138. Chapter 138
Coming out of the hospital, the sky should have been bright, but for some reason I thought it would be a sunny weather, suddenly the sky was covered with dark clouds, and the black and oppressive clouds floated very low, as if they would be pressed overhead at any time, and the irritable and stuffy air hovered in this space that looked more and more narrow, so depressed that some people couldn't breathe.
Gu Weikite casually stopped a taxi, the car was walking in the familiar and unfamiliar scenery, she kept tilting her head to look out of the window, her eyes were a little dull, she couldn't see any expression, and she was holding a newly released test sheet from the hospital tightly in her hand.
HCG positive.
Even people who don't know how to heal know what this is all about.
Gu Tail Kite's head is like a bucket of paste at the moment, and his mind is blank except for the medical term "HCG positive".
"Miss, it's here."
The taxi stopped, and the driver saw that Gu Weikite behind him did not react, and seemed to be in a daze and focused, so he screamed.
"What?"
"I said miss, you're here."
Gu Weikite slowly came back to her senses, she let out a faint "oh" and paid the money and got out of the car.
As soon as she got out of the car, the taxi started again and went away, she forgot about the surrounding scenery in a daze, frowned, didn't she want to go to the company, why did the master pull her to this beach just now?
Gu Weiyu's mind was basically blank, where did she know that when she got into the car just now, the master asked her where to go, she wanted to say that she would go to the company, but blurted out this place.
Today's weather is not good, and the wind on the beach is even more hunting, no wonder it was so windy last night, it was about to change. On the seashore, the dark clouds were heavy and pressing, and some dazzling light appeared between the clouds, as if a lightning bolt would slash down at any time.
Gu Tai Kite found a stone at random and sat down, her brain was still very slow to react, she didn't understand why she suddenly appeared here, and she didn't know why she was not in a hurry to leave after coming here, as if this was the place she wanted to come. She felt that with her character, she should not hesitate to go to the company at this point in time, after all, she has always been strict with herself, and she never allowed such things as being late for class and going to work. But she sat on the stone unconsciously, and her half-squinted eyes to protect herself from the wind and sand were looking at the sea water not far away that was churning in the strong wind.
She is expecting.
Lived for twenty-eight years, this is something that Gu Weikite never thought about.
She had fantasized about her ideal love before, that is, to meet the person she loved and then know each other naturally in an instant, and then to fall in love naturally and naturally, followed by a sweet and sweet restructured family, when the two are mature enough, they will naturally give birth to a little life that contains the love of their parents, and then conceive for ten months, despite the difficulties, she still enjoys the process of making major changes in her life and enjoying a small life growing up day by day in her belly, In the end, the melons ripened and formed a stable family of three, and everything was natural.
She has always liked ordinary feelings, the kind of vigorous and life-threatening feelings, she no longer feels that she is old enough to bear, or maybe because when she was young and frivolous, she had already exhausted her strength to be vigorous, so now, she has long lost any strength to experience some waves that she unexpected and uncontrollable.
Therefore, she has always worked hard, and always feels that only what she gets by relying on her single-minded efforts is really her own, and she is enough to bear and control. Instead of doing what she wanted, letting herself go, and feeling that everything was what she deserved, it was precisely because she was too greedy, and it was precisely because those things were too exciting and she couldn't control it at all, so in the end, she ended up with bruises.
Accustomed to disguising herself with indifference and detachment, she seems to be an extremely thoughtful and strong woman in the eyes of everyone, because she works hard enough and spares no effort in what she does, she is as if she is a legendary strong woman. But who knows that the reason why she is like this is because she is afraid that she will be hurt again, and she can't stand any ups and downs that she can't control.
Therefore, when she met Qiao Yimo at first, she knew that this man was very dangerous, and once she got close, she would either be happy and worry-free from now on or she would be miserable from now on.
But how can she allow her world to happen in such two extreme possibilities and uncertain things, she would rather not be "happy and worry-free from now on" than have a 1 in 10,000 possibility of "never want to live from now on", she knows that in fact, she is as cowardly as herself, this is her true face.
Therefore, in Qiao Yimo's attacks again and again, she forced herself to stabilize her heart and not let it have the slightest abnormal rhythm.
But many things seem to be out of her control, things are developing too fast, she resists again and again, but it seems to be deep in the swamp, the more she struggles, the deeper she falls unconsciously. She habitually wanted to ignore it, but once she summed it up, she found that she had already been trapped in it, up to her neck, and if she struggled a little longer, she would drown in it.
Gu Weiyuan felt a little ridiculous, her brain was slow to react at the moment, and she was so muddled, but Qiao Yimo's appearance was so clear in her mushy mind.
She remembered that when she first saw him that day, he looked at her with a pair of ink eyes that seemed to be smiling meaningfully, with strong interest in his eyes and excitement and possessiveness when he saw his prey, and at that time, she knew that Qiao Yimo was very dangerous; Later, he appeared in front of him again and again, and got into a relationship with Gu Yan, obviously Gu Yan's guest of honor, but he always cast a hot gaze at her, she put aside all her emotions and only felt that this person must be a prodigal son; Later, he found opportunities to be intimate with himself from time to time, domineering but tender, and such tangled emotions were interpreted so harmoniously by him; Later, even she couldn't figure out why she had so much entanglement with him, he was sometimes gentle and sometimes domineering, he was very good at saying some love words, although it was not that kind of rhetoric, but the emotions contained in it were real, Gu Weiyi sighed in shock again and again, but she wanted to estimate that a man like Qiao Yimo always looked cold, so she felt that his confession was so shocking, and there was nothing else......
She numbs herself again and again, and no matter what her state of mind is, she can find good excuses to excuse herself.
She was moved, she could think that this was just human nature, women were emotional animals, and they were the easiest to be moved; She was shocked, she could think that Qiao Yimo was too fickle, she just couldn't get used to him like that; Her heart suddenly pounded, she could think that after all, the education she received since she was a child was that men and women were not intimate, Qiao Yimo was so affectionate with her, her heartbeat was really very normal; Hearing him say "he figured it out", her heart flashed and lost, she could think that after all, she was still very hypocritical, it was really good to have someone like herself, but this person suddenly said that he had figured it out in this matter, and it always made people feel that they seemed to give up, and it was a matter of pride and joy to be liked by someone, but he suddenly said that she figured it out, and it was very common for her to be a little lost, after all, she was inevitably cliché......
This time, she deliberately ignored the mood by herself, but now that she thinks about it, she can't convince herself no matter what.
She is not a self-deceiving person, she also has a delicate heart, she already knew that Qiao Yimo had ulterior motives for her...... However, when he was sick, she still couldn't help but want to run to take care of him, although she felt that she was just trying to repay the favor, but if she really wanted to avoid him, how could she take care of him when he was most vulnerable, so wouldn't it give him hope in disguise. Obviously, she knew that even if she didn't go, Sophie had always been Qiao Yimo's right and left hand, taking good care of his life, and without her, he could get better quickly, but she still went.
Tao Yutong came to her, she watched Gu Yan inch by inch again and again, she was very depressed, she felt that it was not worth it for Gu Yan, but she clearly knew that the emotional matter was worth it or not, only the parties concerned were qualified to comment, so why should she worry.
She doesn't like Gu Yan, but in fact, what reason does she have not to like Gu Yan? Before coming back, she and this little cousin used to play together when they were children, and they had been separated for ten years, so she had no reason to hate Gu Yan. But she knew very well that she didn't like Gu Yan, as for the reason, she didn't want to delve into it before, but now she thought, maybe it's because of Qiao Yimo. In fact, she is very selfish and domineering.
Thinking of this, Gu Weiyuan suddenly smiled.
Eyes touched a certain place on the beach, where there was originally a red heart made of delicate roses, Qiao Yimo's confession shocked her heart that day, but even if she knew many things, understood and even discovered, she didn't really want to delve into it, so she said that she needed to think about it, and this thought was a few days, and in the past few days, he had inadvertently shaken her already crumbling defensive wall again and again.
But today, she suddenly knew that she was pregnant.
The defensive wall, which had been carefully maintained, collapsed without hesitation, without warning, but it seemed that everything was falling into place, as if it was a frightening change, but it seemed to be another village.
She didn't think she was such a struggler. She likes Qiao Yimo, and she is so sure of this at this moment.