375. What is lost does not come back
These gossips, which are becoming more and more popular, sometimes naturally reach Niannian's ears, but she only smiles indifferently when she listens to them.
For these ups and downs in the palace, Nian Nian no longer cares. Now that her heart is dead, it seems that it has nothing to do with her who Su Junchu loves or not.
Niannian's indifferent look made Zhuzhu anxious.
Zhuzhu knows best how good the emperor was to the queen mother before, and now she sees that the emperor will never come to the Chu Palace again. Zhuzhu said to Nian Nian anxiously more than once, let Nian Nian go to the emperor and pull the emperor's heart back. Or, she can also help Niannian to send a message to the emperor and bring a letter.
Zhu Zhu even put on a well-versed appearance, telling sΓΉ Nian Nian seriously, what women in the palace are most afraid of is falling out of favor, and falling out of favor means losing power. If you continue to be so negative, it will definitely not work.
Niannian still just looked indifferent when she heard this, and then Zhengse warned Zhuzhu that if she dared to secretly go to the emperor behind her back, then she would not stay by her side in the future.
Zhuzhu was helpless, so she had to accompany Niannian to joke in the palace every day, but she never dared to mention the matter of going to the emperor again.
On this day, the sky was clear and the east wind was blowing. This kind of weather is the most suitable for kite flying.
Nian Nian was in a lot of fun, she used to be a clever girl in school, good at handmade zuΓ².
So, Nian Nian said just do it, and took the paste scissors. Cut and cut, glued and pasted, and after a while, a big dragonfly kite was made with colored paper. Then, Nian Nian took Zhu Zhu to fly a kite on the lawn in the Imperial Garden.
The master and servant were playing happily in the garden, and they couldn't help but feel the feeling when they looked at the kite flying high in the blue sky. She asked in her heart: When will I be able to fly over the walls of the palace like this kite and see the outside world?
Thinking like this, Nian Nian looked at the kite flying high and far, and couldn't help but feel a little stupid.
But suddenly I heard a woman's silver bell-like voice: "Wow, what a beautiful paper kite!" β
Nian Nian looked back and saw a group of several people walking towards him from a short distance. Among them were Su Junchu and Zong Hua, and the one who made the exclamation was a stunningly beautiful girl.
The moment she first saw her, Nian Nian almost mistook her for Su Xiaorou, but when she thought about it again, she immediately understood that this must be the newly sealed concubine Xue Guiren in the palace.
Su Junchu had just finished his government affairs today, and Xue Ji immediately came over to find him. said that the weather was good, and let the emperor accompany him to visit the imperial garden.
Su Junchu originally just wanted to arrange for Zong Hua to accompany her, but Xue Ji must not do it, Su Junchu couldn't resist her soft grinding and hard bubbles, so he had to accompany her. But I didn't want to, as soon as I walked into the Imperial Garden, I saw the thought of flying a kite.
Several people walked in front of Nian Nian, and Su Junchu called softly: "Nian Nian ......"
His gaze was almost greedily fixed on Nian Nian's face and body, because from that day on, he had never seen Nian Nian again except in his dreams.
Nian Nian just glanced at Su Junchu lightly, then looked away, and then she replied lightly: "The emperor also has time to play today." β
"Your Majesty, who is she?" Xue Ji didn't know Nian Nian, and asked Su Junchu with big puzzled eyes.
"She is the head of the six palaces of the Ning Dynasty, the queen of me." Su Junchu replied simply, his eyes were still focused on Nian Nian's face, and he was reluctant to leave for a moment.
In his opinion, Nian Nian seemed to be a little thinner than before, and there was an indescribable melancholy temperament in his expression. Compared with her previous liveliness and cheerfulness, she looks much more delicate and quiet. This made Su Junchu's heart rise with various complicated feelings of pain, sadness and pity.
"It turned out to be the queen's sister, the queen's sister is really good-looking. Xue Ji has met her sister, is this paper kite also made by her sister herself? It's so beautiful, sister, let's play with it. Xue Ji gave Nian Nian a blessing and begged Nian Nian to give her the kite string ball in her hand.
"Take it." Nian Nian said lightly, and handed the tangle with the kite in his hand to Yukihime.
Yukihime immediately cheered and ran off to fly a kite in the distance.
Seeing that Su Junchu wanted to talk about his thoughts and stopped, Zong Hua and Zhu Zhu also walked away with interest.
Here on the lawn, only Su Junchu and Nian Nian are left.
The two of them stood facing each other, although Su Junchu felt that there were a thousand words in his heart that he wanted to say to Nian Nian, but looking at Nian Nian's indifferent expression, he didn't know where to start?
Niannian's eyes kept staring into the distance, and Yukihime was running happily with a kite, scattering crisp laughter all the way.
She was stunned and thought: I used to be as young and happy as her, but there will never be such a time again......
Su Junchu looked over with Niannian's gaze, then turned back to look at her and said, "She's like a little soft...... I treat her like my own sister......"
"Oh......" Nian Nian didn't speak anymore, his eyes still just looking at Yukihime's lively figure.
"Actually...... Me and her, nothing...... She came from afar, and her personality was also very straightforward, and sometimes I asked to accompany her, but I couldn't bear to refuse...... However, I didn't love her. Su Junchu continued, his voice was hard and slow.
"Oh......" Nian Nian still just sighed, and seemed to have no interest in the topic.
Su Junchu looked at Nian Nian's expression, sighed, and said, "Nian Nian, I am telling you this in the hope that you will not misunderstand me and her...... If you don't like her staying in the palace, I can send her away. I can see that a few of them, like Zong Hua, like her, like her. I've always thought that among these young generals, I can match Xue Ji with a suitable family affair. β
A wry smile appeared on Nian Nian's face, and he said softly: "The emperor doesn't need to tell me this, you are the emperor, it is normal for you to have as many concubines as you want, and I will not interfere with your affairs." β
"But I want you to know that you're the only one in my heart." Su Junchu couldn't help but grab Nian Nian's shoulder, and stared at her eyes tenderly and deeply: "Although I haven't been looking for you, ...... Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know how many nights I've resisted the urge to hug you? Niannian, give me a chance, can we start again? β
Niannian's eyes were slightly covered with a layer of mist, and she thought that she would never cry again because of Su Junchu. But now, after listening to his words, why do you feel like crying again?
Resume? Is it possible? With so many things in between, and so many people in between, is it possible to want to go back to the way things were?
What is lost will never be regained. As long as Su Junchu is the emperor, then between them, there will always be a thorn in the flesh, and it will never be possible to live peacefully and happily......
Nian Nian finally tried to push away Su Junchu's hand on his shoulder, and said bitterly: "Your Majesty, don't talk about this...... It's useless to say anything. β
Su Junchu let go of Nian Nian dejectedly, and the two were silent again, relatively speechless.
Since when have two people who once loved each other so much now stand face to face, but can't find more topics to talk about? Since when did the two of them become so distant and strange?
Nian Nian and Su Junchu stared silently, and the hearts of the two of them were like stormy waves, surging endlessly. For a while, there were a lot of things and a lot of emotion.
This situation and this scene reminded Nian Nian of Liu Yong's "Yulin Bell" for no reason, the sentence that has been praised through the ages: holding hands and looking at each other's teary eyes, I was speechless and choked. Although they didn't cry at this time, the hearts of both of them were obviously more uncomfortable than when they really cried.
After being silent like this for a long time, Su Junchu said in a low voice: "I have already called someone to stop chasing Li Mo and Li Rui." β
"That's good...... Thank you, Your Majesty......" Nian Nian bit her lip and lowered her head.
This news used to be so longing and concerned about. If it had been before, she would have rejoiced in it.
But at this time, after going through so many things, Su Junchu finally said that he would no longer hunt down Li Mo and Li Rui. Nian Nian didn't have any more excitement, and in the bottom of her heart, she only felt a desolate relief.
"You thank me?" Su Junchu looked at her with a little sadness, thinking that his current well-behaved and quiet made him sad. However, he seems to have no strength, and he can regain his youthful and vigorous vigor to the same youthful and vigorous as before.
"Yes, thank you for not chasing Li Mo and Li Rui anymore. Your Majesty, I want to go back to the palace...... That paper kite, since Yukihime likes it, let's give it to her. Nian Nian hurriedly finished these words, turned around and ran away quickly.
She was worried that if she stood here a little longer, she would really burst into tears. She didn't want to let Su Junchu see her fragile side again.
Su Junchu took a step forward and stretched out his arm, trying to catch Nian Nian. However, he finally reluctantly put down his hand.
And Niannian's figure ran faster and faster, farther and farther away...... Finally, even her back disappeared out of sight.
Nian Nian hurriedly ran towards Nian Chu Palace, but he didn't want to, when he ran to a junction about to Nian Chu Palace, he ran into Princess Lan Xin, who had not been seen for many days, that is, the current Lan Concubine Niangniang.
Since the establishment of the Ning Dynasty, Nian Nian has never seen Princess Lanxin again.
At this time, the two people met face-to-face on the narrow road, and Nian Nian and Concubine Lan couldn't help but stop.
Nian Nian looked at Concubine Lan, and Concubine Lan also looked at Nian Nian carefully. In the hearts of the two, they both felt that the other was a little haggard.
Especially Concubine Lan, Nian Nian looked at her and found that she was much thinner than before, her cheeks were sunken, her eyes were gloomy, and her body was not gripped, as if a gust of wind could blow her down.
And Nian Nian's appearance today looks like Concubine Lan, she is also listless and depressed.
Nian Nian thought sullenly: What kind of strange day is today? I just met Su Junchu and Xue Ji in the Imperial Garden, and now I met this Lan Concubine again, which is really unfortunate.
Concubine Lan stared at Niannian for a long time, and suddenly sneered: "Meng Niannian, I didn't expect you to have today." When you asked the emperor to kill my child, did you ever expect that you yourself would fall out of favor one day? β
"What? Your child...... Gone? Nian Nian looked at Concubine Lan in surprise, she didn't know that Concubine Lan's child had been knocked out.
At this time, she found that Concubine Lan's abdomen was flat, and she was obviously not a pregnant woman.
"Don't pretend to be foolish here! If it weren't for you, how could the emperor force me to kill this child? Meng Niannian, you have exhausted your calculations, even if you become a queen, what can you do? The emperor doesn't have a new love now, and you, like me, can only stay alone in the empty room night and night. Concubine Lan stared at Nian Nian with hatred and said hatefully.
"The emperor is the king of a country, what's wrong with having a few concubines? I don't mind at all, and I won't be as excited as you. Nian Nian said coldly.
"Hehe, Meng Niannian, it seems that you are indeed not simple. You have fallen from the supreme scenery of being a single person to this situation, and your mouth is still so hard, I really admire you from the bottom of my heart. Princess Lan Xin sneered again.
"Even if I fall no further, I am still the queen mother above you. Concubine Lan, you are a princess of the former dynasty who is well versed in the rules of the court, and you are the imperial concubine of this dynasty. Since I am the queen of the East Palace canonized by the emperor's imperial decree, as a concubine of the emperor, now that you have seen this palace, should you be honored as the queen of this palace? And you yourself should also call yourself a concubine in front of this palace? Looking at Princess Lanxin, who was still arrogant, Nian Nian's face also showed a slight sneer, and she deliberately bit the two words of the palace very hard.
"You ......" Concubine Lan didn't expect Nian Nian to be so-for-tat, and she was speechless for a while.
But she thought about it again, chuckled again, and said, "Yes, you are the queen mother." To be honest, since it has come to this point today, what do the two of us have to fight about? Now, you and I are both fallen people at the end of the world, and the two of us should join forces to deal with the slut of Xue Guiren together, which is the right thing at hand. β
"I'm sorry, I don't have this Yaxing! Moreover, I also want to give Concubine Lan a piece of advice, those who want to harm others will end up harming themselves. I hope Concubine Lan will do it for herself, and don't just worry about dealing with this and dealing with that all day long! Nian Nian said coldly, not wanting to say more to Princess Lan Xin, and turned around to leave.
"Wait!" Concubine Lan called her eagerly.
Nian Nian stopped and looked back at Concubine Lan, not knowing what else she was going to say.
"Meng Niannian, I know that your heart is no longer in the palace now, you have long wanted to leave, right? But the emperor looks at you very strictly, and it is not easy for you to leave here. Concubine Lan leaned closer to Nian Nian, a weird smile appeared on her face, and she lowered her voice and said, "If you really want to leave the palace, I have a way to help you." β
Nian Nian looked at Concubine Lan in surprise, and the expression on Concubine Lan's face was unpredictable. Nian Nian didn't think much about it, and asked, "Are you willing to help me?" Would you be so kind? β