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After being silent for a while, Zhu Yushen comforted: "What are they? You're still so young, and you have plenty of opportunities in the future! ”

However, feeling his bad background, he also felt that this comfort was pale, and at the moment he was more sympathetic. At this moment, the rain outside stopped, and the mist filled the surface of the inner lake and the maple groves in the distance. This season, the temperature is already relatively high. All around were wet and strainered, and they all felt sticky.

Zhai Suyun continued: "Teacher, do you remember what I told you about Zhai Erbao and Zhai Fang in our village before? As I said earlier, after a humble and poignant love story is overturned, there is a limit to the extent to which the woman can be hit.

Because they will quickly find a replacement, and sometimes the latter is better and better than the person mentioned above. Then there's no reason to dwell on the past. Of course, we men also hope that their future will be better, instead of going all the way to the dark when the resistance is fruitless.

Just like Zhai Fang, after Zhai Erbao's death, after a period of adjustment, she happily established a family with other men, and her life was not bad later. As a result, Zhai Erbao only became an indescribable memory for her.

From their affairs, I think of myself. It has been proven that it is pure wishful thinking that I want to become a couple with Wu Feng, a charming local girl. She asked me to compete with her other suitors, and how could I compete with others?

With a bad background and poor opportunities, he was a failure. After going into society for so many years, I have only earned a small amount of money. But they have to bear the burden of supporting their families. Parents often call. Urging me to send money back. My father still couldn't give up gambling. And his creditors often called me to ask me about my father's gambling debts.

Even though I ignored them, my mother and brother had a hard time at home, as I can surely imagine.

Sometimes I think about it, this is really a house leak and rainy weather, and disasters are not a single line. When I met such a father, my mother and younger brother and I were already very unlucky, but I didn't have the ability to make a lot of money and improve their lives. In addition, it was when Liang Ying's parents needed a sum of money to buy a house. The amount of money I had was very limited, and I was embarrassed myself.

He doesn't have much ability to talk crookedly, but he can ask for a large sum of money from his parents and throw it in front of Liang Ying and his parents. And how is this possible for me? Of course, I can't blame my parents for this, because it's not their fault, and they can only blame their bad fate and lack of ability.

I feel like I'm still sorry for Liang Ying. Before the buying of the house, we were real lovers. After I left helplessly, she still cared about me. In addition, because of my carelessness and impracticality, Wu Feng hurt her.

I thought I should have apologized to her in person. I would like to send her my most sincere wishes and wish her happiness in the future. But. She probably won't give me this chance to meet and talk.

I had no choice at all, and due to poor conditions and my own inaction, Liang Ying left me completely. Her future life should be good. And I, as a tragic character and a man, must be like Zhai Erbao, who can only swallow all the bitter fruits alone. If you want to be completely liberated, you can only disappear from reality.

Alas, everything is not satisfactory now, and the past is unbearable. Not long ago, my cousin Jean came here and found me in the bachelor dormitory.

This incident also made me feel a lot of sadness. My former cousin Jean was my goddess for a time. In that bitter stage of my youth, it was the simple and beautiful smile of Cousin Jean that gave me great encouragement. Although she later humiliated me and did a lot of snobbish things, it was not her personal fault, it was caused by this snobbish social atmosphere.

Even if she later married a wife, her husband went to prison for doing dirty things behind her back, and the matter of raising her young son alone fell on her head, her image is still beautiful. That white, delicate face was just a little more sad. At that time, I felt that she was becoming more and more charming because she was mature physically and mentally. If, at that time, she no longer thought I was poor, and was willing to accept me, it would have been something I could not ask for.

Truth be told, I did get the idea at the time, and it was seen. If there is a good person, he wants to match us and go to Cousin Qin to persuade us.

It turned out that it was my delusion and self-inflicted feelings again. Because Cousin Qin was convinced that poor couples mourned, she thought that if someone like me were to marry her, she would definitely ruin her life.

Speaking of which, it's a bit like what happened to the great painter Van Gogh. The painter has been poor all his life, and he is still alone in his thirties. Later, his crush on his cousin met with misfortune and was newly widowed, so he hurried to confess.

The cousin told the painter that if he dared to cut off one of his ears, she would be willing to marry him. The naïve painter believed this, and he resolutely cut off his right ear, and then went to his cousin to show it to him in blood.

The cousin now told the painter that what she had said before was just a joke. And if the painter did, that was a sign of his stupidity and brutality! How can such a person make a woman feel at ease and entrust her life? So my cousin didn't admit what she had said before, and told the painter to go there and stop pestering her.

This incident dealt a huge blow to the painter, and he collapsed from then on, and finally embarked on the path of suicide.

In my opinion, the biggest problem in this matter is the material condition of the painter. In fact, until his death, his paintings were not favored by anyone, and his paintings could only be regarded as self-amusement. Without a material basis, what else can we talk about?

Therefore, the painter could not be called a painter at that time, he was just regarded as a madman who liked to doodle with his hands.

It can be said that things are the same between me and my cousin as Van Gogh and his cousin. It's just that after Van Gogh's death, his paintings were finally picked up by the eye, and the price soared all the way, and finally sold for sky-high prices. Therefore, his story has aroused widespread sympathy and suffocation.

At the same time, his cousin let others criticize and curse. The painter is full of grief. However, all of this is no longer meaningful to the painter himself.

Of course. Give this example. I'm not a painter. There is a difference between him and me. I will never be able to achieve what he did.

But I'm more self-aware than he is. At that time, from the eyes of my cousin Qin, I could read that she still looked down on me. I didn't pester her, so as to avoid the possibility of being insulted or teased even more, as the painter did.

Still, her image in my mind has always been tall. It wasn't until a while ago that she came to me, after I met her and talked. Her good image was suddenly shattered in my mind. It also hurts me.

Before I left work that day, I received a strange phone call. The voice was a little hoarse, and the other party claimed to be my cousin Qin, saying that she was here in the new district and was looking for me for something. She asked me where I was.

Seeing that it was time to leave work, and there were many people at the factory gate when I got off work, I still told her the location of my residence and asked her to wait for me there. After hanging up the phone, I broke out in a cold sweat.

I thought about it for a moment, and the voice on this phone was very different from Cousin Jean's previous voice. Before. Her voice is sweet and soft, when she is angry. It is also the appearance of the urn sound and urn gas. And the voice on the phone was obviously similar to her.

At that time, in addition to feeling that my voice was a little wrong, I also felt uneasy, and a wave of sadness swelled in my heart. After many years, I didn't know how to face her for a while.

After work, I hurriedly rode back to my accommodation. Underneath the dormitory, I could see her from afar. Before I could get to the front, I confirmed that it was really Cousin Jean who came. However, when I rushed forward to take a look, I was surprised that there was a large scar on her left cheek! There was a huge gap between the appearance of her face at this time and the fair and ruddy face before.

Seeing that I looked at her with a surprised expression, Cousin Jean looked a little cramped. She covered her face with her hair and lowered her eyes. Later, I took her on a battery bike to find a small restaurant in the middle of nowhere and invited her to dinner.

At first, neither of us knew what to say. But after a few sips of drinks and a few bites of food, Cousin Qin opened the conversation. She first led me to reminisce about my teenage years, the days we used to live together.

She told me that when she was a girl, her heart was already higher than the sky, and the good life she longed for was something that ordinary people would not dare to imagine. This is also something that can't be helped, because she is naturally beautiful, and her family background is not bad, she doesn't want to do this. She said that when she was not yet sexually conscious, she was a little fond of me as a relative and playmate. Because people were very simple at that time, there were very few things that could be considered.

But as her body gradually grew, her eyes became more and more acute and critical. That time was after the second year of junior high school. Because the girls develop early, and their family conditions are considered well-off, and their nutrition can keep up, so the body is well raised.

In the case that many girls sneer at the poor and rush to the children of rich families or official families, of course she will follow the waves. And, because she is arrogant, she is more demanding and more decisive.

That skinny monkey is the son of the main leader of Huang Town. At that time, his grades were also good, and he was versatile, with a high level of calligraphy and painting. This is because he received a good education from an early age. The teachers and students of Huangzhen Middle School have always looked at him with an upward gaze, and they all treat him as gold and treasure.

She saw two girls with very poor qualifications, poor family conditions, and very self-righteous who always liked to pester the skinny monkey, and their writhing appearance made her sick.

As for the thin monkey, his attitude is also cynical. On the one hand, he was messing around with those two and the other girls; On the one hand, he chased and beat the two or three girls he approved.

Very lucky, the skinny monkey had a lot of feelings for her at the time, and gave her a gift every once in a while to create some surprises for her. Later, he led her to their house to play and meet his parents, who were officials, and relatives. Only three girls in the school have enjoyed this kind of treatment.

Of course, this will definitely make other girls jealous and red-eyed. So they attacked her, isolated her, and even contradicted her. But she is not a person who is willing to admit defeat, she wants to do it vigorously, and she will be angry with these people.

But for this matter to be so consumed, and it occupied a lot of her thoughts, causing her grades to decline unremarkably. The more so. The more she felt that she couldn't afford to lose the skinny monkey.

That. Many of her classmates, including Skinny Monkey, went to her house to play. It was she who organized it carefully. That day, when her parents and grandmother went to a relative's house to eat and drink, she arranged for a few classmates to play and eat and drink at home.

During the banquet, she poured a lot of wine from the thin monkey. As a result, all three boys, including Skinny Monkey, got drunk. They all had to rest at her house, but she only agreed to keep the skinny monkey, and she sent everyone else away. The skinny monkey was indeed drunk high that day. And spit out a lot of stuff out.

After everyone left, she waited carefully for the skinny monkey. Wash his face and change out of his filthy shirt. Finally, with all her might, she carried the skinny monkey to her boudoir and slept on her bed.

At that time, the skinny monkey was actually half-asleep, and she guessed he understood what she meant. It's just that because he was weak and very lethargic, he didn't make a mistake on the spot.

After settling the skinny monkey, she came and called me to dinner. I also remember this detail very well.

That day. As soon as Cousin Jean's classmates arrived, I hid in my room and did my homework. Because I didn't want these people to know that I was staying at my cousin's house. Cousin Jean should think the same way.

So she didn't call me out during the whole process, and she didn't mention me to my classmates. At this point, the two of us reached a tacit understanding. When I came out, I saw that there was only a little leftover on the table, and there was still filth spit from the thin monkey under the table. I was really hungry at the time, and I couldn't care about it so much, so I ate the leftovers quite deliciously.

When she saw me like this, she looked at me with disdain. Then she pulled out her purse. She told me that she was going to a big supermarket on the street to buy some drinks and milk, which was used to sober up the skinny monkeys. So she left the washing of the dishes and tidying up the table to me. I nodded as I ate.

She didn't come back until I was done eating. I saw that she bought a lot of food and drink, and carried it straight to the place where the skinny monkey slept, which was her boudoir. After that, I went back to my room and started my homework.

Still, the door to my room had always been open, so I saw a lot of what was going on between her and her classmates.

As for her inviting me to dinner, and leaving the dishes to me, I was used to them, and I didn't complain at all.

Living in their house, of course, is only worthy of being a second-rate sub-role, and he also has to feel good for others. That's for sure. Because if I don't come to Huangzhen, not only will I be in my own home, but I will not only have a long way to go to middle school, but I will definitely not be able to eat and live in the same day as in Huangzhen.

After she sent her things into the boudoir, she went out to wash her clothes. She soaked the skinny monkey's filthy blouse with her two own clothes, and scrubbed them by the water taps in the yard.

After that, it happened that she was drying her clothes, and the waking thin monkey quietly came behind her, attacked her suddenly, and hugged her from behind. The skinny monkey also kissed her cheek with that big mouth that spewed with wine, and his hands were not honest.

She said she was nervous and excited, and she closed her eyes in a fit of relief. But she thought to herself that she couldn't lose the reserve of a girl. So she screamed and scolded the skinny monkey for being super annoying.

However, it was her scolding that made the innocent and stupid me rush out of the room and tell the thin monkey to stop. Obviously, this must have ruined the atmosphere between the two of them. After that, of course, she scolded me and even told me to get out of her house.

To her heart's loss, the skinny monkey was frightened that day. Because before she came, she told a few classmates that her family had gone out and would not come back until night, and there was no one at home. Although I am still in her house, I am boarding and she can completely ignore it.

However, it was I, the one she ignored, who ruined the atmosphere, and made the skinny monkey stunned and then angry. He scolded her loudly: He had the intention to leave him to do good deeds, but let a male relative come out halfway to make trouble, what is his intention?

She had to fight for the rest of the matter. After scolding me, she persuaded her and finally pulled the skinny monkey back to her room. As soon as she entered the room, she cried, very sadly. And he also cried and scolded me in order to win the sympathy of the thin monkey.

Then, she simply drilled into the arms of the thin monkey, wanting to be caressed and kissed by him. In this way, the thin monkey was not polite, and he hugged her and made a big gesture to her.

At night, the two of them slept together in her boudoir. Because she knew that her parents and grandmother were very much in favor of her early love. If it continues like this, the future situation is really very good.

However, things were not as rosy as she and her family had imagined. Because of his superior family background, the thin monkey has many suitors, and all he sees is smiling faces, he becomes more and more arrogant and crazy.

Although she gave everything for the skinny monkey, she casually found a reason for the skinny monkey she had already tasted, and asked her to get out of his sight. The reason was that she was suspected of having an affair with another man. Because such a casual, active girl is definitely not a good thing.

This blow was fatal for her, and it made her collapse from then on. In addition, her reputation is not very good. Later, she got married quickly, and she also had a little taste of broken jars. (To be continued......)