When he found Tan Yu, he was sitting alone in the grass on the side of the road, holding his knees with his hands, staring at the row of ants busy back and forth in front of his toes, and behind him were the dim and old street lamps, which creaked with the sound of the wind. In the wide field of vision, in addition to the wind and sand and a few lonely tall buildings, there was only the thin Tan Yu and his equally thin figure.

Wen Liang walked over, didn't look at the dirty ground, sat down next to Tan Yu, hugged his knees like him, but looked up at the boundless starry sky.

The two of them are like countless times in their previous lives, shoulder to shoulder, back to back, or bowing their heads, or looking up, under the starry sky, people and ants are actually the same small.

I don't know how long it took for Tan Yu to speak, and the suppressed pain in his voice could only be felt by deeply understanding his tenderness.

"Brother Wen, am I very idiotic and cowardly in your eyes?"

Wen Liang picked up a small stone and drew a white line on the path of the ants, and the orderly procession immediately became a mess and turned around in place, but could not find the way ahead.

"Tan Yu, do you know what a friend is?"

Tan Yu's eyes were confused and he shook his head.

"Eat, drink and have fun together, chat and fart together, skip class and play ball together to watch beautiful women, is this a friend? It's just playmates! A true friend will be more proud of you when you are proud, and more sad than you when you are sad, get along with each other as equals, respect each other, have a deep tacit understanding and can influence each other. There are no highs and lows between friends, no idols, and of course no clowns. ”

Wen Liang turned his head to look at his depressed face, and the feelings contained in his words had never been so sincere, and said, "I don't know about others, for me." Of course, you have many shortcomings. But talented. Funny and humorous, dare to love and hate, have courage and responsibility, compared with these advantages. The disadvantages are not worth mentioning at all. How can such a person be an idiot, and it is impossible to be associated with cowardice...... Don't forget, Gu Wen was far away at the beginning. There are so many people in the school, but you are the only one who dares to come up to the stage to testify for me, and if I change my position, I may not have that guts......"

It turns out that I am such an image in the hearts of others, especially when I hear this from the mouth of Wen Yu, the weight is much heavier. Tan Yu raised his head, looked at the starry sky above him like Wen Liang, and said after a while: "Really? But if that's the case, why does even Bemi call me an idiot? ”

Wen Liang didn't know what kind of conversation the two had just had, but the result was not unexpected. Something like that just happened, Bemi didn't care. It is impossible to continue to stay in this circle. When the last fig leaf is removed, it will arouse some kind of sick self-esteem, and anything hurtful may be blurted out.

"Who is not an idiot in front of first love?"

Wen Liang sighed and said, "Is Bemi going to break up with you?" ”

"I confessed to her, but she always smiled and said that Tan Yu can meet other better girls, and she didn't promise me anything, so she couldn't talk about breaking up...... But when she cried and said that she was a cheap woman and let me leave far away, I was really ...... in my heart."

……

Tan Yu, what they said is right, I am a very cheap girl. I like to be flattered, to be chased, to let others go to great lengths to please me, I love vanity, and I can't stand the temptation, from junior high school to now, the men I have slept with can't be counted on one hand.

Bemi turned his back to the full moon above his head, and two lines of tears were silently left on his cheeks, but his face became more and more cold. The thin clothes can't stop the warm and cold season, and they can't resist the pain of the young man on the other side, who almost can't breathe.

I know your friends think I'm disgusting, and honestly, I don't blame them, because sometimes even I am disgusting with myself. But you know what? I used to just like someone very simply, and gave my first time in his sweet words, I thought that was love, it could be sacrificed, it could be crazy, and it could be put aside. It wasn't until that night, when I was drunk by him, and when I woke up again, the man next to me was replaced by his best friend, that I realized that love is all TMD bullshit, and it is all lies made up by men in order to get a woman's body.

Bemi wiped away her tears fiercely, as if she wanted to wipe off a piece of the dusty skin on her face, she turned around stubbornly and turned her back to Tan Yu.

I was disgusted by this, but I also loved watching the shameless and despicable faces of men who tried to sleep with me. Tan Yu, you are the only boy I have ever seen who doesn't dislike me, but he doesn't approach me just to sleep with me.

Do you know why I didn't dare to promise you, because I was dirty, and I didn't want you to be soiled by me!

Bemi's back trembled slightly, her hands clutching her trouser legs, her pointed nails almost piercing through the fabric and piercing into her flesh.

Tan Yu, you're an idiot! You know, the person you like is a bad girl, no matter how much I want to fit into your circle, how cheeky I am to join your every event, I will be looked down upon by your friends, and it will affect you. For your own good, and for me, from today onwards, we will not interact again, you are you, I am me, as if we never met.

Bemi said this very calmly, did not look back, walked forward, until a hundred meters away, only picked up a taxi, and disappeared in a moment.

The car drove far away, and Bemi had the courage to turn his head and look at the boy who could no longer be seen through the rear window, his eyes showing the bits and pieces of the past year or so, and his expression became more gentle than he had ever been.

Tan Yu, you are an idiot.

She whispered, and said the cold and ruthless words just now in a different and eloquent way.

……

Tan Yu put his hands into his hair, grabbed a few handfuls hard, buried his face in his knees, and said in a low voice of pain: "I watched her leave, from beginning to end, I didn't even say a word." I'm not just an idiot, I'm a coward! ”

Wen Liang didn't make a sound, and after a long time, he said softly: "Tan Yu, do you regret liking her?" ”

Tan Yu was stunned for a moment, from the first time he saw it at the gate of the campus, the fluttering red skirt completely occupied his mind, shook his head slowly but forcefully, and said: "What I like is her in my eyes, and it has nothing to do with what others think of." ”

"Since you don't regret it, then there's nothing to be painful about, and the result doesn't really matter, does it?" Wen Liang lay back, put his hands behind his head, and said with a smile: "Tan Yu, in many years, you will definitely like yourself at this time......"

Tan Yu didn't understand for a while, learning him to lie down, the boundary between heaven and earth suddenly blurred, listening to the insects in his ears, looking at the bright moon in the sky, he seemed to have a little understanding in his heart, and said in a low voice: "Is it?" Will I like who I am now? (To be continued.) )

PS: Youthful and innocent, in his prime, occasionally smiling and young.

The white clothes are dusty, the face is red in the mirror, and the eyes look back at this peace of mind.