Chapter 039: No Regrets, etc
Hearing Fu Wan's words, Shen Ye couldn't speak for a long time, as if there was a foreign object stuck in his throat, and he couldn't escape a word, but looked at Fu Wan with serious eyes, as if he was carefully trying to figure out the credibility of her words.
"If you really did something to me, don't you want to be responsible?"
Fu Wan asked.
Her questioning was tantamount to adding fuel to the fire, which immediately heated Shen Ye's heart, and his eyes couldn't help but search for PETER's traces, as if PETER was there, this guy shouldn't let things develop in a more complicated direction.
When the search for PETER's trace was unsuccessful, when his eyes fell on Fu Wan again, he finally squeezed out a few words, "Fu Wan, you won't be ......" seriously, right?
If true......
Shen Ye couldn't think of any way to deal with it for a while.
Fortunately, Fu Wan's teasing voice came, and the smile on the corner of her lips slightly wiped away Shicai's seriousness and oppression, "Look at you scared, I'm joking with you, nothing happened last night, what can a drunk person do to me." ”
In an instant, Shen Ye's tense body slackened, as if the burden that was heavy on his shoulders was suddenly gone, so relaxed and stress-free, "You, you scared me just now." ”
He knows very well that being drunk is the easiest to make mistakes, so even if he usually goes to drink with Shen Ziqi and Lu Chennan, he will always maintain a certain level of sobriety, at least he will know what he has done.
BUT LAST NIGHT WAS DIFFERENT, BECAUSE IN PETER'S HOUSE, JUST THE TWO OF THEM, HE WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING OUT OF THE ORDINARY, SO HE DRANK BOTTLE AFTER BOTTLE UNSCRUPULOUSLY, OF COURSE, BECAUSE THE SEPARATION FROM YIN MANQING WAS TOO PAINFUL.
"Am I making you so unfrightening? Or, am I that scary? When Fu Wan asked rhetorically, sorrow came from her heart, and she was sad and uncomfortable.
Is she not beautiful enough, or is she not in good shape? will not be able to enter his eyes like this, Fu Wan's words sound relaxed, but the weight on his heart seems to be getting heavier and heavier.
Shen Ye didn't answer, but smiled in return and changed the subject, "WHERE'S PETER, THIS KID?" ”
"I said I went to buy breakfast for you, I went out for a long time, and I haven't come back yet." Fu Wan looked at her watch, stretched out and got out of bed, and the moment she turned around, the loss in her eyes rolled in.
She couldn't even tell Shen Ye a little lie and cause him to panic, and she could do something.
Shen Ye stared at Fu Wan's paused back, and it was not difficult to guess Fu Wan's mood at this moment, she must be lost.
Fu Wan's feet seemed to be rooted, and she couldn't move her steps, "Before, you said that you were tired and wanted to be with me, this sentence...... Does it still work? ”
She thought that she would ask Shen Ye if something really happened, whether he would be responsible, but even Fu Wan didn't expect to ask such a sentence.
It was only at this time that Fu Wan deeply understood that Shen Ye was just a drunken word at the door of the bar that day, but she cared so much, throbbed, and never forgot it. Even if the motive for this sentence was not so simple, as long as she had said such a sentence, she took it seriously.
It's not that she takes it seriously now, she was serious as early as when Shen Ye said it at that time, but she had a hurdle in her heart that she couldn't get over.
Now, it's not that the hurdles in my heart have passed, but that I find that I am not so strong and free at all, just looking at him from afar......
Especially the feeling of hugging him tightly last night, the warmth and peace of mind of being firmly embraced by him, has made her nostalgic and greedy, so that she can't let go anymore Shen Ye was stunned, as if she didn't expect Fu Wan to open such a mouth, from the past to the present, she would never give him such pressure, she would only think about him everywhere and pay willingly, and she seemed to have taken Fu Wan's silent payment as a matter of course, accepted it as a matter of course, and ignored it as a matter of course.
"Fu Wan, you know about me and Yin Manqing."
"I know you can't." Fu Wan's answer was very categorical.
Even Shen Ye didn't know why Fu Wan could be so sure, and even more certain than him and Yin Manqing.
"Grandpa is forcing you to go to the army, right, the only condition you can not go to the army is to marry me, otherwise, grandpa will not be able to let you do what you want easily this time." She knows everything about them, she is Grandpa Shen's favorite granddaughter-in-law, and she is one of the juniors that Grandpa Shen loves very much, and Grandpa Shen will tell her something.
"So, you're pretty sure now that I'm going to marry you, and it's impossible for me to go to the army, right?"
Going to the army, it's not that he can't endure that hardship, since even the pampered Shen Ziqi can survive there for three years, Shen Ye doesn't believe that he is worse than him.
Fu Wan turned around, "I don't have this idea, I just think that you and Xiaoman may be inseparable." ”
"I never considered obeying my grandfather's arrangement to go to the army for training before, but now I have a different idea, whether I go to the army or live that kind of confined life, I can take this opportunity to sort out some things and forget some people who shouldn't be remembered."
Yin Manqing will eventually become strangers to him.
"You mean to accept Grandpa's offer?" Fu Wan wasn't anxious, she just wanted to get an accurate answer from Shen Ye's face.
Shen Ye looked at Fu Wan and understood how embarrassing Fu Wan's situation was, no matter how strong she was, she was always a girl, "You must hate me very much, I would rather live in the army than marry you." Fu Wan, I'm sorry, it's not that you're not good enough, it's my own reason, I don't want to irresponsibly associate with you before I completely forget Yin Manqing, it's unfair to you, but it hurts you. ”
Forgetting one person is not something that can be done by rushing to the doctor to find another person to replace you, which will only make you feel lower and more flustered.
"If you're willing to go to the army, I'm in favor of it, but the short separation of distance and time will make you forget about people and things. And I, no matter where you are, I will wait for you in the same place, as if I have been waiting for you for more than ten years, and I will still wait without regrets, even in the future...... You can't have a little bit of male and female affection for me, and I'm still willing to wait, without giving you any burden to wait. ”
She also wants to be like other women, stalking him, insisting on being with him without dignity.
Just like just now, there was actually a moment when she really wanted to tell Shen Ye what happened to them last night. If something happened, even if he was not responsible, at least it would leave a pimple in Shen Ye's heart, and it would also leave a little trace.
But seeing Shen Ye's panicked and pale face like that, she couldn't bear to deceive him, as if she had committed some heinous crime by deceiving him......
"Fool...... "What should he say, Shen Ye almost didn't know what to say to Fu Wan.
Saying that she should not wait, that she would have no hope of waiting, would undoubtedly be an injury to Fu Wan.
But if you let her wait and give her hope, you will frame her even more.
"Don't say anything, I know, I understand." Fu Wan stopped him from speaking further, unwilling to hear Shen Ye's reply.
Shen Ye is also uncomfortable, it is not so easy to love someone or be loved by someone.
"Grandparents, uncles and aunts, they're going crazy looking for you, give them a call to report their safety." After Fu Wan was dressed neatly, she had already walked to the entrance and planned to leave, last night, although nothing happened, it was just a hug, and this hug Shen Ye may be able to act as if nothing happened, but she can't......
From last night to now, her heartbeat has been racing wildly, and her heart has palpitated as if it was about to burst.
Her heartbeat, since she was sensible, has not decreased but increased towards Shen Ye, until her wildness reached its peak last night, so that Fu Wan's emotions could not be well controlled, and someone's natural selfishness and selfishness would come out.
Shen Ye's face was solemn, and when Fu Wan hadn't completely gone out, he said, "If, I mean, one day, the place in my heart is vacated, I will try to associate with you." ”
It was not an impulsive decision, but Shen Ye also felt that some things should be stopped in moderation, such as his hot feelings for Yin Manqing, and his cold attitude towards Wan.
"Even if the position in your heart can no longer be vacated, as long as you are willing, don't care about being unfair to my father-in-law, I will cooperate with you at any time, whether it is a relationship, or borrowing me to forget about her, I can accept it."
In the humble words as dust, Fu Wan's loss of self-esteem could not be highlighted, it would only deepen Shen Ye's guilt, and the more deeply he realized that he and Fu Wan were the same kind of people, for the sake of the people they loved, they could even have self-esteem, even their lives, go to the soup and fire, and desperately would only have the slightest chance to be together......
"Oh...... The young master woke up, Fu, is Miss Fu Wan leaving? PETER CAME IN WITH BREAKFAST, FU WAN WAS REALLY SCARED AT THE DOOR, SEEING THAT THE LOOKS ON THE FACES OF THE TWO OF THEM DIDN'T SEEM TO BE QUITE RIGHT, PETER CAME IN CAUTIOUSLY.
"PETER, PLEASE WATCH HIM AND STOP LETTING HIM DRINK."
SHE DIDN'T FORGET TO EXPLAIN PETER WHEN SHE LEFT.
Shen Ye listened to that warm and caring word, his heart was painful and chaotic, so confused that he couldn't figure out what he was screwing, why didn't he let such a good woman go, he had to drill the horns and love a woman who would never love him in this life?
"Young master, you won't quarrel with Miss Fu Wan, will you?" PETER ASKED SOFTLY, TRYING TO FIND OUT A LITTLE NEWS, BUT WHEN SHEN YE DIDN'T REACT, HE CONTINUED TO TREMBLE AND SAY, "YOU WENT CRAZY LAST NIGHT, THANKS TO MISS FU WAN'S HELP, SHE DIDN'T TAKE CARE OF YOU ALL NIGHT, FOR FEAR THAT SOMETHING WOULD HAPPEN TO YOU, SHE WAS SO WORRIED, MISS FU WAN REALLY CARES ABOUT YOU......"
"Young Master, where are you going? I haven't eaten breakfast yet. ”
BEFORE PETER FINISHED SPEAKING, I SAW SHEN YE PULL UP HIS COAT AND HURRIEDLY GO OUT......