With a "bang", he pushed open the door of a century-old shop, and Huo Siran's eyes seemed to be burning with fire.

The customers in the store were shocked.

"Sir, who are you looking for? He"

"Is there something wrong? Da"

"Hey, look, this portrait doesn't look like that...... ...... often on TV"

Sharp eagle-like eyes swept around, from full of hope to loss and gloom, he opened his lips with difficulty and spit out a few astringent words: "I'm sorry......"

Coming out of the store, the tall and straight figure was lonely and depressed in the moonlight.

Then came the hopeful next one......

………………

The female officer named An Ran in front of her is beautiful and heroic. The whole person fell in front of Lin Yitong as if it was falling from the sky, and even Lin Yitong didn't know what time it was, she came out of thin air, so that when she couldn't figure out her identity or even her intentions, she was knocked down by her simple words.

No, no......

Lin Yitong understands her intention.

But it's Huo Siran.

She's—she's forcing her to leave Hothran. No matter what position she is, whether she is qualified or not, her words directly poked at her weakness, and the pain made her face pale, unable to straighten her waist, and she didn't even know what kind of eyes to look at An Ran's sharp and bright eyes.

"Lin Yitong, you can't even have a child, why don't you let Xian? so that his life can be perfect. I won't be dragged by you and crippled for the rest of my life. ”

She said.

Since he said this sentence, Rao is Lin Yitong can't say a word of argument no matter how sharp he is in the hospital on weekdays.

Her soft white hands held the goblet, her head bowed, and she couldn't stop trembling.

An Ran couldn't help blinking, feeling that this female doctor was really worthy of the words "Chu Chu is pitiful", if she was a man, I am afraid that she would not be able to help but feel distressed at a glance.

"Miss An......" she screamed hoarsely, wondering if this stranger was worthy of trust, whether it was worth her to say something from the bottom of her heart to her. About the fact that they have been haunted all night for three years, but they have no children, how painful she is.

"Enron."

An Ran smiled and corrected her name.

"The most important thing we hate when we are soldiers is to be called Miss, and you are Miss. If you have to call it, it is recommended to call me my military rank, I am the only female major general, with a red third-generation background, since six years ago, that's it. ”

Lin Yitong smiled.

There is a trace of red wine on her lips, and her smile is charming and bright, she doesn't need to answer this kind of little girl's scolding type, she has a deep background, a solid family background, and even her own quality is so good that she can guess it.

None of this matters.

What she cared about was the ...... that came out of An Ran's mouth Fact......

An Ran was about to say something with a smile, but his face changed suddenly, and his eyes that inadvertently swept out the window became vigilant, and he got up like a frightened bird, and said to Lin Yitong: "You...... Doctor Lin, I'm afraid I'll have to hide first, it's inconvenient to talk to you......"

After saying that, he immediately left the table and walked to the bathroom, walked a few steps quickly, and stopped suddenly.

"Doctor Lin," her little face revealed a little panic, and her eyes pleaded, "I ask you, don't tell Team Huo that I've seen you...... In short, please don't say it! ”

After glancing at Lin Yitong, she hurriedly hid in the bathroom.

Lin Yitong continued to sit in her seat in a daze, her body was cold, and the sound of beautiful music sounded in the Hong Kong-style restaurant, as if there was a faint sadness that could not be dispersed enveloping her. Everyone seems to be in their prime and stable, and the years are quiet, but she is the only one who ......

There was a knock on the door, and a tall and tall figure broke in.

He had found the last one on the street, and he had lost all his hopes, but he saw her in the seat by the window with his back to him.

This back, at a glance, can be confirmed, no one will know her better than him.

"How many gentlemen? Coming with friends? ”

I didn't care who was eating with her, Huo Siran held her breath heavily, the burning pain in her eyes slowly dissipated, and she settled for a while before going to the counter to settle the accounts of her table first, and then slowly walked over.

“…… What's wrong? ”

The familiar deep voice like a heavenly sound, as if it came from the sky, in a trance, even with the voice of the person, appeared in front of her eyes.

She was stunned, in vain

The little face seems to have had an unwoke dream, and the stunned appearance is distressing.

"Si Ran?" How could he, suddenly appear here?

Huo Siran held the back of her chair with one hand, supported the table with the other, glanced at the food on the table lightly, and the corners of her mouth seemed to be bent: "Aren't you going to be with me?" I have already eaten with someone else. ”

She froze.

"No," she explained, "it was because I couldn't refuse to eat with someone, and you see, I only ordered a piece of dessert." ”

How could she change the habits she had developed for him?

One sentence made Huo Siran's heart soften, and he couldn't help but lower his body and grabbed her little hand on the table: "...... Do you want to continue? I'm with you. ”

She glanced at the table, her eyes were stunned, remembering the atmosphere of the conversation she had just had with An Ran at the dinner table, and subconsciously, even quickly, shook her head.

- Never mention the matter of safety. Since An Ran hid so quickly like a wolf and tiger, she didn't want to poke it.

Huo Siran nodded, and when he heard this, he stretched out his arm to scoop her up from the seat, and hugged her in his arms in an absolutely domineering posture, it was difficult for the people in the restaurant to guess that they were a couple or even a couple. She lay limply in his arms, her broad, muscular shoulders blocking everything for her, so that she didn't have to look at anything, and she was extremely greedy...... Such a feeling.

***************

In the gap between waiting, there was a pause.

In her dream, the bright red line of the small pregnancy test stick brought her a sense of powerlessness, because she could think of the feeling of anticipation in Huo Siran's heart when she put the pill box on the bedside table.

- But I've let you down, haven't I?

In the dream, the little woman's eyebrows frowned, and when she turned her eyes, it was An Ran's face that she would never forget at a glance, and said sharply: "You can't get pregnant, do you want to drag Huo Siran with you to live this kind of broken life with you?" ”

After struggling in pain, I woke up.

I opened my eyes blankly and saw that I was still in the car, outside the car - Huo Siran seemed to have an argument with someone, his cold and hard eyebrows were so tight, sneering and asking the other party something, on the other side, a pregnant woman with a big belly was very frightened, and reached out to pull Huo Siran's sleeve, as if to ask him not to fight with the other party.

A sneer bloomed at the corner of Sen Leng's mouth, Huo Siran held the roof of the car with one hand, word by word, and the cold was pressing: "I'll say the last time...... Apologize to her. ”

The other party seemed to have drunk and held the steering wheel in the car: "Lao Tzu doesn't say!" He. Damn, whoever made her rush out of the red light, blind, what's the matter, it's not illegal to hit her!! ”

"It's my fault...... pregnant woman hugged her stomach and hurriedly said, her legs were scraped off a layer of skin by the car, her nightdress was very dirty, and it looked like she had just fallen to the ground, "I saw that the green lights on the sidewalk were flashing, so I shouldn't have crossed the street, but my body was heavy, my movements were slow, and I didn't have time to finish walking in front of the red light, I ......"

Huo Siran gently brushed away the pregnant woman's hand, pursed her thin lips very coldly and terrifyingly, and said slowly: "I don't ask who is responsible, I just ask, if the collision just now is a little harder, what do you think of her?" Even if you are detained and sentenced because of this, do you think you can make up for the harm you did to an unborn child? ”

"Yes, you see, he's still drunk driving,"

"Even if you don't finish it, you should let it go, right......" passers-by complained.

The other party was annoyed and angry, and shouted wildly by pressing the horn: "It's all him. me out of the way!! Let it or not? ”

The dispute was fruitless, but was scolded by a group of people, and the other party was angry and directly pushed the steering wheel out, and fiercely grabbed the pregnant woman and slapped it down: "You slut, do you know you, I was tossed by you like this, and I was pregnant with him. Is Mom arrogant......"

The crowd screamed in fright.

A big palm came out of the air, and with the force of crushing the person's wrist, he held the hand that the person had slapped off his head and face, Huo Siran sneered, and the anger in his chest was instantly pushed to the extreme, and he slowly grabbed the pregnant woman's arm and pulled her to a safe area, and then a fierce fist smashed into the man's face with all his strength.

The man was so painful that he couldn't get up for a long time, and it took a long time to endure the blood in his mouth and roar back.

On the streets, there was chaos.

In the car, the little woman who was still immersed in the mood of the dream was stunned.

It's been many years, and I haven't seen or Si'an have such a big conflict with others, or because of a pregnant woman. She wanted to open the door immediately, but she didn't want Huo Siran to lock the door before she got out of the car.

For a moment, the eagerness and heartache all turned into tears, and she patted the window and cried.

****************

When she came out of the hospital, the pregnant woman kept thanking her, apologizing and grateful, and soon her husband came.

When he came, he looked almost crazy eager, grabbed his wife's hand and asked "how is it" five times, until he was sure that his wife was okay and the children were okay, and the whole person barely settled down.

"Thank you. Thank you. The husband kept holding Huo Siran's hand and thanked him.

"Nothing," he said lightly, "take care of her." ”

When he turned around, he found that the little woman who had been following behind him was gone.

Huo Siran's heart suddenly seemed to be hollowed out, and his bloodshot eyes eagerly searched the corridor of the emergency room, and the sensitive nerves were at the temple point, jumping suddenly, throbbing painfully.

Suddenly, she appeared at the open elevator entrance.

"I went to buy some skin care products, and I didn't know which one was better, so I bought some according to the recommended brands," she took a few bags of things, and wanted to hand them over but hesitated to be sure, glancing at the pregnant woman's belly, "...... How many months? Can I use all these things I bought? ”

Whether it was used or not, the two couples were very grateful, holding her hand, and the words of thanks came to an end.

Huo Siran's deep eyes were nailed straight to her, not the slightest bit open, and his heart was almost tense with worry.

"Shall we go back?" Sending the couple away, he asked in a dumb voice.

She stared blankly in the direction in which the pregnant woman had disappeared, came back to her senses, and smiled very reluctantly.

*****************

"Si Ran, are you envious?" She asked almost, very intimately.

Hearing this, Huo Siran's heart twitched, pursed her lips and did not answer, but leaned over to help her fasten her seat belt.

"What do you mean?"

Her small hand gently caressed his fist, the upper knuckle part had a bruise from the fight just now, and her gaze looked at him softly like water: "Child." Have your own children, like they just did. ”

Huo Siran's body stiffened.

Slowly raised her eyes as deep as the sea, enveloping her like a deep blue night, and opened her mouth, and a warm and refreshing breath gently sprinkled on her face: "Didn't I?" ”

How does he remember, he has two.

She smiled softly, and let him see a hint of desolation, and repeated softly, "I mean, like them just now." ”

Finally, it is inevitable to talk about this issue.

Huo Siran's hand was raised, gently caressing her little face, staring at her sad eyes, and decided not to run away anymore: "I said I envy...... Want to ...... too How are you going to do it? ”

In the last few words, he asked in a low voice, wondering what the little woman thought in her heart.

Sure enough, her long eyelashes trembled, and she could see that her heart suddenly hurt very much, she should have guessed that no man would not desire these things, especially since he had reached this age and had already settled down, but he didn't have these.

She smiled, her eyes were a little misty, and she gently touched his face, and said in a dumb voice: "But I seem to ...... Can't give it. ”

"In the past three years, we haven't tried deliberately, but we have tried many times unintentionally, no contraception, never avoided, but...... It's just not once. Even this time, I felt that there were signs myself, and when I went to test, it was still ...... No......"

…… So?

There was pain in Huo Siran's deep eyes, waiting, waiting to listen to her.

"Si Ran ......" she couldn't hold it anymore, lowered her head, pressed down the pain down her chest, and her voice became difficult, "I know how to say...... Do you want to ...... I'm going to keep trying, I'm just scared...... What if one day we can't try......"

"I know that there are many people who can live happily if they are infertile and go for adoption, but ......" but he said he thought, but she had no way to be satisfied, so she couldn't bear to make him aggrieved in his life.

"But if there is that opportunity, and there is that way, I ......" she frowned, tears began to roll in her eyes, but she held on, and said bitterly, "I can accept it...... When the time comes, you decide to find someone to surrogate, or even ...... Divorce...... If it is proposed to me on this ground, then I ...... Acceptable ......"

She even smiled as much as she could, to show that she could be generous.

Even if my heart hurts so much that I want to die.

Where could Huo Siran not know how she felt? But—

What did he hear?

The fingertips with a thin callus are gentle

Wiping the hair from the side of her face, exposing the emotions of her whole little face to his eyes, he couldn't hide the slightest, he slowly approached, condescendingly against her forehead, smiled lightly but coldly, and his voice was hoarse and palpitating: "You are ...... Do you feel sorry for me? I think that if I marry someone else, then my Huo Siran's life maybe, it can be consummated? ”

"Lin Yitong, why don't you think about it anymore, if you don't meet me in this life, then your life is also very satisfying?" He smiled bitterly and bitterly, "You can be healthy, get married and have children, instead of being miserable like now, but you are still disgusted that you can't give me a child, persuade me to find a surrogate, and persuade me to divorce?" ”

Her shoulders were shaking, and she was in agony, tears were already oozing from the corners of her eyes, but the voice of pain was still suppressed.

The corners of Huo Siran's eyes were also very dry, and he got closer to her, held her face and continued: "Lin Yitong, do you know what I love about you?" It's that every time you look at me, in your eyes and heart, there is only me, not even yourself. You can always see my pain and happiness, but you can't see your own death. ”

"Do you know what Lu Dao is for, we love each other?" His thin lips, which had faded most of the blood, were close to hers, and his eyes were like knives, like swords, cutting each other, "Because, so coincidentally, I Huo Siran has only you in my eyes." ”

When he said "love," she was completely devastated, and she began to cry out loud and tears began to fall.

"With me, because of my sake, you are bruised, because of me, you are disabled for life, you can't even want to have a child of your own, do you think, I don't feel guilty? How I want to do it all over again, as long as you're standing in front of me healthy and intact! His eyes were full of bloodshot and indelible pain, "Lin Yitong, I can't even do this, do you understand?!! ”

The low roar that shook out of the chest, like the neighing of a trapped beast, sounded. vented the depression he had been suppressed for so long.

She finally cried out with trembling shoulders, hugged him, and vented her pain.

She had never cried for her inadequacy and incompetence, she had only hated and complained before, but now she was crying purely.

"I'm sorry...... Si Ran...... I'm so sad...... I can't give you a baby, even if I want to...... Even if I think about it again...... I never wanted to push you on, but I really ...... I can't really ......."

Huo Siran's heart hurt so much that he pulled her hand away and kissed her hard.

The salty taste stained each other's lips and tongues, and the heavy force ran over the lips, pried open and kissed in, blocking her whimpering......

"Who do you think is worthy of me? Or, any woman who can have a baby, can be? He sneered against her lips and said in a dumb voice, "I don't think so, Tongtong, I can't think of what it's like to be with a woman other than that in my life, I can't accept it......"

"You are afraid that you will wronged me for the rest of your life, but I am only afraid that you will suffer for the rest of your life because of infertility, and it doesn't even matter if you hate me because of it. You don't know how scared I am of your pain......"

*************

Since getting married, Huo Siran has felt that from now on, she is under his wing, and he will inevitably let her suffer half a point of grievance in death.

But this time, it turned out to be like this.

The pain in his heart was overwhelming, but he didn't know who to blame. He can only ...... Work harder, work harder, and let this grievance go as quickly as possible. It was also at this time that I realized that her little sadness would kill him more than whether she had children or not.

When I returned to the villa area, it was already half past nine.

The kids slept in the upstairs room.

Downstairs are guest rooms, which are generally unused, but at the moment it is different. In order to avoid the children's sight and ears, Huo Siran did not go upstairs, only hugged her and closed the door, against the back of the door, the heat spread in the neck, bringing the whole body like an electric numb pleasure, he gasped heavily, untied her Uesugi and kissed directly, unbuttoned the front button of the bra, and buried directly in the clothes on her chest......