, he will always be cheap.
On Saturday, Liu Hanhan still went to practice dancing, and the two of us also said that we would not meet. I met with Liu Million outside, Liu Million also looked half-dead, Liu Million said to me: You don't look for me, I still want to find you, buddy, I've been annoyed to death recently, let's find a good place to drink, I'll complain to you. The two of us went to a barbecue restaurant and chatted while eating barbecue. Liu Million told me about his troubles, and his troubles were that Wang Yuan always quarreled with him, Wang Yuan was too irritable, and so on. And there is a girl in Liu Million School who is chasing Liu Million, Liu Million sues the other party that he has a partner, and the girl still chases Liu Million.
Of course, these are not Liu Wanwan's biggest troubles, the biggest trouble is related to Su Wanrong. Although they both fell out, they didn't know what was going on, and the two got together again. Liu Million said a bunch of conversations between him and Su Wanrong, all of which were trivial and emotional entanglements, and Liu Million also asked me to help him analyze, what does Su Wanrong mean by this? What is the implication of that statement? Liu Million said that he basically didn't listen to it, I looked for Liu Million to come out, either to complain to him, or to find someone to accompany me, as long as I was with me.
So I wasn't in the mood to help him analyze that nonsense, but Liu Million didn't care, continued to talk about him, and then drank with me. I was in a bad mood and got drunk easily, so I drank again that day. When I woke up, I was lying in the hotel again, and Liu Hanhan was in the room. I was shocked that she was watching TV. I asked her, "Why are you here?" What about Liu millions? Liu Hanhan saw that I was awake, so he said: He called me and said that you were drunk in the restaurant, and he couldn't get you alone, so he went to find me. We teamed up to get you in, dear, what's wrong with you, how can you still get drunk?