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After being silent for a while, Zhai Suyun continued: "You may not know about my past, but I have heard about you. Unfortunately, we both come from humble backgrounds. It's frustrating to talk about, but people like us right now can run into them if they're not careful. There are few people of noble birth in the circle of life.

I am an introvert and have always been depressed, thanks to my family background. My home is in a poor and isolated place in Jiangbei. This was not enough, my father was a good gambler, and as soon as he had money in his hands, he would gamble.

Later, the situation in our family got worse and worse. Seeing that the neighbors have built new houses or are preparing to build new houses, our family still lives in the three small tiled houses that my grandfather gave us. In this way, the mother's mood will naturally not be good.

So, my brother and I grew up with our mother's complaints and cries. It's no wonder that our family doesn't have much money to buy new clothes, and the food we eat is also poor.

My father has been gambling outside for a long time and has a lot of gambling debts. At the end of the year, creditors came to the door to ask for money, which made our family miserable every New Year.

I still remember a very sad, scoundrel incident. When I was fourteen years old, our mother and son worked hard and finally raised a fat pig of more than 100 catties. At the end of the year, our family wants to kill this pig. In addition to the pork that can be sold for some money, those pig heads, pig feet, and pigs in the water can finally make the family eat beautifully for a while.

Our family is so short of oil and water. At that time, when my brother and I were both growing up, we were both very hungry. Watch as the pig gets put down by two butchers. Then there is shaving, belly cutting, and meat cutting. We're happy.

But. What happened next scared us away. After the butcher had cut the pork into several pieces, a dozen people suddenly rushed to our house. They said that their father owed them gambling debts, and they couldn't pay them back, so they came to grab pork to pay off the debt.

So, very quickly, they grabbed a part of it. Later people and slow people went to grab pigs' heads, pigs' feet, pigs into the water, etc.

It didn't take long for the whole big fat pig that had been bled out by these people to the point that only the pig's hair was left. It's the pig's blood. was also taken away with blood.

Although our family was not relieved at the time, the two butchers quit. Because it was originally agreed that the butcher would be given a few catties of meat and pork liver as labor expenses. However, the situation was that there was nothing left, and the butcher clamored for his parents to be paid. Where did our family have the money to give them at that time? The butchers were furious.

At this time, all the people in the village gathered in my yard. My father borrowed money from the people in the village to pay the butcher's wages, but who would lend money to my father?

In the end, my aunt came up with the idea that I should take my two chickens to the butcher to pay for the wages, otherwise what would have happened? The people in the village echoed the idea that this should be done, and that the butchers' homes were far away from their villages, and they were in a hurry to go home.

Under all kinds of scoundrels. So my mother sent them all away, so that she could scatter the grain and call the chickens home. Later, two chickens were caught and given to the two butchers. Then they dispersed contentedly.

As soon as they were gone, the mother burst into tears, the younger brother burst into tears, and the father collapsed in his chair. I was so angry that I ran out.

From that day on, I was filled with hatred for my father. After that, I didn't listen to him for anything, and I said that people who gamble indiscriminately are not qualified to control their sons.

But the summer after graduating from elementary school, I was beaten half to death by my father for doing a bad thing. He may have vented his resentment about how many days he had accumulated at once.

It was me and a few friends of the same age in the village who went to steal peaches from the family at the entrance of the village, but unfortunately someone found out. Then the man and woman of the family pounced viciously, snatched the peaches from our hands, and scolded us for not being in a good place.

Later, they let all his children go, but I was sent to my house. A year later, I learned that it was because our family owed them money, and they took the opportunity to put pressure on our family and humiliate our family one more time.

In this way, my father was humiliated, and of course he could not let me go. However, because of his violent beating, I completely chilled my heart, and I ran away from home. I have a lot of relatives, all in Jiangnan, and my grandmother's house and aunt's house are all in Huangzhen.

My grandmother's house is on the Yangtze River, and my aunt's house is in the village less than a kilometer from Huangzhen.

When I ran away from home, I went to live at my grandmother's house. When my mother came to pick me up, I said I didn't want to go back. At that time, I had also graduated from elementary school, and it was not convenient for me to go to junior high school at home. I simply told my family that I was going to go to middle school in Huangzhen. I didn't expect my parents to agree to my request.

Isn't my aunt's house very close to Huangzhen Middle School, so I boarded at my aunt's house. The conditions of my aunt's house are not bad. They have an only daughter named Xiaoqin, who is a year younger than me.

When I came to junior high school, my cousin was also in junior high school. We were classmates in the same grade, and she was in the class next to me. Cousin Qin is very delicate, and she has a good personality.

At first, I felt that it was good to stay at my aunt's house, and that I should not listen to my parents' endless quarrels and my mother's miserable and heart-wrenching cries. Out of sight, out of mind, it's not annoying.

And when I was in junior high school, my father was doing well. It is said that I am no longer with him, and he feels guilty about the violent beating of me. So after that, he didn't gamble much for a while, and he worked hard to earn money to support his family. And keep sending rice and money to my aunt's house, so that I can live at my aunt's house and go to school in Huangzhen Middle School with peace of mind. Life just goes on like that.

In this way, after more than a year in Huangzhen, I felt homesick at every turn. On the one hand, it is because after staying outside for a long time, it is inevitable that you will miss your relatives; On the other hand, I'm fed up with the life under the fence.

At that time, my uncle-in-law didn't stay at home much, because his work unit was not in Huangzhen. My aunt is a family planning cadre in the town, and she often goes to the countryside to check on family planning. So most of the time there were only three people in their building: Cousin Qin, and Cousin Qin's grandmother.

Ever since I started boarding at my aunt's house, this old lady has shown great unwelcome to me. When there was nothing to do, she chattered in front of her aunt and her husband. Put pressure on them. It's not okay to raise an outsider for nothing!

Whenever this happens. Aunties are looking hard to do. Fortunately, his uncle-in-law was very righteous, and he retorted to his mother-in-law that there are not many cases of staying at relatives' houses in order to study nearby? Besides, Su Yun's family also sticks money and food, how can you call him a person who supports him for nothing?

The old lady couldn't talk about her son, and she was not convinced, so she didn't give me a good look all day long. The further back. The more exaggerated she became. It hurt me, but I had to endure it for the sake of the books I read.

Because if I didn't study in Huangzhen at that time, I could only rent a house in our county seat to study in middle school. The cost of that is too great for the family to afford.

After more than a year, my feelings became very painful, not because of this old lady, but because of the change in my cousin's attitude towards me.

When I arrived at her house in Huangzhen, Cousin Qin was very happy. One came when we were both young, whenever my parents visited the house. We get along well every time we meet; When they are separated, they all have a feeling of reluctance.

Second, Cousin Qin said that she was an only child. Her parents focused on work again, so she often felt lonely. It just so happened that I came to her house when I was in middle school, and we were both classmates in the same grade, so she was very happy about the situation.

Cousin Jean's academic performance is only at a mediocre level. She knew that my grades were good, so she often asked me for questions. The two of us often discuss study and life together, and it feels really sweet.

But as time passed, Cousin Jean's psychology changed. I think there are several reasons for this.

Cousin Qin has had a good living condition since she was a child, so she has grown better and faster. After we've been together for more than a year, I've noticed how much she has changed. Her body became slim and budding; Spiritually, I also became fond of thinking about it.

Unfortunately, during that time, our family's financial situation was deteriorating, and my father was addicted to gambling again, so that the family could not guarantee food and drink. In this way, naturally there will not be many supplies sent to Huangzhen to supply me.

Later, my mother came to Huangzhen to explain the situation, and she begged her aunt's house not to drive me away for the time being. My mother said that the expenses I spent eating here in the third year of junior high school were even debts borrowed from my aunt's family.

At that time, this incident touched my heart very much, and I wanted to take the initiative to stop bothering my aunt's family. But as a result, I could only blush and say nothing.

I have a hunch that things are going to be bad for me in the future. Because I found out that when Cousin Jean learned about the situation in our family, a trace of pity and disappointment flashed in her eyes.

Sure enough, by the time I was in the third year of junior high school, that is, the year you came to Huangzhen Middle School, Mr. Zhu, I was already in a desperate situation.

At my aunt's house in Huangzhen, I became superfluous. Cousin Jean's grandmother would scold me a lot of nasty things at every turn; My aunt and husband were too lazy to pay attention to me; Cousin Jean looked at me with a look of disgust. This situation is getting worse as time goes on.

Once, Cousin Jean invited several male and female classmates from her class to visit her home. She bought a lot of vegetables, and several girls were busy all morning and were busy with a big meal. She didn't ask me to come over and eat with them during the meal. Instead, I heard Cousin Jean belittle me as a cousin in front of her classmates.

Actually, I don't care about any of that. Because what people tell is the truth, who calls their background bad?

But what I saw and heard that evening was like a whip and it throbbed me.

The classmates all left shortly after eating, leaving behind a tall, thin boy with the nickname Bamboo Pole. It is said that he got drunk during the lunch meal, so he stayed and slept in Jean's cousin's bed.

In the evening, he woke up and went out into the courtyard to stretch.

It also happened that day, the aunt and her wife and mother-in-law went to a relative's house in the neighboring village to have a wedding wine, and there were only three of us in the house. I was reading a book in my room, and the door was open and half open.

After the bamboo pole blinked a few times and was drunk, Cousin Qin came to the bamboo pole. She washed a few clothes to dry them. Cousin Qin smiled at the bamboo pole first, blaming him for not being old and being so greedy for alcohol!

Unexpectedly, when Cousin Qin turned around, the bamboo pole suddenly stepped forward and hugged her from behind, and Cousin Qin screamed in fright.

Seeing this scene, my first reaction was that this bamboo pole that didn't look like a good person was bullying Cousin Qin. So I rushed out without thinking about it and told the bamboo pole to let go!

Who knew that my action made the two of them very puzzled, and made them look at each other. Subsequently, the bamboo pole said to me that the two of them are lovers in love, what do you call an outsider? Saying that, he let go of his hand, and he blamed Cousin Qin with a gloomy face, how did he raise a boy from the neighboring class at home? Don't you want to get better?

Cousin Qin panicked suddenly, she told me to leave, don't get in the way of the two of them in the yard! Then she explained a lot to the bamboo pole, and finally made things clear. So the two of them went upstairs hand in hand, and I don't know what happened next.

But what I know is that when my aunt and husband came back that night, it was midnight, and my mother-in-law did not come back. When they came back, they just asked Cousin Jean if she was asleep, and then she fell asleep downstairs. It is safe to stay upstairs in Cousin Qin's room at night.

This incident shocked me a lot. On the one hand, I definitely didn't expect that the innocent, delicate and shy cousin Jean would fall in love. She was just entangled with her sweetheart, stealing the forbidden fruit early.

On the other hand, I definitely didn't expect that my cousin, who is a pure girl, would be so snobbish. Because when she explained to the bamboo pole, she belittled me to a bad place. She was afraid of losing the bamboo pole, just because the bamboo pole's father was the director of the Huangzhen Police Station.

That night, my heart really hurt. Due to the lack of love, I have always regarded my cousin Qin as my spiritual sustenance, and the relationship between the two of us can also be called a childhood sweetheart.

But without any mistakes, Cousin Jean sentenced me to death in advance, and did it so nakedly! Let me downstairs watch her presumptuous upstairs before she is an adult, what kind of harm she has caused me! ”

Speaking of this, Zhai Suyun turned his face away and looked very decadent. Zhu Yushen stood up, patted him on the shoulder and said, "Don't mention these unhappy things, isn't your life's major event solved now?"

How can life be so smooth sailing? My family background should be worse than yours, and I don't know how much bitterness I have experienced along the way. In addition to me, I found that there are a lot of people who have been affected by their bad backgrounds, so let's be optimistic! The future is promising. (To be continued......)